This is suffering

>Be ugly 23yo virgin
>Live in Northern Europe
>Haven't had any friends for over 10 years
>Raised in violent family, never experienced love from my own family
>Never experienced love from anybody
>Go outside
>See the most beautiful and innocent looking blondes everywhere

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but are you brown, user?

Nope, white but with dark brown hair.
6.7 (207cm)

you might as well approach one of them and say hello. white blondes might not be around much longer

I know, I try but rejection from beautiful women is unbelievable painful and the pain endures for months.
I talked to one of them, she looked so innocent and conservative in her mannerisms and clothing, but then she starting smoking a cigarette and I heard she goes to nightclubs.
I asked if she was not going to have children and she said no...

>I know, I try but rejection from beautiful women is unbelievable painful and the pain endures for months.

get over it. women want a man, not a little boy who sits inside and cries.

>but then she starting smoking a cigarette and I heard she goes to nightclubs.
I asked if she was not going to have children and she said no...

so...find a different girl? not seeing the problem

stop making excuses and be a man

You don't know northern European women, they are all whores, every single one of them.

At 23 the expectations of me are quite high but I am genetically a loser, jobless, ill. I'm also quite ugly.

>they are all whores, every single one of them.

>At 23 the expectations of me are quite high but I am genetically a loser, jobless, ill. I'm also quite ugly.

being cynical only prolongs your loneliness and your suffering

In fact it does not. You see, every emotion has its conclusion or action. Depression and suffering in general has suicide. Anger has murder.
When you are sufficiently depressed or in pain, it is impossible for you not to commit suicide when you can do so.

But I don't really wanna die. So what do I do? I am already extremely depressed. My life and society in general are ruined, dysfunctional and it only gets worse and worse.
If I try to find a partner I will be rejected which causes tremendous pain which lasts for months.
If I keep to myself and use entertainment to forget about it, which only works as long as I sit in my apartment and do not go outside, it will only be harder in the future to find a partner and it will surely be a roastie cumstained whore.

Keep in mind my father was 50 when he had me so it is in my genes to be a failure at finding a woman.

honestly you're probably better off not reproducing, what kind of father would you make anyway? no child needs to hear that kind of doomsayer shit from their parents