When did you figure out you were gonna die alone user? I was 20

wat are u about fago?

As cliche as it sounds, you haven't met everyone on the planet. I'm not a very likeable person either and it's very difficult for me to make friends.
But I still have some.
You just can't give into that feeling of worthlessness eating you up whenever things go bad.

Nobody actually likes anybody.

what the fuck? How the hell can you know for sure you're going to die alone before 40? Let alone 30? You're not even done developing at 18. I was a virgin til I was 22, still never had a proper girlfriend but I've fallen in and out of love. At one point I thought I was going to become a permavirgin or kill myself because of crippling mental illness but through the acquisition of knowledge I am becoming stronger every day.

Teenage horniness is just stupid. honestly I'm not jealous of my friends who devote 90% of their free time to their girlfriends, I have dreams and aspirations and plenty of time to find someone who loves me and who I can love too. I'm not going to get there by just sitting around and feeling sorry for myself because I think I can see the future.
Maybe this sounds like cope but forreal, your situation at 18 even 20 doesn't mean shit.

sometime in my 15s i said "it's not going to get better is it?" i thought i was at my lowest but now i'm lower, doesn't mean i can't do shit about it but at this point it doesn't matter

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read these books before you give up on life. Thinking is a powerful tool, and if you think you're doomed than you are, if you think you aren't then you aren't. Maybe you'll tell me that's not true but riddle me this: if you can walk but you have convinced yourself fully that you can't, will you be able to walk? You are infinitely more likely to unlock your potential if you think you have it, it is impossible to do anything if you think you can't, it's just simple logic.

if reading books could make you happy then avid readers wouldn't be a bunch of wimpy brooding losers

You were a normal the whole time of course you cant understand
Im not going to explain the full story because im on my phone
I dont expect you to understand

About 20 as well. I always thought I'd find a girl like me but it turns out they all resent me.

Probably some time as a teenager. In 12th grade I stopped caring and was happy for a while, but since then things have just been shittier. Knowing I'm going to die alone hurts alot more when you have to see how much happier all your cousins are with their partners.
I just want to experience what most people get to experience, is that really so selfish?

No shit when i was like 3. My dad gave me a ass whoopin cuz i was actin like a faggot, i broke some shit and definently deserved it. It was a really bad thunderstorm and i was laying in bed and knew I didnt deserve love and should fucking kill myself. Actually tried a couple days later. I pulled the metal u thing off a vacum cleaner cord and shoved into the outlet and some how i didnt get zapped or electricuted even though tons of sparks and shit flew out and the floor was burned.

Well I personally was happier when I regularly read books, replacing them with anime/vidya certainly didn't help.

bruh i have a mental illness that makes me waste up to 90% of my time battling intrusive thoughts I probably have it worse than you. If we transferred minds you's understand i should be fucked

it's reading certain books not just any books, and wtf kind of stereotype bullshit is that readers are usually more clear headed and happy. dont confuse them with anime weebs or nerds in general

belive it or not, i just came here to make a thread about this and yours showed up first

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I'd rather have a handful of close friends than a gf. Even if I remained a khv my whole life, if I had some close friends who stood by my side and I theirs, that'd be more than enough for me.
I can't even seem to figure out that though. At any one time I'll have one friend, who eventually drifts away or gets annoyed and cuts contact, and then I float around in a friendless limbo for a couple months until somehow, by accident, I stumble into another friendship. Repeat every few years.

And then you got a worse ass whooping for that didnt you

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my first trip to the feed and seed

When I was ghosted by someone I thought I could absolutely trust I realized all humans are untrustworthy garbage that will never be worth being with. Even if by some miracle I became attractive, I would probably still never trust anyone ever again (With the exception of family and some friends).

Actually no. They were glad i didnt die.

I was lucky and have a few good friends who we still stay in contact with online to play vidya together. Without the vidya though we wouldn't have anything to do though, so the vidya is extremely important.

See atleast they give a shit about you more than my parents do

I had never made a single attempt to get a bf or gf till 23 which is now. So just over the last few weeks I have realized that I'll die alone or just wind up like the legions of people in an unhappy marriage.

Same for me, 26. It was a few months from my 27th birthday. A long time ago I figured I'd simply fall into a relationship like everyone else does and during my early and mid 20s being a gfless virgin became something of a joke between my virgin internet friends and me. They of course eventually went on to fall into relationships while I remained alone the whole time.

As my 27th came up I suddenly realized hard that I was entering my late 20s and this was no longer a mere joke, it was really happening. I was going to go through life alone, no woman in my adult life has ever found me attractive (even though I work out and have a decent job), and even if I was to wake up tomorrow with a girl falling through my roof anime style she would not have patience for me since I've never had a relationship and have 0 sexual experience when the average 18 year old girl today is practically a porn actress.

>muh other humans

Lmao, get over it, you bunch of faggots.

I Was about 14. Oucg

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They dead

Around 11 or 12. I was playing with a neighbor kid and we got into some kind of petty argument or fight. It ended when he said "This is why you are going to be alone forever." I was pretty young at the time and I thought it was a strange thing to say. I thought "I wouldn't mind I guess." I'm 32 now.
In a way, he knew me better than even my immediate family. He was right.

With the last couple friends I had I was content to just talk with them every day. That makes it sound like I'm just settling, I guess, but I legitimately enjoyed just talking.

I was today years old

I have just this advice for everyone, especially those with a mental illness: never abandon yourself. Never give up your agency. No matter how bad you mess things up, no matter how bad things seem, as long as you can say your actions are your own you are way better off than you would be if you were to just let the chips fall as they may.
I have a lot of experience disassociating, so much so that I had no idea I was doing it until it just hit me. I put up with a lot of shit from my brain because I thought I had no choice, but then I realized I always had a choice. It's hard at first but it gets easier. Once you learn this power, you will be as attractive as gold.

I've spent my whole life alone, and abandoned by everyone I've ever met. I planned on killing myself when I was 18, had a route and everything. Met a girl literally a couple weeks before I was gonna do it. Fell hard for her. We dated for almost a year, things were amazing, no problems or anything. Then she abandoned me out of nowhere, and she hasn't talked to me in years.
I knew that my fate was sealed when she started posting pics of her new bf only days after leaving me.
Now I'm just waiting until I run out of steam and lose my mind again like I did back then.

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Talking just isn't enough though, you have to have some activity to do together in addition to talking or they'll get bored. Also everyday is too much, usually a few times a week is best.

When I relised longing for a woman that is good was pointless and the biggest lie I've bee told.

23, it hurts. I'm 26 now.

Saw this movie at 17 and thought, yeah that makes sense

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When I got diagnosed with cancer and realised nobody wants to get in a relationship with someone who's going to die in less than 2 years.

literally one day, two hours, and 5 minutes ago