I know you are all miserable but what would you like to accomplish or witness in your lifetime that would make all this...

Dopamine

Oregananananannano

Eat some chocolate and jerk off.

Stay away from opiods please

I'm just considering The End because society itself is screwed. So many ncp's doing shit that doesn't matter because they are programmed to be colorless. And i'm between them, knowing so much but knowing many are so retarded. I'm not depressed nor do i hate myself but tell me, what is the point? These days in Europe, you need this or this to get that.. i'm talking about degrees and stuff.. You need so much to achieve this and then stupid laws that suck every fun out of life. (you can't go swimming here, you can't do that anymore, this is forbidden for this reason, ...) And i'm not even talking about illegal shit but stuff like picknicks or whatever fancies me at the moment. You can't talk to people seriously on the street without 'offending' somebody so you run to the internet to have a decent discussion. I can go on with this post but it's just so ...

What i'm trying to say is: I'm dissapointed in how they sucked the meaning out of life and made it into a fubar existence.

I really want to save someones life dunno why even if that means I die in the process
I really want to feel like a hero one day

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I was born too soon for space exploration and too ugly to get a happy marriage so I don't care.

If you give up on the world, you're just as bad as the NPC's.

I want to be able to play guitar as good as Jason Becker.

I just wanna reunite Yugoslavia and include Bulgaria, but exclude Kosovo (they're Albanians, not Slavs). Start a war against Turkey, conquer east Thrace, with the help of other foreign powers so I'm not a "bad guy". All that with not killing a single person. Start a space agency, be the second nation in the world to go to the moon, plant a flag of the earth, and not of Yugoslavia. Build a moon base. And finally send out thousands of people into space to colonize planets, while I sit on earth and stoping terrorist organisations and freeing Syria and making them like us so much that they want to be a part of Yugoslavia. But also if any of them want independence I would make it as bloodless as possible. And then having someone else elected after I server my two ten year terms. And having it be a very rich and prosperous nation.

IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK?!?

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The suffering itself is worthwhile. There's literally no difference between dying feeling unfulfilled or fulfilled, or happy and unhappy.

Maybe you're right but society made it nearly impossible to find joy in daily life.

>It builds character
Id trade all that character building for one single person to even platonically love me.

>Nice guy never replies
Yeah
Thats what I thought

>what would you like to accomplish or witness in your lifetime that would make all this suffering have been worthwhile?
be reconized as a dope rhymer.
ghost write for someone,
>MFW i threw away the opportunity because mentally ill

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I never said it's worth it because of character building.

I see this shit and it makes me want to cry
Theres pain in the well of opportunity going dry
You let your chance fly over your head
Can't get it back and you wish you were dead
But theres always another time to shine
You just need to be patient and wait for the sign
One day you'll rise to the top and lead the pack
You're gonna leave behind the old you's sorry sack
When you get there I hope you'll remember me
I just want you user to be the best you can be.

What the hell is it good for if you arent a fuckin masochist?

I do not even know anymore.
Life usually finds a way to spoil everything I want or find exciting

Whatever unhappiness and unfulfillment you might feel in your life is an experience completely unique to you. Chad will never know what it's like to never have someone platonically love him, and in a way I think there is some value in that.

Selfish "accomplishment" would be to somehow win millions of dollars, enough to live the remainder of my life without wage-slaving and allowing me to invest in myself without building an ever-increasing debt. I can only fantasize being able just apply to jobs I would actually like and not be fazed if I don't get the job as it wouldn't be like I need a job to survive.

I could also consider all this and future suffering worthwhile if I was to somehow manage to create/invent something that would help towards a better world for everyone, but that's impossible. Even if something like that could be invented, I don't have any skills, intelligence, environment to work in, nor the opportunity what so ever to be of any meaningful use where I am now.
There's nothing realistically feasible to witness that could make me consider this all worthwhile either. Then again, the above points are not realistic either.

For now I'll just keep going on with my life, trying to find contentedness in simple little things for as long as my illness doesn't progress to the point pain becomes a constant presence. Once that happens I'm out.

Neither will I user...

Expelling the Jews from my country

its a lack of motivation man.
I can write shit but I lost all joy and I gave up on life and took the black pill.
below is last thing I wrote... I just cant be fucked finishing.
I autistically repeat every vowel and rhyme as much as I can and repeat letters so it takes forever to write as well. but I have to do it like that
>>>>>
ive fought with thoughts that have enough force to forge ore to steel,
I feel like an orc with an order to kill, you ought to be still,
you cant hold a torch to this autist with skill,
your a horse im an automobile,im port your watered down cordial
on course to being a corpse caught in my audible spiel
awe will fill your core like a meal...
i have assorted sores not the sort to heal
and im unsure if i need a sorcerers pill
my mind is poor like a pauper,
is it plausable to pause until
I can find support for my disorder,
or is it inevitable I will crawl towards my own slaughter,
ill make sure to record with a portable recorder
so you can say you saw me in the corridor
as a cord casues me to claw the walls
after i fall fowards to the floor
all beacuse im bored of the chores
but ill be raw, overall my balls are small
so ill never answer the call to my so called war,

(X2)
its really a wonder why mother isnt sick of my shit
and given me the kick me out of home,
or like my brother the prick decided I should be disowned

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You can user. I have faith in you.

Get a job in ER

i had a lot but i realized big data would have blackmail on me in the form of my browsing history, Jow Forums post, and porn i masturbated to
so if I achieved anything they could hold it against me

I want to witness the end of civilization and the extinction of all life on the planet.

I want to cause the end of civilization

>You can user. I have faith in you.
thanks man, its just my head isnt right to put the effort in... I waste all myu time..

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I want my experimentation with telekinesis, levitation, and manipulation of energy fields to bare fruit