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My ex e-gf keeps posting lies about me to garner sympathy. What do?

>self harming
Are you a girl at least? Self harming men are truly pathetic.

i just run a razor across my legs but it isn't too bad, I haven't needed to get stitches yet. need some more healthy coping methods

just Fuck it user, what are you doing

No, in a guy and I know I am pathetic. It's not a good feeling,I don't deserve to eat

You have no self control. You need a strong figure in your life to keep you in line.

Sometimes random strangers tell me that I'm special , and it happens enough that I'm beginning to wonder if it's true. I feel schizoid even entertaining the notion, but it keeps happening. People tell me they can "see" something or that I have a good heart, just random strangers I never see again, and then they remind me about God.
Is it crazy or masturbatory to think that God's actually been with me the whole time and I've just not paid attention?

Are you gay at least? Being straight and self harming, now that's truly pathetic.

I'm special too, user. Let's be friends. I don't have a very good heart though.

what does that have to do with being gay or a girl?

It's a pretty effeminate thing? Gay dudes are effeminate.

My dad is the most hardworking and manly person i know, I think I'm just a bad person

It's a very weak thing to do. It's being self-destructive in a feminine way.

You have betrayed your good dad by being such a fragile piece of shit. He deserved a better son. Go cut yourself, little bitch.

Fuck these guys who are just shitting on you, user.
I'm with you and I get it. I've been self-mutilating since I was a child. It's a stress thing and it's strangely addictive.
I don't want to put anything on you or try to interpret why you do it, but I want you to know that I don't think you're ugly inside or weak for cutting. Some of the strongest and most kindhearted people I've ever met have scars from self-harm, and if we're being honest with ourselves, plenty of people self-harm but don't cut or use one of the more obvious methods.
I never ask anybody about their scars and nobody asks about mine, but to be totally sincere, when I see somebody with them, I don't judge them or think they're crazy or attention-seeking. I actually feel a little bit of comfort and solidarity in it, as fucked-up as this is.
I'm looking for a better way to cope, too, user, and I hope you can find yours. You ARE worth it.

its just a reply, here (you)
>Tell me your matters user...
everything keeps getting worse, I relapsed on alcohol after beating a 6 month addiction and I just turn everything to shit.
I just woke up and im considering getting smashed, oh and contradictory I do not eat food as im fasting and eat every 2 days or less.
>i want to know how to stop self harming and get more motivation to go outside
tell me how you self harm man, my friend deals with this and he has ruined his legs and arms.

>You sound a bit BPD
I do not have that diagnosed but I do not delve into personality issues when I see a psychiatrist as I do not want them to see me as manipulative and make it harder for me to manipulate them, like drug seeking.

just ignore her
>Self harming men are truly pathetic.
look, I used to think so as well but you know some of us do it and hate themselves.
dont listen to them, self harming is bad but my friend does it and he is a male.
He wrote PEDO on his thing to ruin himself and all sorts of stuff.
I used to have people tell me similar stuff.
I dont know if it is harmful, perhaps try improve your life so you can live up to what people say.
actually im told some people harm to feel like they are in control.
why mean post

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>some of us do it and hate themselves.
All of you hate yourself, you moron. Self harming is not something healthy people with high self-esteem do. Anyway, want to be my friend or what?

you play any vidya my lad

The problem is not it being self destructive. Cutting can even be cute in a girl. I'm just saying it's pathetic in a man. Just find a more respectable way of fucking yourself.

there are other ways of self harming like burning, beating yourself in the head or strangling yourself but they can cause permanent stuff like brain damage.

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In which ways do you self harm?

If you don't think the self harming user is weak or ugly then how come you feel weak and ugly every time you self harm?

>If you don't think the self harming user is weak or ugly
I don't disagree with this, it's the truth

>I don't have a very good heart though.
I dont have a heart but I hope Misaki shares her with mine.

dont listen to these guys, add me user on discord im nice melancholymouse#6708
fuck off my thread.
top quality post man, GG.
most people self harm with drugs etc.
it is so addictive my friend says regarding cutting yourself.
it is like a fun new thing to explore

>He wrote PEDO on his thing to ruin himself and all sorts of stuff.
I honestly don't know if this kind of cruelty towards yourself is at all a feminine thing. I know girls who cut, or purge, or starve themselves, but I don't know any girls who would carve words into themselves just to mark themselves as a freak.

I lit the back of my dominant hand on fire to punish myself for being a bad person. I intentionally chose the back of my favorite hand so that I would have to see the ugly mark it left every day for the rest of my life. I knew I would regret it when I was older and I still had the scars, and that was the point. To punish myself forever. To remember the pain I caused and the pain I deserved to feel as a result. To remember how much my commitment to be a better person meant. To punish myself every day for the rest of my life by staining every last one of them with regret and shame, even if only for a moment. To punish myself again and again by forgetting I have the scars and then seeing them and losing whatever happy thought had distracted me. I chose my hand, my favorite one, possibly my best feature-people always used to tell me what soft and beautiful hands I had-not for others or to make it obvious to them, but so that I myself would have to look at it every time I looked down.
All of that calculation and sheer cruelty and spite against myself went into the decision to scar myself. And it worked. It's been almost 7 years and I regret doing it at all and I want my old hands back, and I know the me that did this to myself would want me to feel that way and that this is exactly what he planned.
I know that's crazy behavior, but I honestly don't see it as feminine or pathetic. I'm actually pretty impressed with the hardcore level of cruelty that went into it.

Thanks. I do try.

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Go talk to someone you trust; it doesn't matter if they're the dad you mentioned, a friend, or a role model. You need people to remind you why you are still alive and why your unique qualities make you someone worth living. It is hard as hell to open up about such a personal problem, but you always need a support to build on. Trying to tackle mental health alone never works. We're social creatures, for better and for worse.

Think about your aspirations, whether large or small, and consider changes you can make in your lifestyle to improve both your mental and physical health. Start simple, like scheduling a walk in the woods once a week, or frequenting a game store to meet people with similar interests. Unfortunately, the only way to improve social skills is to go out and use them, and though it can be petrifying to step out into unfamiliar territory, it will be worth the chance for growth. Another thing to remember is that it is likely you will meet people who used to be, or are still, in your position. Seek out the people who can relate to your problems because they will know exactly how to help you with yours.

It takes small, difficult steps, but it is possible to break out of the cycle of self hatred and fear. I have made that long journey myself, and if a fuck-up like myself can manage, I am positive you can too. Next time you pick up a razor, I hope you remember that it's a temporary release for a lasting pain. It doesn't change anything but the surface of your skin. You have the sole power to better yourself. I wish you the best of luck user.

>dont listen to these guys, add me user on discord
I think ive seen you from the NEET chatroom but Im new there and don't talk much but im shishi

Sorry to be self-pitying and self-indulgent here, but how much would you have to hate somebody to take their favorite body part and light it on fire, not just to hurt them in the moment, but doing so with the conscious intention of making them look at the ugliness and the damage you created every day for the rest of their lives? How much would you have to hate somebody to think, "I want you to feel at least a little bit regretful and ugly every time somebody you love holds your hand for the rest of your life?" How much would you have to hate somebody to want to take away every silent moment where they just look at their hands and appreciate that they're beautiful? How much would you have to hate someone to think, "I was gonna do your face, but you could just avoid mirrors?"

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too sad to chat today.. maybe tomorrow

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Face would have been much worse. You know that. Don't play tough.

Thank you that's really helpful and reassuring. i don't want to ever become a bitter and mean person, and I have nothing against anyone. talking with people can be hard though

melancholymouse#6708
add me then we can be friends.
> Self harming is not something healthy people with high self-esteem do
yeah that is obvious.
>you play any vidya my lad
no, depression took that from me, I used to be #1 world for kills on BF1 and I talked to the developers and everything about improving the game... then I couldnt use gaming to distract myself anymore and quit.

like what?
burning is fucked, my friend burned himself and he did it so deep it took months for the burns to heal.
huge hassle.
I punch myself in the face sometimes.
he did it because he feels he is trash and wants people to see him as such.
>7 years and I regret doing it at all and I want my old hands back,
can you post a pic of your hand?
yeah you ahve chatted to me.
100% right....I mean who carves pedo into themselves and cuts their thighs up completely so that whenever someone in the future wants to be intimate with them they see that shit.

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>don't play tough
I'm not even trying to act tough. Yeah, I know face would've been uglier and a worse impairment to my life, and I have no doubt that it was my self-preservation instinct that kept me from doing my face or just immolating myself. But I'm being sincere when I say that every single one of those thoughts crossed my mind before I did it.
Yeah, I'm disgusted with myself for how emo and childish and melodramatic it was, but that was part of the plan, too.
I know there are folks out there who have done worse to themselves, but I've never been that cruel to a single living thing my entire life and I'm not gonna pretend I don't hate myself for real.

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are you stronk?
how much did you DL at your peak?

>I mean who carves pedo into themselves and cuts their thighs up completely so that whenever someone in the future wants to be intimate with them they see that shit.
Exactly. That's the kind of shit I mean.
And no, I can't. At least not from desktop.

Do you like the Fallout series

I get urges to cut off my fingers and my ears because OCD.
I hope I dont fall prey to them.
I worry I will do it when I upset someone I care about to show how serious I am.
the thoughts get to be a bit much sometimes,
I hate trying to sleep and seeing nasty images flash at me.

why are some of us so fucked in the head?
you mean at gaming?
I was always the best, I saved up like 5k for a gaming PC because PC players taht were gods wanted me to get on PC and my mum was gambler and needed money to pay for something so I gave her my money once again and then gaming just died for me...
someone truly pathetic would do that.
>Do you like the Fallout series
no, I dont like any games

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depression isn't real. everyone who has it is just mentally weak and underdeveloped, and no doctor and medicine can fix it since it's part of your inherent personality instead of something medical. the only way you can fix it is killing yourself ;_;

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No kek DL as in deadlift, thats fucked up, take care.

two finals coming up. Studying right now but I'm afraid I won't be prepared

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>depression isn't real
ok man, had it since I was like a lil kid diagnosed, I would self harm and shit.

I didnt do weights I just did persistence training and shit, I was stronger then people with buffer arms etc.
I just did hell of a lot of pull ups and shit etc.

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