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I would be happier being like this if I could opt out of society, I would like to get a diagnosis and bux but I dont know if that would qualify for buc here in Aus.

I am diagnosed with Schizoid PD.

I am on NEETBUX, but I dont have to look for work or have any obligations.

I am in the process of getting disability. It takes a long time.

I was only diagnosed last year. The disability people a centerlink said I have to have 2 years treatment for it before they can give me DSP. So I reapply again next year.

Been a NEET shut-in all my life, age 31 now.

It feels like schizoid is the closest description of my personality I came across so far.

I find it quite pleasing and tranquil apart from one feature of not enjoying anything. If I could change that and at least continously keep liking some things or liking new things then I'd be really happy, without it it's kind of meh.

>tfw no sure if schizoid or straight up sociopath

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honestly i don't like the idea of schizoid or avpd no matter how much it fits. i'm just a loser. all the cluster a personality disorders are just losers. if we went through shit in our lives and became maladjusted but weren't losers then we'd have cluster b personality disorders like bpd and narcissism. if i were one of those i'd love to define it and share it with my fellow mentally ill, but what's the point in knowing what kind of loser i am, there's no fun in that.

some of these traits are similar to the virtue of equanimity in buddhism and stoicism

Not sure about the sexual experiences thing part, I'd like to have sex and I masturbate, but I wouldn't want a relationship with anybody, it just feels good.

I'm certainly considering going for a diagnosis, but I'm very hesitant, because I don't want anyone in my family to know what I'm doing, I'm stuck in the secret schizoid paradox. I suppose I will wait for some kind of catalyst to force me into going, do you have any comorbidities? Cause I am certain I am paranoid and I heavily suspect I may have BPD.

This is SPD in a nut shell.

I want to have sex but I dont want to. The sexual part of the brain is active, but the Schizoid acts as a block because it requires interpersonal relations and intimacy that Schizoid can't into.

Its the same, you want the intimacy, but you dont want whats required to have it.

Maybe prostitutes could work maybe.

I got diagnosed recently but im going to teraphy. Im mostly bothered by the lack of ambition and drive. Its the only thing i really envy of normies

I guess I'm probably SPD then, going to a psychologist soon so maybe they'll diagnose me. I thought I might be, but the sexual stuff made me feel like I was possibly wrong.

I get that, I feel like in essence I want what other people seem to get out of sex and intimacy, but the reality of it is something I can't even describe, it's just tiresome nothing. It's just all so superficial because I don't feel like I'm even there when I talk to people, I have to tense up and numb out and act as neutrally-charming as possible to avoid allowing anything of any emotional meaning or relevance to come up in conversation.

Honestly I don't even think I want intimate relationship on any level. I guess I'm still kind of curious due to my natural skepticism, since I am aware that I cannot really determine whether I'd enjoy in or not, especially seeing how it seems like an integral part of so many peoples lives, thus I might actually change my mind if I were to find myself in such a possition, though I still cannot find any realistic way I could see myself actually enjoying it.

That saying I still possess a certain amount of a sex drive, though it's rather miniscule in comparison to others.

The Clinical Psychologists I have seen in the recent year dont feel like diagnosing me with anything after the original SPD was made. Although I am definitely Paranoid, and OCD, for sure. Not Schizophrenia levels of Paranoia, but if I am pressured into a situation it can get that way.

I notice any kind of pressure put on me makes me have brief Psychotic episodes, even sometimes if I think too much it happens. Lasts a few minutes, sometimes a few hours. Shit is annoying.

Last time I left the house and went to the supermarket and the cash-out cunt was a bitch to me, and that triggered me to be all paranoid and shit for 2-3 days. Simple shit like that sends me off, I can't imagine if I actually had to deal with people for hours every day I would prob snap.