A letter thread. Write for broken hearts and flourishing loves

Dear A,

It's been 3 years already, time surely flies. Remember when we were nothing but friends talking non-sensical shit and laughing at each other? I've never thought that we would develop further our relationship.
Even as a friend, the time you left me really made me depressed. I was alone once again. When you returned everything happened so fast. Feelings, promises, and secrets.
Now we are not together anymore and that's fine. You don't need to blame yourself, this was going to happen eventually. I'm sorry for not being a good man.
Unfortunately, no matter how much promises you did, I can't believe in any of them. Sorry, but we are never going to marry, or raise our two sons as we wanted to. Even worse than that, I'm sorry for promising to you that I'd put an end to your life.
The feelings that I had for you are now in the past. I will follow on with my life. I'm sorry for making you write this book, I'm sorry for filling you with dreams and hopes. I'm sorry for being this selfish.
I just have one selfish request left. When you read this, don't end your life. Did you promise it, remember? You'll continue to live, no matter how painful life is. I hope that you are now a grown-up woman that can live by herself instead of needing someone, I really do.
I will always remember you. This time, I'm not lying.

Goodbye A.

N-

I wishfully think we could have been great together but we could never get in sync. Unlike you, I do not think badly about any of my exes because if they were not wonderful people, then what would that say about my choices? Even though you are not technically an ex, I still hold you in the same regard. I never put you on a pedestal and have always been aware of your relationship boundaries with me. Truth is, I am fucked up so whenever you said you wanted to see me, my internal conflict pissed me off. I was conflicted because I wanted to date you, to have a relationship, and you did not. So logically, I wanted your requests to indicate you wanted the same thing, and would have to squash any hopes because I knew this was entirely one-sided on me. I lost interest in the sex bc I need that emotional connection for it to be good. And the routine of you being naked under the covers killed the passion I used to feel. Truth is, I enjoyed you. And would have put forth the effort to have a fantastic relationship with you, but stepped away because my feelings of wanting more with you left me unfulfilled. And I could not take it anymore.

Anyways, enough rambling. I sometimes miss you and try to check up on you through Google but you know you are a ghost on the internet. I wonder sometime if you miss me. I wonder if you are happy. I wonder if you got back with the hoe bag you told me you were only friends with (until you moved her into your house /s). But, whatever I guess. I miss you right now. Who knows how I will feel tomorrow.

-E

dear n
im glad things are going ok for you, it was very good to talk to you more but i think we are in a better place now. worst case scenario we end up as con artists on streets together.
-m

initials?

origanilanolyony

Dear R,

I'm so happy you're in my life

Sweet

oregaganolo

Nice day out, went fishing lotta fun
-J man

Separation is an illusion created in our heads out of fear of being happy because we worry that once we reach that point we will lose reason which simply isn't true. Being happy together is enough reason, all my life I've spent most of my days feeling despair wish existence would stop but every now and then I would feel those brief momemts of pleasure and when I was with you my sadness was washed away. It frustrated me how you kept blowing those winds causing tsunamis of confused emotions but I wanted to bring you that inner peace and calm. With you ignoring me now I feel like a faceless shadow laying still on the dead ground. My motivation to move forward is lost, you are certainly not the first one I've met like you but all of them distanced themselves however I never tried like I did with you. The ones I grow attached to won't let me in and I was a fool to think you would be any different, you say it's because you think you will hurt me but I'm willing to take that chance, I'm not as innocent as my eyes portray. You say I am too good for you but I know thats a lie, if I were as valuable as many have suggested I wouldn't be alone pouring my heart out. I'm sick of trying to understand what I "really want", none of that spiritual nonsense has gotten me anywhere. All I wanted was you to be by my side, to experience this existence together, to make you smile and enjoy this adventure called life together. I don't care about circumstances, I just want you in my arms.

Hey L
It sucks, we don't talk anymore, i miss it. I had a good time while our friendship lasted, it broke once when i asked you out, i actually managed to fix it, but you decided to just break it of this time. I guess you could say you were perfect for me, but i wasn't perfect for you.
I hope we will start talking again, but probably not, have a great life and, get out of my head and heart

Yours truly, D

Beautiful

oranginal juice

Dear J,
It has been exactly 10 days since you died. You said I would forget the man, the name, the relationship, everything. Well it's been 10 days of not getting any messages from you, and you know how shit my memory is, so I'm taking this as a miracle. I'll give it a month, I suppose. I just wanted to say that I still haven't cried, but I still miss you. I'll probably break down when I get your book in the mail. I'll always cherish it. I'll always cherish you. I love you, J. Hope you're putting my name out there down in Hell. I expect to hear about you from Baphomet when I finally make it down there.
With absolute love, D

It's to D

No it's not. But I won't say the initials

Dear C,

Yes, I'm still mad at you. No, I'm not mad at you for leaving me. No, it's not just because you left for a different man.

I'm done asking why, I don't want your vain excuses. I already know why you did it, because it's the same reason you do anything: you were only thinking of yourself

I'm mad at you for how you treated me all those years. Looking back, I'm glad you left me. If you had stayed, I'd still be your obedient lapdog to this day, waiting on your beck and call, making myself miserable to make you happy. You let me do it to myself, and you could tell, it was painfully obvious that you were making me treat myself worse. But you loved it, you loved being the center of my universe. All the attention, all the sacrifice, all the time I spent just trying to make you happy. So you couldn't give it up. You would've watched me kill myself slowly

So thank you. Thank you for setting me free. Your selfishness ended up saving me from OUR selfishness.

You will never read this, and I never want you to. In fact, I never want to talk to you ever again. You are poison to me

I'm better off this way, and you're better off selfishly thinking you crushed me completely

Sincerely, A

Dear B,
I owe you an apology. I used to take advantage of you at work and bullied you out of the good equipment. I took the good work from you and left you with you the bullshit. I would also put my work off on you while I went to go sleep somewhere. I only did so because you were so weak, and I was in a position of relative strength. I had spent years becoming more assertive and strong. Whenever I looked at you I would be reminded of how I was when I used to be weak and pathetic. I would remember how I used to let people walk all over me like you did. When I looked at you I would see the old me, the me that I hated, and I would despise you for it. I hated how weak and timid I used to be, and when I saw it in you I should have been more caring and understanding. I should have been a friend. I'm ashamed to admit that I wasn't able to be a good person to you. You were a good person, far better than I.

I am sorry.
K

Dear baskin robins girl

Thanks for helping out saturday with the cleaning.You honestly saved me.Also thanks for smiling at me when you pass by it makes this shit job bareable.
Thanks,K

dear a and c,
you guys are my best friends and mean the world to me :] i'm sorry i am sometimes a depressive little sod but i want to try my best to be the best person i can so that you know it's possible for you too.
lots of love

n
you are a fucking GAY FAGGOT and i dont miss you at all
faggot

dear B

i'm gonna deliver my resume to some places tomorrow. wish me luck.
i wonder if you work anywhere now. it was tough for you back then. but maybe everything got better in time.
i wish i knew what's going on with you.
i wish you could just tell me if you're alive.
i miss you. i l**e you.

L (j. cz)

Dear G
I want to live and i want to love.
Will you help me out, please?