Do you find comfort in your solitude? Have you willingly cut off everyone so that you will be alone...

What does reality have to offer? I've done countless of scenarios in my head and I don't desire any of them.

and to add onto that
from early on in my life i have been excluded from society, now its to the point that im afraid to talk to people, because in my mind i only have one chance and if i mess it up with those around me then everywhere i go they will see me and ill have a bad reputation over it, when really i was just alienated and never learned how to rejoin the fray

Last year in college I got a taste of normiedom and it was great. even though I was a background character and mostly shoehorned into activites, my roommates many friends still accepted me as one of their own.
But now it is the second semester and I have lost contact with them. I live in a shitty cockraoch infested apartment with a room mate that is never here. I feel so alone.

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It sucks. I want so bad to have that life again but Im such a lazy asshole. Gotta work my way back into it I guess but its taking too long

If given the choice friends and lovers give better highs and easier to handle lows. To be alone is to not have any support and any validation, you are no more worth existing than a mote of dust, it's people that create value in your life. Without them why even live?

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I've learned humans are extremely adaptable and things get easier the more you do them. You just sound like a introvert, we all need alone time some more then others, but it's a fact that we are social creatures. Just look what happens when you put people in solitany confinement they get suicidal and depressed and lose their mind. So I think we all need to socialise

That quote is pointless, we don't want to be seen or be part of society so it expresses the point that we actually want to be noticed? Wrong.

But you do want to be notice, otherwise why post at all? Why be here? You can't say you don't want attention but then speak your mind, the moment you do you validate the quote. You want to be heard.

If you put anything in a black box it'll die. In example if you weren't put in a cell or box but put on a random isolated island you would probably have a better outlook.

where did you get society from that?

>spend months at a time in self-imposed seclusion
>barely talk to anybody
>don't watch the news, limited time on internet, never watch tv or have social media
>spend a lot of time in nature
>read so any books
>eat real food and get a good amount of exercise
>become content with myself and the world around me
>get a job
>job gets stressful
>sleep goes to shit
>drink too much caffeine and eat junk food because stuck in office for 8 hours a day
>too exhausted to read/go for nature walks etc.
>spend entire free time doing chores and running errands
>develop seething hatred for everything and everyone including myself
>quit/lose job
>go into self imposed isolation
>repeat.exe

That's pretty much been my life to date. I honestly don't think I can be both a functional organism AND a Norman.

Im just waiting until I can move away and start a new life.

Who am I is so ingrained with the people around me right now that its impossible to change.

You're right, I do like interaction at times. But I can post here on demand, I don't need to go out my way to initiate a conversation with a friend, family, whatever.

I certainly could not live without my solitude, but the occassional outing with friends or a girl sounds enticing. I'm alright with saying I'm a failed normie.. I'm slowly catching up with the car deal, paying monthly bills, gaining confidence in my looks (probably too much, I've been called arrogant and egotistical plenty of times in the past). I can see myself actually getting a girlfriend in the near future. All I'm waiting on is getting my DL so I can drive a car without my parents with me. Some girls at work show obvious signs of liking me yet I don't pursue them because I know they'll dry up immediately as soon as they realize I don't have a car. Same with friendships. Couple people asked for my number and texted me asking to hang out. I ghost them because I don't want to be that friend that always needs rides. I'm 21 so it's illogical to not have a car at my age.

I never said theyd die they just live a miserable existence. Did you not watch castaway? The guy was emotionally attached to a volleyball, doesn't matter where you are, you need to socialize

In essence I think I want what people seem to get out of a 'normal' life, things like a partner, friends, acceptance and success, but the reality of it is just too grating for me. I have a lot of problems in general with people, but if I really wanted to be with them then I think I could get past most of them and make it work, but the baseline is is that I just don't get any satisfaction from any of it, because the drawbacks are just too overbearing. Sometimes while alone I may wish that I could be out with friends or with a girl or a boy having sex or something like that, but then when I get close to the reality of it it just isn't anything akin to what I'm looking for. I certainly don't hate people, I might dislike them, but deep down I think I really love every single one of them, I just can't see that love if I'm too close, too involved with them.

Maybe that's the thing to life, that you take what you can get from these things and that's all you need, but if that's the case then I think there are probably pursuits that would be more rewarding to me. At the moment my life plan is to live in a one-man hut somewhere isolated, where I can have the freedom from society to properly work on creative ideas that in turn I might be able to give to society.

I dunno, i won't pretend to have a solid understanding of myself and my situation, but I think I can make it work in the end.

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Yeah but castaway depicted that there was ZERO life on that island. Its fake, I could easily watch insects do their thing all day, I actually sometimes do.

People who thinks being alone is good are just delusional.

t. someone who has been alone for 12 years now. And let me tell you, the loneliness is starting to drive me real insane here.

This. I feel ya bro

That's a very tofu kind of social life, more so the fact you can only relate what you infer here.

well you don't sound very smart that might explain it

Why put my bad thoughts, depression, anxiety etc on my family and friends when I can dump them here? I would never want them to know this stuff.

I've really made peace with my solitude. I understand fully that I will not be able to enjoy other people's company. I still like human interaction though, which is why I'm here. But I can't stand to form a connection with anyone and feel tied to them in any way.

Being social is boring for me, I don't really find much joy in being alone but it's better than being around others.
The only thing I really want is a relationship or maybe affection rather.
I do notice the toll of a lack of social interaction is giving me, but I don't really care, I wanna be alone, it's not good but neither is socialising.

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I actually enjoy being social but it causes alot of stress in the process, so I prefer being alone. It's really hard to find genuinely good people worth spending your time with

I think I can relate user. Part of me just wants to be alone, secluded, left with only myself, fulfilled basic needs and the internet at my hands. Just live a simple comfy existence. But another part of me longs for real, normal friends, a gf, the blissful ignorance of normiedom, real hobbies. Some days I lean one way or the other more.

>Do you find comfort in your solitude? Have you willingly cut off everyone so that you will be alone?
I do not get lonely OP.
I chat to a few people who are as fucked as me online, cant relate to most robots.

I lovebeing alone DESU man

When alone I'm myself
When I'm not alone I must act "normal" and pretend to be a normie
Being alone makes me feel secure,i don't feel the dread of solitude

I've been in the robothood in complete solitude for the last 4 years, but I'm trying to change now. But, man... it's so tiresome. Even talking to people online exhausts me. I really don't know what to do

It's been 3 years now since I've gone into complete solitude. I only go out for work and gym, I used to have a couple of friends to play videogames with but we parted ways for a while now. I sometimes go on random kik groups to play some random games and never hear from them again. I have a long list of peoples names, friends on steam and phone numbers of people I only met a few times. Only time I really felt the need for someone was when I went out once this March and sat down on a bench thinking for some reason someone will sit next to me, but instead it rained and some random strangers dog sat there instead. It wasn't much but, I did get some warmth from that.

I have a gf but I feel like I'm just a disappointment and she's eventually going to realise she's better off without me anyway. But I've kind of already accepted it, and I'd like to be able to pretend I'm normal and happy for at least a little longer before I inevitably go back into solitude.

wew are you me? basically cant believe my gf puts up with me, she could get anyone

If you used to have friends you will miss them
If you used to have a girlfriend you will miss that
If you used to have something you liked then you will undoubtedly miss said thing
Period
Unless youre a sociopath ir something but almost nobody is

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There's comfiness is being alone, but isolation can drive a man to madness

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i want to be far from normies
truly hidden away

but a human cant be solitary

id like someone to be alone with, yaknow ?

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I too am a cyborg. I've got a gf and a handful of regular friends but honestly I just want to be alone. I can't count the number of times someone has been talking to my and my only thought is "I don't feel like spending energy to respond." Conversations with me are often one side unless you get me really interested. I don't know why people put up with me. I've canceled on friends as they were on their way over to my house numerous times yet they still try and hang out. I let my gf just sit on her phone bored while I play video games and she still loves me and my company.

What fuckin gives? I'm a piece of shit. Just leave me to conquer the galaxy with my Destiny clan.

Internet friends seem to be the best solution to be. I can talk to someone without ever having to hang out. I can be alone but not really alone. My best friend is a guy literally on the opposite end of the country that I've never met but I've talked to almost daily for about a decade now and I wouldn't change a thing.

Currently struggling to manage normie life. I love having a gf and having pals but the moments they leave me entirely alone hurt. I used to handle loneliness perfectly fine back then. Now it just fucking sucks man.

I'm the opposite. I used to need to be around people all the time. I was a social butterfly and I crashed when i was alone.

Now I can go 3 weeks without seeing anyone besides my coworkers and all I think is "cool"

I guess I'm just crashing. It's like a feeling that everyone could care less if I was gone. And then they grab me back in and make me feel loved for a day. Then the cycle repeats.

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Maybe you need to remember that people still care. Just because they're not there in the moment doesn't mean you don't matter to them

Many people in this thread sound like they don't want to be alone at all, and are confused with the fact that they aren't getting satisfaction out of people. For anyone here with doubts, especially those of you saying you already have gf's, don't go deep into being alone, because after a certain point you can never come back from it.

If we aren't getting satisfaction out of people but don't want to be alone, then what is the answer?

someone to be alone with

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I enjoy my solitude by I acknowledge that its indicative of weakness, not strength. When I was younger I thought I was just too cool or too special for normies or whatever.

I've realized as I got older I'm just sort of a shitty person, but I still rather be alone anyways. I don't like being judged by others and I feel most free when I'm alone.

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I've pretty much come to terms with the fact that I'm not normal. Throughout my 29 years whenever I start to form a friendship or relationship with anyone it does make my happy for a little while until I inevitably sabotage things with my constant anxiety and overthinking. And then I end up feeling even worse than before. So I'm at a point where I've stopped attempting to form connections with other human beings. I'm in a state of comfortable numbness.

I'm certainly not looking forward to 50 more years of this state but it's easier than repeatedly trying and failing.

ain't that the question of the day

Even though it seems illogical, what you just described only makes you more desirable. In general the more available you are, the less valuable your presence is to others. Just think of your attention as a resource. No one gives a fuck about abundant resources, but the rare ones are truly valuable. Your behaviors only make people strive that much harder to get your attention. I hate thinking about things like this but experience has shown it to be entirely true. You can basically boil relationships down to a formula, but that's not fun

I long for normiedom but my friends aren't helping. When you have a lousy time anywhere you go and no one seems happy to see you, you just say fuck it and stay home and play vidya. But after a few months you miss your lousy friends or at least the whole going out thing. So I'm basically going back and forth, doing the opposite of what is exhausting me at any given time. Currently cutting myself off. It's getting cold anyway, fuck going out.

Try to make it stick that first time without going back to work

So by trying to be more alone, I'm attracting the attention of my friends more?

I can't fuckin win anything

I'm a robot, and I want some successful social interaction, if just online, primarily for the sake of my self-esteem and knowing I have in me to be likeable and friendly. For the most part, I prefer to be left alone, but I make efforts to clear my mind and relax so that the next time I put myself out there, I'm not humiliated by my anxiety and resenting the fact that I made effort. It's been working out.

For all those people ITT saying ignorant shit like "you need to socialize" and "humans are social creatures" fuck off, that doesn't apply to everyone, there are people with far higher tolerance for solitutude than you can even comprehend see en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Christopher_Thomas_Knight

27 years without speaking to another living being and he was found to be mentally healthy and with high IQ after being found, he just wanted to be alone and read his books, some people prefer to be alone.

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>that doesn't apply to everyone,
Outliers do not disprove the norm though. Schizoids like Knight there seems to be and the like are special cases and disordered even, if forced to live in modern society.

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Had the good normie life, gf, friends, but threw it all away because I wanted to be left alone