Are you tired of society, people in general and bad luck? is nothing ever going your way? are you withdrawn into the ways of NEETdom and robot life, because you feel it is the only way you can function?
If so, I will share my secrets, as I was once one of you, ask, the path to enightenment awaits.
How do I stop being afraid of putting myself out in the world? Doing this as a guy who's basically been neet for the last year or two feels so pathetic in my mind.
why do people make fun of me and always talk bad, like im some kind of villain when i have been nothing but nice to them. It makes me weep and curl into a ball.
how do i forgive myself?
how do I stop being a hypocrite that expects compassion from others but isnt compassionate to other living creatures?
First, what do you want in the world? and ask yourself if you really need it, if it would be genuinely good for you etc (not just short term pleasures)
Bad karma, either from this life or a previous one. Are you a good person?
Have you ever tried tracking your previous incarnations? Know any tricks or wisdom into that particular field. I've been able track my spirit back accurately over 100 year period, some vague recollection of the past thousands of years. I believe spirits can split and merge. What's your take on this?
>how do i forgive myself?
This is a tough one, because it will differ for each person on how they get throught it best, honestly, you can start now by simply forgiving yourself and considering it a life learing experiance (which it is), sit somewhere quiet meditate or close your eyes, and say to yourself over and over "I have done, bad things, and bad things have been done to me in return, this happens to everyone, and it is ok."
The fear you have stems from fear of judgement and fear of reaction, this in turn is connected to the sense of self. If you are rejected for being you then you believe there is something wrong with you. Even though there is no "you", I don't think you'll be able to understand that yet, so the order of operations should be to become comfortable with yourself, and figure out why judgement causes you such harm, work on that tree of reasoning for as long as you can. Like a little kid ask yourself "Why?" at every point. Why does their opinion matter? Why do you take it personally? Why is it giving you anxiety? As well as any other issues which are stopping you, such as the room you are trapped in being your womb, so there is an internal fear of treading into new waters. I could go on, but you need to be more specific, user.
I just want to join conversations of people I get along with and gain friendship but I never know what to say
okay. i am going to try that. see you in your next thread.
>Have you ever tried tracking your previous incarnations?
No, I have no reached full enlightenment yet, but I am half way there (I think)
>Know any tricks or wisdom into that particular field.
Sort of, but honestly it is reserved for a very high level, and probably wouldn' even work on most people.
>I've been able track my spirit back accurately over 100 year period, some vague recollection of the past thousands of years.
Impressive, I will give you a hint though, all memory of past lives is encoded into your DNA, cells ect.
>I believe spirits can split and merge.
This is 100% true, also, more than one consciousness can be born into a single body.
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Just remember to relax when you do, and try to let things go. It's that simple
Don't try to force yourself into situatiosn with people in general, if you find people that you are truly compatable with, you would't even need to try, it would come naturally.
>Even though there is no "you", I don't think you'll be able to understand that yet, so the order of operations should be to become comfortable with yourself, and figure out why judgement causes you such harm, work on that tree of reasoning for as long as you can
That's kind of what I'm doing right now. I understand that I am not who I think I am, my ego or whatever you want to call it, but its a new thing to get used to after years of feeling stuck inside the body of an unlikeable autist. All my years I've felt like I'm doing something wrong and when I think about it, it largely came from my father since he'd basically mock me for doing anything remotely different to him. He basically has no idea how to relate to me so he just will bring up something trivial about who I am and go into how that's weird, and he's been doing this for 20 years now. Just the other day I was talking about someone's haircut because of a conversation my mother brought up and I mentioned the official name for that particular haircut and he laughed and said, "That's strange user. Men don't know about things like that." So basically growing up I felt like nothing I did was right and it caused me to lose a lot of confidence, so then I barely even tried and then I'd get things wrong and more people would tell me I was being weird or silly. It really hasn't stopped all these years, my friends still sometimes do this to me and it never fails to piss me right off. All I want to do is fucking live without feeling like I'm committing a crime by just existing. I'm better than what I was but I really want to stop feeling like "me" is wrong and that I have to align with whatever others want me to be, in order to be confident and able to do shit as simple as look for work or just talk to others without shame
Psychs and Alan Watts didnt help (granted not a neet, have a job and own place), enlightenment fades like most things, much as we'd like to theres no getting off this dopamine roller coaster. My love for nature and meditation grew immensly though.
What secrets do you have and what does "enlightenment" entail?
full enlightenment is a paradox though, its rooted in wants, the human brain simply cant shed this. Aim for a higher state of understanding of the self and societal flaws to avoid.
You're burdening yourself from what your father has projected upon you. No one is a perfect human, parents included, so his shortcomings failed you in certain aspects. From what you have posted I feel like I should advise you to be careful with your assumptions or how you see things, for the world might have conditioned you in the past to see all these criticisms or judgement when they are not there, and are rather passing comments and opinions just like you might have. Everybody has their sore spots, and you would never guess what they are from the starts, and I'm sure the people around you are unaware of yours while they are just being 'normal' in their view.
You seem to be very aware of yourself and your issues, that's a really tool to have in order to get better, but it's easily mishandled with projections and assumptions due to your personal anxieties and fears, so try to keep yourself in check, user.
You have experienced the faults of other lives, acknowledge it but don't take it upon your own burdens too, rather just leave it aside like a stepping stone. You have seen and felt what it did to you, acknowledged how it shaped you, but it does not define you, and do not let it to warp you further before you get lost in your own mind.
Everything is a learning experience, treat it as such, to take it on as baggage wouldn't be learning and developing, just dragging on further what was given to you unnecessarily, and one day you will pass it off to someone else. Just because it hurts you it doesn't mean it has to hurt.
>That's kind of what I'm doing right now. I understand that I am not who I think I am, my ego
I think its time to find ways to meditate and diminish your ego user, if it's getting in your way this much.
>...but its a new thing to get used to after years of feeling stuck inside the body of an unlikeable autist. All my years I've felt like I'm doing something wrong and when I think about it, it largely came from my father since he'd basically mock me for doing anything remotely different to him (cont)
Think of all these things as karma, a test even, and it wad unchangable for your life and birth anyway. So, will you try to get past it? or let it rule you for the rest of your days?
Good, keep going.
>What secrets do you have
Gnosis, but a lot of it.
>...and what does "enlightenment" entail?
Finding the path, and walking it.
>full enlightenment is a paradox though
God and existance is a paradox, but it does not mean that they don't exist.
>its rooted in wants, the human brain simply cant shed this.
Wrong, human beings and animals are rooted in wants, enlightenment is shedding this
>Aim for a higher state of understanding of the self and societal flaws to avoid.
This is merely one of the steps to true enlightenment anyway.
Try further readings, perhaps with the stoics such as Seneca, Marcus Aurelius, Laozi.
I can suggest specifics but I do not know where you lack and where you excel.
sorry man but i feel i dont share the same enlightenment philosophy as you, to me its understanding the self and the reasons behind your actions and feelings. Like therapy but with more psychs, im not changing that.
It's getting late where I am so I can't really write out a full response but thanks a lot for your words user. They mean a lot. I have become very aware of myself and sometimes others but it has lead to hypersensitivity to basic interactions and intense caution and I realize this is a perversion of the gift of self-awareness, which has caused me so often to retreat into my own assumptions placed on others behavior. Along the lines of what you said, I want to learn from where I've been but discard the pain I've forced myself into carrying. I've been lost in my mind arguably for years now but I can't play victim forever when I'm the one doing this to myself now.
Enlightenment is not a paradox, user. Though the path to enlightenment is an intentional paradox.
The path of desiring not to desire is a tool, enlightenment is ineffable so it cannot be taught. The paradoxes presented in eastern teachings serves as a juxtaposition regarding the conceptual we live in now instead of the what "is". All the sayings, mental games, paradoxes, etc. are intentional stepping stones in gaining understanding.
The process of enlightenment is one of shedding preconceived notions and concepts which has rooted itself within your very being so it augments your reality to such an extent that you mistake the unreal with the real, you get used to playing the role prescribed to you by society and mistake it for the real experience of life. To desire not to desire is there to point at the absurdity which desire is, and how it is rooted within you, after a long enough time the person rids themselves of desire passively, realizing that it's not required and is only doing harm, the whole concept melts from the self and you are left much lighter, more free. This applies to all the rest too, especially with the self and other human faults. It's a process of becoming lighter mentally and spiritually, and you do that through shedding the weight and burden of man's conceptual visions and dreams.
That's what I intended with my reply, but as you wish. Everyone has their own way.
>Enlightenment is not a paradox, user.
Technically it is, how can one be in full union with the godhead/source/monad etc, and yet still be walking around as a seperate being?
>enlightenment is ineffable so it cannot be taught.
But the path to it can be taught, it is the feeling/bliss that is ineffable, similar to full kundalini/spirit awakening, which actually happened to me desu.
I agree with the rest though.
>yet still be walking around as a seperate being?
Except you are not separate, user. Nothing is separate. No paradox which I see.
There is literally nothing wrong with being an anti-social loser that plays video games all day. Just get regular exercise and eat healthy most of the time. If you live with your parents make sure you respect them and do as they say. Go to bed at midnight and get 8 hours sleep. You can sleep for longer on weekends. Don't spend too much time on Jow Forums. You don't have to but consider getting a productive hobby. You don't even have to spend much time on it. Don't stress about life. It is incredibly mundane and unimportant. You will die one day which is a good thing so look forward to it.
Maybe one day you'll get a part time job or something. I did and my life barely changed. Now I just have more money.
>Except you are not separate, user. Nothing is separate. No paradox which I see.
Not in the case that all is one, no, but in the case of full union, how should one be still walking around, and not have merged fully with the godhead to the point of none physical existence? (ie; natural state)
I find it the definition of a paradox indeed.
>There is literally nothing wrong with being an anti-social loser that plays video games all day.
Are you happy?
The godhead is all, you are part of the all. You are already fully merged. Your experience is light shining through your individual prism, as with everyone else's and everything else's experience. You speak in therms of the materium and the conceptual projected upon it, so I feel like I'm not fully understanding you.
If you speak of beyond the physical and purely spiritual, then you are there already for if you are enlightened then the body is a vessel for it, and a way of spreading the love which pervades all. If you speak of only the spiritual, of reaching the sublime, then we might be diverging in our views of what is.
As happy as I'll ever be.
Do not care about all this mystical shit. I just want to go off the grid.
Great and original post, user.
>The godhead is all, you are part of the all. You are already fully merged.
Not true, it's like energy filering down octaves some parts are more connected than others, look around, how many people do you see that you consider "fully merged with the god head?" if this were true there would be no need for enlightenment, buddhist practices, etc.
The rest is fine, you can believe what you will not everyone needs to see eye-to-eye 100% of the time, its not what this density is about anyway.
If that is what you truly believe and how you feel, go for it, but if you feel the need for something higher then by all means, persue it.
Looking forward to death. Only thing I want to do before I go is travel. I want to see different parts of the world. How long is that going to take? A year? Maybe two?
You may be "Looking forward to death" but are you looking forward to reincarnating again?
Thanks man. Maybe one day I will want something else and hopefully I am able to pursue it.
fuck off OP.
you will never be an arhat or a boddhisattva lmao.
Honestly, I'm fine with where I am now desu, I don't really agree either, but thanks regardless.
I travelled when i was 19 in 2015, saw every continent, travelling sucks, the people who are always saying travel is life are very superficial and just like staying at hotels
Well if reincarnation is legit, At least I will not realise. I might reincarnate as a happy person or an ant.
Yh I might be disappointed. Did you go on your own?
You have a good attitude at least, but remember, reincarnation is based on karma, and virtue, you aren't "done" with it in this life, they travels with you, so your past misdeeds and kindnesses follow you into the next life/lives. Why do you think some people are born good looking and some ugly? why do some people seem to have all the luck, with no explination, while others have none?
You get the idea.