Think my liver is finaly dying on me

oh yeah let me call all those amazing doctors that love to life in south africa

i'll try , its my dad birthday soon so i wanna be sober for that

I wish I was in your position.

You'll do it king I believe in you. You'll shit post with us until this site dies.

carefull what you wish for

Whats a bender exactly? I've been drinking every night for a few years now only stopping when I'm sick
Find a witch-doctor to rub an egg on your liver. Pay him with a chicken

2 week bender, eh? slow down a little before quitting. don't wanna suddenly DT or kick the bucket because of withdrawls. what were you drinking by the way? if it was hard liquor switch to beer in the mean time.

Two weeks is nothing. I never cold turkeyed without Valium though.

drinking brandy and vodka , i'll maby just stick to beer

ok dont die

bender = drinking spree

im out of chickens

>bender
reckless and continuous drinking that can last either a weekend or a couple of years. had on that lasted from 2012 to 2015...that was...not really that fun looking back
depends on the person
beer is my go to when I need to slow down, otherwise it's a fifth of shitty vodka an evening, been two weeks since I had my last drink. the urges are coming back but it's either a choice of feeling fucking amazing for a couple of hours, wake up fucked up, or feel healthy but bored...it's shitty but those are my choices

You deserve it though.

I don't get shitfaced all day. Just 3-4 drinks every night

F

...that's it? how old are you?
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Are you self medicating with alcohol

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34. Are u saying i'm not an alcoholic? I usually have a martini or two (3shots of 94proof gin and half shot of 40proof vermouth). Anything less (80 proof) i have to chug large amounts to feel the buzz

but how

i did everything i possibly can to the cunt it still works

compared to me when I'm drinking normally (when working a 9-5 job 6 pack a night, sometimes more; not working 12 pack or a fifth a night): a work in progress. I suppose it depends on one's own physiology and genetics.

Cool then. I'm not an alkie. I'll tell my friends and family to fuck off

congrats man. I drink to get shitfaced, as a wild guess you drink to enjoy it and unwind. that's one way to differentiate a drinker from an alcky. granted that's a stiff drink, but if you only drink one or two a night then you seem to keep it under control.

yes , i dont drink to enjoy it , its just to get numb and to make the impending doom feeling go away for a few hours

what for if you don't mind sharing. my main problem is boredom or to forget myself. how you long and hard you been drinking all together? you mentioned earlier that you've been on a two week bender

>wake up fucked up, or feel healthy but bored

thats what got me this time had 2 weeks on my own with nothing to do and nobody to speak to so just drank till i passed out

Do you have any good therapists in south Africa

it was mild , just a bottle of brandy finish in during a night then recover the next day then go buy another and repeat

>my main problem is boredom or to forget myself.
same , theres nothing else i can that i enjoy like vidya or shit

probably a shitty one with a 3week online degree that would just but me on some benzos or something

I see. do you wish to stop drinking?

even if i stop i wil find something else

huh...too much freetime is a bitch, especially for me. I need consistent work or some objective to keep me occupied, but even that gets boring sometimes. for me boozing comes in cycles: weeks or months of productivity and borderline health freak, and then weeks or months of morbid alcoholism. currently on my detox cycle. been drinking water mixed with apple cider vinegar and milk thistle daily. feel physically and mentally amazing...but the urge to drink is still there. one drink is too many, 1,000 is too little for me sometimes. biking around town and yelling at people in parking lots keeps me busy of recent

If it is something more healthy then I would consider that a win.

what he wrote, but pretend I wrote it so I get the credit

same , the weeks i dont drink or smoke i feel good(my body) but now im healthy and bored out of my mind stuck feeling like shit in my head then i drink for a week or so just to get out of that hell

what hobbies do you have

you ever been diagnosed with bipolar? sounds like your shifting between manic and depressive episodes, or something along those lines. if so, stay the fuck away from those meds, they suck

but how can you hurt yourself with something healthy

DUDE, have you tried weed, LMAO?

I think that he isn't Bipolar.
why do you need to hurt yourself to feel good?

dont know have never been to a doctor of any sorts , could be but i dont want to get stuck on those meds

a lot of times i feel im living in a dream so i dont care what happens to me cuz its not real kind of vibe if thats bipolar ?

unironicly yes, i use to be a dealer in college smoked 30grams a week but stopped cuz its a bad crowd of people to hang around

No that is called Depersonalization

don't, they're a trap.
I think you're right on your evaluation. just throwing shit on the wall and seeing what sticks. maybe some people have underlying masochistic tendencies, kinda like hurting yourself just to remind oneself that you're alive or some shit like that. again, just guessing.

dont know ,maby to try and make something else hurt me than feeling the constant numb i feel all the time , or to help me snap out of my dream like state im in

if you dont, i will take your farm

For your two week bender are you drinking to get drunk & how old r u.
Also what are you drinking

Why is it that you want to snap out of that dream like state

maybe depression? you ever try shrooms? they supposedly help. friend of mine bought spores on line an grew some in his house. could be an interesting project to keep you occupied

2 alcohol free days minimum per week. 2 days 2 beers 3days one beer

i dont want to be trapped in the dream , but i also enjoy it knowing that im in control of the world cuz i know its a dream , it gets weird

You need a hobby bruh. You're in the perfect area for some urbexing and photography. Get /out/ and do some weird shit. Grab a can of spraypaint and do some random vandalism.

yeah did shrooms with the friend of mine that died 2 weeks ago , it was great would do it again but its hard to find

Why do you feel that you need control over the world

good idea wil maby take some of my drawing and draw it on some walls outside

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sorry to hear about your friends. shrooms could be a good choice, also got the right idea. been taking pictures of flowers and making my own kimchi to keep me busy. gonna go fishing in the next couple of days. life is an adventure, man; but then again this is coming from someone that likes to go on massive benders from time to time.

that sounds like a lot. I never have cuz it's still illegal here, I don't wanna get arrested by police and
>get shot

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its not that i need control , its like skyrim for example you know its a game but the npc dont , so you are in control of that whole world , thats the feeling i get or have

police did catch me once but then i paid like $30 fine and they let me go but that made me quit

>im in control of the world cuz i know its a dream

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Tennessee?

quality post

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that's one perk of not being american. My local cops get a hard on when they get to catch a criminal, and would love to fuck someone up

texas

yeah problem is our cops are either too drunk fat or skinny to do anything meaninfull

I'm surprised. I thought you guys were cali 2.0

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>cali 2.0

isnt there a university in Texas that want to declare masculinity as a mental Illness?

Like i said: cali 2.0

Both times I have mentioned a psychologist you Said that "she probably has an Online degree" why do you think that is

most people with degrees here got it online

unisa.ac.za/sites/corporate/default

I need to go to bed see you

g'nite, man.

that seems awfully strange.

average iq of 60 africa my boy its the only way they can get 'em

Commie slander! Those colleges are marxist training camps and don't represent real Texas. I hardly ever see a basedboy or someone buying milk made from the bean that shall not be named. I don't know why they even stock it in our stores.

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you crave the soya i can feel it

cheers lad

well I'ma make my exit as well. hope things turn out well for you King of Jow Forums. keep the peace but not the order. hope your liver gets better. in the mean time, beer, detox, hobbies. or just get some pussy, that's always fun. Toodles.

I'm the real King of bant you imposter

I bet you watch (((trap porn)))

Sir Osis of Thuliver, the great martyr knight

Go be a nigger somewhere else. I'm trying to call out this fake king of bant

Looks like one an*mefag down for the count.

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and you are ?

RIP my brother, I'll make sure to crack one open in your honor.

drink some more to celebrate

Can't you just kill a nigger and harvest his liver?

I'll miss ya cunt. Always sad to see a fellow alcoholic go, but this is the path we chose.

Oh shit. The lion screams tonight.

>tfw about to lose the only south african poster

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