>"user is one rejection away from shooting himself" edition
Feels Thread
I ended up talking with this girl of my class on the way home from uni. I believe we had some kind of connection, we ended up talking about obscure issues in what was a short walk and I felt understood. I didnt even knew her before. Im confused as what to feel. Sometimes I think about the possibility that I may never be able to talk to her again and that give me chills.
Maybe Im idealizing her, idk.
Be carefull friend
Yeah idk how much more I can take. The girl of my dreams hates me, my "friends" hate me, even my fucking parents think I'm too useless to give a fuck about me. I just wanna be loved, but even that's too much to ask for. :(
Worked for 8+ hours today, came home, and just started crying, I don't even go on Jow Forums but today is one of those days, nothing bad happened, nothing sad happened, I just cry, because all day I smile, and I talk to people, but I am not happy. ever. I am sad and I hate myself.
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Looks like i'll be getting tinder tomorrow, finally got a phone for myself.
If I don't get any replies after a week or two, i'm finna get me that prostitute.
this album "Black Cake" keeping me chill rn.
sometimes i hope i get pulled over by a cop, because it would make me feel less alone for a moment
why do you all obsess over girls, do you think some girl will come and save you? You couldn't make me not alone.
talk to her again brother
>go through most of hs not talking to anyone and being an oblivious loser
>find ride or die friends midway through junior year
>make fun of younger self for being a loser
>start college and don't have established relationships to build off of
>incapable of making new friends
>i am exactly the same person as i was when i was 13
why am i like this
>Trying to write a screenplay about something I don't know all that much about
>Have to do a tremendous amount of research about every little aspect
Kind of fun in a way, but really overwhelming.
user, you're looking at this too optimistically. The connection between the two of you is most probably in your head, and she probably has a boyfriend already. Getting your hopes up will only hurt you in the end.
I don't know, I was lifting weights the other day, and I was going over my body, thinking about each part, heart is fine, arms are getting better, core still weak but I can put in work, brain is.........broken
I looked in the mirror and out of everything, my brain was the thing I just automatically knew was wrong. Now I am stuck with it, not like I haven't already known this, but a reminder is a tough thing sometimes, esp when I'm trying so hard, and nothing fucking works.
>be me
>girl at work is kinda cute, and acts like she likes me
>we hang out once
>we hang out twice, and make out
>slight bit of hope
>months later, its like it didn't happen, she doens't care at all
>I don't care either, i just kind of liked thinking someone liked me
being sad and being in love feel exactly the same to me, and i've posted this before, does anyone else know this feel? Its like electricity through my arms, hands and fingertips, when I layed next to the girl I loved I felt it, and when I lay alone I feel it too. Its been a long time alone
Im trying. Thanks.
It is just that while Im at the uni Im overly autistic, due to social anxiety, and sometimes I avoid people I know because I cant deal with them at the moment. I hope this doesnt happen with her.
>The connection between the two of you is most probably in your head
Yeah, I considered that too.
As for if she has or doesnt has a boyfriend, well, it will be dissapointing, but Im looking at her also as a friend. I really need a friend right now.
>why do you all obsess over girls
It is not as obsession, at least not for me. It is like what you say about the cop, someone near to feel less alone. And a girls presence is something extra nice.
Such a comfy feeling, working on a project. Keep on the good work user!
I dont get relationships either.
If you too ended up in good terms, Id consider it as a nice memory and go on. But I feel ya.
>made friends with a girl
>talked for weeks over snapchat
>we meet
>we end up making out
>we meet almost everyday now
I'm to anxious and self conscious to ever take initiative and push things to the next level. The only reason we ended up kissing is because she took the initiative. This girl was pretty much handed to me, and I STILL cant build the courage to take things further.
those are good songs btw i can relate
>If you too ended up in good terms, Id consider it as a nice memory and go on. But I feel ya.
we ended on nothing, she didn't know I loved her, she fucked other guys, cuz that was the way things were, just some druggy relationship, but she gave me lighting in my hands, and I know exactly why.
there is only one time in my life I regret DOING something, but my entire life is filled with the deep cutting feeling of regret from the times I DIDN'T DO something, that is the worst regret, when you could have taken action, but sat by the wayside.
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thanks man, there are so many good songs to feel, I feel music, it is magical, I don't know if anyone else can feel music quite like me, with the birds I share this lonely view
Be easy user, you dont have to push things to the next level if you dont feel comfortable yet. Each one as his pace. At least recognize youre overthinking it. She likes you.
>dad suggests going to bible studies because thats where he met my mom
>join young adult bible study and go for a year
>most of the members are married couples but ok
>new people occasionally join
>all single men
>five single men in a row join last year
>literally not one unmarried woman out of 20+ group members
Anybody else feel like just *finding* single women is way harder than it should be?
>have one friend
>literally the only friend I've ever had
>some cotton candy colored hair horse cunt gets into a relationship with him
>now "friend" is pretending I never existed
>now I'm wondering if he ever was a friend
I have literally nothing now. No friends, no family, no girl friends, nothing. I'm going to die a lonely depressed faggot who yells at younger generations to get off my lawn. I'm going to become a fucking crazy dog guy. WHY THE FUCK CAN'T SOCIETY JUST FUCKING FALL APART OR SOME MEGA DISASTER WIPE ALL THE NORMIES AND F*MALES OUT ALREADY.
It's simple, your problem is that God has abandoned us all, don't worry.
don't worry, she will break his heart and mind and he will love you again
I feel tired of everything I do. The search for new waifu art or artists to commission doesn't bring me pleasure. The reaching out to people and trying to be friendly, only to be alienated and regret it. I hate spending so much time here, but I don't feel like I know anything else to do. Thinking in bed and napping just makes me feel weirder about everything I try for and care about.
I once spent 3 months in bed, leaving only for a short walk to subway, my mother was so proud of me, she thought I was at college doing classes, she would always text me how proud I made her, how I got through so much. I let her down so many times. That is why I keep living, so she can live out her days, thinking I have succeeded, but when she passes, I don't know, that will hopefully be years from now, long long long years away, until I am free.
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Sick and sad again, sometimes I'd like the rain to end. Sick and sad again, sometimes I like to stand on my own two feet. Went to the corner of second and main but there was someone there who mentioned that they hoped it would rain forever, forever, so they could drown in peace. Went down to the Hodskin P.L. But there was nobody to answer when I rang the doorbell forever, forever. So now I'm sad all the time. Sick and sad again, sometimes I'd like the rain to end. Sick and sad again, sometimes I like to stand on my own two feet. Today was the day but she threw it all away and I could never understand 'cause she was never one to play by the rules of the game her and me we're so the same. I try so hard and I never give in, and im never going to so back it up back it in, so there but I don't care I can fade away to anywhere don't stop 'cause you might get dropped, and you'll sing: Sick and sad again, sometimes I'd like the rain to end. Sick and sad again, sometimes I like to stand on my own two feet. Sick and sad again, sometimes I'd like the rain to end. Sick and sad again, sometimes I like to stand on my own two feet. Sick and sad again, sometimes I'd like the rain to end. Sick and sad again, sometimes I like to stand on my own two feet. Sometimes I like to stand on my own two feet.