Lonely midnight doom strolls, haven't left my house in 4 weeks and now im outside walking smoking THC oil and on two xanax. The only two substances in life that work as perfect medicine for me are weed and xanax, once I don't over do it I'm literally unstoppable in any social situations, anytime im sober I legit just want to die, but crippling anxiety keeps me in fear of what happens after death. Anyone stuck in limbo with depression and anxiety? I'm 27 watching my entire family and friends die around me and move on into parenthood and move into their own homes, while I fester in pessimism nihilism.
Lonely midnight doom strolls...
Cooper Taylor
Jeremiah Gutierrez
Are you employed op?
Ryan James
Just posting midnight stroll pics as I walk, hope they are cozy to some, my area is so bleak
Landon Johnson
No, I'm on disability benefits and am in therpay. Haven't worked in 6 years, I use to be extemely active and outgoing, taekwondoe,swimming,camping,hiking. Now I'm just riddled with depression and anxiety and no matter what I do either with diet,exercise,therpay,medication, nothing seems to work.
Austin Morgan
Looks pretty comfy op. What's the weather like?
Christopher Gonzalez
What's your disability if I may ask?
Asher Johnson
It's 13c right now for some strange reason cause the earth is dying lol, but it's going to drop down to 2c in the next few days, I'm genuinely praying for snow, a nice blanket of white over everything.
Christian Russell
PTSD, GAD, Depression, it all falls under the mental health act. Im dying to go college and get a degree so I can just become a basic sheep of society and then hopefully either break free soon enough to become a silly cog in the machine, or just find the courage to go full unabomber style and move out into the woods and mail bombs to the parasites of the earth
Liam Phillips
>or just find the courage to go full unabomber style and move out into the woods and mail bombs to the parasites of the earth
Not worth it man.
Austin Perry
Yeah I know, it's just a fantasy. No one benefits from it on either end. I admire his books and words tho.
Jose Hernandez
What's wrong with Jordan Peterson tho?
Landon Martin
Have you thought of trying TRT? I never understand why no one ever tries it here. I used to be sad, no libido, no energy and after a couple months I feel pretty fucking good. Something to look into...
Gavin Hernandez
I don't find anything wrong with Jordan Peterson at all, he's an amazing psychologist, personally I think he stay out of politics but he's another intellectual I admire, I don't categorise myself into any sphere of thought I think both Ted and Jordan are unique intellectuals.
William Roberts
Hey now I'll have to look into ted, interesting.
Ryder Carter
I've never heard of TRT, is it sport related? Or am I mistaken that with TRX? Anyways I will definitely look into it as soon as I get home, thanks for the suggestion man.
Caleb James
Testosterone Replacement Therapy. You get your blood work done, a simple physical, and then send it to a telemedical company and they send you the testosterone. Not even that expensive once you get the bloodwork done. Cost about $100 a month without insurance and some pay like $15 with it. I was at like 400ng/ml and now I am 750 and feel like a god.
Easton Jackson
Oh I asked my doctor about that before because someone else suggested it to me and my GP and got blood works done and tests and it all came back fine other than I had a b12 deficiency and folic acid deficiency, so I get b12 shots now every 3 months, but my T levels came back fine, sorry for being retarded I just never heard the term TRT.i Apprecite it tho lad
Samuel Adams
>high testosterone, recently did a test
>Still depressed
What should I do?
Evan Perez
Ill join you with my attempts at night photography.
Sebastian Perez
Do you remember what your test levels were? Most doctors will say nothing is wrong unless you are under like 300 which is BS. For some reason there is still a stigma around it even with doctors.
Xavier Gutierrez
Aw good stuff, I love images and visuals, I despise the pretentious photography world but am obsessed with imagery and even think the grainy quality from phone pics adds a odd sense of nostalgia to each image if I'm making any sense
Connor Reed
Just took this now,
Free black metal album cover if anyone wants it lol
Xavier Young
Looks like aliens - run
Jonathan Roberts
I use to have a genuine irrational fear of aliens and would always think I was being followed by grays when I would walk around at night years ago haha the amount of delusionals I suffered under lol,
Noah Myers
Fuck having that thought
Bentley Torres
Are those apartments?
Ethan Davis
Yeah they arent nicest looking and mainly eastern Europeans live in them
Nolan Anderson
That seems odd to sleep over a road but I live in a midwestern American shithole. Your town is peak comfy.
Jason Johnson
still out there user?
Adam Allen
yo im guessing youre in the uk or ireland user, which city?