Tfw had to quit larping because it was starting to get too real

No, it was you who wanted to be my wife and carry my babies to be "useful". Most of the times I was talking in 1st person, it was to give you some better perspective, instead of saying "one day you'll find a guy etc". It would have been too hard for a schizo girl to put this all in perspective I think.

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You wanted it too, Pierre. No need to lie.

I couldn't make any real decision until I actually knew your breaking point. In the end, I dropped you, you should know that go read my last messages. It's true that it was a cool possibility, but it was way too soon.

Don't think the life of a woman would be so easy. What kind of moron would even take care of such a massive fuck up? Not me. I had never talked to such a heavy case so it was all out of curiosity.

How would have the schizo felt if I didn't show any sign of affection whatsoever?

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You're backtracking a lot. I just don't buy this whole bullshit about "finding the breaking point". You said that you stopped watching porn because of me, for fucks sake. That seems proof enough that you thought there was a real chance.
>What kind of moron would even take care of such a massive fuck up? Not me. I had never talked to such a heavy case so it was all out of curiosity.
Certainly didn't seem like it. Did you stalk me for a week just out of curiosity?
>How would have the schizo felt if I didn't show any sign of affection whatsoever?
We wouldn't have been on Discord in the first place. I honestly hated going there so I only picked the most desperate ones and you were one of them, Pierre.

what is your real life, then?

Just a typical, sad robot life. Really nothing special.

Who the heck is Pierre? Some fucking ugly discord tranny?

give yourself some credit, I wanna hear about you!

Just a desperate Discordfag that got baited by me.

>You said that you stopped watching porn because of me, for fucks sake.
It's true, and I still haven't watched any. Anything that will help me break out of my boring routine, so I dont have to watch porn in order to have a dopamine rush. And usually talking to a girl is more intense than other activities.
>Did you stalk me for a week just out of curiosity?
I only saw your matriarchy and pregnancy threads. When I see easily refutable garbage like those, I must do it. Considering you were very likely a girl, it was an easy target. Then I got a bit more curious.
>We wouldn't have been on Discord in the first place.
That was the only way to actually know you more thorougly.

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jesus why not milk money off them keep going dude

Well, her life is heavily based around mine, just a lot more colorful. I tried lying as little as possible so that I could keep up with my larp better. I suppose the biggest thing is that I'm not actually a schizo. The rest has at least some basis in reality.
Well this is all super flattering, Pierre, but you really seem like you're still not over me.
It started getting a bit boring and I fucked up a bit with the pictures of "myself" that I posted so I decided to end it. The larp kind of evolved over time so I think it lacked consistency to become something long-term.

Hunting the man behind the bait is a stimulating activity. What else is there to do on this board?

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>Hunting the man behind the bait is a stimulating activity.
You mean hunting for that redhead pussy? But you're right. Our lives are pretty empty anyways.

I'm glad you managed to know more about yourself, and envy being a woman. I couldn't imagine feeling like such a faggot.

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It just made me realize how easy being a woman is. It's not even funny what thirsty betas are willing to do for you.

>this is a obviously a larp

Well, the downside is being a woman. And don't talk about me, you're the one who instigated most of the things. Sex talk, being taken care of, and so on. I was just there to investigate (mostly).

LMAO. And what exactly were you investigating? How quickly could you get some Eastern European pussy to cum in?

Hey, user. Have you ever felt that you were LARPing so hard that your ego was starting to assimilate your persona?

If there even was anything to do with such a heavy case. Turns out it was a lost cause. Do you think if I was that desperate I would even try to investigate the root cause of your hopelessness and despair? I've said time and time again I didn't want a fuckdoll.

Fockin right m9

>your ego was starting to assimilate your persona?
Hmm. I'm not sure I understand what you mean. I think it's the other way around, maybe? The persona was becoming more important than the real me. She was way more interesting than me so I devoted more of my time to her than to myself.
You were investigating jack shit. You just wanted an obedient wife. So I baited you with one.

I meant something under the terms of your larp character, or some of its characteristics, start becoming a part of the normal you

That's a hard question. I don't think my real character started absorbing elements of her, rather she began replacing me outright. A lot of the stuff she claimed was something I believed anyways, just spiced up a bit.

No. All the things I've told you, to see if they spoke to you at all. Probing. I've asked you about why you felt like such garbage.

As for the obedient wife thing, I just wanted you to understand the real meaning of being a woman, I've not only talked about being a "submissive wife" (which I tried to explain time and time again that it wasn't like in the propaganda movies). Maybe then you would have found your place in this world, because I do believe many women feel inept because they compare themselves to men too much, I've personally seen many such cases.

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Oh, hey OP. Honestly the only reason I started hanging out in your threads was because I've larped as various characters myself in the past and figured I'd eventually get to see who was behind the mask a bit more.

It was pretty sad to see how many dudes wanted to fix your schizophrenia with their dick though.

It's pretty common to feel like the role is becoming more real than you. Most social engineers/actors/UC cops etc experience this at least sometimes.

>It was an investigation I swear!

Investigating the potential that you may fuck a schizo redhead.

Man, you're still on that fucking cope hard huh?

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It's true that if everything went better than expected, I would have then been interested. But it ain't so easy.

Hey there Black Heli user. What sorts of larps have you done? Did you ever feel jealous of the characters you've larped as?

Its not a "larp" you're just gay and this is the only way you can express it since you're too much of a coward to do it irl

You still seem pretty interested, Pierre. You keep finding all of my threads in the catalog.

Mostly ARG characters. Paranormal witnesses and various end of the world conspiracists.

And yea, mostly with those characters I envied experiencing firsthand something outside of the mundane a whole lot.

The girl you larped kinda acted like a female version of myself
God I wish I was trans, women don't give a shit about anything and men actually love them, women don't love men.

That sounds way more interesting than what I've been doing. Did you have a plan for what the character was going to be like from the very beginning or did you make stuff up as you went? Mine kind of just evolved over time. At first I didn't even think of it as a larp, I was just avatarfagging. But then I kept adding stuff like being a schizo, a girl etc. and started amassing orbiters which only encouraged me to continue.

I usually come up with the rough idea for the character in the beginning and stick to an overarching plan but it's fun to improv when the opportunity presents itself and adds realism / depth to the act. Most times I've done it with other people though which makes it a lot easier. Usually one of us would drum up interest / give hints to the legit investigators posing as someone taking part and we could play off of the audience better that way.

You're right. I'm here to drill you a new hole.

That sounds super fun. Is fun the reason you did it? I like to think it was for me, but I'm not sure. It all just left me empty and unfulfilled.
Fuck off, Pierre. No girl will want your neet dick anyways.

Yeah definitely for fun. Keep in mind, the first time I started making shit up like that began when I was heavy into mmos. I wanted into a guild that had a no underage rule and I was 15 so I came up with this whole elaborate story about my rl (mostly being older and having a career) and by the time anyone found out I was lying I was the 2nd in command officer and no longer underage, lol. So I've done it for personal profit too.

That's nice. I kind of wish I used my larp for something useful and not just (you)'s. What really surprised me is how me being a girl was barely questioned, even though I provided no proof.

>tfw when actual schizophrenic girl and just get called a freak and people are creeped out by you.

how did you approach it OP?

Try doing anything useful with a schizo girl persona.

What the fuck Am i reading

This board is so fucking weird

I think what prevented me from being hated too much was that I pretended to be self-aware about my issues. So when someone called me out, I'd agree with them at least partially. That usually made them feel sorry or me. But I don't know what being an actual schizo is really like, so I don't know if I can help you. What sorts of things do people call you a freak for?
Welcome fellow Rebbitor, le greentext memes are the other way.

It can be bad for mental health but this is your first shot at it right? No reason you can't do another differently for a desired effect. I think a lot of the reason it wasn't second guessed more is because a lot of robots essentially hope to find someone exactly like them - lost, dealing with mental illness and in need of help to give them purpose and perhaps love.

Also once you had a few orbiters that bought into it others became envious and wanted your attention too. I mean dudes were making threads claiming you as theirs lmao.

I have little desire to continue larping. I think this on is the best I could ever do. Plus it makes me a bit sick, as it makes me neglect the real me.
>I mean dudes were making threads claiming you as theirs lmao
lol. I think I also made most of those.

I figured at least some were you. I think this one was a bit personal for you and you went into it with a headspace that wasn't really conducive to staying compartmentalized from the role. Getting one on one with people the way you did is exhausting and can end up really fucking with your feels if you're at all empathetic. And I personally am.

When I was younger I did a few that really took advantage of people but I can't really stomach doing that kind of thing anymore. You definitely shouldn't keep doing it if you aren't in a position to maintain a balance with it.

It's easy, dishonest, cowardly, and lame. You don't do things simply because you can.

Yeah. It's all a huge waste of time anyways. Just being here is. There's no purpose, no goal with doing it Just feeding off of people's reactions. In hindsight, it's pretty pathetic. But I also felt like I got to talk about my own issues through that medium and get a lot more responses because I was a "girl", so maybe there was some use to it.

Catharsis is as good an end result as any desu.

Artistic work of fiction, etc etc

>Artistic work of fiction, etc etc
are you telling me this is supposed to be an argument everyone already heard? because I didn't. in any case, you know what you're doing.

It's been a disclaimer on Jow Forums since...well, forever.

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why do you feel the need to tell me this? wut

ive only been telling you that larping to get money and shit is incredibly dishonest and easy and you shouldnt do it.

>What sorts of things do people call you a freak for?

mainly my speech pattern/being incoherent when I don't believe i am being such, my beliefs about reality and not having enough emotion in my voice.

You're exactly me! Please tell me about your character. What's her story. Please I need to know

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This. OP is a faggot, as usual

Well I can't help you with the speech part since I've only larped via text, but regarding your beliefs, try appearing less convinced in them than you actually are. If you seem doubtful, people will be more likely to listen to you and won't judge as much. Maybe they'll even agree wit you to an extent, even if that's to only make you feel better. Again, I'm not a real schizo, so I don't know if that's helpful.