>send someone a message on Discord >red text >"they fucking blocked me" >enter dissociated trance >create an alt account and join a server he's a part of so that I can message him >send dozens of messages cussing him out and telling him the world would be a better place if he was dead because he's a sociopathic monster that has no concept of love or loyalty >he's confused >"I didn't block you" >turns out that earlier, my message didn't go through because of a glitch on Discord's end >start crying >apologize profusely for hours
The life of a Borderliner is never easy. I'm just glad this story had a happy ending; not all of them do.
>Keep cheating on my boyfriend every time he does something that makes me mad >Have unironically slept with probably 15-20 different men because of this >Eventually one of them gives me fucking HPV and I accidentally give it to my boyfriend as well >Accuse him of cheating on me because of it even though I was the one who gave it to him >Break up with him and get a new boyfriend within like 3 weeks >Ex ends up in the psych ward because of our break up BPD is indeed a fucking nightmare, I don't deserve to feel this way, I deserve much better.
Suppress this with alchoholism. Works for me. I still have friends thanks to never being sober.
Aiden Baker
This post made me laugh for some reason. Sorry.
Gavin Long
Well, going just from this story, it sounds like you don't
Hudson White
Its ok, i wont remember this tomorrow
Evan Lee
He/she definitely deserves better. All Borderliners do.
Good job on asserting your needs and boundaries, . If your boyfriend didn't want to be cheated on and didn't want HPV, maybe he shouldn't have made you mad so often.
>hyper self-aware for a bpd >keep my self-harm a secret and no longer suicide-bait >extremely afraid of people hating me but let myself be miserable instead of asking for reassurance or making accusations >don't lie about my ex's or fuck with them after they've abandoned me >avoid addictive substances because I know I have 0 self-control >have never cheated >honest about my flaws and will warn people about them before they get close to me >most people ghost when they hear BPD because of people like OP
I do though, I'm actually a really good person, it's just BPD makes me act out on people, that and the people themselves are partially at fault for pissing me off too, I would say it's probably 50% their fault and 50% mine. Exactly, he just does little things that piss me off, if he didn't do that I'd probably be mostly fine.
>>most people ghost when they hear BPD because of people like OP
Umm, sweetie? Did you miss the part where I said I apologized to him? Don't call me a completely irredeemable piece of garbage. You might hate me, but that doesn't mean I'm a bad person.
>have boyfriend >start seeing new guy >have house party >bf is pissing me off >invite new guy to party >he sees bf walking out of my room shirtless >new guy asks if he's just there to make him jealous >make up lie about how that's not my bf and I was just teaching him a lesson and I really like you new guy >he's leaving the party >feels like he's leaving my life >yell at him >he yells back >he's waiting outside >he apologizes >says that me seeing other makes him uncomfortable >lie again and tell him it's not like that >he lights up >he believes me >continuine stringing along both of them for a year Fuck you courtney
Grayson Rivera
BPD indeed is a nightmare but you're just a stupid fucking slut and should be exterminated
James Lee
Holy fuck you deserve to be lined up against a fucking wall
Parker Ortiz
Actually, given the series of actions described in your post, you deserve everything that mental illness could possibly throw at you.
Just a tip: the actions you described require you to be not just BPD, but actively immoral and dishonest. Immoral and dishonest people deserve to suffer, so hopefully you are suffering and will continue to suffer.
Nathaniel Jones
I hope you overdose on Zyprexa you fucking roastie bitch
Gabriel Brown
But if you piss him off it's okay because he doesn't have BPD? Sounds like you're a rabid slut enjoy HPV faggot
Isaiah Campbell
>work in a team of basically two people: me and project manager >very independent, we communicate mostly via Skype or email >things seem to go alright >project manager suddenly announces via email she quits for "personal reasons" >hold back tears for the rest of the day despite not really even knowing her >later feel even worse because I think it was my fault and she doesn't actually like me and I unintentionally did something that made her quit
Carter Evans
OP is a better person than , certainly.
The event as described in OP is more of a histrionic episode than a full-fledged BPD case though.
Jackson Anderson
>boyfriend makes her mad >she defends her >"y-y-you BPD whore"
Picture being a robot with erotomania. Truly a fate worse than death.
Grayson Sullivan
How am I a slut? I can't control my mental illness, it's not my fault for acting that way. I told my boyfriend I had BPD before we started dating so it's mostly his fault, he kept doing little things he knew made me mad. w/e, don't care what ignorant dicks like you think It's obvious you have no idea what BPD is, I know I'm a good person and deserve someone who can actually treat me right and love me, unlike a nasty little person like you who deserves nothing. >But if you piss him off it's okay because he doesn't have BPD? More or less, yeah, he started it so he has no right to be pissed off at me anyway.
If what you're saying is that the rules are if someone pisses you off you get to cheat on them and it's OK...well OK then.
Just remember that those are the rules now, because you said so.
Thomas Hall
BPD is just an excuse for terrible people to continue being terrible without having to be accountable for their terribleness. That's why only women have it.
Josiah Reyes
I want nothing more in the world than to fuck you behind your boyfriends back, and to keep fucking you every time he makes you mad. Tell us more.
This is obviously a false flag. Op probably got dumped or rejected by someone with BPD and is now larping. A lot of people use it that way. Men can have it too though, it's almost as common as it is in women we're just less likely to seek help for it.
Christian Diaz
I can cheat on them because they're emotionally stable normies and can handle it. They can't cheat on me though because I'm emotionally fragile. You know how it would be a lot worse to steal $100 from a starving Ethiopian family than it would be to steal $100 from Jeff Bezos? It's kind of like that.
BPD can cause you to have an irrational belief that others will abandon you, and can make you have problems with your self-image.
But you still have to decide to put each and every individual cock in your mouth.
It's perfectly possible to have extreme mood swings, a poor self-image, and severe fear of abandonment WITHOUT sucking every cock you come across. You may think that your diagnosis is a get out of jail free card that excuses everything you do, but it's not. YOU are the one who takes your feelings and translates them into action. YOU.
Samuel Bell
hey im also kinda like you with this bdp stuff would you wanna give me any tips, i wanna be better then this
Christopher Russell
>You know how it would be a lot worse to steal $100 from a starving Ethiopian family than it would be to steal $100 from Jeff Bezos?
That's actually false, so...I guess that pulling that premise out makes your entire syllogism collapse.
Tyler Hill
>defends herself by sleeping with 20 guys
Nigger what?
Sebastian Parker
I hope someone cheats on you and you kys because of it worthless whore
Jaxon Richardson
Unironically consider suicide, I've met people with BPD and you're just a straight up bad person. I hope you have a miserable life you fucking whore.
Luis Mitchell
Actually, it would be much more logical to say that since you're insane and inferior, it's much more permissible for others to cheat on YOU.
1. You're going to act as if you've been abandoned no matter what the other person does anyway, so they may as well emotionally abuse you. It's not like that can make you any worse.
2. You're insane and defective, which means you have less value as a human being. Therefore when someone cheats on you, it's not like they're cheating on a fully-fledged human being.
Thomas Ward
You sound cute, user I think I already said don't care what you think? Loser. BPD makes me act out sometimes but I'm a good person at heart, can't you understand that? I deserve someone who won't do fucking micro-aggression bullshit that makes me angry. Not true, my behavior is out of my control so it's not my fault if I do something bad. If you had BPD you would understand but you don't. Grow up and stop being ignorant.
You're the cute one who unlocked such a strong desire I didn't know I had. And you're posting one of the best girls too. Do you cuddle after you get back at your boyfriend? I want to send you back to him with my cum inside of you every time.
this shit has to be bait, what the fuck am i reading literally just sitting here with my mouth open, what the actual fuck, didnt your brain ever develop beyond the level of an entitled 4 year old?
>I'm not delusional. Try putting yourself in MY shoes and understand how I feel. You obviously lack empathy.
No, you don't understand. We hate you precisely because we have empathy.
Using the faculty of empathy, I can imaginatively experience the mental and emotional state you occupy when you do what you do. And it's so incredibly repulsive that imagining it makes me hate you more.
If I *didn't* have empathy, I might hate you less - just because you'd be so confusing that I might get distracted from hating you.
Nathan Hughes
we all need to hear it sometimes, im just happy i was able to make a difference^^
Brayden Walker
This entire thread is just one big retard safari, like holy fucking shit.
Nothing you're saying even makes sense. If you did have empathy and could imagine my mental and emotional state you would realize I'm not a bad person, so you have it exactly backwards, you hate me BECAUSE you lack empathy, sorry to burst your bubble.
Yeah, it's definitely a larp. All of the stuff op is saying is stuff that BPD people do, but it isn't really how they would tell you it happened.
No matter the situation someone with BPD will find a way to paint themselves as the victim, op is kind of doing this kind of by providing rationalizations for some shitty behavior but someone with BPD would just omit all the shitty things they did in a relationship or exaggerate how poorly they were treated to make their actions seem insignificant or justified.
It's clearly written by someone who has experience with someone who has BPD, but doesn't have it themselves. I'd put money on OP just getting out of a relationship with someone who has BPD or having a oneitis with BPD who rejected him.
They're the ones who don't have empathy that keep doing things that upset you in the first place. Nobody likes it when others make them mad, it's just with BPD its amplified and they need to take proper care of you. It's their fault for not being careful when they know they should've.
Are you still fucking behind your current boyfriends back?
Not true. Once I'm done splitting and my brain returns to normal, I enter a self-loathing state and put all the blame on myself. I NEVER justify the crazy things I say or do while splitting after I return to normal. I feel deeply ashamed of myself and put all the blame on me where it belongs.
No matter the situation someone with BPD will find a way to paint themselves as the victim don't take this at face value :)
Robert Cook
>If you did have empathy and could imagine my mental and emotional state you would realize I'm not a bad person
No I wouldn't. I will now put myself into your mental and emotional state as an experiment.
>Gee now I'm feeling childish rage over nothing at all >Gee now because of that rage my impulse control has been overwhelmed, and I know that, but I don't take myself out of whatever situation I'm in >Now I'm sucking some stranger's cock, but that's OK because I'm ang-er-y >Now I'm smugly rationalizing my behavior. Mmmmmm taste the comfy smugness
If that was my internal state, I would hate myself. Since I would hate myself, that makes it OK for me to hate YOU.
Caleb Young
That may be true but even if there is a 1% chance of it being true then I don't want to miss out an opportunity to give praise. If someone can lie to get sympathy from others and not feel bad about it then it doesn't matter what you say to them as they are delusional enough to spin everything in their favor.
Leo Mitchell
Not everything you don't agree with is bait. Thank you, exactly. I'm trying really hard not to cheat on anybody this time, plus he doesn't do the annoying crap my ex did like leave his underwear around and forgetting to flush the toilet. I'm a total neat freak so that stuff really sets me off. >Accuses others of childish rage >Makes his own childish post and trying to victim blame Just stop responding to me, you're totally clueless.
I have it myself, or used to have it since I no longer meet the diagnosis criteria. I'm not defending people with BPD, the opposite actually. I almost always tell people that if someones tells you they have BPD you should immediately cut contact.
All of the stuff OP is saying is stuff that people with BPD frequently do, it just isn't how someone with BPD would perceive events. They aren't lying, they're just unreliable narrators and will never give you the full story. I've known enough people with the disorder to know.
Jonathan Thomas
i kinda was a dick, your in the right here sorry user
i made a shitty joke, i also have bdp but im (done) with being shitty and just forcing myself to act one way regardless of my emotions send luck!
Gavin Torres
It sounds like he's much better to you than your ex, hope things go well then! Although I'm a bit disappointed that there's no possibility anymore that I push you into my bed after he makes a mess again. Did you try find someone new to cheat with every time, or go around an old friend's house to fuck any time he made you mad?
It doesn't work if you actually enjoy it. They'll probably stay monogamous out of spite.
Easton King
well then i guess we discovered the secret to making bpd girls monogamous
Logan Parker
>at house party >my mate is there with seriously BPD girlfriend >treats him like shit and he just takes it, fucking embarrassing >she starts flirting with me, telling me how bad he is >iamthejewnow.jpg >decide I don't like this relationship and I'm going to end it >extensively lie to her and say he cheated on her >she is now a screaming crying mess, starts hitting the guy >everyone now sees her for what she is >they break up >she now has literally 0 friends in her last year of highschool after her public craziness until she dropped out and went AWOL, heard she was doing porn after that, fuck knows what now and this is how I saved my friend, and fucked up some bitch's life
No, I'm not trans, nor am I going to prove my gender to you. It was 15-20 different guys over the course of our relationship, most would be strangers I met at a bar or something where we only had sex one or two times, others would be old ex's or people I knew in high school and I might have had sex with them 10 or more times.
>No, I'm not trans, nor am I going to prove my gender to you. i was expecting an answer like that anyway if you aren't larping i'll confirm like the others that you are a shitty person with no self control you might can try to come up with some witty excuses but the truth is that you really are a bad person but this must be bait anyway
Colton Cox
I want to blow your fucking brains out in a literal sense. Vermin like you needs to be in the grave
Justin Clark
lmao how did you even find the time to have sex with your boyfriend in between you constantly cheating on him with the whole town
Sebastian Martinez
Haha thank god I have schizoaffective disorder and major depression instead of this gay shit.
I only hate myself and I take 0 things out on others borderline nigger.
My moms borderline and she's batshit fucking insane.
Jaxon Myers
>heard she was doing porn after that
What's her porn name, I want to jerk off to her humiliation and degradation
William Scott
The only way I could date a BPD girl is if I kept hey locked up in the house and didn't let her outside without a chaperone who I have personally vetted. If you were a normal woman, or had some non Cluster B disorder, I might be able to reasonably trust you, but BPD is the crazy that you're not supposed to stick your dick in.
Tyler Brown
*he didn't, it's a LARP. and if they had that much free time, it was already a shitty relationship
Jayden Garcia
unfortunately I don't know some guy showed me on his phone when I was drunk and was like "hey remember this bitch?" looked like really shit tier cam stuff
Nathan Wood
I have BPD and this is exactly the kind of relationship I fantasize about. I just want someone to love me forever and never let me go.
Ok. I was with him for a little over a year, you probably don't realize this but it doesn't take normal people 2 hours to have sex like you might think from your JAVs. Prick.
Please stay as far away from other people's sons as possible, you are what people in India call the malaria virus.
The cure is to post on this board and get a trumped up prescription for super fuggin' heavy tranquilizers from your local drugdeale- psychologist. From your local psychologist.
Ethan Gomez
I bet this bitch unironically thinks her mental problems are cute and not at all childish and pathetic
Benjamin Lee
I'd love to love a girl and never let her go, but monogamy is a two way street, and one of the defining traits of BPD is breaking up relationships for no goddamn reason.
Haha, now that's more manageable. How would you feel about a guy to cuddle you and feed you Ben & Jerry's whenever you have a panic attack from your hallucinations?
Nicholas Morales
if youre not having 2-3 hour long sex sessions at least once a week then im so sorry that nobody ever loved you and rather saw you as a hole to dump their seed in before moving onto other things.
Christian Young
I can't break up with you if I'm not allowed out of the house.
Josiah Ward
Go look in a mirror. This is the most virgin post I've ever read in my life. Go LARP somewhere else.
Is it possible to be a friendless shut-in with no social interactions and still have BPD?
Justin Diaz
I want to be one of those you have sex with 10 or more times. More times. More. Even if your boyfriend does something small and makes you mad, we turn it into a reason to fuck like animals possessed.
It's possible, but likely you'll get diagnosed since a good chunk of the criteria relate to relationships. I'm BPD and I'm basically a total shut-in at this point, I only got diagnosed after I got into a LDR.
