I'm a biological girl, and in the past year or so I realized I had PCOS. This actually brings me a strange comfort...

What did you expect? No robot has ever secured a date with a "fembots", they all want Chad.

I just want someone to hug, I haven't hugged someone in years, I need it so my heart can feel warm again.

Yo what city you in boy, I'll ride my bike down to your house and give you a hug.

Hug your mom, these bitches will never hug you.

Sorry, I will explain. I already have a boyfriend, I have been with him forever. I get genuinely sad when I see cute personalities that are single; if I was also single I would be interested in you based on the little I know, but I can't explore that possibility in this universe even though I do wish I could ease your loneliness. I really hope you find a girlfriend who loves and cares for you. You should be able to. You seem like a super nice person capable of a lot of love e.g. In fact most people on r9k are deep people with pure personalities hidden under layers of outer sadness and bitterness. That's why I come to this site every day. I love you all. I would be your friend. Please don't give up a search for a girlfriend.

i just looked it up. its polycystic ovary syndrome

what are your favorite programming languages

Not that guy, but you're too sweet for this world. If I were your friend I would end up falling for you.

You're a false, people-pleasing cunt. You're likely to be a disingenuous person as well.

I know this to be true because if you even reply to this, you're going to make some convoluted quasi-empathetic statement about how I'm 'hurting' and expressing himself in a malevolent manner based on his loneliness, etc.

You're a woman with a boyfriend, you don't need to be here. There is nothing you can offer because your act of benevolence is simply an act.

get out of my board hairy roastie

I live far far away in Asia region.

Me and her aren't that close ever since my father passed away a year ago.

I tried not to give up, I'm not looking for one, I just wish I had someone to hug to. I've been angry over things these past months. I yell at thing that get me annoyed, even some of my family thinks that I'm weird. My mother thinks that I'm acting all of this, when I'm actually not. I don't feel like I am me, I'm not my own. But I do keep on breathing for the sake of my existence.

You sound like you're suffering from some depersonalization issues bro. Having a friend or someone to hug could definitely help you out, maybe help you feel more connected to yourself again... but I'd definitely suggest talking to a professional about that shit. It can get intense over a long period time.

my favorite language is C Sharp right now. I'm trying not to be intimidated and somehow the pcos realization makes me feel better in mental endeavors, even though before it was a source of shame.
That means a lot to me. Thank you so much.

I've been to psychiatrist before, my mother wasn't that supportive of me going to it, but I still went to. They gave me meds (called Escapitaloram 10mg, or something close to that). They messed up with my emotions and feelings. I wasn't happy but neither sad. So I ended up feeling numb most of the time. Speaking about friends I don't have much around my circle, just 3 and those are close ones. I am not an open person let alone a shut-in. A person who mostly isolate himself inside his room doing nothing. I was a victim of bullying when I was in highschool, sexually, mentally and physical. It got me tainted with the thoughts of me not trusting any of other human being except for my mother and 3 close friend. I honestly don't know what my future is gonna be, but I feel bad for my mother who's worried about her only son on this family. I do not wish to cause pain to her anymore as I already did back then. Sometimes I do think what is my purpose of life, I never felt so lost after my father passing and my grandma on the same year. I feel like I had nowhere to go or do in life after losing them. I wonder if one day I lose my mother too, I'll probably snap.

Nobody who programs in c# calls it "c sharp"

GET OFF MY BOARD ROASTIE REEEE

how did you find out/get diagnosed with pcos?

It was genuine.
made me chuckle
good catch. i'm definitely still bad at it. i'm just learning from a book right now so i am not part of the culture, and that's probably why i'm retardedly referring to it as "c sharp". but it's been my favorite so far. before this i did well in programming classes for C and Java but i've never gone expertmode in any language. i'm intending to with C# *** =)
that amount of suffering seems an abnormal load to shoulder for one person. I am so sorry of what you've been through. despite your past you're still thinking of others, like your mom, and working to bring happiness to them. maybe because you know how important it is to reduce stress in others since you've been so flooded with it in certain parts of your life? i think if you keep resisting negativity and fighting your way through like you have been doing, that you will get the goodness you've been giving out back to you, and that naturally people will recognize you clearly as a goodhearted person and want to be around you. then you should find the hugs and love you've long deserved.

Polycystic ovary syndrome. It gives you tons of acne, some dandruff, frizzier hair, makes you grow more hair than most girls, and you become awkwardly shaped and generally ungraceful. but now I am thinking in addition to appearance that it might have given me some 'boybrain' too and that makes me kinda happy and more confident
Well, I first found out PCOS even existed ~3 years ago and was immediately interested because I met pretty much the entire checklist. it took a few doctor visits but irregular cycles and a hormone imbalance sealed the deal. keto diet supposedly helps but i'm also on medication now. I'm just hoping some of my hybridness actually affected my brain, and that i can use it to my advantage. I've always felt more guyish, especially starting around age 12. actually throughout my life i've been shunned by girls and been treated much kinder by males; i kind of feel like males are actually generally nicer but that could just be because i put girls off for whatever reason

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Back to the kitchen, make me a sandwich and bare my children you stupid cunt.

>I'm a hybrid girlboy and therefore I'm meant to succeed like a boy would
That's not what PCOS is you tard, you have tumor, possibly multiple in your utherus.

so when do you find out that you're gay too

"Women with PCOS often have an increased level of both total testosterone and free testosterone. Furthermore, even a slight increase in testosterone in a woman's body can suppress normal menstruation and ovulation."
ergo i'm more boyish chemically than a normal girl. my mom always wanted a boy anyway

heh