What happened in your teenage years that really shaped and molded you as a person?

>be a small kid
>mom hates dad
>dad hates mom
>both hate grandpa and grandpa hates them
>must love all of them
it broke me

That's rough man, that's like my biggest fear that one day my gf will just tell me she's actually been cheating on me for part of the 2 years we've been together

My best friend moved away when I was 12, we were friends since I was 5, he seemed happy he was moving across the country despite me not being there at all. He pledged to keep in touch via email/calls, but he ghosted me after like a week. He was honestly like a brother to me.

Because of this I didn't want to get that close to a friend again because it hurt to be betrayed so much (to 12 year old me), so all my 'friendships' I made in school were very superficial and they barely knew me. I never went to parties or had any social interaction other than very basic conversations. I started completely skipping school from the age of 14 which set my education back. I had a few crushes over the years but because I was a coward I never approached them at all, I also turned to video games and books as escapism to my loneliness.

I'm turning 22 this year, literally don't feel any different compared to 16 year old me, I just know more information. (and I'm less cowardly)

Oh also heavily neglected by my parents from a young age, maybe that's why I'm so fucked up.

that one actually happened to me too, year before that one of the guys in said group cheated with my gf behind my back. in hindsight they were all pieces of shit but popular so I put up with them for the social status/access to roasties it gave me. fuck them all though.

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God, this whole situation sounds like some crazy accurate fortune cookie prediction. A couple guys in my friend group of like 8 to 10 think I'm a weirdo and want me out. At least gf only hangs out with my old friend group that I left behind to go with normies (yes, I know I'm an asshole, but I still keep in touch with the people of that old group I was actually friends with.) Tonight in the groupchat for our friends some guy posted two girls' nudes, god damn those roasties are fine.Of course I didn't save that shit because 1. They were like 16 and 2. Snapchat says if you save a photo and there's no work around on iPhones.

Being an extreme autist and constantly embarrassing myself has made me very paranoid of people and I have awful trust issues.

do what you can to stay in the group user, I wish I could honestly say my life is fine despite getting kicked out but in reality it was one of the worst things to ever happen to me. I had some events earlier that year that basically ruined my life but getting kicked out of that friend group was the final dagger to the heart.

basically you have no idea how awesome it is to be in a popular group of friends until it's gone. treasure it and try to keep it user, that's all I have to say,

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rejections and depression

>be 13 or whatever for highschool
>classes are boring/easy
>fail tests due to shitty recall under pressure
>put in retard class
>friends are all fake
>step father abuses mother
>find videogames
>stop going to school regularly, then at all
>fast forward 10 years
>manage to get gf
>try to get job to support us
>get shitty job
>she leaves
>shitty job
>unhappy
>alone
>no social skills
tfw no gf

I think I'm an alright person though.

Got played by some girl that said yes to me asking her out then had fuck else to do with me ever again, after that I consciously decided to suppress my emotions (over 10 years ago) and I've had trouble showing affection in all future relationships and emotion in friendships.
That and porn addiction fucked me up good

There's this one guy in the group I've come pretty close to bringing a hammer and bashing his skull in with. There's no way I can stay in it for long if it stays like this.

this. trust issues fuck up every relationship i've ever had. always paranoid my friends secretly hate me or my gf's cheating

Precisely nothing.
Like I stayed in my room and jerked off and played games.

>grade 9 Moved to new school
>made no friends and smoked weed
>became dramatic faggot and attempted suicide multiple times
>dropped out gr 11

Am now drug addict neet with no friends

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jesus its like im a mirror reflection of you

My best friend emotionally abused me for almost 2 years in highschool. I was the dumpy, unpopular legbeard girl and she was pretty, well-liked by peers and teachers, and had it all "together". She was perfect to everyone but to me she beared it all. Constant emotional meltdowns, threatening suicide and self harm if I didn't do stuff for her some stuff weird like write erotica of her and the history teacher (idk either). Constant white lies. The biggest was lying about having a terminal illness. When I found out it was all a lie I couldn't cope, I had no support. I just kind of shut down. Even my cousin who was in my class was friends with her. Nobody understood what happened to me. Even when I told some people at school what she did I think people either didn't believe me or didn't give a fuck. I remember I was so broken I would just cry in the middle of school and felt depersonalized & alone. I have never had a female friend since. Women terrify me. I know it is a personal problem but I am traumatized. My mom called me a couple years after I graduated and told me exfriend sent an apology letter and I told her to throw it away. I feel like what I went through was unforgivable but also that I am overreacting and it was my fault. I need to move on but I can't. The betrayal still hurts. I don't get how someone could do that to somebody that loved that so much like I did. I loved her so much, she was my best friend and she just used me and discarded me like a human emotional tampon. People can be so cruel. She wasn't the first and probably won't be the last to hurt me like that too. I feel like I am a magnet for traumatic experiences and abusive people and am a horrible judge of character so I just don't trust anybody anymore. I don't even have friends anymore. I give up. At least I have my family and I don't have to be in school anymore
tldr bff in hs lied about terminal illness and im basically a fucking idiot and cant get over it

I went from >90% white elementary and middle school to >30% mexican highschool.
It nearly ruined my life.

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>girl
Be my gf please user

Lots of sex.
Lots of partying.
Lots of skateboarding.

Long time ago, now I'm nothing like that person.

"Never talk back" "Only speak when spoken too" "You can have intrests just not those ones" "that's alright I guess but your brother has done it bigger and better before" "why can't you be normal" "what exactly are you doing? I don't like that so I will punish you" "who's your giiiirrrrlllffrrriiieennd?"

"user why don't you talk to us?" "Unlike you normal humans communicate" "user do you even have friends?" "Where are our grandkids user" "are you okay" "why can't you just be happy user?"
Fucking hate my parents

If only this board had more real niggas like us

Manic Episode. Time Spent in kid loony bin. I know some of you were there too or at least lurkers. Some of the art had Jow Forums type shit

thanks for the tldr
Wanna be dependent on me next?

I fucking hate your parents too.
Literally just cut them off, even wageslave if you have to.

Parents constantly told me about how I was a failure, how I wasn't normal and compared me to others (only when it fit their narrative). I thought I was doing rather well in school (As and Bs) but eventualy I began to fill that role of failure and ny grades started to tank down to Fs and Ds.
Another thing my parents did was discouraged friendship with girls so I ended up not associating with girls in order to avoid teasing. Havent spoken to a girl since.
Parents also enjoyed using the "I'm the adult so I am right" excuse alot. I now cannot speak to anybody without fear/anxiety (proably just the way I am but I cannot stand talking to authority figures so I think they contributed a bit.)
I was encouraged from a young age to idolise and be like my older brother who did lots of extracurricular activites and had high honors always. But once he became an adult I wasnt suposed to Idolise him all of a sudden. My parents would openly criticize his taste in women (ex: "You wouldn't date a crazy girl like her right?" "He always picks a girl with problems") My brother also didn't really know what he wanted to do with his life after highshool and my parents showed little support/help to him.
I grew up always being told what to do and always needed permission to do things. My parents now get mad that I'm not independent and expect me to function independently.
I would also tell my parents things and end up in trouble somehow no matter what it was once I learned it qas easier to not tell them things unless necessary I stopped, now im not a "normal human" because I lack social skills
I never really got severely punished either. Which effectivly destroyed my ability to be motivated because to me nothing mattered really, grades dropping? Nothing changes. Any time anything bad happens it would be empty threats of punishment. Everytime I got yelled at (rightfully or not) they would apologize to ME, the one who was in trouble
(1/2)

>Lost my closest friends cause i failed to mature due to not taking risks and being sheltered (IE not asking out girls, staying in playing videogames, not going to parties)

sent me into a depression all through highschool and beyond which i am coping with now by pushing myself more socially and replacing videogames with productive hobbies like music. Still depressed as fuck and can barely summon the strength to interact with people. i wont even talk on discord.

Dad gave me the idea that school came before anything, health, family, social life, etc. This made me despise school because I only felt like I was around so my dad had something to be proud of.
Otherwise great people

(1/2)o

I was molested by two of my best friends, who were both girls.

Was the bitch of my friend group that everyone talked shit about and stole shit from until they finally blocked me from all social media and never gave me an actual explanation. They stole about 100 dollars from me over the 3 years i was friends with them. After that i had trust issues with everyone and didnt really talk to new people for about a year.

in a single word: acne

Probably had the worst and most severe acne in the entire city desu. Had a ton of randoms from my school added on MSN messenger (kind of like a primitive discord instant messaging program from the early 2000s that everyone had before myspace came around around 2006); half of them deleted me when they saw what I looked like on the first day of school. The worst was this cute girl named erin with whom i had long exchanges into the night during summer vacation with, like over 1000 lines of text overall plus long emails on hotmail. She simply said "ew" and blocked/deleted me when I walked up to her at her locker with a mutual friend that first day back. Was blackpilled pretty hard desu. I understood exactly what was wrong with me. Despite winning the pushup, long jump, 100m dash competitions, always being 1st or 2nd in the chess club ladder, and having straight 90%+ grades across all subjects, I was universally reviled. This turned me into a jaded bully and I'd physically beat the other kids in random outbursts when they were being snide or smug to me and I couldn't take their demeanor towards me anymore, was suspended like 5 times for fighting and stealing and almost expelled. Didn't cool down until university. And here I am, drunk and alone.

pro tip to parents: get your kids accutane if they need it

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on my momma u speakin straight facts my nigga

sucks when someone means a lot to you but you mean nothing to them

You are never alone. You are here to take care of yourself. You are here to help yourself. Nothing from a screen can really take away from your real life.

where did you get weed in grade 9 with no friends

>You are never alone. You are here to take care of yourself. You are here to help yourself. Nothing from a screen can really take away from your real life.
Empty words.

Dad had big bags of it hidden in his garage. Would take a few grams whenever i visited him

go fuck yourself
worthless nuisance

>be me
>parents screaming at each other almost every day for first 13 years of my life
> in high school, always complemented but could never get gf
>girl finally shows clear interest senior year
>faked me out, just wanted attention
Also smoking weed in HS opened me up to how awesome drugs could be and having passionate, supportive, and overall cool teachers was a big help. Would probs be deado if it weren't for that.

Basically nothing I had maybe two or three friends for most of it and all of them were autistic and didn't socialize much so I never went to party's or anything like that. However I had the chance to get my hands on meth in 12th grade but I rejected it as I thought it would ruin my life job prospects and relationships but in retrospect all those things were ruined regardless so I should have just taken the meth while I still could have. I've been thinking of walking up to random homeless people and asking for meth but that seems a bit risky so I probably won't.

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random homeless people can actually be pretty fun to chill with assuming they don't shank you and you don't let on you have too much money

t. skipped work and got drunk with hobos once

>Also smoking weed in HS opened me up to how awesome drugs could be

literally gateway theory, please refrain from admitting this IRL

Alright first Jow Forums post so don't touch me to hard

>be me 5 years ago
>be at school
>talk to friends about sex
>think that it is pretty neet
>go home and look up sex
>see naked lady
>boner.jpeg
>thought it would be a good idea to touch my pp because it feels good
>touch it
>cum.img
>ffw five years
>look back and see what I became
>smile
>tfw I'm now addicted to beating my meat

Please correct me if you can i know it's shit

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Nah, I wont deny it's definitely a gateway drug. But almost any drug can be a good time as long as you're safe with it. They get a bad rep bc people try something and go "fuck this is amazing" and then devote their life to it, get addicted, etc. Doing things once in awhile in a controlled way is great though.

One time my girlfriend had an anxiety attack at a party because she thought I wanted to have sex with her. I made one off color sex joke. She told all her friends during the melt down. I remeber the weeks leading up to this, she refused to hang out with me without her dad around and seemed distant.

I remeber freaking out about it thinking
"I'm so disgustingly ugly the thought of having sex with me gave her a panic attack"
"She was so scared of me she couldn't even talk to me about it"
"Everyones gonna think I'm a pervert dating her for sex"

After that I just couldn't believe a woman could be attracted to me. Its hard to go through a day without thinking I'm a creep and that women are repulsed. So far its ruined my confidence and I dont trust women. Also pic related happened to me but it was a shoulder hug.

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>ghosted by my group of friends in the middle of lunch during middle school that I had been with for six years

same. i have 1 genuine friend left. prefer it this way though. i know he will stand by my side no matter what happens, and i would do the same for him.

Op everything going to be alright you just hanging out with the wrong people but when it comes to women have confidence don't back away from something and if a woman doesn't want to have sexy with you that's her loss because your hand is better then some loose pussy

have your first (you) user

Thanks u user :) I've come a long way

Was in high school, ended with pretty bad grades, cause I didn't give a shit about school. Shithead stepdad and easily manipulated mom decide to dump me off with my aunt, ripping me away from my friends and my little brother.

Had to live with people I didn't like, make new friends, and deal with bullshit for half a year. Then, mom comes crawling back and saying "How I miss my baby boy" etc. Turns out, I never get to see my old friends again because she now lives 6 cities away from my first high school.

Transferred mid year, had no friends, and got kicked out at 16 after I had finally started to make friends at school because I couldn't find a job that would hire me.

Lived with my grandparents ever since. I never leave the house, don't have a job anymore due to bullshit illness and stuff is relatively peaceful.

I still think about what my life would have been like if none of that shit ever happened. What it would have been like to have a life outside of my fucking computer instead of being here all the fucking time.

Honestly you're the only person that can make your life better then what it is now so forget the past and look into the future you have so much time to make everything right so tomorrow I want you to turn to another page and get what you want out of life and not let anyone else bring you down

Got cheated on and dumped by the love of my life and I've been dead or dying ever since.

Drug addiction and abuse

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Honestly I'm not going to lie being single comes with its perks but stuff like that happens and all you can do is learn from your mistakes so that you can make things in the future to be better

doing acid shortly after my 18th birthday

it saved my life

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haha remember when dudes bragging about how many chicks they fucked seemed stupid and you just wanted to marry one person forever haha

I try the best I can with what little I can do now. I do art and shit, and that helps I guess, but it doesn't really stop the deep seeded issues left because of the neglect and all the other bullshit. I can only do so much with the hand I was dealt.

Maybe I'll get out of my house one day. Who knows.

Those will be apart of you forever but learn from it it's what we all have to do. But do me a favor and try to get out tomorrow you'll see the world isn't complete shit even though it's getting there but just take a walk and clear your head

Good night I hope you get your life in check if you ever need any advise text me on Instagram @peachy_sauce

Have a 2nd (You)

Got sexually assaulted then fell out with a friend which cascaded into me being a lonely person who doesn't trust anyone.

absolutely nothing happened. i avoided conflict and stayed in my safe zone, which is why I'm afraid of leaving comfort now

My dad losing everything and my family becoming poor af, I became super introvert, I was barely 13 and I started with anime shit and vidya

>Gffags
Kill yourself and get off my board