You'll never get to grow up as a girl and have comfy sleepovers with your friends

I want it to stop. I wish I could just be happy as a man or at least feel like an actual person as one. Everything I do in real life is tainted by this persistent wrongness. It's suffocating.

>pornhub
>heart shatters
t-thanks user

>open link
>anal training
I hate this planet

>no peen
>dropped

Don't look further into her bio, it'll just make you sadder. She's studying in Japan while being a camwhore for side money.

>be me
>dumb femanon
>lesbo
>dont tell parents

hahahahaha i remember having sleepovers, i actually feel sorry for you guys. one day i shall unironically make a "malebot appreciation" thread for y'all.

I got plenty of sleepovers, user. With boys AND girls. Big ones, with video games and soda and anime and movies and pizza pockets and pajamas and staying up all night and gossiping about crushes and sleeping bags and making out-all of it.
Plus, I had two little sisters, so I got to do the whole blanket-fort-gameboys-and-toys-camping-out-in-the-living-room thing. My whole summer break was one big sleepover in my sister's bunk beds watching cartoons in our PJ's.
Suck it, lame-o.

>be me, 14
>always have sleepovers with my autistic fat fuck friend and our buddies
>greatest time ever, dude had every console, and I mean EVERY console in existence at the time, even obscure ones
>plus we can rant at each other because we're both spergs
>friend's little sister is a huge weeb and hangs with us a bunch
>she has sleepovers with her friends, too
>at first friend's mom tries to prevent sleepover nights overlapping because she "doesn't want that happening under her roof," but eventually she gives up and big-ass co-ed sleepovers are a thing
>friend's sister can bring over her 12-year-old weeb friends now
>it never turns into an issue because everybody involved is an awkward, cringy wapanese Hot-Topic gamer kid
>stay up all night watching old-school anime and AMV's with the bracefaced weeb kids and playing old-school vidya and eating mochi and pocky and shit
>one day buddy's sister becomes friends with this girl Hailey
>she and her mom fight for a full two weeks about having Hailey over, mom keeps stalling and saying no
>don't understand the issue yet, haven't met this kid and she's had all her weird fanfic friends over already
>mom finally caves
>she arrives that night
>FULL-BLOWN prostatot look right out the gate, way too developed for her age and looking slutty as shit
>try to hang out and talk about anime like we always do
>try to play vidya like we always do
>Hailey is having none of it
>immediately starts talking about sucking dick and giving blowjobs and who's giving head to who and who just broke up
>every time we try to get fixated on some wapanese crap she diverts us straight back into slutland
>starts asking if we can get any booze or weed
>suggests we break out of the house and find a party so we can smoke some weed
>I'm 14 years old and this girl is more hardcore than I am
>she's trying to teach friend's sister about giving head, sister says she's not ready to give head
>decide to actually engage her in the blowjob conversation

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I-I don't like where this is going, user...

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Cont? need moar

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(CONT)
>to my surprise, prostatot actually engages me back and starts flirting with me
>even my sperg senses can detect that this girl is flirting with me
>she tells me she likes giving older boys blowjobs, and it's pretty clear she means older than me
>actually get the balls to ask her if she likes giving head and if it turns her on
>she smiles that big bacefaced smile at me and tells me it spends on the boooooy~
>my only competition the whole night as far as male presences goes is gonna be my autistic fat fuck friend, and I'm an older boy
>fuck it, I am DOING THIS
>mediate between weeb activities and prostatot influence by suggesting we cuddle under a blanket and do anime/vidya
>she actually likes this idea and we get under a blanket
>she snuggles up to me
>bitch button-mashes me to death in Soul Calibur and rubs it in my face
>don't care, getting head tonight somehow
>it gets late
>she actually sits in my lap and nuzzles me
>next thing I know there's hand action under the blankets
>first handie, officially weird now, too amped not to go with this
>friend and sister are like "fuck this" and leave to go get mochi or pizza pockets or some shit
>hands intensify, not even pretending not to be in her pants now
>Hailey suddenly says she wants to take a shower
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Bumping for originaI interest

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MOOOOOAAAAR ffs

(CONT)
>by this point there's humping and outercourse
>makeout city is gonna move to braces BJville in like 2 seconds
>Hailey asks sis if she can borrow a towel and goes to the bathroom to take a shower
>somehow I come up with some excuse to go by the door and I go inside and we wind up talking while she's showering
>I've been over a lot so I know where stuff is
>heart racing, don't know what the fuck I'm even saying/doing now
>bear in mind this isn't THAT fucked-up because I'm not quite 15 yet here
>get to touch her
>holy shit, this is intense
>and sketchy
>showers are loud as fuck and friend's mom is just one room over
>go outside to check on friend/sister
>Hailey calls sister in and they have one of those girl-whisper-fights you can half-overhear, but I don't know what she's saying
>sister leaves in a huff, suddenly feels slightly (slightly) bad about what I might be about to do, but only because I like sis
>Hailey calls me in
>she's in a white towel and her hair's wet and smells like shampoo
>she takes me against her and walks me into sis's room
>we wind up on the bed
>she gets on top of me
>and straddles me
>and holds me
>and cries
>and cries
>and cries
>and cries
>unloads all this shit on me about people being fake and her being a slut and lying and not being beautiful and being dirty and all this crap
>boner is dead
>try to be nice and talk her through this with my sperg older-boy abilities
>spend a night just laying there wet and awkward with this half-naked loli crying all over me
>eventually sis comes in and it winds up being the 2 of us trying to console her
>next morning
>pancakes, cartoons in our PJ's, dumb weeb music, just hanging out and being kids
>don't see Hailey again
>she hits me up on facebook when I'm like 17 and flirts with me
>ghost her
>realize years later that she was talking shit about at least part of what she was saying and that she showered because she felt dirty with me up on her hoohaw

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It all originally makes sense now...

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depressing as fuck, thanks user

Jesus christ, I was not expecting that.
Good read, though. Thanks for finishing it.

I think I may actually have misread the situation entirely and fucked somebody up for life.
Good times.

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It sounds like it was building up for a while, and she just happened to unload on you. Unless I'm interpreting it wrong.

I mean, I'm hoping that. Anyway, fun sleepover memory.

Those sleepovers sounded comfy as fuck though. Thanks for sharing user

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Just make your own bro

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Hate to break it to you user but if she was that slutty as a preteen she was probably either sexually abused or seriously emotionally neglected at home.

>he didn't have comfy sleepovers with his friends as a boy
Admit it, you just want to be a girl.

>When you leave the PS1 on overnight at his house because the star wars jedi beat 'em up game has no saving

>When your friend doesn't have a memory card