Comfy & feels /Comfeels/

Well I'm not withe because it's winter break and we live 2 south apart so I'm not bothered by that. i'm bothered that she's spending time with 2 guys, but that may be my problem desu. Maybe I should just calm the fuck down who knows

I don't know user, I have extreme problems with lethargy and procrastination, I don't think I can fix it. I absolutely hate it, and I don't have any friends in real life or online to help keep me accountable.

Personally I think there's nothing to worry about my man, as long as she give back some news and is present for you I don't think you have to worry about her having male friends, keep it cool.
I believe in you, I also have a hard time with procrastination, I'd recommend scheduling your projects and making a sort of "plan", personally I find thats usually useful when I'm lost and I dont know what to do to achieve a certain thing. Keep it up and don't give up just now.

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Alright dude I won't freak out again. I'' shoot her a meme or something in a day or two and focus on building myself. For all I know she posted that story to make me think of her since I haven't been initiating with her recently. Just fucking wait

Thats my man I hope the best for both of you, pls marry and make lots of children when you are both ready

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>listening to Red Army Choir and imagining myself as a dictator on a Friday night
How the fuck did it come to this?

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>>listening to Red Army Choir
Based, same here
>and imagining myself as a dictator
that's gay

Forgot to add I'm about 10 drinks in

I have a race today. I dont want to sleep even though I know I should. The worst is that I always get super nervous before races even though I know the course and I am sufficently in shape. The worst part are the expectations. Not only my own but also those of my fellow competitors. I don't know why I always get nervous even though I know I'll finish. All I can do is to try to sleep.

Can't say I find commie music very comfy myself user, but whatever makes you happy I'm glad for you.

youtube.com/watch?v=BMD96C9Bp3M

>Ywn be a Swiss guard
>Ywn die with your brothers
Fuck.

Russian music user, even though they rewrote some lyrics with a communist slant it's still based. Take Farewell of Slavianka, it's originally a White Army song but they adapted it for WWII. I don't speak Russian anyway, so who gives a shit?
youtube.com/watch?v=mwAGw92RHQc

Damn. I really love the original white Orthodox one tho, I seriously can't listen to anything thats somehow commie related sorry, but if that makes you comfy then good my man

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Care for some based non-commie French shit?

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Been using this all day anons. I'm not even tired. I'm ready to lay back, watch some tube, shit post with my homies, and munch-on pizza obviously. Melted cheese on bread with my Jow Forums boys. Best day. Ahhhh. .

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Fuckin nice, good taste my man. When I hear this I think of Malicorne, ever listen to them?
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Not strictly traditional but similar and really good

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>I really love the original white Orthodox one
>I seriously can't listen to anything thats somehow commie related
Oh God, cringe. You're really trying too hard to sound like a Jow Forumstard user. Thanks for shitting up a comfy thread.

Thanks! And nope I haven't but I def will be listening right now!

Here's some more of the same (Choeur Montjoie Saint-Denis)

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Sounds comfy my user!

I'm not a poltard my man, I think Jow Forums is pretty brainlet and I'm glad I don't browse that board anymore, haven't in years. Sorry if I somehow "ruined" your comfyness. But oh well, we all have our opinions don't we not? I hope you'll have a good night anyway my man

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im nice and comfy got back from a /nightwalk/
peek comfy youtu.be/QcQp0Fv_B14

i'm pretty sure my gf wants to break up with me soon. she's been fighting a lot with me and at times she's been fine and at others she absolutely hates my guts. i love her so much, though and i'm absolutely terrified of losing her. i'm definitely rolling a joint in the morning.

I'm just an almost 28 year old unemployed man still living with his parents. I've been writing a lot of genre fiction lately and hoping a small press takes pity on me by publishing one of my books.

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Listening to elder scrolls music, fuck i wanna play morrowind

i cannot tell you enough how much i wanted to love how long i waited to love and be loved and be with you

Oops forgot comfy pic

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Oh shit, care to get into better details user? I just want to let you know that if she's just mad for being mad without any good reasons, I'm afraid you might be in an abusive relationship. I understand that you do love her and that you dont want to lose her, but please you must realize that if she abuses your feelings and makes you feel like shit you'd be better off alone at this point, try to ask her if anything's wrong on her side, maybe she's stressed out about something and sadly you're at the receiving end of her "relieving". Either way, don't let yourself be emotionally abused by your gf. Else you'll never really be happy, even if you genuinely love her. But hey, I guess thats what a man is like, when we truly and genuinely love a woman, we can't let ourselves go, even if she hurts us like hell.
Thats sounds quite interesting my man, I would love to write as well, been mostly writing up plans and such, I'd like to write fiction and historical shit, mind maybe giving us an excerpt or something? That'd be nice.
Ooh my man, nothing comfier than Elder Scrolls music, there's something so fucking...comfy about it

youtube.com/watch?v=sSr2Aj3RtaA
This song especially....It just makes me feel nostalgic and good in general, walking around the wastelands of Morrowind, or the snowy moutains of Skyrim is peak comfiness.
Eh I don't suppose that was for me, but God I got to admit I would feel quite happy if someone wrote that to me, but I don't suppose that'll ever happen.

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i don't want to get into details because i feel like the literal scum of the earth but she has every reason to be mad at me. she's also extremely upset due to us having a miscarriage.. she was pregnant for about a week and it just gave up.. she's suicidal and bipolar and i'm just so scared for her safety.. she relapsed on cutting the other night, and i just feel so helpless.. i don't know what to do at this point.. and no, we don't live together.

dont you feel a bit gay as adult males spending nights indoors alone telling strangers how 'comfy' you are? maybe having a job and exercising and releasing semen into warm tight holes just isnt comfy and im living wrong but you dorks seem pretty sad and lonely for comfort addicts

sometimes homies just need to help each other out.. some of us going through a lot.

i never want never wanted to be until i wanted to be with you and i never dreamed of all the things life could be until i saw myself with you i cannot tell you enough how much ive wanted to love how long ive waited to love and be loved by you

this is very good of you user, a break from the cruelty is a generous gift. Easier said than done, but something I can do is stare at a candle or a spot on the wall and force myself to be quiet, don't talk, just look at the subject and don't talk. Silencing the mind is a helpful tool. It doesn't solve everything, but it helps if you let it. Meditation is cool but it's not for everyone. Many paths to the same road. Thanks user, wish everyone the best and rest

Comfy is for the weak
Comfy is for people who stay trapped in their little own world.

Life is vast. Vast isn't comfy. Vastness is
a feeling of reverential respect mixed with fear or wonder. Life is so vast, it's beyond meaning or purpose. I don't like the regularly used words on Jow Forums, comfy is one of them.

The word comfy and comfort restricts experience and learning in this life.

If i hadn't stepped out of my comfort zone, i wouldn't be able to find this song.

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insightful and meaningful post from a teenage girl, incels eternally btfo grimes ftw

I don't have much to share that would come across as punchy in a single post.

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Why do you think im a girl?
Im a pajeeit

Oh. I see. I'm very sorry about your misadventures. My complete condolences to you and your girlfriend. Its clear that she's going thru some hard times, I'd say you should try to be as present as possible for her, loosing a child sounds terrible to me. However, don't let yourself be her punching bag, you need to tell her quite clearly that you're here to help her and that she shouldnt relieve her anger and sadness towards you, that you feel the same and that you don't deserve whatever treatment she gives you.
Gay? For discussing with some of my fellow brothers online? No. Nothing but respect and admiration for the men on this board who goes throught different situations. We are all one of the same. There's nothing better than being surrounded by those who understands us. But yeah nice bait user. I do have a job, I also go to College, and I do exercise. And I don't think "releasing semen into holes" like you so explain is in any way, comfy. I would love a woman to be my eternal companion perhaps, but to think of one of them as a mere object of my sexual desire is not comfy. Sadly I don't think I will ever find what I'm looking for. Therefore I will live my life anyway, alone if needed to be.
This user gets it.
Eh, some user is pretty drunk here, eh? Well my man I hope you find what you're looking for, we all are looking for someone or people to love us for what we are and love them back
Thanks for the insight user! I found praying to be a good form of meditation in my case, I've been recently getting back into Catholicism, and I got to say that the feeling of belonging to something greater is quite comfy and relaxing to be quite fair.

Thats quite a nice concept user! I do agree with your words here, I just do think that comfy is also a state needed by men, its a good thing sometimes to just sit back, relax and reflect upons our feelings, our ambitions and such.

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Alas, I see. Sometimes images speaks more than words user. Feel free to share some comfiness with us.

It's not happening anytime soon because you haven't stepped out of your comfort zone.

Comfort makes you weak minded
Fear makes you weak minded

Then again, girls are very egotistical.

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thanks for the gf advice. i'm just so scared that one of these days she just would've done something drastic. it breaks my heart just hearing her say the words "i don't want to be alive anymore.". i've been bawling my eyes out the past few days because of this and it doesn't seem to get easier.

Of course. I'm hoping the snow tomorrow night and Sunday provides a comfy atmosphere to drink, write, and make homemade pizzas.

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Well I suppose that is true, however I feel like I can't relate to anyone in real life, let alone girls especially. I interact a lot with "normal" people in real life and I feel absolutetly nothing related to them, I don't quite understand their culture nor their way of thinking, to me they all seems like they're striving for only themselves without really caring about anyone else. This is what I dislike about these times; there's no "community" anymore, there's nothing holding us together anymore. We're all just fighting for our survival in this great jungle of life.
I understand your pain. Its really fucked up when someone you love say that they want to kill themselves. At the moment, I have to keep watch on my mother who's been acting in quite a similar fashion after life's been screwing her over for the past years, I hope things will get better for you and for her, cherish her and take care of her, I can feel that you are a good person user, times can be hard sometimes but I have the upmost belief that happiness is yet to be found in most cases and that grey and dark will be replaced by light with times to come. I'll pray for you and your gf.
Ah, sounds like quite the plan user. I was also thinking of writing as well since I have a day off tommorow, in my native tongue however. Home made pizza sounds quite cool too, I'll be making some spaghetti sauce meself. Hope the result will be good.

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A song I like quite a lot, Bon Iver is amongst my favorite artists.

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Why can't you relate to anyone? What are your interests?

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Well I like autistic things like history, literature and philosophy a bit of art and such, so not very normie-friendly. Then I also like survivalism and hiking stuff, which is more or less normie-friendly but eh, I also dislike big meetings and place with lots of people like bars and such. I'd rather drink alone at home at this point like I am doing rn. I also dont really trust "normal" people, as I said earlier, I feel like they would turn on you at absolutetly any moments to save themselves or for some stupid reasons. I had bad experience with friends groups before and people in general, I've been a bit cynical about social interactions with people ever since. I do have relations with some genuinely good people however, mostly on the internet. Met very few people in real life I feel like I can trust and exchange my actual feelings with.

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Forgot to paste some real human beans with it like I wanted to. fuck.
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Do you make a meat sauce? I love a good meat sauce.

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Aye, I personally use minced pork since I dont like beef, then I'll throw in vegetables, carrots, broccolis, cauliflowers, onions, garlic and the like in it. I'm a very bad cook, but a spagh sauce is quite basic and easy to do.

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I leave where I'm at to live on the other side of the world on Monday after being back home for 3 weeks. I'm hoping the journey I'm about to embark on will allow me to further my growth as a person. Going that far terrifies me but I refuse to show that to anyone. I hope that fear goes away. Hopefully where I'm going is where I find to love myself as a person and maybe someone to love, being back home brought unexpected heartache. One can hope I guess

Took a walk in the snow as it fell tonight while mildly drunk, was very comfy.
very cozy pics

>just shaved
>look good
>ignoring girls on discord
is this comfy

All the things you like is reading related. I've met girls that are interested in all that jazz

Also, Alcohol is the most dangerous drug out there. I would never do stimulants or depressents. I consider stimulants and depressents as adult candy. Yeah, i can understand why you avoid or can't connect with people. I'm the same but my persona is very dynamic, i can talk to anyone and fake my personality. This includes normal people, degenerates, intellectuals etcc

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>comfiest scene in the whole show

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Fuckin didnt post my cozy shit

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Well I'll pray its going to go well for you user. Starting anew can be quite an experience, I hope this will make you grow as a person indeed. Don't be afraid, not many people get the experience to travels outside their country, you're going to be living one hell of an adventure I can tell you that, good luck in your endeavours.
Ah, sounds comfy thats for sure. I would've went for a walk too, if it wasnt literally -20 celcius outside lol
Eh, comfy is whatever you want user
>Tfw shave and all but all I get is a bit of mustache. sideburns and a neckbeard that I yes, do shave since it would look terrible as fuck. Not sure what you mean by ignoring girls on discord but at the very least don't destroy one's hope too much, that wouldnt be too comfy to be fair.

Yeah pretty much! I love reading, and I aspire to write as well. I understand that alcohol is indeed a drug like others, but I suppose thats the vice I chose...I don't drink quite often however, and not to get drunk, simply lightly buzzed, I like the feeling it gives me, makes me a bit relaxed and makes my sleep a lot heavier (I usually have trouble sleeping). I also very much enjoy the taste of a good beer, not some shitty supermarket beers normies buy in 24 packs to get drunk. I don't really like to interact with people but I'm able however, I just won't be able to develop more into their interests that much. I feel like I live in a complete opposite world, as if I truly was born centuries after my time (I know this sounds quite autistic however)

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I actually don't reading at all sometimes,
especially philosophy and literature. It clutters my mind. I don't let anyone walk through my mind with their dirty feet.
If i had read jungian Psychology or anyone of that nature, i would have became severely retarded. I also stay away from religious texts as well. Yea, i never liked reading, i hate fiction a lot.
I read only very specific things.

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Thank you for your prayers & words. Bless you. Stay warm out there user

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You should read Yeti: An Abominable by Graham Hoyland. It's a nonfiction book. There's a lot of history and discusses how the US and UK governments faked yeti expeditions and evidence to fund spy missions. You might like it given you're preference for history and hiking.

I am very anti-philosophic and I avoid philosophy because it is playing with shadows, thoughts, speculation. And you can go on playing infinitely, ad infinitum, ad nauseam; there is no end to it. One word creates another word, one theory creates another theory, and you can go on and on and on. In five thousand years much philosophy has existed in the world, and to no purpose at all.

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Ah, well personally I think you should give at the very least literature a chance.
Same to you my friend.
Oh he's not the same as the guy who likes history and hiking (OP/me) but I suppose thats a good suggestion for him.
Alas, I should go to bed now. Its quite late and the alcohol got to me, I must now sleep. Thanks to everyone who I've spoken to tonight, its always a pleasure to interact and hear from you robots, I hope that whatever bad times you're going throught right now, that it will pass, that you will find ways to improve yourself and your surroundings and that no matter what, you remember that you're never really alone, we're all here experiencing more or less similar obstacles of life but in different ways. God bless all of you, and have a good night.

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>You might like it given you're preference for history and hiking.

I'm not him. lmao

I'm trying real hard to be "normal" but I just honestly feel like I am incapable of functioning in society. Also I'm fucking ugly. I'm ugly as fuck. Not only do I lack social skills, but no one wants to deal with an uggo. Looks are everything in this god damn life. I will never have a normal life. No woman will ever find me attractive enough to reproduce with. I cannot even get a fucking job and buy some whore because I'm too anxious and socially retarded. I will kill myself eventually. I'm only alive for my hobbies, but once I get bored of that shit I'm out.

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currently heavy fog outside my house, very spooky. Watching the yellow vest protests and mentally preparing myself to move acros the country in 6 days. Any robots have experience with bash scripting? I just made a little script to display the weather in ASCII layouts using someone elses online tool. It isnt much but it is comfy

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>bash
bloat

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seeing shadow people in the corner of my eyes in the dark right now
not on drugs (straightedge)
not sleep deprived

>Distro
>"All of them suck"
>He isnt running a custom built LFS that contains only an assembly compiler
I have thought about switching to zsh, but redpill me on mksh and dash

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>arg linux :D

>comfy music
youtube.com/watch?v=g3dtqx-Wf5s

I usually listen to scary stories to help me sleep but its raining for once and the sound is comfy x10 with some cars driving by

Whats some comfy ps4 games? Need something to occupy me in my spare time

How do I stop feeling the urge to kill people? I feel like my depression manifests itself in quiet but extreme rage which compels me to create a bloodbath and then go out with a bang. I specifically think about killing everyone who bullied me in high school and middle-school and girls who've rejected me. I need serious advice on this.

I agree with this dude, sometimes we need to chill and enjoy some comfort.It's just clear our mind after tiring day at work/school or outside

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I normally don't want to kill people, but there's some inexplicable rage I feel whenever I'm around my mother. It doesn't help that she has no manners, constantly "sings" like a dying rooster and looks like she can be the star of the next episode of those TLC obesity shows, but she just annoys the fuck out of me so much when she burps or pushes air through her teeth picking at food stuck in there, or rummaging through packets of chips loudly and chewing even more loudly that I can hear it all across the fucking house. Every time she does that shit I just see red and start shaking with uncontrollable rage because I feel disgusted that I came out of that grotesque beast, and she's just a fucking embarassment in general. I've never wanted to kill a person as much as her, and even if I can't kill her, I'll be satisfied with beating the living shit out her and insulting her until she breaks down like the pathetic third-wave feminist cunt she is. She finally quit smoking (for a week), and now she's stuffing her lard ass with more food that I imagined, and I'll laugh my fucking ass off when her lungs collapse under the weight of her fucking meat slabs. I don't understand how "she" is a living being, and I honestly want to kill myself even more because I never feel clean being the spawn of such a disgusting creature. Jesus fucking christ I need to get out of here.

I realise this is a comfy thread, but I just needed to get this shit off my chest because my cucked Dad and sibling would beat the shit out of me if I ever snapped and started raving on about how much of a freak she is.

Again, I apologise

>tfw OwO and UwU

I have a really nice feel that I would like to share with you guys. I first posted some of this about a year ago, but I havent posted an update in a few months and I would like you guys to know on the off chance you were one of the people who helped me out.

About a year ago, i was in a long term relationship. I was 25, in medical school, with a girlfriend who worked a dead end cashier job. She was decently attractive, a kind of big tiddy goth girl. Probably 6-7/10, but she was exactly my type so like a 9ish for me. We had been together for 4ish years at that point. Things were okay, my family really really hated her but we were planning on getting married once i was done with school. Relationship was okay, we had enough in common. Sex was complicated. She would give blowjobs but was pretty bad at it. I'm fat and I could tell she wasnt into any of the sex. She had something called vaginismus that made real sex impossible, so she had been getting treatments for a year or so but it wasnt really improving. So no sex. But things were alright. She pushed really hard to get married and it was pretty annoying, but honestly the relationship was okay and I had put a lot of time into it and was okay with getting married.

Anyway, about a year ago i posted here asking for advice. I had met a nursing student on one of my rotations. She was chubby but super sweet and outgoing and always went out of her way to flirt with me. So bubbly and cute and sweet. Our schedules overlapped one day a week for like two months. Honestly, i barely knew her but i was super infatuated.

So i posted here asking if i should throw away my relationship and take a shot on this girl. I got a lot of good advice (thanks guys) that mostly said to leave my gf. I wasnt sure what to do. (1/?)

contd

Anyway, the rotation ended before I even got a chance to ask her out. I thought I would never see her again.

My relationship with the goth girl progressed over the next year. She got a (little) better job, but our relationship didnt improve at all. We were doing kind of long distance and got like one day a week to hang out. she felt her new "career" was really important and became much more distant. I know most of you would say she was cheating, but I can tell you with 100% certainty that she was not (not like she could put anything in her vag anyway). Anyway, we started fighting a lot but there still wasnt much doubt that we were going to get married. After all, we were both making "sacrifices for our future." (somehow, her going out to lunch with her new work friends was a comparable sacrifice to me working 100+ hour weeks in med school. And somehow, we always had to work around her schedule. not the point though)

We were going through a bit of a rough patch and I was feeling very unappreciated. We "celebrated" our five year anniversary by me taking her to a nice restaurant that i couldnt afford, and us not speaking the entire time. I hadnt seen her in a week, and we drove in silence, ate in silence, drove home in silence, then she went to bed at 830pm and left at 6am the next morning. cool.

I was getting pretty sick of the relationship but still wanted her. i thought that once I finished school and got a job, we could move in together, she would get her vagina fixed, and most of our problems would be solved.

And then, by some miracle, I ran into the nurse again.

Truly, it was a miracle. I got consulted to a floor of a hospital i never worked at. She got floated from a different hospital, and just so happened to get floated to a different floor at that hospital.

(2/?)

contd

So we talked for a few minutes. It was a year later and she still remembered me. We knew each other's first names, and she slyly asked my last name (I knew she was going to look me up on facebook... I dont have a facebook). She always called me doctor when we were flirting the last year... she did it again. She was super sweet and playful. And then I had to go. I went back up to that floor when I got off work, but she was gone already. I had no idea what I was expecting, I just knew that I wanted to see her again.

That weekend, sunday, my goth gf and I had decided to sit down and talk about all our problems. We cleared the air on a lot of stuff. Sexually and otherwise. No yelling, but a lot of crying. We decided that we would rededicate ourselves to the relationship. Mostly her, because she admitted that she wasnt focusing on us.

Monday comes, and I cant shake the nursing student from my head. To be fair, my gf is actually acting better. She called me on my way to work, she texted me the whole day. It was kind of nice. but i still couldnt get the other girl out of my head.

I got on facebook.. I knew her first name and what school she went to. I found her immediately. I created a profile with just my name and nothing else. I typed out a message, something to the effect of

"Hey its user from the hospital. I wanted to do this last week but didnt really get a chance. My number is XXX if you want to call or text me sometime. Hope this isnt weird, you just seemed really cool and nice."

I hovered over it for hours. If i sent it and my gf ever found out, she would kill me.

I sent it. About twenty minutes later, i was sitting at dinner and got a text. "Hey user its X :)"

I was ecstatic. We talked the whole evening until 2am. She was so sweet and cute and nice. This was happening.

(3/?)

contd

Let me be very clear. I am not a cheater, and I had no intentions of cheating on goth gf. I think thats terrible and disgusting. But i wanted the nursing student (Im gonna call her S from now on). So the next day, tuesday, I started heavily implying that I was going to end the relationship.

I drove out to her house tuesday night and broke it off. There were hysterics like youve never seen. I wont go full blown details unless you guys want them, but she went absoutely insane. I didnt tell her about S either, because I'm not fucking retarded.

Anyway, I went home and shed very few tears about the breakup. It was shocking. I didnt realize how terrible and toxic it was. I immediately felt like a weight was off my chest. I woke up the next morning feeling better than I had in several months.

That evening, I asked S on a date. We were both very busy, but we agreed on the next weekend. Over the next couple days, we kept talking. She was amazing, but there was one thing: She was weird religious.

No drinking, smoking, she wouldnt swear. She was very clear that premarital sex was off the table. I'm catholic and she is some weird christian denomination. But i didnt mind much, she was so perfect and I honestly wasnt even worried about getting laid. Not like i was getting laid anyway.

Anyway, by the time the weekend rolled around, she stopped responding. It was pretty brutal desu, we were getting along really really well. Despite her weird religiousness, we shared a lot of the same beliefs and attitudes and had the exact same sense of humor. But out of the blue, she stopped responding to most of my texts.

So i point blank asked her, "hey are you still trying to hang out next weekend?"

She sent me back a really nice paragraph, explaining that no, she didnt want to, and that I was really nice and really sweet, but that she didnt see a relationship with me because of how busy she was with nursing school.

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>recruiter randomly contacted me about a job, told him to put me forward
>good job is highly interested in me
>might start working next week
>took no work on my part
>my old employer can eat ten cans of shit and choke on it
>snowed all day yesterday, didn't have to commute because unemployedfag after ragequit
>can pay rent 2 more months plus this month even if nojob
>teaching self programming, hope to get a really /comfy/ job in the future making real money
>cleaned my apartment, it's /comfy/ now
>insulation is so god tier that I can keep my heat at 78 and my energy bill is only $17 a month in winter
>no more cold and stiff winter hands from being a shittyheat house-dwelling fag, finally have a comfy warm box to live in with no drafts
>laundered all my bedding, fluffy soft blankets that smell nice and clean
>going to cook a large meal later (portabella and ricotta over marinara penne with an entire block of mozzarella and a loaf of sourdough)
>apartment block has a coffee machine that dispenses hot chocolate, cappuccino, vanilla latte, and anything else I want, that I can get whenever I want

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I was pretty shook up but accepted it like a man. I told her no hard feelings, and that I wished her the best and all that bullshit.

Anyway, the night we were supposed to go on our date, I went out with my brother. This was only two weeks post breakup, so he wanted to take me out and show me a good time. We had a fucking blast and got really really drunk. Havent been that drunk in years. At about midnight, i started texting her. Drunk texting her.

To be honest, i didnt say anything too inappropriate. I basically told her that i was sad we never went out, and that she was super beautiful, and that i hoped she found someone to make her happy.

She responded and chewed me out. she was fucking pissed. I kept sending her texts (that were actually pretty smooth and really nice) and she kept responding really, really fucking upset and mad.

The next morning I woke up and re read everything I said to her. To be honest, i meant pretty much every word i said. I sent her an apology, and basically resigned myself to never seeing her again.

That afternoon, she sent me a text. "Can i ask you something?"

"Yeah, sure."

"Did you mean what you said to me last night?"

"Yeah, pretty much all of it."

"really?"

"Yeah."

"I dont know what to do."

Sounds pretty dsmn sweet user....

Im jealous. I have a shitty mon wage job and an even shittier apt that gets cold af during this time of year which makes turning on the heat quite tempting but.then that means going over on the elevtric bill.

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contd

She confessed that she actually really did like me. She also has really bad anxiety and hadnt been on a date in a few years. That, combined with the religious differences, and she didnt want to start something that she thought she was going to freak me out. Thats why she stopped responding.

So we started talking again, and we made the promise to be 100% honest with each other. We agreed to go get a cup of coffee together, as friends, with no expectations or pressure. It was amazing. We clicked and had an incredible time. I was only allowed to hold her hand though, no hugging or kissing. Being that close made her uncomfortable. But we stayed out for 6 or 7 hours on that first date. It was amazing.

A couple weeks later we made it official. We kissed that night, and it was the best first kiss ive ever had. I met her family and she met mine. I really like them, and my family really likes her. My dad gives me a lot of shit about her being chubby. But they really like her compared to the last one.

Anyway, i told you guys that she was weird religious. To the point where her marrying a catholic is kind of taboo to her church. I'm not psycho about being catholic, but I'm certainly not going to leave the church. Period. Anyway, about a week ago she sits me down and starts crying.

We've only been together two months and we KNOW we're perfect for each other. We've already talked about getting married. I know you guys think i'm crazy, and I am.. but shes too fucking perfect. I promise that it's not a problem.

But she tells me that shes really worried about our religious differences. I drink and i swear and we go to different churches. She's worried about how thats going to be when we're married and have kids. There was never any discussion of us NOT being together, but we had to have a long and difficult talk about how that would work.

To be fair I have a lot of student loan debt and the apartment is rather expensive. I got it on sale so the rent averages about $1200 a month. But man, days like this I just don't regret it. Everything else at that pricepoint was a 40 year old hovel in hobo alley with drafty old windows that barely open a crack. The best benefits are no roommates, no hobos, great sound insulation, and great heat insulation. Being able to afford nice things is rather nice.
When I was younger and during college the heat was too expensive to use, always lived in a drafty old house, so every winter my hands would get so numb I couldn't even type. Never again. Now is the day of comfy.

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I tried growing out my beard but it looks awful, but if I shave it I think my acne would show more

Tbh it was nice to be able to have that conversation, and I think we're better for it. It was weighing on her pretty heavily, and we came up with solutions that we can both accept and be happy about. I love her so much. This is the best relationship I've ever been in by far, and she accepts me for who I am.

Back to the premarital sex thing. She's still set on not having sex until we're married (we plan on waiting about a year and a half from now). But... i got to be her first partner for other things. It was amazing. We started off making out shortly after we became official, and shes an amazing kisser.

A few weeks later i started exploring with my hands, and she didnt stop me when i got to her MASSIVE tits. It was pretty great. And then i started going under her shirt, and she loves having her nipples played with and teased. And then we progressed to just taking her shirt off and letting me bite and suck on them.

About a week ago, we were making out and playing with her boobs and she grabbed my dick through my pajamas. She started stroking it, faster and faster. Then she slipped her hand under my pajamas and gave me a handjob. She let me finish in her mouth. It was amazing.

The next time we were together, i rubbed her pussy. She came. We did it again later and she came again. She gave me another handjob. it was great.

I know i sound like a teenager talking about sex, but its so much better with her than it was with my previous gfs. I love her so much. I cant wait to have real sex with her.

Thanks for listening guys, and thanks for your help along the way. This is the happiest i've been in years.

OP here, woke up not so long ago from my lightly drunken sleep, wasn't too bad, wish I had woken up sooner thought.

Man....I really don't like what you're writting, I'm sorry I try to be understanding of people usually but if thats what you genuinely thinks of your mother, the woman who brought you into this world and (I suppose) raised you, I think thats a bit disgusting. But I do suppose that no one is averse to disgusting thoughts neither, we're made from our actions, not our thoughts. But please don't act on such barbaric thoughts user, I believe you may have a deeper issue with your mother that comes from some sort of traumatic event perhaps, if you ever feel comfortable doing so, you might want to try consulting a psychiatrist, either way please try to control yourself and don't act on impulses. I'll pray for you user, if that means anything to you.
Wow, well good luck to you user, I hope you'll both be able to live together despites your religious differences, if I may ask by simple curiosity, what is the denomination she goes to? Is there any way that perhaps you could try and maybe talk to her about Catholicism instead, if that wouldnt cause too much troubles? Either way, take care user.
I know that feel lol, electricity can be costy. Personally I like to just put on some socks and a blanket when I'm on PC like pic related to stay warm, kinda comfy desu.
>17$ a month in winter
Holy fuck wow, where even are you? Here in Canada its like 80$ (CAD) a month for me
You sounds like you're quite comfy at the moment user, go get that job and you'll make it my man, you're on your way.

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>where even are you?
Just because the apartment is energy efficient. Housefags pay like $150 a month easily.
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>maybe talk to her about Catholicism
Thanks man, i appreciate all that. I would love to honestly, but i doubt its going to go anywhere. We've both agreed that we'll go to each other's churches every once in awhile, but neither of us are real interested in converting. She goes to some nondenominational church of christ. I guess they're really really strict about leaving the church... like you can literally get shunned for leaving. I couldnt do that to her. But i also have no interest in joining.

I didnt mean to make that a huge deal, it was just like the one obstacle in our relationship and I was really happy that we have kind of overcome it.