I abused animals when I was little and I feel extremely guilty about it now...

I abused animals when I was little and I feel extremely guilty about it now. I wasnt abused and I know that my brain was very underdeveloped but I still feel rotten to the core for what I did.. I don't know what to do.

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I wish I could go back in time and punch little me in the fucking face.

you're probably a serial killer in the making

Congratulations on your dubs, user.
Every human makes mistakes, and does things they regret. It's important that you understand what you did wrong, and use your experience as a lesson. If you want to do some good for some animals, volunteer at your local shelter.

That would only be true if OP didn't feel bad about what they did.

When I was very little I threw dirt at this cat that would hang around my house. Like actually hit it directly with these hardened bits that would break apart on impact. It was practically throwing rocks. I laughed too and that really bums me out to remember it so clearly. The only closure I have for the situation is knowing that my family took it in and I was nice to it ever since. He had a good life in the end, but I can't help feeling like being a stray was probably hard enough and throwing rocks at him was just one more fucked thing that happened in his life. Also I would poke fish with sticks too see how much pressure it would take to pierce through their scaley skin. Mostly dead fish but it's pretty weird to look back at little me doing shit like that.

Young people do stupid shit and 99% of the time it's not out of genuine malice. It only matters how we feel when we remember these things and how we change the behavior.

>teenage regrets are mostly over being an asshole to random people on old message boards that have since turned into ghost towns
I recently found one of the people that teenage me was a dick toward and I dropped him an anonymous $50 Patreon donation with an apology note, I'm still not sure if he ever saw the note or saw it and chose to ignore it or what

Thank you for the advice user, it really means a lot. But I wasn't mean to any animals that end up in a sanctuary like cats or dogs. I unknowingly (but heavily) abused small lizards that I would capture. I thought that I was just 'experimenting' but I am absolutely horrified with what I remember now.

You can't ever expect anyone's forgiveness, but you did the right thing. Apologizing is all you can do. The money wasn't really necessary I guess. I hope he at least read your note.

Dropping a donation was the only way I could find to send the note without having my name at the top which I figure would have made him more likely to ignore it, I'm not sure if the amount of cash attached was excessive or made it come off like I was trying to be manipulative or what

You're completely right about that, what I did was out of sick curiosity that I didn't understand was sick at the time. I really wish my parents would've stepped in though. They were the ones who taught me that hurting bigger animals like cats and dogs was wrong.

Get on my level I owned chickens when I was younger and I would throw them into the air and let them fly

Aww.. that's actually really sweet of you user. It would only be manipulative if you wanted something in return, you were just righting a wrong.

Can chickens fly? Do farmers clip their wings?
Orihinalsm

>Can chickens fly? Do farmers clip their wings?
Yes, and yes.

Wing clipping is not cruel, though.

lemme guess OP, no dad/father figure?

kids are stupid, they keep doing stupid shit because that's how you grow up, you do stupid shit and then you realize they're stupid, the fact that you stopped and now feel guilt shows that you grew out of this phase and this is good
it's just part of life, I think everyone here would do if given the chance

Hmm I should have clarified. Not cruel for chickens , which are dumb as all shit and more likely to get into trouble than out of it when they are fully flighted.

For other breed, especially more intelligent birds, I'm not keen on clipping.

same, i used to punch cats, dogs, and i killed a few chickens by throwing rocks at them.
do i regret it? no, i was a child. abusing animals at that time used to make sense for my brain, so why regret such a thing?
we all do brutal things as a child op, one thing or another probably happens to everyone.
>i don't know what to do
there isn't anything to do other than accepting what you did op, you can't go back in time.

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I once saw this one guy gut a fish alive when I was semi young.. I was very distraught and his excuse for doing such a horrible thing was 'it's just a fish brah'

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I used to kill ants for fun, shit changes. I wouldn't hurt a cat but I would still kill ants just not for my own satisfaction but rather just because they are a nuisance. Insects are fine to kill as long as there is no sadism or malice. If you really had to kill a cat to eat you still aren't a bad person as long as again you don't torture them. Kids are evil via ignorance, but once you grow up you are not the person you used to be and shouldn't be beholden to your sins at a time when you didn't know what sin was.

The only animals I've abused are insects. I used to burn flies with a candle as a kid. Fun shit.

>I abused animals when I was little and I feel extremely guilty about it now.

Get a new "New Years" resolution.
Only one option now user.
Bots don't suffer.

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No, both parents were there. I'm very glad that I know better now, but the thoughts still haunt me yknow? Thanks for saying that though, it makes me feel a bit better

Well I suppose that's correct. There's nothing I can do about it so I might as well just move on. I really wish my parents taught me better when it came to animals so I wouldn't have this awful memory stuck in my head though.

Tbh it was just a fish

I've killed so many fish lmao

Fishes have no souls

They still feel pain, deliberately causing unnecessary pain is evil.

I hate how creul people are to fish. They've done nothing wrong and just wanna survive.

I just don't understand why large scale fish farmers can't just cut the heads off of the fish before gutting or skinning them. Like fucking,, why would you do that?? Thats incredibly cruel to say the least and nobody eats the heads anyways! And doesn't the fish squirming make it harder to do your job? Someone should make something for killing fish instantly to prevent cruelty.

Killing fish is the most satisfying part of fishing for me. I hit them in the head with a metal bar used for a jack. It feels amazing.

Pretty sure they hit them in the head before that

That's okay, since you're not doing psyco shit like literally skinning them alive. What you do kills them semi instantly if you're aiming for their head. Good god I hope you're not torturing them.

I've seen videos where they don't do that. They let the poor fish suffer and it's pretty fucked up.

>They still feel pain
I don't think they do, nor insects or lizards

tell us lizard stuff

checked
I tore ants by the thorax as they filed out of a hole as a kid. It was fucked up honestly, they had done no crime. If you feel remorse for your actions that's good and means you aren't going to do anything similar in the future.

You know what? I'm gonna advocate for better fishing standards from now on. If I can help stop the evil that is the fishing companies then maybe I can forgive myself.

They most certainly do feel pain. If they did not then they wouldn't try to move when they're getting hurt.

Green anoles are calmer than brown anoles, copper headed brown anoles are smarter and more nimble than any other type, skinks are very elusive but pretty, always catch them with the most surface area of your hand because this greatly reduces the chacne of them getting injured, secure them with two fingers behind their head and your other hand lightly gripping their body, they don't like bugs with hard shells and prefer soft things like small flies, if they're small their bite can't break skin. If you find a starving lizard put it's snout into water and let it drink (it won't drink in captivity for some reason) then poke it's head lightly a few times, this will agitate the lizars so it'll open its mouth, put food in its mouth ( the lizard also wont eat if in captivity.) I nursed two lizards back to health doing that.

thats fucking retarded and you know it

become a vegan to make up for your sins

>Someone should make something for killing fish instantly to prevent cruelty.

Exists. It's like a little rod/knife that you poke into a particular spot and destroy their brain.

Volunteer your time at an animal shelter, maybe. Prove to yourself that you're not that person any more, that you have empathy for animals.

>do i regret it? no, i was a child.
It was still you that did those things. That doesn't just excuse what you did. There's no sense tormenting yourself for what you did, yes, but you also can't shrug off all responsibility by saying "it made sense to my brain at the time" because anyone could excuse literally any behavior ever with that reasoning.

When my family go fishing we break the necks of the fish we catch, but when I was younger it was quite hard to do so. Sometimes I wouldnt break it completely and they'd move a bit in the bucket so I'd have to tell my dad to please break it properly because I'd feel bad

>that doesn't just excuse what you did
i wasn't excusing anything. i don't regret doing it and would do it again if i still had the same mindset
>there's no sense tormenting yourself for what you did
i don't
>but you also can't shrug off all responsibility by saying ''it made sense to my brain at that time''' because anyone could excuse literally any behavior ever with that reasoning
tell me, what responsibility i got by torturing an animal when i was a child?

I remember as a kid I would take the fishes out of my aquarium and start opening them up with a knife, after this I would put them back in and tell my mom that a fish just died for unknown reasons. Also I remember smashing lizards with rocks and then opening them up with sticks, I did that once with the little hamster of my neighbor. As a kid I treated a lot of animals like shit. I feel guilty about it and sometimes I cant clear my mind from the thoughts that I never apologized and have never told someone that irl. But what can we do now, the past is the past and you can't touch it, just hope that people don't remember that "thing".

You should feel horrible. What sick fuck does that?

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fuck the past, if you're not doing it now and don't feel likedoing it in the future just ignore it