How you holding up, Jow Forums?

wowzers

>I've given up on dating when I was 19
same here user, same here. I'm 25 and I'd rather jack off to waifu #45902 than to have a relationship

>I just wanted someone I could trust

she is a qt. The 2020 Olympics will make her everybody's crush, no question.
Also I should build a bouldering gym right fucking now to cash in on the boom.

>drag myself through college because major depression
>takes me 6 years for a regular ass degree while living at my mom's house for the last 3
>constantly think to myself how much happier I'd be if I could just finally graduate and get my own place and have money
>all of this shit finally happens after spending years feeling like it just never would
>three days feeling fucking amazing
>it goes away

Anyone feel like everyone around them is changing but not for the better? I'm different then how I was a few years ago too but I feel like fitness and other things have made it a better transformation than them. I'm also depressed and blackpilled though so it could just be that

Cure for black pill?

I'm on nofap, nosmoke, noporn. Woke up at 4 AM and can't go back to sleep. I guess I'll hit the gym anyways

The God pill, despite my faith it hasn't worked out too well

>Spend years with her
>From HS to the end of college
>Make wedding plans
>Suddenly it's over
>She simply forgot all the time together and started drinking and partying heavenly
The cock carrousel don't wait for anyone and she jumped in before she was too old to participate in it.

What if consciousness (at least, at the level of being capable of reflection) was not only a mistake but a maladaptation? Would it not be fitting that we aggree to die out for lack of any sufficient reason to do otherwise, and let the earth populate itself with organisms content to simply spread genetic information? Human consciousness would be forgotten with the last of us, an unfortunate evolutionary dead end. I can stretch my imagination to find motivation to continue living until I expire naturally, but I cannot find justification for creating further life to bear suffering on down through the generations ad infinitum.

God, the exact same thing happened to me. 5 years down the drain. Woosh.

Just don't have kids m8. Enjoy your life.

Anyone feel like they looked into the abyss? not to sound like an edgy nihilist

I’m alright. Picked up some shifts this week at a local cafe while I’m looking for something more permanent, pretty broke but not homeless yet so. Lifting is going well. Got wasted last night and spent $200 of the gf’s money on a shared lapdance, which was pretty hot. Sucked some stripper titty. We used to have a mutual girlfriend, polyamorous triad situation, but that ended real badly a few months back and there’s had to be some healing. But I think we’re both ready to get back out there and start dating, probably individually but maybe we’ll go unicorn hunting and see what happens. Mixed feels about the whole thing, as keen as I am for some variety and threesomes it’s a lot of difficult work making a triad function healthily, or at least it was with the last girl. And, like, in my experience nine times out of ten when you have the polyamory conversation with a potential new partner she runs screaming.
Also I’m sick of my only FWB (apart from gf), she’s becoming annoying and needy. But I don’t want to get rid of her because I don’t want to just have one girl in my life. Oh well, first world problems. Thanks for listening to my blog Jow Forums

Is there a way to tell if a girl is someone you should settle with? Been with this girl for a year, it's been pretty great

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i feel like i'm changing but not for the better. despite years of self improvement, competitive sports, career ambitions and everything else i feel like i'm not becoming the person i dreamt of being. and not because of my efforts but because of the part that i can't control. the part that will always remain just me.

Pretty OK. Recovering from anorexia right now. No binges in 10 days, longest streak since I don't know when.

i've felt that too. but then again, why resist the perpetual flow of doing and suffering when it will exist even i there is no one to witness it?

You disgust me

Yeah even if everything is going my way I cant get rid of this nagging feeling that something is absent in my life

That was bait, user, you werent meant to respond

poorly

Why?

>I gave up when I was 19
What the fuck is wrong with you, you were a fucking child.
>Realizing all expectations to be anything at that age other than superficial appearances were totally imaginary
>Nobody cared if I was smart, or had a job, or any of that shit
If only I'd gotten fit then....but even then.

i've recently become aware of how much i'm sabotaging my own success and happiness. and i feel absolutely powerless in the face of it. it's almost too subtle to notice but everything from the way i spend money, think of myself, plan my day, interact in my relationships include subconscious little behavioral patterns that prevent me from being the person i want/ should be. and at this point these patterns are so deeply ingrained that i can't possibly imagine getting rid of them. i feel doomed to be myself somehow.

Met a cute girl, we're probably going to a concert later.
Hope I don't fuck it up.

Would it? Suffering, and its negative valence are concepts born of our attempts to understand the world. The tree still falls in the woods, but suffering requires the sufferer.

funny, i keep telling my parents they're never getting a grandchild and they don't believe me. little do they know roids made me sterile lol.

sounds like my college life. didnt take me 6 years, i actually finished in 3, but i was majorly depressed, miserable, nearly suicidal the whole time because of being so alone.

then i end up not being able to get into the graduate programs i needed to because grades were lower than theyshould have been. so now only was college bad enough, now post college life has been just as terrible for years.

cant wait to commit suicide

i feel like i might not be qualified to answer that. i'm not sure to what extent nature perceives things but i know animals will still suffer with or without us. maybe we're just at a midpoint of human consciousness and we're still in sort of a ''crybaby'' phase because we're so identified with our suffering. maybe we will learn to bear existence no matter what it entails. i don't know, it doesn't look like it will happen anytime soon.

i wish i could just live a year, a month, a week, hell even a day as a normal person. i wish i could know what its like to live where you have a bf/gf/dates you go on, have friends you can do things with, people you can talk to, have a decent job, have some sort of happiness every day and feel motivation to do things

im 27 and ive never felt that in my entire life honestly. every waking moment is complete misery for me and has been for as long as i can remmeber

I went out with some people I don't really like last night. I went to my cousin's graduation party today and it reminded me how I still feel like I'm on a different planet than everyone else. Even around my family, I just feel alone.
It's been really hard, today I relapsed on NoFap and last night I got drunk and was going to do cocaine with a girl but she fell asleep at my place before that happened. Despite trying to avoid it, I guess I just wind up chasing cheap thrills because I feel so empty.

Nothing like a holiday to remind you how big of a worthless loser you are. I mean I get that every day of my life already, but a holiday really helps to cement that in

>get Monday off for Memorial Day
>rather than being happy about it, kinda sad because it's just another day I sit in my house doing nothing talking to no one like all weekend
>have a shit job but at least I talk to people there
>most people are with their friends/family during the holiday, traveling, going to beaches/etc, while I sit in my room doing nothing but waste hours until it's time to sleep

Amazing

i can only speak from my experience, but the answer is ''exactly the same''. i went from wanting to having all those things but at the end of it all existence still felt the same. it still feels empty.

How is it that you did not make friends throughout your life, user?
I lost all my friends after I moved to a different country during college (and have been friendless for 8 years since). What was your situation?

Weed or cogs? I'm doing the same, gl

"Dating" is just fucking. Women will always find something else to jump on until they get old and want to attach themselves to a guy for his financial security. Shit is cucked.

Do something social. Start with something for other social retards- find a fighting game community meetup, d&d campaign, weeb club, whatever. Get a wagecuck job that makes you deal with people. Join a social recreational sports league. Join a cover band. Volunteer. I dont know man, I'm a retard too, but I've got my retard friends because I deliberately put myself out there. I bet I'm uglier than you. If I can do it anyone can.

i've started to think like everyone feels that loneliness. people just seem to be better at dealing with it than you or i.

I'm just really lonely, though I feel as if I don't have the luxury to complain or brood. That's just how it is. In the meantime, I'm gonna dedicate myself to these three things during my free time:
>Literature
>Guitar
>Embedded systems
Thanks for listening.

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Not bait but ok

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You're welcome

So-so. Kinda guilty that I do nothing, but absolutely no fucking idea what I should do.

have sex

I always fucked up my chances with women I had a chance with. At this point, because of my job, I haven't interacted with a girl outside a cashier or waitress. The only lingering feeling I have is "what if I had sex with a girl I cared about one day" but otherwise I'm not jealous of relationships in general, seeing how most guys in them tend to complain about them.

>that exchange

Legitimately cringe, not even lying here.

i had them until around high school or so. then i lost them, and it snowballed from there. got socially isolated, angry, depressed, miserable which pushed people away. went to college with no social skills because of high school so i met no one there really. graduate college, go into the world with no social skills, meet no one. and the entire time, being too humiliated about how pathetic my life was to try to meet people so they wouldnt have to see it.

thing is i dont even like stuff that "social retards" or nerds are supposed to like. in fact my biggest thing is sports. but then the people who like these things are normal people and retards like me stick out like a sore thumb

also i doubt youre uglier than me.

empty as usual
at least im still lifting

this describes me pretty well

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unfulfilled and unmotivated. still lifting though.

You'll hang one day

Meet her friends and her mom. Sloots means she's a closet sloot.
Learn her relationship with her dad.
Learn if she has debt/handles money well.
Search this:
site:reddit.com/r/asktrp green flag

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>search "ask the redpill"
could you be any more of an incel

just as much about you as her. are you under 30? don't settle. men need experience more than women.

I'm 34

Yeah under 30, I'll take more time then. Career wise I seem to be okay just moving up the ladder and saving money
She does seem to spend a fair bit if she wants to treat herself or gifts. But she does seem to make decent money. I'll look into that thanks

in that case, don't take advice from internet strangers and do what feels right.

You know this site is like my family right? I've been here since 2004.

>bitching about women
Back to Jow Forums

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can you be my gf?

Sounds about right as for unfulfilled, I feel a little bit of a fire lighting up as for lifting like I haven't felt in awhile

this but unironically

yeah, me too dude. i'm here forever. still, only you can decide if you're experienced enough to settle or if you would still be wondering what's out there, potentially living with overwhelming fomo.

>people who like these things are normal people and retards like me stick out like a sore thumb
This resonates a lot in me. Have a (You).
I like fitness, but people who are into fitness are usually extroverted and enjoy going out, meeting new people, etc.

literally me

Not an argument . mp4

I don’t know why you guys are so salty. Jow Forums has such a hardon for the tradcon life which is cool if that’s what you want, but it’s not for everyone and screaming about muh duh-gen-er-asee every single thread helps nobody. Least of all yourselves.

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What you feel from hedonism can be taken away instantly and will not be around forever, what then?

So you have 2 gfs. How easy can I achieve this if I have money and decent looks for a 35 year old?

You are oddly defensive of your lifestyle, almost to a somewhat desperate degree.

Chill out.

>theredpill

cringe

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i feel like my culture might be too different to ever perceive this as anything but repulsive but honestly, i hope it works out for you.

can't that be said about anything?

Material possession, reckless hedonism shouldn't be the things that make you happy

sick keep up the good work

nothing is permanent. I could get hit by a truck tomorrow and die instantly, what then?
couldn’t tell you, in my case I moved into a sharehouse with two girls, started fucking them both individually, eventually they started fucking each other and we all started catching feelings. I think typically triads form from an established couple bringing a third in (they call it ‘unicorn hunting’ b/c actual bisexual girls who have the right emotional maturity to deal with joining a couple are as rare as unicorns). so I guess the best way is to start by getting an open minded bi gf and go from there
yeah you right, guess I’m just salty cos I wanted to vent itt
thanks

i know that. but i also know there is no point in judging or telling anyone they're wrong. and i don't know what a FFM relationship looks like, maybe it's not all the hedonism it's made out to be.

It does give women alot of power desu. Though you can compensate by game/social skill most people dont want to look in themselves so they try to change society to cater to them. On the other hand modern STD numbers are staggering.

depends on what kind of afterlife you believe in

>see same gym receptionist every night for last few weeks
>only the two of us in the gym
Think I have a chance?

everyone chill the fuck out, ive got a solution
i've been horribly depressed and isolated for the better part of a decade, but i just ate 2 pbj sandwiches and i suddenly feel way better, this may be what plagues our generation - pbj deficiency

>19
>almost done with first year of college and ive disliked every second of it
>passed all 4 of my classes fkrst quarter, failed 2/3 my second quarter and am probably going to fail all 3 this quarter because i just dont care anymore and am tired of being forced to take classes that have nothing to do with what i want to major in
>started skipping classes more often
>not gonna be able to get financial aid next year because if my gpa is below a 2.0 this quarter im disqualified from it
>no job
>both cars are pieces of shit that constantly break down
>bought recording equipment and music software about a week ago hoping i could become a big rapper, havent done anything with them yet and dont think i have a voice good for rapping
>all my free time is either spent on Jow Forums, vidya, or the gym
>think about killing myself everyday and the only reason i havent is the prospect that i might become Chad in a year or two after looksmaxxing, i might become a big rapper, or ill make a breakthrough in genetic engineering which ill illegally sell

you can tell when something wrong and when you look at what he has posted, there is a disgusting quality to it

Trying to get over a breakup that happened last month. Despite her issues, I've never met a girl I got along with so well.

>>bought recording equipment and music software about a week ago hoping i could become a big rapper

OH NO NO NO AHAHAHA

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gotten to the point where im so humiliated not only about my current life, but of my life leading up to now, that i dont even want to talk to people. i go to work but tell my coworkers nothing about myself, people ive worked with for 2-3 years know zero about me. i basically dont leave the house. i dont use dating apps and the thought of going on a date, sitting and having a conversation with someone, terrifies me. i could try to join groups or something to meet people but i have no motivation because i would do the same thing, not share anything about myself, be so private that they wouldnt like me anyway. i see no point of anything and nothing is ever going to change. the only thing staying fit is doing is keeping my organs in hopefully good condition to donate to others for when i kill myself, hopefully soon, but even then i bet my organs are shit since i havent been to a doctor in probably 15 years

>i just dont care anymore and am tired of being forced to take classes that have nothing to do with what i want to major in
Do not do this. I dropped out and I regret it so bad. I had it so good in college.
If you want to major in something different, I’m not suggesting you switch, but take a few classes in it instead. I was so amazed that the professors let me slip into their class despite not being allowed to per my degree plan. There isn’t a day that goes by without me thinking, “I had it so good in college. I wish I had stuck it out.”

>I've given up on dating when I was 19. I'm 30, almost 31, and my parents keep asking me for kids. I don't have the heart to tell them I may never have a kid.

Same but I'm 25. I've always been upset at being forever alone but it's only recently as I've hit my mid 20s that this shit has started to get very real for me.

honestly it’s basically the same as a hetero relationship except there’s a lot more scheduling and logistics to make sure everyone can see each other
yeah absolutely. people don’t understand that it’s faster and easier to change yourself than change society. but whether you want to wife a tradcon virgin and have 2.5 kids, or slut around and sleep with 100 new women a year, self improvement is the path to success for both.
I believe that the universe has no intrinsic meaning and that after death the electrochemical processes in our brain cease
fuuuuuark gotta try this

Seems like ur just undisciplined. Time to grow up buddy.