25+ thread: The long road to wizardry

Ready to die~

Drinking myself to sleep tonight.

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Same brother.
It never gets any easier. I remember being 21 like it was yesterday, thinking I had all the time in the world. Time really creeps up on you so fast.

I kinda told my family that I'm suicidal and now they're always checking on me and texting me to say how worried they are. It really doesn't help things, wish I'd kept my mouth shut. The meds I'm on do fuck all either.

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Harem that shit up nibba

I became a christian
getting involved with a church has really kept me grounded. but I still fetishize suicide and wish I was dead occasionally.

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Turning 28 in a week. Making over six figures now. Have my own place and a dog.

I literally slept 40/48 hours this past weekend I think the meds are losing efficacy lol

I've started becoming religious again too.
I abandoned it after growing up, but it's creeping back into my life. I need an outlet that's fundamentally good, not shit like drugs and videogames.

Lifes average now I guess. Live in a shitty apartment, have a shitty job, etc. Thinking about going back to school so I can at least feel like ive accomplished something.

Today I went to a bar with my oneitis, she always humors my affection for her, but she has a long term boyfriend.

I should off myself

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I'm not sure I would want more than one woman nagging me. Seems like it could be pretty annoying and I would never get alone time.
At this point I'm just hoping she leaves me before she finds out that I feel this way.

I've been religious for like 4 years now but I only started going to church a year ago. it's essential. the spiritual stuff is cool and all but the community aspect of it is what really improves life I think.

not good. my body is breaking down even though i work out and eat healthy. might have arthritis or something in my knees but i'm too lazy to call a doctor, or do anything productive. i don't even concern myself with all the trivial shit like nogf because i always said i want to fix myself before i do that. something is really wrong with me, mentally and physically i just can't figure out what. my shrooms will be done in 2 weeks, so that's something.

>not drugs and vidya

Lemme tell ya somethin' as an addict. Everything is addictive user. Whether it's meth or hiking, you can honestly get addicted to everything. You want a positive outlet that you won't get hooked on? Good luck with that. My point being that you should hike, draw, write, anything that isn't currently doing drugs and vidya like me. No path is the right path, but some are better than others, I guess, though mine don't hurt anybody either(i don't do hard shit that needs to be imported through dealers.)

I remember being 5 like it was yesterday, thinking, AHAHAHAHHA I'LL NEVER GET OLD, SUCK IT LEGAL DRINKERS. And now here I am at 34, wanting to blow my brains all over the ceiling every day of the year, hoping my mom dies soon just so I can do it guilt free. Keep your body in shape, else it'll betray you like THAT. Join the military, take up a sport, anything to keep you active.

29 here. Drinking red bull and driving around are the only things I seem to enjoy lately.

Found out there was a fuckup at work today. Something that was supposed to get done by the end of the year didn't. Now tomorrow I have to go tell my boss about it and I know I'm going to end up taking the blame because shit rolls downhill. I wish I could leave work at work and just go home at the end of the day and not have to think about it until I'm back there.

Same. Had to cut the energy drinks though

otoh in the near future you could be chilling with your kid watching your wives lez out after extracting your nut with a double bj

love is the only way

That could be nice, but I really do value my time alone. It's a good fantasy, though. She's not pregnant with one kid, it's twin girls.

32. Probably going to be my last year. I considered it last year but had a stroke of good luck happen, which put off my problems until December when that luck crumbled. Can't imagine going through another year.

this poster is based and redpilled

If you don't have your shit together by 40, off yourself. If there's no hope in sight no matter what you do, off yourself. Don't give up just yet user, some shit might happen again. Though honestly, expecting double luck in this life is a pipe dream at best.

about the same.

I have finally reached the age where my body is fucked. every part of my body is acting weird now. I dont think clearly anymore, my eyes act weird, my teeth are fucking shot, all kinds of stomach pains, both knees fucked, etc...

fuck i hate my life/job.

Anyone have a for real time machine i can borrow.

2019 is only one week old and it's already been a shit year so far.

>28
>still alone
>don't really see a future for myself
>always hurt everywhere
>gotten so tired of it all that I have days where I consider suicide rather than deal with a minor inconvenience
The worst are the days where I get home from work and just lie in bed in agony because my knees feel like they're exploding.

27year old who has been a neet for almost a year. How the fuck do I find a job? I've been applying every single day on indeed for the past 4months. I've gone to interviews but they never call me back after. Should I suffer and take the fast food pill?

fast food is horrible. consider retail.

Try grocery store. Overnight shift if you're a true robot

I doubt i'll get hired at retail since i'm ugly as fuck.

Join a trade union
Can you nail a nail into a hammer, work outside and be a yes man? Then you can be paid $30+ an hour in a labour union.

Smoking, drinking and doing drugs, as always.

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do you smell bad / have bad hygiene? if the answer is no i dont think anyone cares that ur ugly unless ur like 1 in 10000 case

I don't think that's true. I've seen some ugly ass people working at walmart before.
it is true that ugly people have a harder time getting hired in any field, though.

dont do fast food.

Kitchen work can be fun though, and most people in kitchens have some sort of fucked up background so you'd be among fairly similar people to yourself id assume.

Fast food you'll just get thrown in with a bunch of 16 year olds who make fun of you for being over 20 and working at a fucking taco bell

im ugly as fuck and have applied to 5 jobs in my life, every single interview ended with me getting hired on the spot.

Being ugly has literally nothing to do with getting hired. Just dont be a social autist

I'm pretty dumb and don't know how that'll go.

I've already tried and gone for a interview and never got selected.

I've tried applying to walmart multiple times and even passing their dumb test. Guess my luck is that shit.

I've worked as a dishwasher/prep cook and that job sucks ass.

>Just dont be a social autist
Where there goes my chances...

you never know till you try

beggars cant be choosers

how much stuff are you applying to. I would just non stop apply for jobs, all day , 7 days a week, eventually someplace desperate will hire you

This is the last week of working my shit job. I got contacted by an old boss of mine when I worked as a roundsman and he asked me to work as a patissier at an upscale resort. It pays slightly less than my current job, but it's less riskier and I won't have to smell like ozone or metal fumes anymore.

36 here. Bracing for another huge disappointment in my life. Got me all kinds of worried.

i always say. I been a failure at everything in life, why should i change up now.

>I should off myself
Oneitis is the worst brobot. I had a grill I had oneitis for years. It took years of beta orbiting before it slowly dawned on me that I was never going to have anything more than an acquaintance. Once I got to that point I just sort of accepted things and became very apathetic. I dunno if offing oneself is the best thing, I mean it ends the pain, but it ends everything. I often thing of suicide but I try to remember the one thing that keeps me going. It will get better with time.

Turning 31 soon. Life is a constant series of monotonous motions. I dunno everyone told me that the 30's are the new 20's but I am beginning that was just normies telling me their usual: "it will all be okay". I still try to find the small things in life to keep me going.

If you find that time machine, please take me with you, I want to punch the younger me in the face and tell him to spot being such an autistic fuck and get his life together

25 here. Nothing in my life changes in the last 8 years except that my mother died. I will die young and alone

The important type of love is action-based. What you feel for your oneitis is infatuation that would undoubtedly dissipate in a couple years if you ever managed to get a relationship with her.

Ya got kids man. Even beyond your marriage, you're not living for yourself anymore. You have to put them first until they're adults.

what kind of disappointment?

Any of you niggas ever manage to get a proper career where you earn actual money? (65k+) how did you do it? How were interviews? Did you ever get a gf? What is your life like compared to when you were 20? Friends? Tell me about it

Damn bro your nut is potent, make more babies with more women imo

I'm good. It's 2019 and I'm alive, that's what matters. I should've died like 10 times already

>Any of you niggas ever manage to get a proper career where you earn actual money?

it's having a decent IQ, going to college, studying and then getting a job like architect , chemist, pharmacist or whatever.

Us retards the best we can hope for is the trades

You are wrong as much as your are right. Few people gets "addicted" to things like hiking, you are taking the word completely out of its context. Passion does not mean addiction.

That said, you can have a passion for video games, thats fine. It's usually refered to as "hobby". But you can also have an addiction to video games, just as you can have an addiction to alcohol because you cosume it on a dangerous level and far too frequent than your physical and mental health should allow.

Video game becomes an addiction when you do it virtually every day, and start to postpone more urgent matters in your life, and abandon ethical choices or moral responsibilites because you'd rather do something that is essentional unproductive and objectivly harmful.
Nobody has ever begun to hike for these reasons, and hiking is objectivly healthy because it stimulates the natural you, instead of simulating like video games does (which is basically jerking off instead of having sex).

It's a sad thing to see on the internet, how many people that are truly addicted to video games without acknowledge it. You are ruining your lives becuse you consume it above moderation. First step is to realize you have a problem, and then you try to find something do about it, thats what every human person does. ife is a constant struggle to better ourselves and our families, it should be met with enthusiasm and not negativity and neglect. Third step is to get off this shitty board.

>28 this year
>never had gf and still virgin

I'm finishing uni but I still feel there's nothing much going and loneliness is making me insane.

>If you find that time machine, please take me with you, I want to punch the younger me in the face and tell him to spot being such an autistic fuck and get his life together

Ive had the exact same thought. Came up with a Serious Plan. First thought is That i could go back in time, tell my younger self not to be such a little bitch.

The conclusion i came to is Nothing would work. I'd need to go back and do it myself. My thinking is. 1. Get Time Machine. 2. Take Time Machine 100 years into the future. 3. Convince future scientists to warp my current day mind into my past self body. Like that show Travelers ; to around where i was in about 8th grade.

I was way too fuckin ugly to ever change my social life. But, i could prevent 10+ years of raw CRINGE. get super rich, under the radar , by my mid 20's and leave this shit hole and spend the rest of my life chilling in some laid back part of Europe

I feel like my parents never prepared me for life, it's like they wanted me to be a failure.

SEAN! I know you're a robot you necked-bearded, NEET, fuck.
Your grasp of katakana is baby-tier, your taste in k-pop is shit, and if you keep acting up I'll have the doctors dose you full of sedatives until you can't stand. I swear to god.

I had this happen to me and it pisses me off.
>Turn 18 all my classfriends and cousins have part time jobs
>Tell my parents I want a part time job and they shut me down and say I don't need it since they pretty much paying everything
>Graduate and want to start working but parents shut that down and say go to college to get a better paying job
>Go to college for 2years and drop out because didn't want to in the first place since I was pressured into going
>Become neet for 4years
>Mom tells me one time that she wakes up crying at night saying where she went wrong
>Inside I'm angry as fuck and want to lash out but hold it since I would probably get kicked out
I wish they would have let me get a job like I wanted. Now i'm 6years into neetdom thanks to them brainwashing me.

Probably if you were raised with discipline and hard work this would never happened, it's hard to change habits when you get older.

Or maybe you know letting me get a job while I was young, my life wouldn't have turned out like it is now

>Be part time 2 or 3 days a week
>Ok balance of doing good things like working out/reading /lit/ / studying programming etc and video games/wanking/Jow Forums
>Go on holidays for 2 weeks
>Spend all day beating my dick and doing FUCK ALL/Jow Forums
>Go full time
>Maxing out trying to read/staying active
I've been social over the holiday period which was nice

how to make kids do well in life:

>teach some redpills early on, so they can work on stuff before it's too late to regret
>force them into working out

it's that simple, you literally need to be a retard to raise failed kids.

>Have a kid who wants to work
>Deny them that every time
>wonders where they went wrong
Like I said all my problems would have been solved if they just let me work. I was to brainwashed being the "first in the family to graduate college" meme.

28 here. The girl I was crushing on and had amazing contact with for 6 months got a new bf during xmas.
I have everything I need in life (place to live, job, car) except a gf, but I'm so done getting ditched like this. Nobody expects me to be a virgin, so my wizard powers will be a surprise when they hit me.

I make so little at my job I am considering prostitution after work. I couldn't do a 60 hour week and I am looking for some quick money. I would never ask my parents to support me.

Men on those websites will promise girls $3000 per moth, ask for nudes and then fuck off. I can't believe there are girls falling for that, but I don't want an agency so I am doing this on my own, digging through the trash online.

All I want is to be able to buy more than just food or even put money on the side.

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I lost mine a few months ago at 29, believe in yourself.

Just be aware that it won't fill the void you have, not entirely at least and not for long.

27 NEET, university dropout x2, no real work history since I always "worked" for myself (art commissions, selling drugs, or doing under the table shit).

Add sounding like a retard during phone interviews to the extensive gaps in work history and even walmart/etc. won't want you at this age.

At this point I'm considering trying to just go to a shitty tech school to learn a basic trade if I can manage to keep myself together enough to attend, but also don't want to be out of cash for it in the event I end up having another big breakdown from it and fail classes.

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I'd never pay for porn but I've fucked an escort a few times. You from Australia?

I wish!
Eurofag here

Called out of work and hung out with the only pussy that gives me attention. Been using my free time playing the piano and contemplating my life choices

>with kids
>in less than a month

*frantically blows cuck whistle*

If you're good looking enough to attempt prostitution, you're good looking enough to get a bf who'll be happy to pay for some of your shit.
>tfw met a girl through a game
>she's from a pretty poor country
>we hit it off, meet up for holiday
>great time, seems like we click very well
>I have hopes of helping her get out of her situation, even offer to pay the plane ticket to have her visit me
>doesn't really take me up on it
>keeps complaining she earns so little money at her job
>suddenly instagram pics of her with a guy around christmas
>"oh I have a new bf now, but that doesn't mean I'll stop talking to you user!"
You women seriously have no idea how easy you have it. None of what anyone says will ever get you to believe that though.

>turning to religion
This is why old people should not be in charge and their no-fun-allowed asses should be euthanized against their will.

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a proper robot would never turn to religion. listening to some fag talk about "god" has been the most normie activity for thousands of years

I am good enough looking, but I don't want to exploit a man's feelings for money. Just thinking about making someone fall in love with me just so they pay for my stuff feels so wrong.

Normalfaggots raise robots to be religious, they grow up and realize how stupid it is, but as they die the stress makes them instinctively try anything to bargain getting out of this shithole. That can be suicide, and the good die young. The old however can end up turning back and going to church. Even normalfaggots do this. Sunday school, full of kids being forced to go. The college age though? The middle aged? They are not there. They come back after life scars and scares them into coming back. They go insane, and these are the people in charge of the world, broken scarred and insane. All because the seed was planted from a young age.

You can find a guy you actually like though? Not with the goal of exploiting him. A man loves to provide for the woman he loves.
Though now I'm curious where in europe you live since you make little money. The girl I mentioned was from Greece and the pay is really bad there.

Simular situation, except looking for an apartment. Want to go into uni again (dropped off once) but ive lost my spark. Also i wouldnt be done before im 28, and i think thats kinda old to become a programmer freshly out of school.

glad to be in the demo of 'fuck off with your schizo ramblings' and not 'scared of death so hard I suck semitic goat fucker myths'. don't think if I make it past middle age that I'll have a change of heart but in 30 years I'll likely have a robotic, replacement 'smart' heart so maybe they'll program me to give my shekels to god because of the eternal ameriburger's duty to a higher cause

Your onetitis WILL fuck you over. Dont be a retard. She hasnt changed. If she actully liked you intrinsically she would have fucked you the first time.

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I went on a few dates with this one guy (who brags about making 3.5k net a month) and he insisted on paying for dinner, but when I suggested we get a coffee for the way home he complained about how expensive it was.

90 percent of guys won't even buy a girl a dress for $20.

If you're looking to get some money as a woman these days, dates are really not the way to go.

This man knows what he's talking about. Any man with experience with women and the ability to learn or think logically will tell you this.

Humans by default need something higher than them to follow, it's that whole you have to be your own parent when you grow up kinda thing.

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>buy a girl a dress for $20.
uh huh. I don't think you are what you claim to be

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Well that's weird. I'd love to get my gf a present every now and then. But maybe this is all naive thinking since I've never had a relationship before.
>If you're looking to get some money as a woman these days, dates are really not the way to go.
If you're looking to get a gf as a guy these days, dates are also not the way to go it seems

>>Humans by default need something than them to follow

You are a bitch. You need someone's dick to suck. You need a lord to worship, to be a peasant for. That is your problem, not everyone is meant to be a fucking bitch.

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You just pick the wrong guys. I bought a women who refused to kiss me tons of cute clothes and all I ever got out of it was one hand job and giving her lots of finger orgasms. She was super sensitive, came easily.
If anything I get the dumb women who wont let me buy them things because they feel obligated or something afterwards

>not everyone is meant to be a fucking bitch.
bud you post on 4cha, r9k no less, all you are is a bitch

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But I don't need a present every now and then, I need money.
Actual money.
Not like I wouldn't be happy about a present but I just want to do more than buy food or have some savings in case the washing machine breaks.

>sell cares for sauce
What?
Anyways churchs wont take beets, they want people with their life together. And in medevil times you generally had to be sponsored to be a monk. Meaning a rich family member was paying your mantience or at least made a donation to get you in.

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>You need a lord to worship, to be a peasant for.
You say this but their is a safe bet you are like that to someone or something. Ive seen edge lord fedora tippers obsess over their family heritage like a religion or a person of science as Jesus.

Wont take neets*