I don't even know what to do anymore

I don't even know what to do anymore.

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go live in the swamp fuck a piece of driftwood

If he did this he'd unravel the secret of turning fags into straights

Good. That's the whole point of life.

play some vidya, watch something nice, go for a walk to forest, try to avoid negativity (which involves like 99% of internet and tv), sit under a blanket and enjoy silence, find an internet friend etc

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Welcome to having existential dread but also being a lazy fuck with no motivation.

I know video games are a waste of time, I know working out is important to be healthy, I know reading can make you a better person, I know that life is short and time is a valuable commodity.

I have bought weights, tonnes of books and tried to get out and do shit.

Instead I always just retreat to my room and watch youtube videos for hours on end to stave off the never ending dread that I am going to die and that I am wasting my time.

Me too I have so much school work to do but Instead I just watch YouTube videos about useless shit

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My issue is unless I am in work I do nothing with my life. Work provides a distraction from my thoughts and when I am there I can focus on something else for 8 hours.

When I come home I have no motivation to exercise, play a video game, read a book or even watch some normie shit on Netflix my co-workers were talking about. I just watch youtube videos or post here so I don't feel alone.

My problem is, I can recognise a problem but I am too lazy to do anything about it.

When my whole anxiety about doing stuff is stemming from a fear of death, something that can't be avoided, all I do is sit there and do nothing instead.

My attention span is so short that I'm having trouble doing anything anymore, I just refresh pages over and over, I used to know things, I used to be able to write about things, and now I just take shit in and I can't use it for anything, my ability to mentally examine is done with and maybe it wasn't there to begin with, it's like I've watched myself become a drone that regurgitates the same media I was watching when I was 16

Stop describing my life!!!

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Geto some fresh air

Your attention span is shit because you've trained it to be like shit. Get off this fucking board for 3 months. Train yourself to focus for 30 seconds, 1 minute, then your attention span will be back. You need to practice, you got this.

At least it's good to know I am not alone and can find some comfort in the fact other people are going through the same bullshit.

Why couldn't I just be a normie?

Sometimes i look at these religious people that go to church every sunday and i kinda envy them, they seem so happy thinking god takes care of them and gives them purpose.

I really wish i could be brainwashed to be like them, to be normal and enjoy a normal life.

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I've slowly managed to subconsciously remove my self preservation instincts and it won't be long until im an hero

Same man. I wish I didn't go down the rabbit hole of autistic atheism. Ever since I did my life has been meaningless. Back in 2011 when the whole youtube atheism scene was at its height I got swept up in it. I was so smart for dunking on all the Christcucks dumb spaghetti monster lmfao christians rekt compilation 2k12.

But now since I know that basically when you are dead, you simply cease to exist like before birth I am terrified. The human brain evolved to not imagine itself not existing and to do so puts you into fight or flight mode. The fact that everything you do is utterly meaningless and everything you know and love, your memories etc will one day just be gone terrifies me. My brain can't even comprehend non-existence. And yeah I know the whole "well if you can't experience it there is nothing to be afraid of" schtick but that doesn't comfort me. When you are dying, you know you are dying. That is is. And your body panics and goes into a primal fight to survive. Then it just goes lights out and everything is gone. Like a dreamless sleep from which you never wake up.

I am legit getting palpitations thinking about it and that probably makes me a big 20 year old baby but still, shit sucks. At least my Christian friends never have to think of this shit.

Ever since I became an atheist when I was like 13 my whole life has been downhill. And to go back to being a Christian would be lying to others and lying to myself.

Wish I could just erase my memory of all those fucking dumb videos "wrecking" christians.

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You can be a spiritual person still. Why does it have to be christianity or any other religion?
It's never easy.

For me it isn't about death, i would be happy if the lights were to go out and it would end.

What gets me is that there is no point to life outside of reproduction. We are nothing more then some glorified cells multiplying continuously. I view death as a release from this meaningless existence.

I feel like that guy from The Matrix that regrets being saved from the matrix only to live in the shithole that is zion. I should have taken the fucking blue pill but now its too late.

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Because I fundamentally don't believe in a spirit or spirit realm. Everything I have researched and everything science knows is that consciousness is a mechanical phenomenon that occurs inside the brain due to neurons etc. Once the brain is dead, you are. All your thoughts, memories etc. You, are gone forever.

I am basically stuck in a pit of Nihilism and I can't get out unless science finds evidence for a spirit or afterlife.

Yeah that gets me too. We are basically just an accident of evolution. A bunch of cells trying to perpetuate ourselves and try to fight in vain against entropy.

Have a change of scenery OP

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If you need an afterlife to give meaning to your existence you are just as hollow as brainwashed religious people.
You have the power to give meaning to your existence, if you can't it's your fault.
Read Camus at least for fuck's sake.