Raped when I was 7. Since then I have not desired any form of intimacy. I jerk off, but my occasional encounters with intimacy just make me feel like my personal space is being violated and I don't like to be touched.
Now that we got that out of the way, what is wanting sex like? What is it like to be a virgin and desire to lose it? I'm curious cause I would much rather undo how I lost mine and I'm curious how the other side lives.
>tfw no pedo found me worth raping
Sorry Bro, it's just feeling like you're missing something that could make you whole. Not even the sex, but just the intimacy.
I mean... Normie not a virgin GTFO REEEEE!
>Not even the sex, but just the intimacy.
this
Have you considered seeing a therapist?
Wanting sex is pretty much automatic so I'm not quite sure how to describe it, but every now and then you kind of get a twinge in your upper chest at the thought of holding someone close.
I genuinely have no idea if you're lucky or cursed. I hate being a virgin, I unironically think like Elliot Roger at times. Yet as bad as it is, it's normal, healthy even, to want pussy. I understand why you wouldn't feel that way but I can't say its healthy.
Completely understandable, but unhealthy.
>I hate being a virgin, I unironically think like Elliot Roger at times
Same. One thing he said was something along the line of even the brightest heaven becomes the darkest hell if you have to live it alone. Very accurate for me.
As someone who is completely and utterly incapable of enjoying alcohol I can only imagine reading this board for you is like me at a wine tasting.
>what is wanting sex like?
I only want sex in order to have children with a loving spouse.
>What is it like to be a virgin and desire to lose it?
I don't really care about virginity desu.
I could even wait until i'm 60 if i'm sure to get a woman worthy of my seed, even if it would be a problem as i could probably not see my grandchildren.
>Not even the sex, but just the intimacy.
This.
I want to hug a girl more than i want to fuck one.
We're on the same page, Super Smash When You've Settled Down With the Right One Bros!
>Super Smash When You've Settled Down With the Right One Bros!
Based, user.
The worst is, people don't believe me when i tell them i'm virgin.
I'm actively seeking the girl, chat with plenty lass and people believe me to be a huge Chad.
It's hard to resist the degeneracy, but i keep thinking of my future life in order to go through it.
>Vaped when I was 7
Imagine getting hungry. Not just hungry, but hungry after not eating for a week.
Or being tired after doing hard work. A 90 hour week in carpentry.
Now, imagine having those intense feelings randomly throughout the day (unlike hunger or work, most can eat and rest reasonably).
With sexual desire, one can not permanently satisfy the urge no matter what.
Sure, you can eat a meal or rest, but imagine if you still felt hungry or tired after you've eaten or rested for six hours.
Sexual desire feels a lot like hunger or tiredness. It's a feeling that overwhelms the person, but it make you want to bring the sexual desire to somebody else.
And, you're able to justify the feeling easier than hunger or tiredness. Being hungry or tired just feel bad, but having an orgasm feels excellent.
Being able to justify it is probably what allows may people to like the feeling.
That is what sexual desire is like.
It's a primal urge, like the hungry wanting to eat and the tired wanting to rest. It's just directed towards wanting to have sex with other people, not even thinking about reproduction. Just thinking about the sex itself.
I used to hang out with good crowds in school so I wasn't really a robot. I'm very religious (spent some time at Orthodox Seminary), so everybody who knows me enough writes my pickiness off as "practicing what I preach" if not just "different" (culturally).
Not to say I don't feel dejected enough to wind up here, but I've known and gone out with girls who are actually what I'm looking for. That's all though, and it never lasts long because it doesn't click, but I'm kind of glad about that. I wouldn't really want my spouse to be a serial dater or anything, just somebody who knows what she wants and has strong enough morals to be willing to wait for such as well. I'm not looking for the perfect gal, just the right one.
Shite, forgot me image.
>That's all though, and it never lasts long because it doesn't click
Yeah, no need to force yourself. If you know it doesn't click and she does, better to leave it at that. Can still be friends if she's nice.
>. I wouldn't really want my spouse to be a serial dater
I wouldn't mind. It means she actively seeks the right man. Of course, only dating and no fucking afterwards, else it would miss the point.
I wish you luck user, may you find the right one as fast as possible.
Agreed, it's about the intentions. Not to hold it against anybody, but certain things are more important in a relationship, and I'm holding out for the one who understands that.
All the best, and may we both find everlasting happiness with the two lovely ladies out there that feel the same.
>It's a primal urge, like the hungry wanting to eat and the tired wanting to rest.
Yeah. And it is males' own fault they have it. I mean, in the beginning there was only "females" existing, or should I say beings that could reproduce asexually by multiplying. Then something happened and the reproducing started to take place outside the bodies of these beings, so that the reproductive cells of two types, males and females met outside their carriers and mingled (check fish). Then something happened again, so that the males started to thrust their semen into the bodies of females, using them as incubation chambers, not having to rip up their own bodies in the process of reproducing like females do. So, basically, sexual intercourse was originally males abusing females. THAT is why I haven't got much empathy for males not being able to have sex, even if the modern human males are not really responsible of what happened during millions of years of evolution. Hypergamy in females is the price males have to pay for abusing female bodies in reproductive process. And it is only fair. Sorry about that.
Not interested in what any of you have to say. I know the truth.
And yeah, OP, don't you want to kill your rapist? I would. All child rapists deserve to di (unless they are severely mentally disabled or ill) I do not understand if someone thinks differently.
>Raped when I was 7
fuck off chad, you lost your virginity at 7
>All child rapists deserve to diE
Maybe I'm just weird, but I don't feel it that intensely at all. It's more like what said. Even then, I don't get it too often. Not OP, by the way.