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I want to just opt out of society. Maybe buy a plane ticket to Alaska and see if I can survive in the wilderness. Freezing to death out there sounds better than a life of wagecucking.

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I regret getting melanin injections. I'm not as happy about it as I seem. My life feels completely different and I still get shocked looking in the mirror

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I was supposed to stream Postal 2 today on Twitch and I missed it and now I am extremely worried I will lose what little following I have. My nose also hurts.

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Funny, didn't recall already posting in this thread...
No, but seriously, I feel you man. I guess i'll just get some helium. Am lonely anyway, my 'friends' are leaving for uni stuff anyway and my parents hate me.
Good riddance, life. Suck a big one

whats she like? tell us about her

I'm tired of the whole "I wish I was dead xD" bullshit that's constantly spouted on the internet, this place included, it feels so insincere. I'm tired of insincerity too.

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>melanin injections

So you look like a black person now? Do you not tan or something? Just curious

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I'm mix race but I had my mom's skin tone and my dad's features. I went a bit crazy and got a few too many, now I look fully African.

I know how your mind works, asshole. You say something to troll because you love fucking with people, but then they respond harder than you expect and you attempt to laugh it off, but it hurts deep down, and you keep laughing until it finally falls silent. Then you slink away, knowing you screwed up. Then you get mad, and try to think up something 'even better' but it just fails again. Until you fully fuck your chances at redemption. Then you leave. Learn the FIRST fucking time.

SHE does the same thing, but unlike you she has a very good chance at learning to be better in the long run. That's why, with my small part, I'll try to help her along the way. I bet you wish someone would even TRY for you anymore.

Little Witch Academia is boring and I think the people who like it are boring as well.

She's quite tall, shy, a few years older than me but we share the same birthday, and she's a fitness instructor. We met on a managing anxiety and stress course. Pic is her.

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omg thts aweSOME user IM SO HAPPY FOR u!!

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I don't mind talking about it at all either. I haven't gotten the chance to really vent

I'm really happy about it too. I hope we can be together for a while.

I was at a party yesterday. I didnt want to go because of my social anxiety, but I promised I will be there. I didnt speak at all but then half of the people left and i got shitfaced and i think others liked me and that they had fun. Today I even talked to a stranger, because i was so hungover i wasnt anxious. Might even cosider not killing myself and starting therapy.

I feel like my soul is fading out. Im only 20, i feel fucking lost.

I don't give a fuck anymore, but in a good way.

I don't mind the job I am starting , just what I have heard about few of the colleagues , just people who are looking intrigues and drama (my guess is boring life ) but the money are great. I want to migrate to western Europe but I feel like it will destroy me mentally , whichever country . ALSO GRANDPA I WANT THE PROMISED MONEY FROM THE SOLD LAND THAT WAS PROMISED TO ME !!! REEEEeeeee

Just because other people give a shit, get excited or are enthusiastic doesn't mean that you have to.

Gonna kill myself on New Year's Eve

Everything scares me and fear rules my life. For every decision, I imagine a downward spiral of the worst possible consequences. I understand that it's irrational and I have no reason to feel this way, but the fear is always there.
I come from a line of people who survived war, famine and political repression and never stopped fighting for a better life. I am the most privileged cunt who can't get anything done. I'm ashamed to tell people about my circumstances. Every day I resolve to do better but I don't. Time is running out.

Holy shit is want to fuck every woman in sight.

I really wish i was born a qt girl

I'm really autistic about creating stuff, and I haven't been able to create anything because I'm under the college's control. Didn't go in for two of the three days I was meant to go in last week and I'm anxious on going back. I had a couple meltdowns and home during some of that time and I went to my Dad's hoping it would help, unfortunately it really didn't. Struggling to lose weight and not having any real friends (haven't spoken to my one irl friend in ages, and I am distant from any online ones), which just leads to a negative cycle of behavior. Don't want to mope about it, but it's hard to keep going when this is the worst I've felt in a while, but I have to keep going. I have to express that I'm very lonely, it eats me up inside at night knowing that no matter how I try or don't try that I can't have a remotely meaningful relationship with anyone other than my Mum or Dad. Fucking sucks, but as I said, I have to keep going. I just want to create art, but it's hard with all the college work making me want to relax and do nothing.
KEEP GOING EVERYONE, WE'LL MAKE IT IF WE TRY. WE'RE JUST GOING THROUGH A ROUGH PATCH.

Me too user... Me too.

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i dont give a shit after all this work im doing i dont give a fuck about the outcome for some reason.

I'm completely unsatisfied with starting university, am abusing drugs on a way too frequent level, resulting in headaches, that last for more than one week (probably two) now, can't find motivation to do the things I have to repeat to keep up in maths, haven't had any sexual contact in more than a year, even longer a romantic/emotional relationship and simply don't know if there's any productive way to deal with my issues, since I always crawl back to escapism, such as drug abuse and video-gaming + watching series.

I WANT TO MEET YOU AND LOVE YOU ETERNALLY, BALTHAZAR

Who is that originalaly

My peepee smoll.

I wish my parents spent more time with me, now and when I was younger.

My sister was physically sick for most of high school making very painful to walk and from this she develop a number of metal illnesses. This sucked up all of my parents time for 8 long, lonely years. They neglected me to help her.

I did everything they told me to inorder to not be a burden to them and so they would be proud of me.

Went into a special school program for my IEP which did nothing but retard my growth both socially and educationally. The small, isolated classes did not help to solve my disconnect between the phonetic pronunciation of words and their proper spelling. Which is a problem I still have to this day. I am unable to communicate easily with the written english language.

Played sports I had no love for so my father would be proud. I remember playing rugby for my highschool and club feelong no love or loyalty from my teammates just so at the end of each game I could hear my dad say that I put in some good tackles.

I never told my parents about how lonely I was away at school. How all my education achievement tasted of ash. Why the only reason anyone talked to me at school was because I was the smartest and they want my help. I would always help them just to feel less lonely for a short time.

I went to church to make my mom and dad happy. And I stop going because they did too.

I could fill the emptiness just by talking to them but then I would burden them with how I feel.
I wish they'ed love me more

Same old, still wanna die. Don't have balls to kms.

AAAAA I WILL DIE ALONE AND LONELY IN MY ROOM AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

I hate niggers originallo