Depression thread

>feel sad
>want to complain about something
>nothing comes to mind


i just wanna complain about something but i don't have a problem with anything

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staying up tonight repeating "what do i do" to myself

feels like something is about to happen but i know it's not

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I just don't know what the fuck to do anymore. I'm a total fuck up, and my life's only going to go downhill from here. If I'm still a total loser, just going to off myself by the time i'm 25. Hard deadline.

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i set a similar deadline a long time ago. and i am still here.

more power to you if you manage to stick to it

Have two pump action 12 gauges, one that fits in my mouth pretty well, so it'll be easy.

Do people who are depressed always get dark circles under their eyes?

I've been trough diagnosed depression a bunch of times and never got them.

When depressed I stay in bed and sleep a lot so maybe that's a reason?

I'm sorry you feel this way anons. Please don't hurt yourselves. Do you guys take any meds or see therapists at all?

It's because the really depressed anons go to drugs and it develops.

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>Therapists
Last shrink I ever spoke to told me that getting a girlfriend would solve my problems, and to "try Tinder". Don't take meds since those rarely seem to actually work,, and if I get fat from side effects I'd rather be dead.

No they didn't. You're dumb.

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Believe whatever you want to believe, avatarfag. That's your prerogative..

I'm doing the exact same thing, but I doubt i will be able to get a gf or if that alone will solve my problems

If anything is going to be another burden for both

I'm sorry about that user. How long has it been since you've been? It took me trying a couple of different meds but then I finally got on one that's been helping me with both my OCD and depression. I'm not completely better, but they helped me out a lot. I have a better outlook on things most times and the feeling of emptiness goes away.

Thing is, I can't even hold a conversation if I start one, since I'm apparently really off putting to just be near. Even if I got a date, I'd fuck it up.
Been about a year, swore off psychiatry after that. Think I took some psych med in the hospital like five years ago, but swore off them afterward.

I get you. Saying hi is hard but making small talk and maintaining a conversation is hell

Someone invited me for a drink and I had a panic attack just from the thought of it... that's not good

>join a discord
>outed as a weirdo
>add someone on discord/steam
>unable to hold a conversation
>talk to someone in real life
>be basically dismissed the entire time
>express perfectly normal desire for a gf
>get laughed at

anyone else here feel like an outcast among outcasts? even people from here don't like me. i feel truly alone

Nice dubs my fren, i like you
I'm fucked up just like you, you are not alone

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It's just annoying to know that it's something no one seems to "get", you know? I'll sound like a faggot by saying this, but having autism makes basic shit like communication impossible. I don't understand human interaction, and it makes me off putting to almost everyone.

I think you should try again user. My depression was really bad for a while, and I went to a new psychiatrist who prescribed me with a new medication that really helped. I know it can be a pain, but once you find the right one, it can make a world of difference. What's been making you feel depressed recently?

I'll consider it. Guess just general crap keeps me down, like being an outsider in every situation, pressure from work, going back to school while doing that full time, and so on.

I know that feel, school just started back up again for me too. How much longer do you have?

Yeah, It's a matter of practice but failing feels rough.

I was talking to someone and she gave me her number. I said something and she stoped talking... my therapist said that she prob took it the wrong way because I didn't followed with a "haha"

What the fuck is that?

I've been in a weird phase of just existing for weeks now. Tired but clearly awake. Not quite apathetic but no highs or lows. Hobbies are pointless. And it feels like my cognitive function is slipping away from me, I just don't have the mental energy to do anything.

I've been meaning to at least try some medicine, but I just can't be bothered to put in the effort to make appointments only to maybe miss them anyway because I'm not independent. I might just start stealing my dad's Adderall to maybe get basic shit done if nothing else. Shit made me terribly anxious and irritable last time though

Just started again. Had to drop out in 2016 after losing a full paid scholarship. Still have about a year and a bit, maybe two.

Same with me, I've got about a year left. What are you studying? I'm philosophy myself.

Man, even getting to that state is impossible. People are just such odd things, I don't know how to interact with even servers.
Psych, of all fucking things.

I only got there because she suggested it actually (maybe she was enchanted by my blabbering and poor attempts at making a conversation)... that makes it even worse

Maybe you can try practicing with complete strangers like on Omegle or shit like that

That's bullshit but if any mental health specialist would actually say that then they deserve the firing squad

seeBelieve what you want.

Im very much the same, i feel very alone but at the same time apathetic towards it. It's almost like im not a real part of this world, nor ment to be here and the people who look at me weird or laugh as i walk past make me more aware of the fact. There's a part of the Lain opening where she's walking past scenes like a park an car park and they sort of fade from existence while she remains. My world sort of feels like that