It was my Birthday yesterday (22nd. It's 1am here in the UK now.)

It was my Birthday yesterday (22nd. It's 1am here in the UK now.)

No one really cared (oh boo hoo). Feeling disconnected from my friends and things i usually enjoy. Am i apathetic? Is there a way out of it? I need help anons.

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Happy birthday. There's not much you can do other than find a hobby you're passionate about and/or make more of an effort to spend time with and connect to your friends. Hopefully your friendships aren't just superficial.

hey there user, I really like the girl you posted. Happy birthday!

Look, you're even doing the thing where you make fun of yourself as a defense mechanism.
It's okay to be upset user, but you sound like you're normally pretty well off so..
Happy birthday you fucking normie! Welcome to the r9k club, hope you enjoy the stay.

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happy birthday user

I'm a cornishfag, I removed my birthday from facebook because I actually fucking hated people I did't care about, and people I knew didn't care about me, wishing me a happy birthday. Obviously this meant none of my friends wished me a happy birthday but in a way I felt better for it whilst also feeling totally shit.

fuck it I dunno, go to spoons and smash some pinrts

They're not/weren't superficial. We've been very close, but lately we're drifting. I'm drifting. I don't know really what to do, because any attempt to get back to that place feels like i'm running myself thin while not receiving the same effort back. It's a toughie.

Thankyou kind user!

>Pretty well off
Usually yeah. My problems aren't half as big as some here. But i'm slipping, and i can't seem to get back to where i was. It's pretty scary.

Eh i was gonna go to spoons, but i'd be on my larry and i didn't fancy that. Too much anxiety to do shit alone (admire anyone who can).

I know senpai - it's basically 2 am on a saturday night and I'm smashed at home. I wish I could go out alone but it's just easier to do it alone.

Well you aren't going to receive the same effort because they might be in a place in their life where they don't need you as much as you need them. That's perfectly fine because that doesn't mean they wouldn't still want to be there for you. Just reach out to them and talk to them about what's going on with you. Since they're good friends they will probably respond positively.

Ah. Wished i'd had a drink earlier, but it's far too late now. Hope your night is warm.

That's true. They are both getting on with their lives and respective relationships. And i'm happy they're happy. It's just hard not to feel lonely/left behind in a sense. Rather a silly feeling, considering they do make a small effort, but it feels forced and shallow sometimes. And i hate that i think that way about it.

I'm jelly you aren't drunk desu - it doesn't help it only exacerbates how you feel. Im just at the point where I have to drink to feel anything.

> have to drink to feel anything
Damn, that sounds awful. I really don't drink much. More of a social drinker, but every now and then i'll have something at home. I find i really enjoy music much more with a buzz. But idk. I've been sort of reconsidering my relationship with alcohol after some shitty nights out.

When I'm sober music helps but I find it hard to cry unless I've had some drinks, When I'm drunk like now music is really cathartic - I drink and I listen to loud music to really fucking feel
I'd like to be a social drinker but I don't reallt have a social life antmore

Well you could try something I did to see if it helps you.

My birthday passed not too long ago and I hated my fucking life so hard I decided to set a date for my next birthday.

On that day if I didn't feel much better about myself I was gonna kill myself. So far things have been doing a bit better since I can look at that. Maybe not enough to pass but it's something.

Ah damn man that's tough. Have you tried quitting? It'll only get worse. Right there with you about music being cathartic while shitfaced though. Tough one that, as you don't get the same feeling when sober.

I don't really have a major interest in killing myself. I've gone through that dialogue with myself a few times, but i couldn't do it to my family. There's still a lot i need to do here. Though if i could just be gone in a blip without anyone remembering, i wouldn't mind that at all.

Then enjoy your family, maybe that's what you need. When you feel like you can die with no repercussions that's when it's over

I do enjoy my family. It's small but nice. But even still, that alone isn't enough, it's just my anchor here for now. I'm fearful for the day i lose them and i'm on my own.

happy late birthday. it was mine 3 weeks ago.

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Yeah maybe it is forced and shallow maybe not. If they have relationship partners then they are probably going to put them before you. But that doesn't mean they won't make time for you. You shouldn't feel bad about feeling this way. Everyone has their own insecurities that come as a result of their life experiences. I would definitely say find a hobby, and find others who also enjoy that hobby and try to make friends that way. While at the same time keep trying to connect with your friends.

i turned 22 last week
welcome, fellow virgo :)

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I went dry for a while but eventually feeling nothing and not being able to cry was much much worse than drinking and getting some sort of guilty release. The shame that comes the next day is worth it.

Happy birthday user. I don't have any advice other than not thinking about it if it bothers you, but don't forget to treat yourself on those days.

>Am i apathetic?
Nah it's normal, I felt the same the first times it happened, then I wouldn't even remember my own birthday.

>Is there a way out of it?
Short answer yes but it takes a lot of work.

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Happy birthday user!! Sorry to hear that you're not yourself as of now, but keep in mind that there's always better days to come

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