Be me, crazy clingy insecure gf

>is that bjork?

it is bjork

>is bjork

tfw no Bjork gf

Maybe your boyfriend coddling you isn't actually the best approach? Maybe you need to face reality whether it upsets you or not? Just spitballing here.

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Yeah, this is correct. I am a very, very incorrect person.

So you keep saying. Seems pretty easy compared to the alternative of actually addressing your issues.

I guess you can wait and see how that turns out for you.

I agree with this user

The moment you consider it has already doomed you to a cognitive loop. By not doing so, you're essentially just living a hypocritical life (which further depresses you). Your happiness is contingent on pleasing your bf but your existence is contingent on being upset (a la crazy and clingy and insecure).

What you want from him isn't rational. You want validation that being a piece of shit is alright. You're subjecting him to a lifetime of torture. He dumps, you kill yourself or any other depressive or manic alternative. He stays with you, he has to acknowledge and hold that you're a piece of shit and changing would be "counter-intuitive" (despite it obviously not being counter-intuitive).

I don't know. You're fucked and you're bring your boyfriend, and anyone else that's connected, down with you.

Yes, it's true that I already have not done so (gotten better), so I'm not sure why I think I suddenly will. I won't. I should break up with him, make it as painless as possible, cut contact, and go out into the desert and kill myself.

>he dumps, you kill yourself or ANY OTHER DEPRESSIVE OR MANIC ALTERNATIVE
>go out into the desert and kill myself
holyshit you are fucking dumb as shit and a really shitty human being. I genuinely feel sorry for the people that have any sort of relationship with you.

Sorry, I dont understand what you're saying. You seem like a really abusive person who enjoys hurting others, what do you think of that?

Why do you think it would suddenly magically happen with no work or effort on your part.

Your boyfriend should beat you savagely.

youtu.be/cmVkiIJb7-M?t=114

I have been making efforts. Every day and night there are scheduled things I do, as well as during the day/as needed. I just continually fail to use my skills when the emotions hit (in his presence; I'm better at it alone), which makes me think it's not working/I'm not getting better.

>changing your personality to conform with some ridiculous notion that you're stable

Most stable women you see are high on AD zombies. Just find someone with jekyll/hyde personality and live happily ever after in the bliss of abusive codependency.

>what do you think of that?
I don't think of that at all in this context. I don't like you. I don't like shitty people and you're a shitty person. You've cast an illusion on your boyfriend cause he fears for you (and his own guilt) but i don't have that kind of relationship with you.

You ever heard of something called "shut the fuck up"? it might make your depression seem more believable instead of obviously just being an entitled cunt.

>I should break up with him, make it as painless as possible, cut contact
And you end it there. So keep your mouth shut next time, moron.

Yay, now I'm schizophrenically freaked out about the hot new girl at my boyfriend's job.

The stuff you're saying isn't really based on anything I've said. I think you're projecting. Did you have a bad experience with someone (who seems) like me? Or are you like me?

Fair enough. Give it a couple years, see if there's any change.

Don't placate yourself by saying I'm "projecting". What a dumb meme. I've already explained it to you earlier as to why you're a piece of shit. for reference and you proceed to go about and do it again. I'm not like these other sympathetic illusioned (cause you're a girl) anons. I see through your bullshit. You're toxic.

oh my goodness OP you're so different, not like the other girls. and that's why i love you
the fact that you can acknowledge that you're broken makes up for the fact that you're broken
oh god please (you) me before this thread expires I don't know what i'd do without it

I've been stuck at the "aware of my issues" stage for far too long. Now when the awareness hits, I have to couple it with action. It's just really hard to suddenly act when you've been in a mode for hours, especially if you're waiting for your boyfriend to come and talk to you (but he won't, ever, because he never does, because he doesn't want to reward passive-aggressive avoidant behavior, which is good, but reeeeeally really REALLY fucking hard for my...bad personality)...uhhh, blah.