Should I kill my self?

Should I kill my self?

>parents are poor
>born in the middle of nowhere
>literally 7 hours from anything
>never been anywhere happy or cool
>Im in the middle of nowhere with nothing but other small towns like 20 miles away
>parents never bought me a car or did anything for me so i was already completely fucked on top of being completely fucked
>get a dui over one hit of weed because Im black basically and targeted by the whites
>all i want is to move to a big city
>impossible because parents are poor
>no car parents take all my money no savings from my parents
>finally get a shit load of money with 0 resources just because Im a super genius
>black out get arrested for a dui on accident was pretty much just god sabotaging me because i broke out of poverty despite him ruining my life 24/7
>get longest probation sentence ever because Im black and i had that one dui over one hit of fucking weed
>stuck living in broken down house with parents in shitty ptsd hell wishing for death and destruction every day
>talk to chad from my town
>he spent all of high school partying and fucking hot girls
>his mom married some rich dude
>moved to bigger city in a better warmer climate
>they get him a job selling cars so he makes a good amount of money without having to get skills or go to college
>his parents bought him cars and shit all through high school they bought him expensive shit he didnt have to work for
>gets to race dirt bikes and shit like that becuase his parents werent poor fucktards like mine who shouldnt of even had a kid
>got jobs easy because he had a car and was chad
>tell him i got a dui and my life is ruined and fucked
>just tells me he got caught driving drunk once and the cop just told him to go home and not do it again

I fucking hate god so god damn much i wish i could destroy this world and rip him apart with my bare hands

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Yes, just fucking kill yourself, I'm sick and tired of seeing you post here.

what happened to your snow picture? and if you are so desperate just hop on a greyhound bus and go somewhere, what do you have to lose? you can go live on skid row with your kinsfolk.

>Im black

Yes! FUCKING YES!

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No I shouldnt have to live my life without a license and arrest warrant for the rest of my life. Thats what god wants. Me to suffer. I have to find a way to beat and overcome an evil god ruling over this world with an iron fist and personally coming after me every day

I have to kill god

i dont see why not society doesnt care about you or me we are just sacks of fat and waste of space to them only the alpha gets ahead in life and those who pretend that they are alpha try but fail money fame women etc are just coping mechanisms anyways and drugs costs money i say drink yourself to death or become a chain smoker and die of lung cancer or heart failure eat yourself to death pig out become even more disgusting and anti social no one cares

I could of been a chad it was just god kept destroying me and taking away so I couldnt. I would win at life and be a millionaire if god wasnt after me everything bad in my life is because of shit luck

NAH, you should just enjoy the time you have for as long as you can. you'll have plenty of time to be dead later.

But im literally just sitting in the middle of nowhere suffering and every time i find something that makes me happy god just destroys it and rips sit away and makes me even more miserable somehow

Nigger just FUCKING kill yourself. It's not Gods fault you got fucking drunk and drove off somewhere. It's all your fault you single digit IQ FUCK.

God is out to get me. Everything in my life is bad luck. Its my parents, gods, and the white mans fault

don't do it user

you will find love this year

rolling for you, faggot

have you considered becoming a soundcloud rapper? cursing god could be your shtick.

Yea but Im pretty defeated i spent years looking up other rappers and shit and literally every single one was born in or around a major city Ive never seen any famous rapper come from some bumfuck ass town you have to live in a major city so for someone to repost your shit and make it go viral

And the soundcloud thing is so done and beat to death the only way to go viral now is to have a good ass song, have an expensive video shoot, and have a viral share just to get noticed

Where is your snow photo, smoltownanon?

you are the one who got multiple DUIs, not God. Still you shouldn't kill yourself. Save a hundred bucks and buy a plane ticket somewhere warm. Get a gym membership so you can stay clean. Find a job.

Do you seriously still believe in god? Ffs, don't blame it on a fictional character that is NOT real, you are just blaming your misfortune on something that doesn't exist instead of just running the fuck away from everything, the world doesn't owe you anything, if you are just going to be crying and having self pity you better just kill yourself, because you'll just keep suffering if you don't do something, alright faggot? And stop blaming "god" because that shit isn't real

How the fuck can my luck be this bad if its not some diety with magic powers coming after me destroying everything I love

Try not to think about it, you'll just be hating something that you don't know if it's even real or not, and I think the best way to kill "god" is to NOT believe in it, god will not change your, neither your parents, friends, the world, me or anyone but you, I told you already, the world doesn't owe you shit.
Try saving up some money and buy a one way bus to the nearest city and find a job and start building up your life, trust me, it'll be the best thing that ever happened to you

Not to sound like an ass hole but Im literally just trapped in the middle of nowhere stuck in a room suffering 24/7. I have nothing to do but think about it. Im pretty sure thats gods plan just to make me suffer as much as possible it doesnt make sense any other way other than god is just out to get me

I know the feeling you have about god i too once thought and felt like you do now. i had something wrong with my intestines and so they didn't work right as a result i was in horrific pain and bed ridden almost all of my life until last May when i finally met a doctor that said enough is enough and did surgery but before that the pain was so bad it drove me to even try to kill myself a few times but when i would always chicken out i always asked myself sobbing why would god put me in so much pain my take on it is he did to make me more humble and to build this feeling in me to help others that i think i wouldn't have otherwise