Fembots, what was the worst

Do you live in a nigger neighborhood?

>mental pain
drug withdrawal depression
>physical pain
ovarian cyst

Maybe I could explore your uterus instead

No I live in predominantly white Scotland

I'm not a woman tho. origanolli

What original drugs did you do?

>mental pain
The day I was told my brother killed himself. I never felt much happiness since.

>physical pain
Internal haemorrhage. Pretty unpleasant. Fainted from the sheer pain of it when it started.

Both chronically and mentally ill myself.

I swear to god you fucking faggot stop making """"""""""""fembot"""""""""""" threads with the same fucking OP image you absolute shit-stain.

Why does it make you mad tho, let's explore these feelings.

Would you ever commit suicide knowing how much pain it causes?

>Physical
My dresser fell on my fingers and they basically popped open and bled all over the place. I've had a lot of serious injuries, that was the worst one

No, never. I always felt like suicide takes your pain and spreads it to people around you, it doesn't end it.
I'd rather live through this myself than impose it on anyone else.

>mental pain
none, I kind of just block it out I guess.
>physical pain
an untreated tonsil infection turned into essentially a giant sac of pus that had to be punctured and drained without anesthesia
>how do you cope with pain?
it'll pass, don't waste time. As for depression, I'm able to recognize that mood swings and self hatred are fleeting and actionable. There's no point in celebrating how bad I feel with memes and self pity.

opiates, vicodin, percocet, didn't get addicted until I tried heroin.

>mental pain
i don't really get this, just the occasional range of emotion
>physical pain
when i tried to hang myself, my neck was fucked up for a bit and i think it gave me some degree of spinal damage as well. i'm not sure because i didn't tell a doctor cause i didn't want to get sent to the loony bin for a small bad decision

What made you realize you were addicted?

>range of emotion
Care to elaborate?

>block it out
Do you ever have a feeling it accumulates over time and eventually you just break?

No, but I do have occasional fits of panic that I'm damaging my psyche over time or that I'm a bad person for not feeling appropriately bad about traumatic events.

Were you too fat to hang yourself?

>mental pain
The weeks before attempted suicide. I was hit with a crippling reality of how lonely and unwanted I was. My best friend died years prior. My cousin was murdered by my aunt. A guy I really liked and was becoming my new best friend stopped talking to me suddenly. I got humiliated about my appearance in front of all of my closest friends and they started agreeing I just felt like I wanted to shrivel up and die. My mom wished I was never born, got angry at me and handed me a knife telling me to kill myself. It just keeps going.

A pretty new mental pain I'm facing is that whenever I'm in a store with my mom and there's a baby, she lovingly coos at it and holds their hand. When I was a child, she admitted to screaming at me and my dad trying to throw me on the floor out of anger as an infant. She wouldn't hold me. She said my dad only held me once in my entire childhood. I also found out my mother had and abortion.

>physical pain
Period pains that were very likely ovary cysts. I overheated to the point I felt like I was going to black out. I was heaving for air, my whole body got tight. I was coughing up with blood. I couldn't walk, my legs wouldn't fucking work. I'd lose my balance and fall over. This all happened during school too, so I had to figure out how to get up and down several flights of stair to get to my next class in another building within 5 minutes while this was happening. It happened after school as well, so I blacked out and missed my ride... twice

Oh, and I took a handful of laxatives. I actually thought I was going to die. I was having spasms and couldn't get off my bed to get some water; my heart was having palpitations and I was turning purple. My mother had the same symptoms when she had a dehydration stroke. The doctor said if she hadn't come to the hospital, she would have died. I screamed her but she ignored me. Luckily I found water under my bed and I had to wait the pain out.

But do you think you might smap one day?

>mental
let someone down badly once
>physical
going to go with childbirth meme, although it wasn't that bad actually I've just not experienced that much physical pain

>I got humiliated about my appearance
Do you think this finally pushed you over the edge?

>let someone down badly once
Why did this affect you in a negative way?

The disappointment and failure of responsibility really got to me where I couldn't bear to be around the person and was very anguished at even the thought of seeing them. It was pretty distressing.

I think it was just a combination of every single thing that happened in my life that I finally just couldn't take it anymore. I've been made fun of for my appearance since I was a toddler.

But you actually liked the person?

How do you see yourself now, appearance-wise?

Like as a friend sure, more like respect though. A colleague of my dad.

And you saw this person on a daily basis?

Periodically at times, yes. I helped working with/for him.

Do you think it would still negatively affect you this much if you didn't see the person as much?*

I still feel immensely bad about it years later now, even after he finally forgave me and I did my best to make it up to him.

>I did my best to make it up to him.
what did you do?

Paid for what the damages cost him.

Can you originally elaborate what caused him to suffer?

I think I'm average. There's a lot of things I like and dislike about myself, but I'm probably no different than anyone else. I still have a habit of restricting and purging to keep my body a certain way, but I don't seem to have the anorexic/bulimic thoughts that I used to. My mind is relatively quiet for the most part.

My self esteem about my appearance only seems to go through the floor when I'm talking with other guys or I post on here. The bluntness about how average or undesirable my features are, on top of having guys flirt in front of me with very obviously pretty girls makes me physically feel crushed. I really just want someone to get to know me; but a guy wants to be attracted to you first before he bothers. So I am very lonely.

How did you overcome the anorexic/bulimic thoughts?

I am not the person who has been replying to you but I am impressed by the high level of literacy and intelligence which your posts have shown thus far, and am interested in talking to you on Discord or some other medium if you feel so inclined. I'd like to be a person who gets to know you, as you say you want.

I never said he suffered, it was just a bad turn. I caused a personal belonging of his to be destroyed, and it was more than a money thing for him. So eventually I paid for the cost but that still didn't make up for it I feel even if he got over it.

I know you and I find it weird that you chose this one. I'm sure it was among the scariest for you but it only squished your fingers a bit and they're fine now. Would you care to tell the second or third ones too?

I tried to recover once already and I put on a lot of weight before I lost it all again. When I start putting on a pound or two, I remind myself that I've been heavier and it's not the end of the world. Being hard on myself isn't going to make me thinner, so I just eat less to make up for it and my weight goes back down again. The first time I became thin, I was always thinking about food, always counting calories and the number of hours I fasted. It preoccupied my life. I do other things to fill my time now. After I went completely numb from my suicide attempt, my thoughts haven't been the same though. They don't bombard me. I've moderately accepted them. They come and pass, I don't really identify with them or try to give them much thought like I once did. That probably helped the most.

I deleted my discord a while back, I can make another one if that's the only medium you can think to use. I don't use anything else, I'm trying to go internet free soon to better my mental health.

I woke up after a drug binge feeling really gross and hot and just wanted to do more, symptoms got worse and worse from there.

What was your suicide method?

How did you originally recover?

If you make a new one I will add you right now. I don't really like it myself but it might be more convenient than suggesting some of the better and more privacy-oriented alternatives like Tox, which are a little harder to set up. I too am trying to spend as little time on the internet as possible but I suppose my loneliness compels me to make a quick browse of places like this from time to time, even though I know it is probably bad for me.

taking suboxone, a maintenance drug, I'm too weak to just quit

Chemical ingestion and meds. I live in a state where guns are almost impossible to obtain, and I was young at the time so I couldn't just go to a local store and get some rope to hang myself. My other method I was considering at the time was jumping from a tall building, but the place was heavily guarded.

>I too am trying to spend as little time on the internet as possible but I suppose my loneliness compels me to make a quick browse of places like this from time to time, even though I know it is probably bad for me.

I relate a lot to that, but I know the more I cut away from this place, the more likely I am to go out and make friends in the real world which will eventually cure that loneliness.

So you didn't fully quit yet?

I made a tosser. It's throwaway#4364. I'll try to respond to you as much as possible, but just know I might jump ship one day if anything happens. I have a habit of leaving discord and not remembering the email I signed up with and losing all of those convos.

Okay, final question, if you could concentrate all the pain (both mental and physical) and transform it into strength, what would you be able to achieve on a fantasy scale?

I would use that to help as many people as possible that are in a similar position. I'd like to become a teacher, therapist, speaker, or write a book and try to reach people. I do it on a smaller scale. I make friends with people who have mental illnesses and I write blogs online that help people. I use a website called "7cups" where I anonymously listen to people's problems and try to help them. I'm currently writing a rough draft for a book on my experiences with psychology and what therapists do or don't do that hasn't worked for me.

Okay, thanks for answering my questions, you helped my research a lot.

no its really hard

What is your goal for the future?

>mental pain
The past few months, had to come home from school and go into intensive treatment. Obviously at school I was really suicidal, but therapy also involves digging deep into your psyche every day as well as having to think about what happened with your life.

>physical pain
I dunno, nothing really serious like a broken bone. I hit my head pretty hard a couple of times when I was a kid.

Does making you answer these type of threads make you feel as if OP is digging in your psyche?

Lol nah, this is small talk comparatively.

Maybe tapering off, my honest to god motivation to get clean sometimes is to be able to use again recreationally and with a lower tolerance

What happened at school to make you feel suicidal?

A bunch of precipitating factors; the work got hard, stopped doing it, stopped going to class, stopped eating or leaving my room, spiraled into severe suicidal thoughts, etc.

Being beaten by my dad i guess, luckily i got support and a real story from someone, so it was pretty nice.

I remember limping after it

Have any femanons been shot or stabbed?

Everyone who's ever been close to me, since middle school, have joked about me being the school shooter. I just want to be left alone, why do people have to conflate me with an evil person just because I'm asocial.

I don't want to hurt people. Why is it funny to belittle me? How can you expect to ostracize someone and be surprised when they lash out?

>physical pain
chronic inflammation in my rib cage. It made me feel like I'd been beaten in the chest. I could only sleep for a couple of hours until painkillers wore off, and I couldn't eat without getting waves of cramps. It affected my chest, back, and shoulders. The worst was that it's an invisible illness, so nobody took it seriously or understood how much pain I was in.

>metal pain
same desu. By the end of my flare ups I'd be clawing at my arms just to feel a different kind of pain. I was so malnourished and sleep deprived that people thought I was on drugs. It's been over a year since it last happened, and I'm always scared that it will come back.

There are no female school shooters tho.

>mental pain
The death of my dog.
>physical pain
Seeing as I don't take many risks, I have not experienced much physical pain in my lifetime.

How do you feel about adopting another woof?

do you have any mental or physical disabilities?

I plan on adopting another woof this following spring.

>mental
Qt azn gf who was studying to be an actor cheated on me with a director for a chance at getting into his movie, messed me up for a while.
>Physical
Dropped a full 30 liter fuel tank onto my ring finger, shattered the nail into a dozen pieces, went into shock and passed out on the spot, the next few days were spent in my bed screaming from the agony.

What breed of woof do you have in mind?

I'm not sure. I want a woof that doesn't require too much exercise, but is still playful and affectionate. I don't want a woof that is too small or delicate. I would prefer one that I wouldn't have to groom, too. My last woof was a pit lab mix. I almost bought a Basset Hound mix this past summer, but didn't because I was worried about the health problems associated with the breed.

>mental pain
Probably when my dad's girlfriend tormented me and beat me for months because she hated me for existing.

>physical pain
When a group of black girls pushed me onto the ground and stomped on me for a good 5 minutes because I told a teacher they were bullying me. I had a shoe print on my face for a week.

Attached: 1537240776097.png (579x595, 428K)

Get a shiba if you can find one

I thought about that, but I don't want to be the person who owns the meme dog. I also would prefer new woof to be a mix of some sort for health and money reasons, but I can't say I've ever seen a shiba mix for sale around here.

>meme dog
>dog is actually cool
Makes sense why he became a meme.

Holy shit that rough

>mental pain
When I was in a relationship with someone I loved but they never loved be back, just used me

>physical pain
When I ripped half the skin on my dick when I was walking around the house naked and fell on a laminated floor and somehow that just ripped half my dick, it works fine, but a huge scar tho

Attached: Screenshot_2018-11-21-17-50-48-1.png (1080x1070, 595K)

>t. hypochondriac

When I had a transient ischaemic attack stroke like
Event
>My head ripping apart feels
I was just screaming, cryibf and spasming around rly .
Then I pulled myself down two flights of stairs and had some oatmeal
>Skrt.

Sounds like my Friday night

Tell me what happened to those niggers afterward

*hugs you and pats your back*

b ut It was a Saturday

>mental pain
Had a bad falling out with my best friend of over 10 years. We were practically brothers. its been 3 years since and it still hurts.
>physical pain
Cut my hand wide open with a cutting wheel.

I cope with mental pain by shoving it down and hoping things will get better.

>Mental
Realizing that my problems come from me being too full of myself, and refusing to adapt to change. My life sucks because of this.
Physical
Getting hit in the face while having a bad tooth. Luckily, I fixed my oral hygiene by the time all my permanent teeth came in. Cavity free for almost six years.

Oh, and I cope with pain by insulting and demeaning others.

Speaking of pain, what would you do if you were trapped in Heavenly Host from the Corpse Party games? It's a cursed elementary school contained in another dimension, and if you die there your spirit suffers the pain of your death for eternity.

Some of the death descriptions include...
>skull cracked open with blunt instrument
>willingly offered own flesh as food to sustain friend
>drank contaminated water; died vomiting
>died of loneliness
And my personal favorite
>suicide upon discovering little sister's lifeless remains