Post your torture music when you feel worthless and need to be punished

^^ big ups to this. Detoxing off heroine because our family is too poor to afford more then half a gram for half a week at BEST and between my mind practically separating from my body and being schizophrenic I pass out and dream, in an incredibly, horrifyingly viscerally real way. In my latest "Dream" I felt my tricep get ripped out and had my muscle sling into my arm when I tried to move it because all it could do is constrict and relax like a noodle with gas being pressed through it occasionally, I know this is personal and has nothing to do with some larger sense of "Pick yourself up!" Or something but any time I see this shit my instant, gut response is "You whiny, snively little shit. I'd thank God and become a pastor to repay his unending mercy if all I had to fucking live with is being a retard who's too retarded to not go out into society and not be a retard".

nope not really i know am worthless but i dont deserve to be punished bc am not wrong the world is but thx for asking

I wish I could meet you irl to cave your stupid entitled face in. Then you can actually talk about some torture. Ooh! I could tie you down, cut off your fucking eyelids and make you look at your stupid shitty self in the mirror until even you can't keep up your delusional bullshit. Go fucking die. Nobody doxxed you or you wouldn't be so fucking intact. So rest assured. You haven't been doxxed until I come take your eyelids for being a stupid piece of shit.

theres something called MENTAL TORTURE not just physical torture you twat you act liek you know TORTURE but you know nothing

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your retarded am talking about mental torture not physical torture yeah am not physical tortured but mentaly knowing amma gonna be a incel all of my life haveing no friends being a autist cant even go outside bc am livving in a 3 world country not even safe here

while you sit in you (privileged country) have 100000 chanced of a happy life while i wither here having 0% of any happynes kys fag

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It's kinda funny how you reply with angsty teen "Ugh, you don't know my pain MOM" bullshit while totally ignoring anything I say. You just want to be a victim, you can't face the reality that being awkward isn't torture so you instead wanna go "UGH, IT'S NOT WHAT YOU THINK, ****MOM****". Your pain isn't coming from some sense of loneliness but the inner turmoil you have from wanting to believe you're a victim, because everyone does nowadays, everyone wants to be free of the stresses and pains and be carried by others because they're a victim and, at least, make their lives a little easier while looking like a better person in the eyes of people who don't realize that everyone alive is the same, like nobles in ancient times. If you have your arm ripped off by malfunctioning heavy machinery because no one checked if it was safe in months you're a victim of corporate greed. If you were beaten by your parents because they had no power and got joy out of your suffering because they had the ability to make you suffer you're a victim of self-hatred, if you're born ugly or get a chronic illness you're just a victim of being born. Nothing the fuck any of us can do to make it better then accept victimhood is just like aristocratic status, the only reason it matters is because people decided it did, and that all this shit, all this melodrama "omg my parents are mean to me, I deserve to be tortured and want everyone to know I said I think I should be tortured because my parents are mean to me" is just gonna reinforce the belief that any of this is actually valid and make you ACTUALLY miserable.

thx user you opened my eyes i know how am a fag and a retard and ik every one is like me (literately every one on this site) but am just saying i hate being alone even you guys have friends i have nothing i have shit personality no Friends no one knows i exist people make fun of me for being a retarded cant even make friends online am not a victim but i just want even one friend to cope even a online one and my parents divorced saying with my father who hates me and like my brothers (they got a divorce bc dad ben ''bad;; with me) thats what my mom said but its true bc he treats me like shit

Lol I just have to read the first line or two to tell you didn't actually try to extrapolate anything remotely positive from that post and just wanted to fuel the "Everyone's bullying me" narrative. It's all there, you REALLY wanna be happy? Read what I wrote and think about it, don't just start tearing up and aggressively rage-snorting because internet man say (what looks like) mean thing.

youtube.com/watch?v=utjzKQVIrds
short and sweet

i understand what you wrote your point is stop being vitctem and you well be happy bc being a victem fuels your sadness right ?

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I'm in need of a friend as well. At the least we can be miserable together.