Everything is going wrong and nothing is going right. I can't get a fucking job, much less get outside or talk to normies. Negroes are everywhere and roasties are getting railed by Chad while I stay here, alone and out of view. Vidya doesn't make the pain go away anymore, neither does anime. They only serve as a reminder of how much of a total failure I have become. I suffer from severe OCD (I wipe my ass for up to 15 hours when I use the bathroom). Even when I dream, I get laughed at by everyone. I have no friends and I haven't talked to a female outside of my family in about 6 months. WHY DID IT HAVE TO BE LIKE THIS. I'M SO TIRED OF EVERYTHING AND I CAN'T KILL MYSELF BECAUSE MY PARENTS LOVE ME EVEN IF I'M A LOSER.
Anyone else knows this uber dark feel ? Also I'm super anxious when I post here for some reason, pls robots talk to me and make me feel like I'm not alone for a litte while.
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>Anyone else knows this uber dark feel ?
yep the only thing you can do is live with the pain until it becomes too much
I havent talked to a girl in years, also i did drugs which made everything worse, i thought drugs would make me more powerful but they did not. Now i am going through withdrawl and my asshole hurts ive been shitting acid shits every 30 mins for 2 days now. I,might not make it.i want to kill myself but,my parents want me alive too. Sometimes i think back to when my parents were more younger and happy i cry.
I know what your going through user. Try Army, thats always a great area. Go lift, that helps too.
Simply knowing that I'm not as alone as I taught I was eases the pain a little, thanks user
>Sometimes i think back to when my parents were more younger and happy i cry.
Same but for when I was a kid. I was still a total reject but I was playing Halo and it gave me the chance to escape this Hell. Good luck with your toilet thing user, I hope that you'll get bettter
I don't want to die for the jews, and I tried lifting for a while, the gym is always full of roasties and Chads. I feel out of place
I felt mostly the same as you and it got so bad that I would go through hours/days-long episodes of complete hopelessness. I tried everything, and even when my life would objectively improve I would not feel any better. I genuinely thought I was going insane. I went and saw my doctor and got prescribed SSRIs, and they are working wonders on me. It was difficult for me to fathom that I felt such pain and agony for over a year because of a chemical imbalance in my brain, but it appears that was the case.
I suggest you ask yourself if you feel like you were "normal" before and now you aren't. Not normal in a broad sense, I mean normal for you personally.
It's been about two months since I started taking the meds. At first I started to feel normal again (for me), and then the improvements kept happening.
If this is not a troll you just have to start not caring about shit so much. Focus on improving yourself in some small way and do not give a single shit about others or what they think of you, etc.
>Video games
Are a waste of time overall and the developers will shut the server down running the online portion of the game down at any moment if the game starts losing profit drastically, so never put a ton of time into them if something like that bothers you. They are merely for fun, which a lot of people nowadays forget. If it is an offline game, then never mind.
>Anime
Eventually all of the plots are the same, so you get tired of it. Also, this is the same with movies in general.
>Women
They don't matter. When you fuck enough of them you see how useless and stupid they are, so it is better to never live with one and focus on yourself. You can fuck them, but never get married or have kids, because life becomes a lot more stressful.
>Drugs
If you're into them they are alright at first, but then become boring and if you get addicted to shit easily, then they make your life hell.
>OCD
That usually comes from being super anxious. If you can fix the former than it will fix the latter. Usually when you do shit like this you have to tell yourself, "What the fuck am I even doing?" To help force you to stop doing it. There is probably medication for it, but I am not sure if any of that actually helps.
>I tried lifting for a while, the gym is always full of roasties and Chads. I feel out of place
If it is possible for you just slowly build up a home gym, but if not then you're kind of screwed. You could do bodyweight exercises too.
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That is about it for my advice.
you need to resocialize asap, doesn't matter if you dont get along with normies you don't need to, that's some isolation im seeing i've been there too.go out a lot for whatever reason, anywhere you want you dont have to talk to anyone just be outside exposed to people, you will still be able to enjoy what you like
find enjoyment in lifting, to the point you dont care about petty competition or if someone is making fun of you
I'll talk to my doctor about my depression, I never did it because I was ashamed. I don't want to be seen as an edgelord who has depression, but at this point I don't even care. Thanks a lot user.
I'll try to apply as much of those rules as I can, thanks a lot user, you guys are always nice to me. Thanks a lot
>I wipe my ass for up to 15 hours when I use the bathroom
Get a bidet, it might literally change your life
that water bill is going to be expensive
I tried twice, but the normalfags are just unbearable. They only want to talk about how much sex they have and how fun it is to get drunk. Those who share my passion for history are either retarded marxists or other fellow NEETs who don't leave the house
I laughed pretty hard at this post jesus christ.
I'll talk to my parents about getting one, thanks for the tip user
I already use water to apply on the paper when my ass starts to bleed from all the wipping. It's that fucking bad and I can't stop
>I wipe my ass for up to 15 hours when I use the bathroom
Did that weld your asshole shut? I couldn't imagine the pain.
look at this fucking pill shill. go fuck yourself
It's even more painful than it sounds, it gets super bloody after about an hour, but I just can't stop. I know that it sounds insane, but I can't get up until I'm 100% sure that I'm clean. It's like I lose control of my body
Fug I gotta shave, shower, vacuum, clean the litter box, remove clutter, get some food, ect. ect.
I can't leave my bed. It's like being possessed by a fat lazy demon. I mean I will get up at some point but it's getting later in the day and it's like fug, you know? Doesn't help my bike was stolen two weeks ago. Fucking thieving pieces of shit.
I'm so exausted when I finally come out of the bathroom that I can't do anything for a couple of hours, I know that feel user, even if it is a slightly variated one
Anti-depressants are meant to balance the chemicals in your brain. They aren't voodoo magic or mind control pills, but you will not feel good if you never had any chemical imbalance to begin with.
Lucky bastard. I can't even run a decent game on my shitty laptop.
I play on my old Xbox 360 and I don't even have enough shekels to buy xbox live gold. So I mostly stick to Oblivion (without any mods of course) and when I get bored I go play some visual novels on my laptop. You should try Fallout 2, my laptop can run it if I lower the res
>tfw your internet goes out multiple times everyday and you can't even watch anime or YouTube videos
the internet is the only thing I have, kill me
see a psychiatrist. literally call a bunch of them up and ask for an appointment, you'll probably find one accepting new patients.
medication (SSRIs or TCAs) can help with OCD a lot
all currently prescribed antidepressants are known to be effective in double-blind trials, look up STAR*D
You should download books or movies, that way you'll have something to do when the internet goes out
I saw many of them, none of them could help me. I really tried, but the face of my father when nothing changes after a month or two of therapy isn't something I wish to see again
another pill shill
it doesnt work for us, it works for retarded normies
I've been feeling like this since last summer. Only places i'm going out to are uni and gym. Can't really remember last time i talked to a girl or even had a female friend. Feeling lonely all the time. Masturbation has become really dull but i can't stop doing it since i desperately need dopamine.
Guys pls don't fight, I made this thread to share feels, not to end up angry. Let's be frens ok
>us
holy fucking YIKES
>I saw many of them, none of them could help me.
What medications did you try?
Have you considered ketamine infusions?
psychiatrists aren't psychologists, user... they prescribe medicine to help your brain get back to its normal state, they don't sit and talk out your problems
Thanks, based user. I am indebted to you this favor as long as I live.
I feel you, brother. Used to have to deal with the same shit over here; thank God/nature/nothing it's over now.
I dropped out of uni in december, my kike teachers were shilling (((diversity))) and white guilt all the fucking time, I picked history believing that I'd learn more about forgotten empires, not how to hate my race. Also your pic is way too accurate, this place shouldn't be the only way I can connect with other people
No need to thank me fellow user, you guys are the only good thing in my life, if I can help you by recommending good games, it is my pleasure. Fallout 1 and Fallout 2 are my personal favorites, but there are many old rpgs that can run on your laptop. Stay comfy user
If your country is so shit it doesn't have stable Internet connection, it's so shot it doesn't have copyright laws. So you can find all kinds of pirated movies and series on dvd for really cheap.
haha, good thing i am an eastern eurofag because i don't need that in top of everything
I forgot to say that you should look for games on GOG, it's a Steam like platform run by the guys who made the Wicher serie, it's the best place to find old games without DRM for cheap. I don't want to shill but it's really the only platorm that I use for games. Stay super comfy user
>not how to hate my race.
The white race isn't a meaningful concept before the 17th century at the earliest. If this activates your hemorrhoids why didn't you major in archeology?
>my kike teachers were shilling (((diversity))) and white guilt all the fucking time
how so? afaik history degrees don't have many 21st century modules
I'm at a very liberal uni and even the main politics degree doesn't have much material that's presented from the progressive/SJW perspective
Can't wait for the White Empire to arise from all this jewish filth, then, maybe that going for nightwalk will be comfy. Keep it huwhite user, and have a comfy night
Wow, I never thought that I could find someone who's so compassionate and kind to me on this website. Stay cool, anons. Wishing you all the best.
>Yes goy ! The Roman empire never existed ! Forget about the 100 years war and the crusades ! Now go ahead and suck Tyrone's cock or else you're an antisemite
does anyone else feel like something bad is coming?
thank you, user, you too
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I'm OP and I posted both posts desu. I hope that you have fun playing those old rpgs user, take care
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But I'm already christian
Go through the withdrawals of not masturbating user.
I'm on /nofap/ since monday, I'll keep it up until Sunday and try to go for longer periods of time from there. It's hard with all the porn out there tho
yeah it is going to. and lots will be shocked. dont think too much of it. stay focused on your purpose.
Well, you don't need to rail roasties like a chad and you don't need a friend. Just be yourself. If the fact that you can't get roasties bothers you, then just start working out and achieve a good body form to get a boost of confidence when you interact with others. If these thoughts make you feel anxious, then try drugs like xanax or just start cutting yourself, it will numb the pain. At the end, don't try to please society, there are many flaws in our society and one of them is the myth that a person needs friends or women in his life in order to be happier, you don't need them. If you can't find someone to relate to in school or college or whatever, then just sit alone, nothings wrong with that, just wait until you find someone that you can relate to.
Yes we all know the feel to some degree, join my discord server where we will try to actually do something about it to help! .gg/GkCQqCM
>stay focused on your purpose.
i will when i find it
I do my best for normies even if I know that in the end I'll still be a weirdo, you should find something from the past that you wish to see alive again
Do it in a way that will bring hope, not hatred tho, be a nice guy national socialist
OP here, I tried to reply to everyone but I'm getting super sleepy. Thanks for all you ideas on how to deal with my problems and for sharing your feels, I wish every user in here a comfy night
Im 16 and thats my plan.If i fail in collage and work im going to army. No excuses