Confess your sins

Today I ate a fatty pork when there was a perfectly ok chicken option. The pork wasnt even good IDK why i did that,thats just my brain's way of self-sabotage I guess.

3 x 12 light weight
its for good posture not muscle gainsssss

My mom has been trying very hard to ruin any diet I try all my fucking life. After raising me fat she beats me down every time I lose weight by constantly and purposefully making it harder and harder to eat right.
>stew enough lean beef for 3 days
>she fries it when I'm gone

>buy fresh vegetables and greens
>won't let me use the big container to wash them
>will whine about the kitchen being "a mess" before I'm even done

>makes fatty and fried foods exclusively
>never makes salads
>no fruits

I wish I had the financial freedom to stop this nightmare. It only takes a few days of being too tired to verbally fight with her to gain back what I lost the previous days. Why is my life like this?

The gains god is testing you. Imagine if you can survive this war zone you can maintain anywhere and never get fat again.

If you can survive in this environment you'll never fail your diet when you have your own place. keep going user and move out as soon as possible

my stats are pathetic and im that close to resigning after 2 years of lifting
cant even ohp withouth stinging pain in shoulder
190 bench
295 squat
330 dead
6'3 200lbs

can lanklets with long arms and tiny wrists ever make it?

Get a mini fridge and a lock.
Put your foods in there
Ignore her or put up a big fight when she talks about food or why you aren't eating with her anymore.
She'll get the message.

How many scoops do you take?

>I wish I had the financial freedom to stop this nightmare.
Get a job you idiot. A part-time would solve all of your problems and put you way ahead of where you are in life - especially so since it's clear your mom is a complete gains goblin, in fitness and in life.

As many as it takes.

Almost a whole year has basically been fixing things, fixing things that broke, everything other than lifting has been just a big game of "catch up".
I fucked up a year in uni, i got fat, all because i was powerless to stop some things, or maybe because i wasn't able to stop those things from phasing me.
Sure, i've "recomped" a lot, but i'm still fat, no one cares that i've doubled most lifts, even tippled some.
I've passed some exams, but not as much as i've wanted, i've lost some weight, but not as much as i wanted.
It's all so frustrating. Other than in regards to lifting, and being the best version of my self, i'm nowhere near as good as i was two years ago. I've improved as a person, but paradoxically i feel like i keep fucking up, and that i fucked up much less 2 years ago.
I always feel like i'm atoning for some sin, even if i'm not sure what it is.

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>9:30 PM on a long weekend Friday at Gold's gym
>I'm the only one there
>heh
>pull out my THC cartridge and take a few hits
>just listening to Joe Rogan podcast and cranking out my sets
>life is good
>finish up and decide to take a few more hits
>10:45 and still havent seen anyone
>hit the sauna
>i could totally take a shit in here
>i start laughing hysterically at the thought
>hmmm
>take a fat upper decker on the stone heater
>pack up my stuff and go

i actually haven't been back this week because im too paranoid of being caught. I've never done somethijng like this idk why I did it. I just needed to do *something* fun for once in my boring ass life.

Father I confess that I have practically rejected a young woman today.
>be me
>on train with female friend
>short chubby chick but complete butterface
>100% not into her
>she says she has something to tell me
>says she wants to stay on train to tell me
>sixth sense kicks in, realize she might confess
>tell her to leave train because its her stop
>she goes after I have to get visibly frustrated
I feel bad but I'm not into her and I don't want to get into another relationship where im apathetic toward my lover.

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Ganbate user, have more faith in yourself. Your letting a self defeating mentality rule over your potential.

6 weeks until you start noticing differences within your body. 12 weeks of consistent training and good nutrition for others to notice. There's your newbie gains time.

eat less, refuse to eat

I only got my job at my local gym for a free membership, discount on a personal trainer to help me gain muscles but, to attract gym bros.

Father, am I a lost soul :(

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fucked a homo dude in the ass

no homo though

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Father forgive me for I dont do deadlifts.

i didn't lift at all this week

> be me
>At the gym i go to the suna in the changing room after lifting
>Sign has males and females so both go in with a towel and wear swimming suit
>Realise no one use it so decided to be naked in there with just a towel
>see door open from females side (female left, males right)
>quickly cover towel on my crouch
>nearly had aheart attack
> never used it again

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last semester I let a 5/10 girl suck my dick once a week for cheap vodka because she was a freshman. its was okay blowjob. like 5/10 as well. she was really eager to do it though. looked like a dyke

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i asked out a girl and got rejected with supreme condescension. i had pretty strong thoughts about driving my car off a bridge on the way home

I'm still seeing her and skipping the gym

I'm slowly packing on the weight. I've gone from 149 to 163 in the span of 4 months and I don't want to end up like a obese slob, but I'm too lazy to get fit and exercise.

One rejection isn't the end of the world. Keep at it user. You'll find someone one day.

i havent been doing cardio

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Im getting a dominos pizza tomorrow and eating it

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Fuck...you.
Goddamnit do I want to throat fuck a dyke.

I work 45 hours a week. and can't afford to live on my own though. Thanks EU.

it was pretty nice desu. she told her friends about it in detail too apparently

Don't rub it in you lucky bastard.

Doing the yearly take care of multiple ill-behaved children who don't know what sleep or no sweets means and I've been eating like a retard for the last couple of weeks.
Homework is hard to do as well and I can't work on my old truck and carry around a toddler who wants to be picked up by her uncle or play in the dirt and wander off to god knows where at the same time.

Shoulder is absolutely wrecked so I can't workout meaning that stress levels are fucked and I'm slowly losing gains and gaining bad gains.

Also, apparently some lucky asshole was able to throatfuck a full on dyke/tomboyish chick for cheap liquor and i'm here on fucking Jow Forums with a fucked arm incapable of working out and losing weight.

I'm losing the will to get up and go to the gym. I dont know why, but ever since I've moved out and live on my own it's gotten harder and harder. I work 45 hours a week and I'm always exhausted. I used to go every other day, rain or shine. Now I only go once a week begrudgingly. I hate this. I know I have no excuse but I dont want to end up like my other coworkers who are all fat.

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i have not go to the gym for 2 weeks and i've been binge drinking

Don’t do it. Get a salad or a chicken instead

user dont quit please I'm praying for you

Started lifting about a year ago and only chased aesthetic gains, realized that I’ll never meet aesthetic goals without steroids, and switched to powerlifting. I’m really weak and have a lot of catching up to do after wasting all that time bodybuilding

Im sorry father, I haven't done cardio for a week beyond sex.

I think I've got the flu. Half of my coworkers already came down with it, I barely slept today and I'm congested to hell. But I'm going to the gym and work today, because A)there's a sauna at the gym and that might give me some relief and B)there's a birthday party I've gotta go to today. And there's a second party too with my onetis too.

Watched porn again for 10 minutes (Shyla Stylez, Nikki Benz and Sara Jay older videos). I shouldn't do it. :( Managed 2 months without it once and no fap streak of 97 days.

I really feel sad because I should be better than that, can push myself really hard during training and dieting, but fail so easily on porn.

Keeping myself down to 1500 cal a day, from my apparent 2500-3000 a day.

Been doing very very well, but today I peaked over at 1700, so I'm going for a long walk to put me back under 1500.

A girl left her sweaty sportsbra in the gym changeroom and I huffed it while masturbating and came all over it, ditched it in the sanitary bin

Had a breakfast for the first time in 6 months. I'll have to go lift in two hours and I pray I don't shit myself squatting.

I cant stop thinking about how sweet i’d look with steroids and im constantly thinking about ways to avoid the negative consequences of roiding.

I know i shouldnt roid but i just dont want to be mediocore my entire fitness life

There's an amateur video of my mom getting fucked by a exchange student that stayed with us and i know she had an affair with. i dont think she has any idea its online

its been up for years but last night was the first time i got drunk and jerked off to it

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Is it on pornhub? Link?

Source, brother.

Dude, don't call him brother when asking about his mom's sex tape, that's just creepy.

Skipped leg day father please don't touch my benis

I skipped wednesday

its up on all of them, thats the only reason i found it originally

its like "mom anal looks in camera" or something like that

shes wearing a striped shirt

I ate bread today.

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I have three options right now. I've got a fever, so I could go home and take a nap. Or I could take my pre-workout, go for a decent push day, then sauna and a hot bowl of pho all of which would probably give me some relief.
More importantly, there are two parties today. A birthday party with good close friends or just a pub crawl, but onetis will be there.
Fuck me.

Thanks, will look into it.

SAUCEpost link wen find

It's probably this one

xhamster.com/videos/face-and-look-into-the-camera-8712036

Fucking hell the dumper on that

I know this isn't really a rant thread but I guess I need to.

I barely eat because of depression, I can't lift because of severe back pain that I can't get medical attention for, and I want to blow my fucking brains out because I feel worthless as a human being, fuck I have to talk myself down from eating a 5.56 round every single day. I absolutely hate myself, my job, where I live, how little I make, the people I work with and for. Everything looks so fucking bleak in life right now and I can't find a way out of it.
I managed to gain ten pounds of muscle this year and lost twenty after I hurt my back.
Sorry Jow Forums, don't think I'm gonna make it.

>I can't get medical attention for
Why not exactly? What kind of third world shithole are you from?

Your sin is doing a body part split.

The United States military. You either wait for monkeys to do their job, or pay out of pocket.

I promised myself to do a deload week after feeling a slight ache in my shoulders but I couldnt hold myself in on push day and now I feel an even worse pain in my shoulder :(

Wait, what? They let you serve with health issues? Fucking hell and I thought being drafted sucked.

Lmaaoooooo

Started a workout regimen and quit drinking. On second day of working out, I came home and drank 10 beers.

Just fuck my shit up.

Throw all your beers away, fag
And keep working out. Once you start seeing results, you won't want to stop

All of them faggette.

9th grade manlet detected.

We have the tapes. You are no longer user. Prepare thine butthole for defilement.

You fuckers need to hate yourself more and shit can your egos. Your feelings and shit don't matter. Develop a goal and work towards that goal. I'm so tired of these "hurr durr wanna be fit but lazy" idiots

Finished my cut last weekend and completely fucked my shit up partying. Regained 5lbs within 7 days. Knew it was bad, but my mate had this holiday planned months in advance so I felt obliged. Can't wait for the fucker to leave again and go into monk mode till next year.

Military medical checking in.

Hey boot. Get the fuck ahead of the curve. If you are fucked up get your fucking ass into medical and start the process. You peacetime boots piss me off. If you aren't talking to PM, PT and your PCM and your SL/PL and trying to hack this shit on your own you are a fucking retard.

Get fucking squared away, get unfucked, or get on medboard and get the fuck out.

>I don't go actually go to the gym, I just do push ups and squats at home
>I spend most of my time shitposting or playing vidya
>I go into NoFap threads to laugh at those with smaller streaks than mine

Normies don't give a fuck about what you lift, they care about how you look

I have cold and im not gonna be lifting today

fuark, mom made pizza
fuark fuark fuaaaaark

I am the SL you fucking cherry. Obviously you weren't in long enough to see the shitty side of medical care. Waiting list for an MRI is months long.
Post CIB/CAR or gtfo.

Shit, cunts like you are the reason new soldiers all hate the Army. Leadership or your unit can't ever be fucked up, it's always /your/ fault.

i take joy in the suffering of others father

my sister the other day told me i was "jealous" of her because she is single and childless and travels/lives in a nice apartment in Colorado Springs. except I know for a fact that she has depression, goes to therapy 2-3x a week, smokes pot every single day, and is constantly posting on social media about drinking and about how "strong" she is for "overcoming" this and that. I have a wife and three children, pretty simple small-town lifestyle which I love.

But I know that she suffers and is miserable, and I love it. I laugh at it, it makes me happy to see her suffering. That is my sin, father.