Daily reminder that "happy" people will use any means necessary to destroy your dreams

No. I'm weaker than I've ever been and on painkillers. Plus I'm a public enemy now. My only chance is to escape this country and go spend my remaining few years living in the woods somewhere.

: ( that sounds awful user... I'm sorry to hear your body is not feeling well. You sound addled... lately, have the efforts of those against you been stronger?

Yes. They sabotaged my dream and now torture me in this limbo world. They now have ''official proof'' that I'm an enemy. I guess that makes torturing me so much more enjoyable. They can do literally whatever they want to me. Of course they mock me by giving me some freedom.

do you have anything that makes you feel more protected from them?

Talking to people here helps since you guys don't try hurt me. It would also help if I could return to the nightwoods as soon as possible. People usually don't go there so it feels safe. Eventually I'd like to return to the large mountain forest I visited in Norway.

trees give you a sense of comfort then? that is good user. trees are a serene embodiment of nature... old and wise, swaying in the wind, unmoved by the ways of men

Yes. I love visiting the woods at night. It's the only time I'm truly at peace. I've made quite a few /nightwalk/ threads here if you've seen them. They're always super comfy.

have you ever thought about drawing some nature scenes maybe? do you like art?

Yes. I used to paint in highschool. I did mostly paint nature and architecture. Though I dropped that hobby long ago as I've gotten worse.

you just gotta practice user, it's all about consistency

I jusr lost my will to do anything. For now, I'd be content with just seeing the woods. There's almost no nature where I'm staying right now.

I dream of being a killing machine.