Im a sociopath, with a little capscity for feelings but not much, should I kill myself?

>Having intrusive thoughts makes me a sociopath
Everyone gets those every once in awhile, if you get them more that's not really worth much either unless you act on it. You're fine.

Im smart enough to know that Im not normal levels of empathy, and I also have dereanged thoughts daily. Seeing bad news in the headlines sometimes makes me physically laugh, but sometimes I also feel bad. Trending towards the firmerx or just neutral.

You should kill yourself for having a 1.71 MB PNG file of two retards standing you fucking moron

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When I was a kid I threw a rock at a bird. I didnt try to torture it but it died and I did it out of some sick desire. This is what makes me want to kill myself. Now I "love" animals (like i really feel something but it feels hypocritical after what I did) and have no actual desire to do evil things (the thoughts just pop into my head) so I guess I changed but In still fucked in the head. I kind of want someone to tell me I need to die

If you think it was a sick desire you are not a sociopath. If you think you are lacking feelings it's most likely because you have depression. I've known one legit sociopath. We grew up together, he was acting like my best friend for 18 years and then suggested we should start a business together only to rip me of my initial investment and moving on to another state. He didn't care at all considering the fine details of the betrayal. He also had violent outbursts and he genuinely didn't care about other people. His curse is that he is very intelligent and has a very very strong ego and so he is very afraid of dying. I found out later that his lifestyle is to find a woman and live at her place, sucking her finances to eventually move on to another woman.

I think Im lacking feelings because Im borderline sociopath. My dad appears full sociopath to me. while my mom is a bit crazy but sort of an empath. I think their two traits kind of blended into whatever kind of crazy I am

People DON'T HAVE EMPATHY. They only seem to do because they understand the game of life and have to maintain a some what similar amount of it to get along. They're just following the rules.

Just a suggestion dude
Why don't you go get diagnosed instead of asking for advice on fucking Jow Forums of all places?

I think they feel bad when they hear bad news, especially with people close to them. And especially girls. But they can be callous at times. But yeah, pwople have less enpathy than I used to believe

Because I know Im basically a sociopath, and afaik theres no treatment. I do my own sort of cognitive behavioral therapy but it doesnt really work

Im not really asking for advice, just what people think of people like me

If by people like you you mean, people who self diagnose and then self medicate according to their self diagnosis:
You are an insufferable moron and impossible to take seriously. You ask for our help when you won't even help yourself. Get professional help or get bent.

I didnt ask for help. I can self diagnose, sociopathy isnt that complex. I met all the criteria for Antisocial Personality Disorder .

You are most likely not a sociopath because you are contradicting yourself. And to answer what I think of sociopaths: Since I had a childhood friend who was a sociopath (the literature fits his behavior and he told me that as well) I will never let anyone who displays any sort of behavior that is only remotely linked to psychopath/sociopath patology get close to me and if I just sense somebody in my presence being psychopath/sociopath I will be very careful around them. I think sociopaths believe it is okay to use and deceit other people because if you can be used and deceived you deserve it. That's in the literature and I also experienced it firsthand.

THIS
fucking hell, how do more people not know this? humans didn't evolve to have empathy or kindness, pretty much every single person on earth is on the spectrum of sociopathy & every single last human being who has ever walked this planet has been highly sadistic and antisocial
op should just go to some party and mingle with other people, his supposed lack of empathy & disregard for others is natural

>feeling emotionless
>asking if he should off himself
>have trouble processing empathy for friends
Idk you sound like a normal teenager dude. I wouldn't stress it much, pick up a drinking or smoking habit (preferably non filtered) and wait for it to subside.
Best of Luck

So do plenty of people, everyone is antisocial, some are just better at not showing it than others. Go out have a drink, get your genitalia scrubbed down (however you wanna go about that), make some new friends that just wanna drink and party and dont forget to smile. Play the game and eventually you'll forget you're playing.

I think if I was smarter I wouldve ended up more like that. But I also have depression and anxiety so Im not calm in the face of danger like a true sociopath. I'm basically a social and life failure so Im not in any position to take advantage of people, because I cant outsmart most people.

The main thing I have is narcissism (I used to think I was special and cool for some reason) and then the evil thoughts and almost complete lack of empathy (except when i take lsd) which is really the worst thing about me. When I try to say sorry to people it feels feigned, and sometimes Im internally laughing at their pain. Which sometimes I feel bad about that, for like a second, then it goes away. But one time I took acid after my friends GF died and actually cried about it

A sociopath cannot have depression or anxiety. All they can feel is anger.

I think they can have narcissistic typedepression

These apply to Antisocial people and borderline sociopathic :

antisocial people are less likely to care about social values concerning suicide

antisocial people have fewer genuine relationships holding them back

empathy and forming relationships is, in my opinion, one of the larger sources of positive stimuli available in this world. Cut the ability to do that off, you cut off one of what I consider to be very few incentives for living

antisocial people often don't fit in as well as people who aren't, I wouldn't be surprised if feeling out of place or defective is common

the modern world is very rule-driven and the idea of society is deeply entrenched in most. Antisocial people tend to not like rules and society (it's literally there in the name), which are often inescapable through other means

extreme stimulus-seeking activities can damage a person's body, mind or freedom enough that their quality of life is severely hampered. Antisocial people tend to seek such stimuli more than most. Also you can only run the hedonic treadmill for so long before it becomes dissatisfying.

probably the most speculative bullet here, but antisocial people may see more disturbing aspects of the world more clearly than non-antisocial people in exchange for missing out on connection

Hey Doc, what diagnosis can you give me:
>dread rejection so I never interact with girls
>could interact with males just fine because it's socially acceptable to use humiliation and violence to get your way if another guy says no to you (at least until and in high school)
I also can't really explain but I used to "pre-emptively" avoid looking weak, like getting into a fight my first day after transferring schools so I wouldn't have to get in fights later if I'd instead be quiet and lonely for the first days.

High school ended and I no longer have this back up behavior available to me without major disadvantages like fines and jail so I just don't interact with people anymore. Unable to call any people I used to know in case they would reject me and the chance for them to do so grows larger with every year I don't keep in touch I'm sure.

Im an actual sociopath and want to manipulate people and have fun again, but i dont want to go to hell.

OP here, Autism and/or social anxiety, and moderately high testosterone

Im also autistic and weird so I cant really socialize, not for lack of trying though. I liked making people like me when it occasionally worked. Id rather be an empath though than a normie sociopath anyways

Do you have any stories of social conquest?

Really my only one was hacking my GFs FB and stalking her (while we were dating), making her love me then dumping her. But it wasnt really intentionally/consciouslly of what I was doing, more of a riding rails robitica thing. Oh yeah, and not telling my best friend that I did evil shit, have evil thoughts and am basically a sociopath.

I don't think I even have asperger's syndrome let alone more severe autism because I knew and bullied a kid who did have assburgers (didn't realize they had it at first which caused the bullying misunderstanding and later on I actually tried to explain sarcasm to them)

They had visibly bad social awareness and could not tell when people asked a ingenuine question like "tell us about your favorite videogame" and then laughed at him when he answered honestly. Things like that.

I meant slight autism, the getting in a fight to avoid awkward situstion and the roughhousing sounds a bit autism. Were you able to otherwise socialize?

Yeah I had no fear of being around people and talking or joking about meaningless things otherwise. The "pre-emptive" not trying to look weak thing is some feeling I've had since the first time I went to school with kids my age and I ended up making the other kids behave worse because they followed my example while I was just trying to show them I'm not an easy bullying target.

Also I didn't actually go around twisting people's arms around after saying something embarrassing they pointed me out for because I downright completely avoided saying anything sincere or vulnerable. I just had to know it's a "way out" and most of the time the only people I put in headlocks were my own friends because they were the only ones I'd have conversations with where we jokingly made fun of each other.

It seems like a really silly way of thinking when I look at it now but I think I'd revert to it if I started socializing a lot again.

No, just live following the rules like you supposed to do. At the end of your natural life you'll be rewarded. Trust my motherfucking arse sir.

I guess it was depression, from low self esteem maybe, cus you said fear of rejection