FEELS THREAD

I've been so worried about the state of the world recently.
I just feel so alone and empty, I've been trying to get into geology and astronomy. Amateur of course, it's just something I can do alone and go out to parks for.
I recently found myself driving 3 hours away from my home just to go look at a Pleistocene lake bed and river.
I got excited when I found fucking basalt deposits, I've been so alone that I'm having so much fun looking at rocks.
It just kinda got to me tonight.

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What do you worry about user

You seem to have a rather bad case of weltschmerz.

I have so many sad stories but I dont know were to start and if it is worth my time. I can tell a story about the fate of my granduncle, I can tell you a story about my sad childhood. I can tell a story about my fucked up first worktime. I can tell about the time were I was close to shooting up my school. I just dont want to waste time on a thread that will die after that.

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The sinking feeling that hard times are coming, it's slowly been getting worse and worse here.
More crime occurring, more police around harassing folks minding their own business.
Bills have gone up, things are more expensive, the job market looks really bad right now.
It's just a lot of things, kinda silly when it's written down.

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Whatever you feel like user,

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I got rejected recently. it hurt, really bad. havent been able to smile or laugh for days, cant do anything without imagining her doing it with me. I constantly want to break something or punch a wall. I just dont know what to do with myself

>be me
>live in USA
>middle class, have the means to become whatever i want in life
>dont know what i want
>never figure out what i want
i feel like that is the state of a lot people on this board

I'm in the same situation, but I realized that I can live in a van and travel around the country doing odd jobs for a few years until I figure things out

Every day, no matter what, I feel angry. I'll play a game, or see something on the internet or TV and I'll just want to break something. Sperg rage kind of shit ya know. I haven't even browsed this board for more than a few minutes since around 2014 because of the sheer amount of bullshit that i end up seeing. When I come down from this anger I just feel a bitter and sad, unhappy with myself. My life isn't even particularly bad. I had a shitty relationship for a year, but got to do pretty much everything sexually that I could want to. I have some friends, but I pretty much only talk to 2 of them. And I'm going into the military with the chance at something of a career even if I leave after my first contract is over. But despite all of that I just despise my life and how I act.
/end blogpost

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>confessed to a girl in highschool once and she rejected me
>thought we could stay friends and shit but she just kept ignoring my texts
>found out a few months later that shes dating a friend of mine
>told him that she'll date anyone as long as they weren't as creepy as me
should I end it all

If I had a car I'd do the same thing, but here I am stuck in the city. Geology is great

>be me yesterday
>go to hang out with my 3 close friends
>after some drinks i start crying out of nowhere
>friend 1: what's wrong user
>i say family problems
>we're all drunk at this point
>friend 1 starts crying too
>talks about her own family problems
>friends 2 and 3 are very sympathetic towards her
>mention that my mom physically abuses me and that i found out that im not my dad's biological daughter
>nobody cares, continue with conversation
>mfw i find out my best friends dont really care

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I started realizing that everything I knew about the world and myself were lies from my protective parents and everything I ever hoped for will never happen.

No man, keep it together. You have a fake friend and the girl you just liked because of looks. This whole era is fucked with the "hurr gotta get laid before you have hair on your nuts" bullshit. Live for yourself, your hobbies, something you truly care for.

What did you think the world was like, user? And what do you think opened your eyes to how you see the world now?

>losing best and only friend to his gf

About a year ago we promised each other we'd never do this shit.

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that was a feel years back and now have 0 female contacts and the female co-worker in my office would rather eat lunch by herself than with me.

Those are just people. You don't need to be with them man. Don't fall for the bullshit that gets spewed on this board.

>bullied through elementary school and high school
>parents didnt care at all about me. They were the "Just do what you want" parents
>got a dog at the start of elementary school
>we drove to the guy and all the dogs ran out of the barn to my parents but not me
>a few seconds later one much weaker dog comes out and comes to me
>this dog became my only comrade that I had throughout high school
>never had alot of friends and my parents were never there for me
>my dog was always happy to see me when I returned from school and he was the only one that I talked with
>spent most of my time with my dog since the internet was not a big thing in my country and I hadnt any friends

High school starts
>still shy loner but met a guy that was the same
>become friends and play everyday
>one day he betrayed me and started bullying me with the other kids
>had enough with the bullying and went to a teacher
>mfw teacher asked the class if I am getting bullied
>"no"
>"Just ignore it user, they are laughing with you"
>they didnt, sometimes they even threw my stuff around

fast forward a two years nothing changed but internet became popular
>watch stick figure fights
>decide to draw them aswell
>drew bloody stick figure battles in class and put them in my desk
>sick and was few days home
>come back to school
>main teacher comes in like always
>"user do you want to shoot up the school?"
>"ehhh what?"
>"We saw your massacres in your desk"
>"no"
>"Just because you feel bullied dosent mean you are. I want you to go the school psychologist"
>this happend infront of the whole class

cont?

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Are you a man? Nobody cares about men , a man crying is unsettling even, nobody wants to see it, it makes people fisically bad. Just pay a shrink like everyone else. If you're a wwomn you're either too ugly or too much of a shitty person.

Continue b0ss

>daughter
Yeah I'm retarded. Anyhow, all friend groups have an hierarchy, you're the least important, deal with it. I bet when you all walk you're the one behind.

Know the feel. Actually going to the same shit right now, kek. People huh

>They are laughing with you
>Just because you think youre bullied
Thus has to fake

>be me
>be in highschool
>virgin, had one girlfriend but she was a bitch and we broke up before we could fuck
>been a year alone
>start talking to new girl that just moved to school, she doesn't have any friends yet
>she's really cute and she grabs my arm a lot
>we're in.jpg
>working as a sign spinner in the middle of nowhere
>leaving work and texting her, not paying attention to the road
>hit the biggest pothole of my life
>radiator breaks, car totaled.
>fuck it i'm gonna get laid
>Have my mom drive me to her house (17 at this point, not a good look)
>we hang in the basement for a while playing pool.
>use the move from the movies where i help her shoot the ball by grabbing her arms like a a hug basically
>she seems to think it's cute, the flirting seems like it's wokring.
>I end up kissing her
>she doesn't kiss me back, she just stairs at me, bug eyed.
>autism kicks in and I try to kiss her again
>same reaction
>"did I do something wrong?"
>"no, user, you didn't"
>we go upstairs and put on a movie, she's sitting mad far away on the couch
>she gets up and powerwalks into her dad's office
>ohfuck.html
>I sit there alone for like 45 mionutes
>her dad walks out
>"come on, user I'll drive you home."
>on the way out the door I see her in his office bawling her eyes out.
>he explains to me that "boys haven't been very nice to her"
>I try to assure him I had no bad intentions
>he just gives me the meanest glare I've ever seen in my life.
>he drops me off and I go to sleep.
>Wake up and realize I still don't have a car.

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To be*
Oriorioriginal

I'm in love with a girl that likes me too but shes since moved away, I thought she was coming back but her parents don't have enough money to send back, I'll probably never see my only love ever again

Is there an original of that image that isn't a frogpost? I really like the style and soldier but I fucking can't stand that green sack of fuck.

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Sadly its not. My teacher was like the classes friend if you know what I mean.
And if the whole class says that I wasnt getting bullied even tho I used to cry a few times makes it look like I was overreacting.
Most teachers dont care about kids getting bullied. They dont want to have "more work".

I hope you're the third columbine shooter. Finish the story fren

>went to the school psychologist and it turned out I wasnt going to shoot up the school.
>I had a breakdown and told him that I have no friends and that I was being bullied
I cant really remember what happend after that. I think I just got the normal advice that I shouldnt take everything seriously and that I should start laughing with them. This was also my last time with the school psychologist.
>go back to class in break time
>mfw they took my pencil case and hidden it
>I could even hear them chuckle when I went back to the class. BUT HEY WASNT BULLIED

Fast forward its time for my family holocaust
>grandpa died, grandma died, aunt died, grandma died in the same year
>strangly I didnt care at all about them
>I pretended to care so I could skip school
>I never shed a tear
>I still had my dog and he was the only friend I had, the only one who was happy to see me
>school was still shit and bullying never stopped but I have just given up. Skipped school alot, mastered the art of being sick and had a lot of missing days.
>I was super quiet and just endured everything
>A teacher asked me something I either said nothing or I dont know
>Grades went to shit
>I even think my teachers felt bad for me since they always gave me a C in oral grade (Dont know the english word for it)
>I also started getting internet friends with whom I played vidya with mostly minecraft

Fast forward a year
>a big bully of mine got in a car accident
>everyone was concerned expect me I wasnt happy tho
>even the teacher had tears in his eyes when he told us
>so the class had a vote if we should visit him or not by putting our hands up
>everyone put their hands up expect me
>"user you dont want to visit him"
>"I dont care to be honest"
>"Its not like his opinion matters" a girl yells in the back
>so we decided to visit him and "we" wanted to buy him a gift which everyone was supposed to donate 3 Euro to
>I did to spare me the trouble
cont

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>everyone said something to him like get better and shit like that, I didnt
>"user why didnt you say anthing to him"
>"I dont like him"
>"Yeah nobody would have gone to you fucking weirdo"

Last year before I am done with school
>26.05.2012 my mother came in my room while I was playing vidya
>"Sam (Dog) is getting put to sleep"
>Tear up everything is broken, my whole world just got destroyed
>Didnt have the balls to go down to my dog just continued crying and playing vidya to avoid the pain
>I couldnt tell him how much I loved him
>Mom comes in again
>"The vet will be here in 10 minutes"
>go down to the garden
>There he was my only friend, the only one who cared about me lying there
>My dad has already digged the grave
>I couldnt say a word, it felt like my chest is getting crushed
>I only pet my dog without saying anything and I couldnt even cry
>the vet arrived and said something
>I just kept petting him till he was gone
>I still miss him, everyday
>I wasnt there when he needed me the most, I've spent my time with stupid vidya and I will regret that till my dying day
I've went back to school and ofc the bullying didnt stop
Dont know if people want the last part so cont?

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Please continue user
Originally of course

>bullying didnt stop but it was only a few months
>they didnt invite me for prom they even told me that I shouldnt come
>dog is dead, nobody cares about me, had enough
>my father has inherited my grandpas hunting rifle
>and that will be item I will take my revenge with
>I will go in there and shoot the people that did me wrong but I only have 5 bullets and prob no time to reload
>Make up the plan that I will kill them when we have sport and are outside of the sportfield
>there is a hill on which I can just shoot down
>I told my parents that school started later since a teacher is sick
>I found my fathers safe key
>Now I will become Wrath
>unlock the safe and take the rifle
>...
>the gun has no ammo (the gun was also prepped so it dosent work anymore since guns are banned in my country)
>start crying
>have another idea
>one of the bullies, my worst keeps poking me in the rips and says "dont scare"
>I will stab him when he does it
Next day
>put knife in my bag
>wait for him to poke me
>he never did
I gave up on revenge after that and just endured it like always. I fucked up all my final exams and barely got my degree. I have accepted that life is unfair and that not everyone can be a winner. I am not the hero of my story and I am okay with that

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>grandma who is always level headed and sarcastic asks me why i don't have any friends or a girlfriend in uni in that choked up old lady voice i've never heard her use before

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Damn, that was bad. what you up to now a day's? You're a NEET?

I've started seeing a new girl recently, chilling and fucking at weekends. She's exactly my type.

I'm sad through the week because I know she will inevitably get bored and ditch me for a better man.

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Fulltime neet but only for this year. I am still trying fix my life. I even redid school and now have the degree to study at a university and overall my personalty has changed alot.
I can get along with everyone now and I dont get bullied anymore.
When people talk about past events I just make shit up and lie. Highschool wasnt even my worst part in life. My so called free social work year was the hardest, it was full of abuse and passive aggressive bullying. But thats where I really changed and became "battle hardened"

no, im a female

im tired of being the second or even third choice in the friend group. how to stop being an autist and get real friends?

are you germanian?

yeah I am german, why are you asking?

willhelm?
orig

no not willhelm

yes, actually willhelm

Robots don't have sad feelings because they numb their mind with constant entertainment and don't have any real life experiences