This thread is for anyone to get anything off their chest, or otherwise talk to another person about their feelings.
I will try my hardest to respond to whatever you post for as long as I can.
I do not judge nor hate anybody and I will not judge nor hate you.
I only want to listen and to understand.
Everybody deserves to be heard and to be understood by someone.
I'm here for anybody that wants somebody else to talk to, or to hear them out. I am here for you, waiting to listen.
I'm in love with someone who might have had feelings for me. I waited too long and they found someone else. I feel betrayed but I know I can't blame her... In the end I was too scared of hurting myself to give her actual intimate affection. I try to be Happy for her, because I know her bf treats her right and loves her truly. I'm jealous that he makes her smile and laugh. I can't be her friend anymore because it crushes me to see her now... I'm lonely.
for whatever reason i hate affection and people gettiing too close to me but at the same time i feel really lonely and i wish i could have friends to hug and shit like that, still most times people try to actually get close to me i get really fucking angry and act violent like an autist, the very little people i know irl have called me even "tsundere" i got really pissed by that and i told them to not use weeb shit terms on me ever again, despite all of this i feel empty and just get angry wherever i see people being happy and shit like that, it's funny because my problem is being alone and while people have tried to appraoch me nicely i reject them because of my weird fear of making human contact that i don't know where the fuck it came from, even if i wish it could be better i think i can live alone for the rest of my life, i have a little family left that loves em so that's something i guess
I was lonely for a long time and sometimes I still am. I know that the loneliness hurts, and I can only imagine how much it hurts having to see that, and know that you can't do much of anything about it. "Insult to injury" is what comes to mind.
I've never been in a situation like yours and so, unfortunately, I can't quite fully understand. All I can say is that I hope you can move forward, and at least you can be happy for her, that she actually is herself loved and happy.
You're another lonely person, just like the first guy and I feel for you too. Unfortunately, I can't understand fully what you're going through either. I apologize deeply for this, knowing how shitty it is being starved for human affection.
Perhaps you have some kind of social anxiety, or something similar. I have a friend who deals with something like that, and it's very detrimental to them. Without they would be very very lonely, and so I think from that perspective and mine I know how it is to want this thing so badly and at the same time be cucked out of it every single time. You're not alone in the dark.
Thank you for listening. I'm trying my hardest to move on... But I feel so empty... Thank you again.
>not even sure if I can feel anymore
Fuck boys. I rarely post here but I'm at a loss.
"Whenever we talk I feel a deep love for you, but I don't find you physically attractive. I should have told you this months ago". I've known this girl since I was a fat ugly weeb in highschool. Long distance we talked for a year romantically before we were able to meet up twice over two months. I interacted with her with the stated intention of 100% honesty and trust, since in the past that had fucked my relationships over. Then when we finally meet she ghosts me for a week before having the nerve and disrespect to say that over text. How can you say that you feel a love for someone, that kisses and hugs that you shared still feel magical, but find them so unattractive, I'm not even ugly anymore. It doesn't make any sense. Am I missing something? I don't know if I could trust her, but is there a chance?
Thanks for coming. Moving on, as hard as it is, is not only the only thing you can really do, it's the healthiest thing you can possibly do. I can't say much else, but I really do hope you find happiness in the end.
On my bad days, my depression makes me feel nothing but numb, so much so that I forget to eat or wear a jacket when it's cold outside, or even step out of my room when I'm not at my job. Perhaps I'm not as bad as you are, but I think I can understand. I hope you get better.
I go through intense highs of mania and deep pits of depression, the former lasting a few weeks and the latter lasting months.
My manic self loads me up with all sorts of social obligations and my depressed self still feels obligated to fulfill them, so I end up forcing myself to be around others when I don't want to be.
Other than that, my entire life deteriorates when I'm depressed as I don't want to eat anything or do anything. Even my hobbies become arduous tasks.
I'm really lonely, I'm trying to snap myself out of the belief that no woman would ever want me in any long term way, but it's like there's another voice in my head that shoots me down if I even begin to drum up the courage to speak to women.
I feel like I'm two people sometimes, I'm so fucking exhausted and I can't bring myself to take some time to rest, because I won't rest in any amount of time I take because I can't rest at all.
Thank you for sharing. I was very isolated as a child and had to deal with a bad home life, the way you react sounds like I did. If you can analyze instances where you were betrayed by the people closest to you it might help. And angry responses are slowly aided by self control. You need to get in those situations and then explicitly resist your urges, and they'll get better.
That's my depression right now too. I just spent about $2,000 on stuff for my passion too (music). This depression is cutting deep into me tonight. Should've known materialism isn't gonna make me happier.
I have no clue what to do in my life. I'm a stupid autist that everyone likes to make fun of, because every other day my fucking retarded ass decides to spout bullshit. I'm currently 20, 3 months away from 21. I've trapped myself into taking a shitty career path, and I might as well kill myself if I try to change it now. My family is super religious, so even if I shot a hole in my face they would go apeshit about me going to hell. I've tried doing some research on suicide from the Bible, and I haven't seen any word from the New Testament saying those who commit suicide go to hell. So thats a plan for my list. I've tried working out, but my autism cucks me again by making me feel self-concious. I work in a dead end job, apartments near me are autistically expensive, and every other day I find myself thinking of ending it.
>$2000 on music stuff
Are you a musician, user? I know the struggle
t. drummer
>mfw $300 for brass disk you hit with a stick
I'm genuinely just fucking lost. My education is fucked and I can only imagine living a neet life, rotting away in front of a computer until I die and the fuckin' tax collectors or some shit are the ones to find me.
Yeah, I'm actually a dumb dumb and chose to follow a dream by going to school for music. I just bought an interface, studio monitors, and a new moog synth. I hate that everything is so expensive and then you have guys online that say shit like
>you don't need to be rich to make music! Just make music!
That kinda mentality is for people that are gonna be stuck in a small town forever stuck busking the street with a shitty acoustic guitar and their 15 minutes of fame is gonna be in a YouTube video with a clickbaity title.
Keep playing music and spend every cent on it if you're serious.
As obvious as this is, I'm going to say that if what you look like is an obstacle to this relationship, then it's certainly not worth it, as it shows that she isn't entirely faithful in what you two have. Maybe she was scared and didn't know what to do exactly, but at the same time this kind of behavior on her part is wildly inconsiderate of you. I hope you find some kind of graceful solution here, even if it means separating.
The only thing you can do now is persevere, even if mental illness fucks you into the dirt. I'm not sure exactly what your situation is, and if this is ignorant or obvious, I apologize, but I know medication and therapy *does* help. I can't imagine how your life is, constantly either being totally burned out and exhausted or so high on a manic episode that you absolutely can't help but move and be active and do nothing else and end up getting yourself in trouble. I hope you do the best you can given what you have to deal with.
Yeah man, I can respect that. I never really thought about making it as a musician. I'm happy with the level of local fame I've acquired (people who work at bars refer to me by name when I show up). All power to you though.
I think you both are pretty similar and so this is addressed to the both of you. The dread of utter failure and ruin is something I've personally felt before, especially before when I didn't know as much about interacting with the world as much as I do now. I doubt that either of you are as fucked as you think you are, but at the same time I don't know what your exact situations are. I very much wish I could administer sound advice here, but at the same time, I can certainly say that neither of your lives are over. If either of you can find a way out, try your hardest and don't give up.
Things change constantly, and so giving up on life now helps nobody.
>I feel like nobody likes me anyomoe
>my friends are hanging out with me less and less
>on valentines day I tried to sk this girl out, she said no
>only people are nice to me are internet friends, but theyre still mean to me allot (mostly jokes and shit)
I just wish I could have a few close friends that dont live across the continent. people to hang out with and play vidya or some shit
I also wish I didnt spend all my time in my room on my computer, I'm miserable, and I cant find a job anywhere
I don't have a clear feel to share. Basically I have felt an ongoing lack of self-worth. I don't approve of myself. I don't like myself. I feel frustrated with myself, like I'm an albatross around my own neck keeping me from progressing. Might have something to do with compulsive pornography viewing (there are a few studies that have suggested it's a legitimate addiction) despite constantly telling myself I need to stop and knowing it damages my cognitive abilities and makes me feel submissive and uncomfortable. I also drink caffeinated beverages until I borderline dissociate on the daily though I've resolved to stop doing that as of today. I sleep like crap because I don't eat much but I seriously don't have any appetite, no food seems appealing to me. I don't have any sort of aversion to eating but it seems like work. I go to bed hungry, can't fall asleep, feel bad in the morning, chug caffeine, and the cycle repeats. I know I should start exercising but there's almost a part of my brain that throws a tantrum at the prospect of doing something that might actually help me. It's work to even brush my teeth, it sounds like so much effort. My social prospects are pretty much nil, I have no friends at uni or at work, I'm not literally hated at work but I feel like the women there think I'm creepy which I can't really blame them because I'm constantly zoned out or muttering swear words under my breath. I tried a few months back to unlock my full cognitive abilities by forcing myself to fully recall cringey/bad memories as they appear as opposed to repressing them and making myself stupid, as my strategy has been since I was like eleven years old, but that didn't really work out. I'm actually worse off in that regard than I was before trying. I feel frustrated that my mental capacity is stunted in preventable ways but I don't have the strength to undo it. Thanks for listening.
I get it. I've felt before that nobody likes me and even now I don't have any really close friends in real life. Hang in there, and perhaps someday you'll find someone that really likes you and treats you well.
I think you're depressed. Pretty much everything in this post lines up with depression, and I know this from personal experience. I can really relate to all of this because I've done and experienced nearly everything you wrote down here. I've been addicted to porn, I have basically no ambition to forward myself in life, have basically drank energy drinks to the point of fucking my brain for an entire day, failed to take care of myself, have no real close friends in real life, the like.
Regardless, I'm working on it and I feel confident that if I continue to work on my situation I can eventually succeed. I think you can too, even if your situation isn't exactly like mine. I know what you're going through and would certainly advise you not to give up.
This is probably all I'm going to do tonight. Hopefully I'll be back tomorrow.
Thanks to everyone for coming by and participating. I hope I've helped at least one person here, whether it be profoundly or at least helped them to feel better for a time. None of you are alone. Someone is always with you in the dark.