Getting to the point where i'm obsessed that there must be some way to break reality so that i can change it

when I see somebody searching for the answers in the stars I tell them go for it for the rest of us who never will.

Just learn to willwork, stranger. It's not hard, you just have to wake up.
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he's underaged and doesn't have much literary exposure

Yeah because you know so much about me from one thing I said. You're an actual indolent retard and a self-righteous entitled weeb. Good luck with that hubris Mr. Know-It-All.

kek, i didn't do anything except point out the obvious from your incapability to understand my viewpoint

ironically, your ego is driving you to make attacks at me. your id is almost nonexistent by comparison

do you have a job user? Work is what keeps us alive. If you enjoy your work, then you enjoy life. And life is a continual source of enjoyment and pleasure

I feel kinda bad for the kid because I've also suffered from horrible delusions spun from my depression so I can clearly mark the signs.

OP, I think you probably know a little bit about the spiritual. I agree that an egoistic standpoint only concerned with the world of form is problematic when it comes to seeking joy and peace in life, if that's what you're driving at. However, you gotta quit with this metaphysical shit. The fact is you're going to spend a lot of time literally driving yourself insane with the self-fulfilling feedback loop of becoming more delusional and thus having more credulity in what isn't real, and therefore seeing things that aren't real, which will feed your delusions and so on and so forth.

I'm speaking from the experience of being a 26 year old living in a living room and too broken to have friends or a decent career at this current time. I'm starting from scratch here, and I wish I could go back to myself 10 years ago and tell him the same thing I'm telling you now: There is no escaping your reality, and it only gets worse the more power you give to the negative. Your plan to break free of this disappointing life is delusional and likely suicidal. Maybe you should seek a creative outlet with which to channel your irrational thoughts. The irrational is crucial to our spiritual survival but when it controls our entire cognition it's horrible.

>likely suicidal
wouldn't be so bad

I get your viewpoint though. My reply does not need to be a direct parallel to the idea you failed to express concisely. I'll admit I was a little bit tickled because you were rude, and my ego is causing me to reply. But all I did was give you a suggestion, albeit a goofy one but what I was trying to imply is that maybe you should talk to someone who knows a lot about that kind of stuff. That's all. Also you're trying really hard to come off as smart just because you studied metaphysics once and jack off to loli porn. Don't do that. Being prideful and wildly self-confident will hurt you more than it will ever help you. Also ego is the only thing driving you to type. I love my ego. If you really don't care about ego then stop moving right now.

You replied to the wrong guy, I'm the guy trying to talk some sense into OP too. I read him the same way because I've been there. It's all just major dissatisfaction in life and I hope he gets the help he needs, whether it be a therapist or a scientist.

this board's gotten too caught up with stories of actual insanity. OP is just talking about what keeps him up at night

What evidence do you have for anything else? This is a different user btw. I used to question that stuff when I was young and did a lot of psychedelics but then I learned that that is just how psychedelics get you. Other drugs make you feel good in a more straight forward way, but psyches make you feel like you know something very important and sacred and then when you come down your brain is left trying to interpret it. You can fool yourself into thinking you know something but the only way to really feel that is to just do more drugs. There is no secret that is like that sober. Its just the chemicals man. Dont let them fool you. If you are not on drugs then I would suggest chilling out for a while. Try cleaning up your diet and doing some physical activity like running. When the thoughts come just notice change topics in your head. If you cant do that, let them flow out and just be calm. They are just coming from your emotions and thats okay. Try to be completely impartial and ask non leading questions. They can be very grounding if you are honest about how unreasonable they are.

I have been nuts and you can get yourself out of it by noticing why you would choose to think one thing instead of another and being entirely honest, but mostly like I said just dont give the thoughts any more attention than they require.

If death brings the end of all that your conscious life will ever be, and what you seek is knowledge of higher orders of life, then death will likely bring the end of any chance of finding that out.

Sometimes the cure for the pain is the pain.

I'm sorry you got dealt this hand. The secret behind it all is jealousity (google the "correct" spelling of "jealosity" for more hints ;)).

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Oh never mind you did reply to the right guy. I read the first sentence wrong. I agree with a lot of things you said. However if OP wants to mess around with the metaphysical shit I say go for it, just in a healthy and productive way. Not in a way where he's gonna lash out at anyone who challenges his way of thinking. That's a downward spiral you don't even know you're in.

Hell yeah. Godspeed to OP. He just needs to broaden his horizons and realize he can't use hate, close-mindedness and desperation to will things into reality.