i want a girlfriend but at the same time i can't actually picture myself with one. i'm so self hating that i can't even fantasize about a girl loving me, yet i still want one.
why can't my brain be coherent and just accept it? i hate this middle ground where i have the desire but no hope.
can any other anons relate?
i am literally you
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Same here bros, it gets harder each day, as I begin to fap to more depraved porn. My most recent was incest cuckery for the humiliation. Someone help before it's too late.
we're all in this one together i guess. 27 wish i had love. want multiple children when i "grow up".. i just cant picture what life is like with a woman anymore.
Same age as me
You cunts aussie by any chance? What the fuck is going on with our women they are horrifically fucked
I've been alone so long I can't imagine being with someone, let alone know how the fuck to go about it.
I got close once in my life, about a year ago matched on tinder with qt asian grill.
took her on a few dates and we made out and cuddled but I could tell she sensed how broken I was. She let me eat her out twice which is still the crowning achievement of my life and will be eternally grateful to her for.
After more dates she grew more and more distant, would stop me when I tried to kiss her
>friendzoned.jpg
she moved away but I still talk to her on snapchat occasionally.
I miss her so fucking much but at the same time I know I'm too fucked and it would be bad for her to drag her in to my trainwreck of a life.
how can i even go forward with trying again when i failed so hard at the one shot I had at my dream girl...
nah, midwest U.S. were all just sad and lonely. like a natural pheromone to keep women away. being average looking doesnt help either.
just gotta pick up the pieces and try again user. youre destined for a life of misery but you may as well try and get laid somewhere in between. thats what ive been trying anyways.
Lol so that's what keeps them away
I guess this is what 100 years of brainwashed women looks like
Sex really isn't the issue for me, I do fuck hookers for release occasionally, but that is hollow and meaningless and gets old.
I don't want just sex, I want a genuine connection.
part of my problem is my standards are impossibly high, I've been looking for another asian qt through every app i can find, tinder, POF, OKcupid.. now that i've tasted that ambrosia I refuse to settle for anything less, and I'm not exactly super attractive myself, I'm a fatass, but I find fat chicks revolting, and I hate white women as a whole.
>pic related, this is about how gorgeous my asian qt was, same body, slightly different face.
once you have that you can't even look at a fat bitch.
Don't worry, guys, it'll happen for you
That is, having interest in the opposite sex.
Worse things can happen. Imagine being 29 y.o, with zero dating experience. Imagine that there is some girl that for some reason interested in you. You work at same building, but different companies, so seeing her is somewhat depends on luck. Anyway, if you stumble on each other at the end of the day, you usually walk to bus stop together. 5 minutes at most. Then she goes on one side of the road and you goes on another.
And you always think: "if only i have a little more than 5 minutes". And this moment happens. She need to visit relatives at the other part of the town, so she goes at the same bus stop as you this time. It's peak hour, so you walk together and stay there for half an hour. And there is no real conversation at all. All this topics you wanted to bring suddenly disappears from your head. To make things worse, she seems really interested in talking and tries to find meaningful topic too. You end up talking pretty much all that time, but it some minor topics, that not really lead anywhere.
So, her bus is here. And she is gone. You just stand there, realising, that it was you best chance. But you spend all those precious time and there is zero progress.
Maybe it will be easier after i share this pathetic story with someone. This thread gonna sink soon and that's for the best.
Damn. I read your story and it spoke to me. I could see myself doing something similar, truth be told. Man is a self sabotaging creature. I hope next time you realize you're worthy of giving it a shot, user.
Australian women truly are awful creatures.
I got an e-gf and it only made things worse. She has become far too attached to me now and no matter how hard I try I can not reason to myself that this is a good thing and I deserve it. I have to pretend to pretend I am not constantly bothered that I am going to be dead weight and bad for her yet I am too dependent on her emotionally and too spineless to cut it off. I miss when I was alone and my only stress came from being alone.
I always imagined that having a girl entirely emotionally dependant on me would be my ultimate fantasy
>aussie women are bad
this is news to me i always thought they were a lot better than american women
from what i'm heard Australia is even more insanely far left 'progressive' than anywhere in Canada or the States.
I would rather get kicked in the balls by a football halfback forever than spend a single minute listening to a progressive feminist spray her period blood all over the place.
Australia is the worst country for a robot.
I can't speak for others but it is just racking on my anxiety, every day it feels like some big joke is being played on me, like I am a huge loser and it's only a matter of time before the clock runs out and she realises there is no future with me
>Australia is the worst country for a robot
????
america the land of the thot is better than ausland?
im confused as to how it could be worse
I didn't really notice the 'e-gf' part...how far away from her are you...and are you even sure she's a girl?>
opposite coasts of the US, so there is technically a better than none chance we can meet. And I know she is a girl, we have seen each other
OP, just visualize yourself every day with a loving girlfriend until it feels natural, nothing is stopping you, you can do it.
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
God no
I try to keep my childlike imagination to keep me happy. Convincing myself that I am on the verge of cracking the code and becoming a Chad, cartoonishly forever chasing women. Keeps the conqueror instinct in me satisfied.
Falling inlove with women in video games, anime, television shows, just the simple pleasure of their appearance or falling inlove with their personality as if it's a healthy thing to be able to enjoy a person for their merits even if they aren't real.
This childish outlook has kept me happy so far, despite not ever actually ever having a girl to call my own. And who knows, maybe I will actually get lucky and will get a girlfriend. Is that my last sparkle of hope, or just my childish thoughts tricking myself? Not sure anymore but it keeps me happy.
My only fear is that with age the gimmick will eventually wear off and I will just be left with bitter loneliness. Guess we will see. Gotta work with with what you got.
Christ I gave up on that when I was in my early teens
How old Ru now?
I'm no expert or anything, but I think the only chance you can have at having a real relationship is by meeting her irl. I'm assuming you're pretty young, but LDRs rarely end well.
I would give anything to have a woman wants to be with me, and I would spend what little money i have squirreled away from wgeslaving for over a decade to go see her.
Be happy at least you have your health. Worrying over women is one of those 'good' problems.
>t.24 year old boomer with diabetes
>america the land of the thot
That title rightfully belongs to us.
23. People often say I act like a kid, I think people in my family in general just mature/age slowly. We all look very young for our age and my family usually matures mid-20s.
JUST STOP CARING ABOUT WOMEN, MEN, CHILDREN
YOU DONT NEED OTHER PEOPLE TO MAKE YOU HAPPY
BITCH
nibba i'm 34 with a mortgage and management position and i still feel like i'm fucking 15
You don't want a girlfriend. Trust me. You think you want one, but deep down inside you aren't ready for the pain that comes with one. The pain that lurks inside waiting for the moment where it can burst out into the open and make you feel shittier than if you lived alone. You're like a child with a malformed view of what sex and love really is. It isn't what sits in front of you on a Friday night dancing inside a monitor. It doesn't bounce up and down in a video while you shamefully hold your dick, jacking off while simultaneously reminiscing before birth. It's hard, convoluted, and the shit you have to deal with isn't worth it. Some people might say that you guys are losers, coming from me I'd say you guys are the lucky few. Climb the ropes of life by yourself, you don't need a dick or pussy to weigh you down. But if you really want something so bad. Even if it is just sex. Then go out there and work for it.
>can any other anons relate?
I probably think about this at least once a day pretty much exactly what you said. Sometimes I'd like to not think about it. Thanks for reminding me./s
Hang on to that childish youth as long as you can, it's what will keep you going and make the world full of wonder.
I dunno man, feels like the wonder left my world a long fucking time ago, once weed stopped getting me high.
I'm not talking about feeling 15 in a good way, but in the way like I don't understand how I fit in to this world, and like I'm waiting for my life to actually begin, all the while my life is actually passing me by.
All I want now is someone to love me.
I'm not depressed because I refuse to wallow in self pity but man I'm miserable as a mf.
The only thing that tends to get me out of bed is going to wageslave in the hopes I can save up enough money to go to some asian country and find a wife.
I appreciate your sentiment though, and I thank you for it.
>asian women have different faces
7/10 writing prompt, had me going until you strained credulity at the end there
just because they all have chinky eyes doesn't mean they all look the same funni gai