Vent thread

Thinking about self-administering ECT. I have a BS EE and no job, unemployment that is the second round and runs out in three months, and am 28 khhv. Been depressed since I was a kid.

I could try and kill myself again, but I'm too much of a failure to succeed like the previous times. I'm worthless retarded garbage that nobody could ever love and I want out.

I can relate to you on that one man

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

THERE IS NO FAIRNESS IN THIS!!!!!!

WHY IS IT ACCEPTABLE THAT PEOPLE ARE ALLOWED TO MONITOR ME AND CAUSE TROUBLE

BUT I CAN'T DO THE SAME??????

WHY DOES EVERYONE WANT ME TO ACCEPT HARASSMENT

WE
TRULY
LIVE
IN
A
SOCIETY

i got robbed recently and my tower was taken along with my tv and xbox 360 and some other stuff so now im a phone poster

It hurts to live. I have physical pains in my legs, my mind is fucked from childhood, and I have no motivation to address either of those issues. Im a completely lanky bastard since I have autistically high metabolism. I also generally feel like shit and have nothing to look forward to. The only reason why I haven't killed myself is because there are some people who might be sad if I die.

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Little brother just got caught charging my mom's visa $500 my other brother and I paid it off for them but I'm still fuming with anger at that 15-year-old boy. How can you ever trust someone again, that stole 500 bucks from their own mom wtf

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for what? v-bucks?

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Bro, where do you even find a gf? Honestly. Real estate is strugglin'. Almost all my friends have fiances, gf's, or are married. I don't really feel lonely, I'm fairly content in my singleness, but when I want to pursue a relationship, WHERE DO I GO?? I feel bad for my friends who are single, because I dont want them to go the incel route. I don't even know... I guess a better question is why am I asking you all?

Dating a girl in my inner-circle, told my friends about this finally. Hesitated for five weeks though because literally everyone (including all but one of them) told me it was a bad idea and I wasn't eager to get chewed out again.

One of them (the one I'm closest with, go figure) in particular is pissed because I didn't tell him sooner. Refuses to see my side of things. Doesn't really infuriate me but it does kinda upset me.

Fuck skyrim and the autistic fags that made it. Enemies shouldn't be allowed to level up with you because it means all the work you put into your character means nothing. And why can I only wear one ring in that game? Sorry I'm not a pc fag that can mod to high hell like most of you lot probably are. The games design is another thing, I expected to see fucking castles tall as skyscrapers but instead every town is a collective of fucking mud huts and hay huts. The npcs in the game have no actual character they are all boring lifeless pieces of shit and I don't expect anything better out of any future open world games.

Who the fuck cares if I vent? No one ever responds to my posts or when I try to talk to them irl

Can you respond to my rant on skyrim? I promise to give one free (you)

I agree, Skyrim is trash. I have only played it on console as well. It's just empty...

Step 1. Make friends with someone who loves to party.

Step 2. Get invited to a dope ass party with drugs and alcohol.

Step 3. Ask a qt with a thicc ass if she wants to dance/fuck/whatever You need A LOT of confidence to do it. You need low fucking inhibition.

Step 4. Possible girlfriend.

Here is your free (you) rant about something so I can read it now

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OK, I've fallen in love with a girl at work and it's pissing me off. I've done this so many times in my life and I always know it will never happen. It's so annoying, I wish I could just get rid of those emotions at will. She's really friendly to everyone and she's very responsible. I enjoy talking to her. Only problem is that I'm 21 and she's 17 almost 18 AND she has a boyfriend. I've seen so many people fall into the "being in love with a girl with a boyfriend" trap and I don't want to do it. I just love her and it's annoying.

They all have boyfriends these days. Even if they didn't I'm too much of a coward to do anything anyway. The best I can do is rant about a game on an image board.

I'm tired of this fucking bullshit attitude of the students in my major of being poud of poor shit (poor culture?), and being unkempt fucks to "resist the system" or whatever bullshit they believe, I mean, being a leftist doesn't mean you can't shower every once in a while, and I hate all this especially because some of them are decently well off people that are far from being the "proletariat" they so much love to LARP as. If anything we should aspire to having more refined and luxurious tastes, to "gentrify" what we like, not going in the opposite fucking direction. I used to think of myself as quite the leftist but after being with these LARPing fucks, the right seems to be a bit more appealing each day, though I don't consider going full right wing anytime soon.

Would you like to see Britannia rule again my friend?
m.youtube.com/watch?v=nWOMwHqOTX4

Disintegrate this hideous material prison and release us all from the bondage of manifest existence

I'm a mutt whose genetic composition is basically lost to aeons, (kind of a weird mix of possibly asian and white even though I'm in a brown country), so I don't think I could wish for a privilege that wouldn't be given to me.

I don't mean anything racial by it. I imagine it more in a political view I don't care what color you are

>vent

These hoes still fighting over me

Then talk to me about it, please.

>not taking it out of his hide, or making him work for it back
HE'S NEVER GOING TO LEARN THAT WAY

goddamn vent thread made me need to vent

Communism can only be achieved by bloodshed "follow the worms" surely you see the down side of that as do I.

I meet this girl on amino (ik its a gay app im ((mostly)) on there to troll) her name was vivian and the most delightfully fucked up person i met and im not taking oH iM eDgY 12 YeAr OlD kind of fucked she was... Like me i dated her for a while and we speaked and she was a girl who liked me for once in my life for the best few months of my life. Then she just stopped messaging its been like that for almost a year now i dont know what to be angry at but i am.

>someone assumes I'm a tranny just because I have long hair and I have a hot mooncat character in FFXIV
I'm fucking sick of this shit, it's happened twice now. I'm determined to lift until I'm obviously too masculine to be a fucking tranny.

get in autists.

talk it out, break the cycle, rise above.

gg/qsXpSMF

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I know exactly what I need to do to be successful. It's not hard.

But every fucking day I piss away 90% of the day instead of being productive. What the actual fuck is wrong with me, why the fuck can't I be fucking normal, this shit isn't even hard

i dont think im angry about anything, just very, very tired. existing is a lot of work.

went to a normie club and realized how much there is between me and normies and trying to come to terms with the fact that i will never make good friends because i'm still trying to do well at uni and don't have enough energy to invest in the subcultures that i'm into

i just wish someone sent me a message, i feel so lonely and i probably deserve it but it still fucking hurts 24/7, i'm starving from human relationships yet i feel like i should just give up, i'm a sad bastard

I wish I wasn't so indifferent to everything in my life. At some point I guess I just saw the futility of my actions and my inability to change for the better. I can honestly say that I have completely given up.

On a side note since we are venting in this thread, my brothers girlfriend is really getting on my nerves. Each time I see her I grow to dislike her more and more which is strange because I've known this chick for like 5 years and have never had any issues with her until now. As of late she's been really rubbing me the wrong way like she's suddenly gained this sense of entitlement and we're just supposed to treat her like a fucking queen or something just because her family as more money than we do. Fuck off man.

i know that feel bro. I actually fucked myself hard over the last weeks. I dropped out of Uni and had to get a job. i applied to one of the biggest Logistic business in Europe. They offered me job and all i had to do was to reply. Idont know whats wrong with me but everytime i wanted to reply i started to sweat profusely and felt like getting a heartattack. Now im 23, unemployed and nothing but the equivalent of a highschool diploma.

female or male you are?
are you gay?

Slightly above average all respects but get no respect in society only the top 20% have a chance these days

My Dad is a hopeless alcoholic left me when I was 4 started a new family which he dotes on and is Mr dad. It fucking sucks but he is so pathetic I cannot stay mad at him.

I WAS A FUCKING ANIME HAREM CHARACTER IN HISH SCHOOL

GIRLZ WANTED TO SOCIALISE ME BUT I REJECTED

REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

i just want to be left alone don't talk to me stop giving me unwilled attention i am sick of having to care about others and having others care about me just let be please not everything is a disorder i do what I enjoy doing there is no need to judge me and diagnosing me with useless shit i have only been worse afterwards combined with a personality crisis

I thought I was doing pretty well but yesterday I went to a meeting where they help you write the form to apply for i guess minor tism bux. They asked me a lot of questions and were brutally honest and the way they worded things makes me now wonder if I'm actually full on retarded or something.
They said things like I'm disassociated with a normal life, or how I don't go outside, have no real friends and internet ones don't count, and that I "live like a child" .

It's true I don't go out much but there's nothing to do in my tiny town other than walk my dog. I don't have any real friends because there's no one my age here anymore and my old or e friends are all in different parts of the country.

I get that they were wording things deliberately badly to improve my chances of being accepted but I feel pretty bad. It makes me wonder if those are real reasons or just excuses I tell myself to cope. Maybe if I won the lottery or something it WOULDN'T improve my life, and Id be too scared to travel or move out again, I just don't know.

what subcultures are you into?

I fucking hate the 4channel and Jow Forums split. I keep scrolling up to the top while on a blue board to go to a red board and the option isn't conveniently there for me. Earlier I was changing the 4channel URL to the Jow Forums URL and accidentally left out a key and it took me to some virus website with infinite pop ups

Spend 3 years of my life trying to make someone happy and take care of someone who I loved
She started fucking literally the first next guy who expressed interest in her 2 months after moving out from her parents place and tried to lie to me about it

She's probably happier now than she was with me and even though I realize I don't technically deserve anything just for always giving my best and trying to be there it pisses me off to this day

Just wished I didn't get fucked over for trusting someone for once in my life

I really loved her

I just want to be a NEET for my purpose in life. I don't understand how people can follow a belief that you should live your life the way you want and that different people feel how they feel about certain things, but being someone who wants to be comfy and do nothing is haram. I'm so jealous of people who were born with their life path already paved for smoothness, but having this jealously mentality all the time can be unhealthy. Every time I go to a school counselor or family event I have no idea what to tell them because I don't want to tell them I don't have a passion for anything and would rather relax all my life, because that draws unwanted attention and criticism. I really wish I wasn't so bad at being social. I know I could manipulate and establish connections with people if I lied about who I am in public, but I really don't like lying about myself. I would rather people get the wrong impression of me as long as I was being honest.

I have a friend that's a girl who I don't have any additional interest in, but she's the type of person who longs for relationships. So far she keeps getting in relationships that sound like a pain, and every time after the break up she jokes about how having a relationship isn't kind of overrated but then finds someone else to hook up with. I just don't get people who try so hard to be in relationships as much as they can. I really don't want to hook up and settle down with another person, but I'm not necessarily dead set against it and am waiting to see if someone will ever convince me (not that I'm in high demand or anything).

>ask someone an easily searchable question on Jow Forums or reddit
>they complain at me for not searching myself
>really just crave interaction

I'm still on mommy bucks because I couldn't get hired
FeelsBadMan

I like to masturbate to the blonde puppet controlling girl

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

I CAN'T TAKE THIS ANYMORE

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Can't take what, Jews?

I have this problem now too. It just showed up out of nowhere. I used to be on my way to being a top student in high school (not a prodigy just performing relatively well in my school for someone who wasn't friends with the other studios kids so I had no connections and study partners/cheat buddies). I used to spend the first few hours after school studying and then smooth sailing after a productive day. Then, during my senior year, I got insomnia and was spending all day and night tired and depressed. It would take me hours to do something that would've taken me 30 mins previously. I let my grades go, disappointed my family, and was lost in life. I didn't get accepted into the college I wanted because the lady in charge of sending transcripts didn't send mine, and I had a bad luck streak going in general. Now I'm in college and still haven't recovered.

I'm so fucking tired of my best friend (different countries, met online, friends for 11 years, have met IRL on vacation) ignoring me to play games with his retarded e-girlfriend. She's turning him into a goddamn pussywhipped cuck, yesterday he told me he went to go see Captain Marvel and actually liked it.
He's the only person I still consider a friend in my life and now I feel like I barely know him anymore.

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Is this that tranny discord? Either way fuck off

The feeling I am going to vent isn't anger but more like sadness, dread or even fear.You guys feel like that time is going away quicker and quicker? Remember summer vacations as a kid and how long they felt? Those three months felt like an year for me especially if I was enjoyinh that particulat summer break. The stuff we talked about as kids regarding summer feeling like a weekend is bullshit. Those three months as a kid feel like a whole year as an adult. Nowadays the bad moments go by quicker but so do the happy ones. I feel like 2016 was a month ago. I feel like I am still 15. What the fuck is happening? At this rate I'll be alone for the rest of my life and still be a loser.

>seeing this girl semi regularly for a few weeks now
>like her, but I'm not sure I want to date her
>we've had sex twice
>feel like I want to break it off but I'm a genuinely nice dude and she's had terrible luck dating manchildren
>last week she told me her dad raped her and her stepsister when they were younger
>he's been in jail for the last 15 years
>she went to counseling and she says she's come to terms with it
>she has diabetes
>had a surgery when she was younger and almost didn't survive
>was in a car accident last year and has nerve damage in her legs
>goes to physio three times a week for it
I'm kind of at a loss here, lads. The primal, masculine protector part of me wants to give her a better life (I've got my shit together and I'm well-adjusted, ie not a manchild), but I'm not good at opening up and I've never really had a serious relationship. Input is welcome, inb4 REEEEE NORMALFAG CHAD.

WHY IS IT SO HARD TO COMMUNICATE WITH FEMALES.
I HAVE A FUCKING DEGREE AND A STABLE JOB
I EVEN LIVE ALONE
HECK I EVEN HAVE MY SMALL GROUP IF FRIENDS THAT I HANG OUT WITH
WHY CAN'T I BRING MYSELF TO COMMUNICATE WITH GIRLS
I CAN'T EVEN KEEP EYE CONTACT
WHEN EVER THERE'S A CONVERSATION WITH A GIRL I MOSTLY STUTTER AND SPIT BULLSHIT
HOW DO I FIX MYSELF WTFFF

To make a relationship you must kill one

bro I know you have schizophrenia, but fuck you

mom is your mother
dad didn't molest you
god doesn't fucking exist
no one is hiding shit from you

What the fuck is with this talk-radio Illuminati conspiracy bullshit, I thought you were smarter then this. This shit I expect from Jow Forums (where most are just pretending to be retarded) but not from you.

I suspect my dad of being schizophrenic because of how paranoid he's always being and that paranoia made him incapable of holding a job and interacting in public in the long term

We've never confirmed it because he refuses to see a doctor and I'm afraid that I will end up getting it too
I paranoid I'm getting something because of how mentally staggered I've been feeling since the middle of high school

Read the Unabomber manifesto.
You're basically post-leftist at this point, so its content will be easily approachable for you.
Warning: be prepared for some blackpills that maybe you don't want to swallow.

whats wrong with Captain Marvel?

Can't ask this girl out cuz I gotta focus on school and fixing my grades. She is a perfect aryan qt3.14 godess and not a thot. My nofap streaks are getting shorter, and I am very sexually frustrated.

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It is useless to complain or vent about those selfish, cruel individuals who will not share money with those in true need of it. You don't get into Heaven by denying your own friends help. Truly pathetic.

stop fapping user, look into nofap

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go for it vro!

scared i'll fuck up my grades like my bros did after they got some ass

>made an offensive joke to a girl who had called me her best friend not even a month ago
>she won't talk to me
>hasn't made communication in 4 weeks now
>we used to eat lunch together everyday and communicate via text every night
>now all because I made a joke about saying the N word she thinks I'm a bigot and won't talk to me
>despite the fact that our mutual friend gets drunk and rants about niggers, faggots, etc. all the time and she just shrugs it off and is still friends with him

fuck I hate women, why do I try being platonic friends with them at all?

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Don't let one bad experience ruin it for you. I've got a great platonic female friend that is 100% down to lay down offensive jokes like that around me, shits great

She wants to ride niggers' dicks and your common Chad friend's dick.
She's made very clear that she doesn't want to ride your dick, that's why she got offended.
Don't insult what she likes, user.

I don't even want her, honestly. She cakes on makeup like a prostitute and has a moon face. She's a really nice girl and I like her as a person a lot but I wouldn't want to fuck her, she is (or at least was) like my sister.
And I don't think she wants to fuck our mutual friend, I don't know why she is treating me like this but to be honest I'm sick of it. I know I shouldn't have made the joke and I am ashamed of myself for doing so, but if one joke can ruin our friendship then I guess we were never really friends
My other best friend is also a woman, so I'm just venting here, I don't actually hate women

Does she cuddle with you, though?

I'm really fond of my co-worker. It's frustrating because I rarely meet people I'm fond of. It's more frustrating because my co-worker is almost 40, and I'm in my late 20's. I couldn't see someone older being interested in me even if my co-worker is single. Plus, I'm kind of weird, boring, and a bit of a freak of nature with ugly scarring and unnatural physical strength. I don't get why of all people I'd find attractive after all these years... it's my older co-worker. Fuck.

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no and it would be weird honestly if she started

Then just forget about her. She's making you feel miserable for literally nothing.

My mother had a total of six miscarriages, I am her only surviving child and I think about suicide everyday.
The only reason why I haven't killed myself is because I don't want anyone to mourn over me. I'm waiting for my immediate to die off, and I'm terrified of forming closing relationships because I would have to wait longer.

I was going out with a girl we talked all day and night i was as happy as can be i opened up let myself be vulnerable i thought she really loved me then a week ago she said she misses just being friends and doesn't want a relationship LIKE HOW THE FUCK CAN YOUR FEELINGS CHANGE THAT FAST ITS THE FIRST TIME MY HEARTS BEEN BROKEN AND ALL I WANT TO DO IS STILL TALK TO HER EVERY MINUTE IM THINKING ABOUT HER BUT I DON'T WANT TO BE JUST HER FRIEND

It just seems really pandering like for feminism

I never understand that angle on movies. Why not just enjoy it for what it is instead of seeing it as feminist propaganda

Because if it is feminist propaganda then that's what it is
I've even seen normies complain how they think it's pushing the agenda a bit
I haven't seen it myself so I don't really care

Thats fair.

I usually look at movies just as they are at first, then try and look at them again to see if its any type of 'propaganda'

I got a crush on my asexual friend recently and told her in order to shut down the crush (better sooner than later). I guess it's kind of different being lesbian and also generally crushing on my closest friends but I was able to get over it by realizing I was still grateful just to have such cool friends like her. I still feel like shit when I see her and still am slightly hung up on her but it's not nearly as intolerable.

>Vent thread
A'ight.
Being homeless was bloody awful in every way imaginable. I sorted shit out, got into a flat but now wake up every morning wishing I hadn't. I lost my job AGAIN due to a violent sperg-out and only have enough money to get through this month before being homeless again. I have no friends, and absolutely no real desire to have any contact or interact with anyone because I think everybody is a superficial stuck up arsehole. I lie in bed 12h a day staring at walls, only ever getting up to make a cup of tea and maybe smoke a cigarette. Nothing interests me anymore, and I mean that literally. I've been discharge from treatment for the 2nd time AGAIN being told there's nothing they can do to help. I'm 25 now so can't access any of the social services to help me now. I've gone a year cold turkey from all illicit substances and there has not been a single positive experience that has matched the feelings I used to get from them. The only comparable buzz I've had is literally being stabbed and the resultant fight that took place. I just want to get as far as fuck away from everyone as possible and be on my own until I wither away and am forgotten but it's either financially nor situationaly possible. All this is made so much worse because 5 years ago I had a stable career, savings, a house and was engaged. Fuck life and fuck being forced onto this shitty backwards planet.

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honestly i am such a fucking piece of shit. i want to die so badly and i fucking aim to reach out for help and get absolutely nothing. i dont know when or how im going to commit suicide, but i'm going to make sure i commit suicide and im gonna make sure its slow and painful. fuck my life. i literally have a crush on my /asexual/ friend. honestly i want to fucking die so much, i cant take the bullies in my classes anymore. ive been in school for 9 years, i cant do it anymore.

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What is this, the YouTube comments section under some sad breakup song?

i hate myself for this

>be me
>have an alt youtube account where i follow and find poeple who do livestreams
>only see asmr and stuff like that because it's better if it's live
>find this live from a young girl
>thumbnail is she covering her face with a clothes
>title doesn't even say asmr but i join anyways
>i'm the only person watching
>she's writing a letter about how sad she feels
>camera is showing the letter, not her face
>my boner dies
>basically mentions that her family treats her like shit, gets bullied in school
>i can hear her crying
>says she just "wants to be happy"
>i tell her it's ok to write it down because it helps her to get it out of her chest
>also tell her that everything will be better
>i feel bad for her
>she says "wait a minute, i'll be back" and drops the camera
>at this point i'm thinking about talking with her somewhere else
>i also want to leave because i really wanted to mastubate
>can't leave, would break her heart if she comes back and i'm not there
>she picks up the camera
>shows her face
>she's pretty ugly
>i do not feel like talking to her anymore
>i'm thinking about how to leave without making her feel bad
>can't think of anything
>ehh fuck it
>i write "no wonder why nobody loves you, you're ugly as fuck lmao"
>leave the livestream
>i continue with my search for asmr videos

why the fuck did i do that

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you're an immature, 99% soulless waste of air. be happy that you regret it, user.

this isn't real
it can't be

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what did you gain from it my dude
we have all done bad things in our time. what makes a good person is someone who can reflect and learn from it. that's not to say you should feel fine with what you did, but that going forward you should allow this guilt to make you a kinder person.

Funny how the people calling out normies are normies themselves. Please gtfo