I'm 30 years old. For the past 15 years I've been a shut-in NEET. A hikki. I feel like I've been a coma since then. Is there any hope for me? If not, I finish this reality before I hit 40. Might as well.
I'm 30 years old. For the past 15 years I've been a shut-in NEET. A hikki. I feel like I've been a coma since then...
Sebastian Ortiz
Christopher Bailey
How have you wasted 15 years? How did you obtain this power and how can I stay the fuck away?
James Flores
What exactly do you mean by "is there any hope for me"? Hope for what, what do you want user?
Connor Walker
Parents divorced when I was 13. I skipped school and lived with mom. Mom worked 2 jobs to support us after dad left. If I knew what I knew today, I would have never taken that for granted. I skipped so much school that it was better to be pulled out of school over paying fees. I just went home to go on the internet, play vidya or watch TV.
Not sure. I'm kind of thinking normie expectations. As in, having kids, getting a job, having a faithful wife, etc.
I am so lonely. I can't deny that. I just want someone to talk to, IRL.
Gabriel Turner
Oh, sorry, I skipped the how I wasted 15 years. I played MMOs like Runescape, GuildWars, WoW, etc.
Hunter Sanders
No online school? No GED? If you have this much self reflection, how could you not even move an inch in your life.
Does your mom still work two jobs to support you two?
Anthony Rodriguez
youre completely fucked, sorry dude
Asher Cook
Im at 10 years (28y) finally got bored of playing videogames all day and trying to learn some shit but its a struggle because a big part of me still wants to keep doing that.
Is there nothing you wanna try before you end it all OP
Ethan Walker
OP here again. Not sure what to do or why I'm posting. I just feel stuck. It's like I'm 30 and waiting for my parents to die. And then what? And even if I tried to fix myself. I can't talk to people.
You know what. I just fucking realized it. I'm fucking retarded/autistic and fell through the cracks. I'm done. There's no hope for me. At least if I were retarded earlier, then maybe ...
Xavier Ward
your only hope is a min wage job but most would consider that a death sentence
Jordan Gutierrez
GED? No. No formal education. Mom? In fact, mom and dad moved back together for my sake apparently. But that didn't work obviously. A little too late huh? Yeah, mother did work two jobs back then, after parents split.
I haven't enjoyed vidya in 10 years also. I'd like to say that it's because vidya is shit now but others want me to think its because of mental illness.
Adam Allen
I'm a minimalist. A comfy retail job, which I have worked before, is okay for me. Why? Because I was comfy with vidya and entertainment. But now? That I'm 30? After 15 years of being mind controlled by it? I don't know anymore ...
Ethan Jones
Dude, you gotta start crawling back up. Ask your parents for help.
Jayden Kelly
>ask your parents for help
Ahh, I see. The fellow millennial/zoomer.I don't need SHIT. I don't need an excuse. PARENTS? GO BACK TO PARENTS? WHAT THE FUCK? I'd rather be homeless faggot. In fact, if you really think about it, being homeless is pretty comfy. The only reason why our generation are sad and thinking of SUICIDE is because of the Internet. THe InternEt is cancer. No REAL social. FAKE FAKE. HUMANS ARE SOCIAL BEINGS. THE INTERNET DOES NOT REPLACE IT. IN ANY WAY. BLEED.
I'd rather live in a homeless encampment and feel apart of my own community. Niggo is coming back.
Ayden Sullivan
i don't think there's hope, my dear.
Sebastian Lee
All you do is talk about your parents and talk about being a shut-in you shizoid freak. From how it sounds, you never left their house in the first place. Go help yourself or off yourself.
Benjamin Adams
Wow. All you had to say is that I have neetbux. Not hard. But is neetbux worth it?
When you actually deserve it and not being a nigger scammer? Oy vey. Who knows. What I know is you. We'll meet fren. Soon.
Joshua Martin
the longer you wait the worse it. you fucked up terribly, there is no doubt about that. but I still think you have hope, however small it is. remember that each day you wait the harder it gets, you have to treat each day like you'll die tomorrow
Ryder Nelson
I have no idea what you're on about. I'd tell you to stay the fuck away but we both know you won't get out. Just go rot at this point.
Lincoln Flores
Go find a fucking job, burn all your fucking electronics or sell them, start sport, and get out to meet people irl. Fuckface.
Juan Campbell
similar case but 35...
>how?
autism level focus hobby obsession with various games at various times.
have held a variety of odd jobs at various times for short periods - nothing sufficient to build "career"
family is well-to-do enough that I don't have to worry much about expenses... so far. they own a handful of properties to the point that I've always got a place to live at least and have been marginally employed to a point as "property manager"
have been in and out of community colleges for years... had cycles of positive life momentum for about 6 months and then with turning of seasons would go into a massively depressive psychosis that lasted for 6 months... after each cycle the depressive episodes would last longer and longer.. last one was about 3 years
>depressive psychosis?
maybe psychobabbling here but I during a depressive phase I tend to lose grasp on reality confusing false memories & dreams with things that happened. i've hidden this for years. though sometimes i've said inappropriate things in family conversation because i confuse who the subject is with a fictional person... ultimately chose instead to just stay quiet when my mind goes dark and hazy
most recently was a student for a semester. tried to enter a tech school for profession but seemed to be rejected out of hand based on bureaucratic clerical failure... to try again would take another damn year
lost again. not sure where to go
no matter how I cut it I don't think there's any reaching a life that isn't some kind of coping with mysery without a combination of providence & shortcuts
which seems to me any kind of "get any menial job you can strat" just wont fucking work. I know how it sounds to many of you - but really if you didn't have to do it, would you?
oh. im generally well liked by my family. despite myself i've actually pulled myself into a socially functional individual after the last depressive cycle (when I get the chance to interact which is seldom)
Oliver Walker
also... not virgin. so that's cool I guess.
actually last time on the couch hop'n tour staying w/ a family member i slept with a next door divorcee. think i kind of damaged that family relationship
>"Its nice having you around from time to time but you can't just fuck my neighbors."
as I age it seems like these opportunities are more and more fleeting - felt like I had to smash.
Justin Richardson
Dude, you're nothing like OP. You gone to school, worked... Even with your cycles you're still doing better than a good part of this community in mustering the will to try.
Benjamin Butler
>I'm kind of thinking normie expectations. As in, having kids, getting a job, having a faithful wife, etc.
Yes. You most certainly can.
>get a high school equivalency
>while you are still living with mommy get an apprenticeship (sparky is a good choice)
>go on tinder and get a practice gf
>trade practice gf in as you level up and can get better gfs
Ta da.
You think the perpetual memes of getting a trade and a practice gf just came out of nowhere? They survive on this board because they are realistic pieces of advice.
Dominic Moore
I have become a 30 year old boomer.
Luis Brown
The fact that you include the high school equivalency just proves you're a retard desu.
You can get a job in construction starting at $14-16hr in Texas working at refineries. You'd be making $20+ in a year if you're competent.
But, why do all that shit if you have a micropenis? Just so you can be a cuck and have your gf cheat on you with Tyrone or Chad? Because of your tiny penis? Fuck off.
Carter Powell
>The fact that you include the high school equivalency just proves you're a retard desu.
The fact that you think the GED isnt necessary to get into trade SCHOOL proves you are so completley fucked you cant ever come back.
>gf cheat on you with Tyrone or Chad
Did you not hear me telling you to get a practice gf? Jesus Christ how do you know nothing?
Samuel Rogers
I started pulling my life together at 35 after being a hikki neet since I was 20. I had given up but strangely shit just started happening. You definitely still have hope.
Nathaniel Green
I'd learn something that makes it possible for me to work from home
Programming, drawing, languages. Also if you're native you can teach english to chinese kids online, google around (reddit)
Isaac Reyes
You LITERALLY, don't need schooling to get into a trade skill you fucking faggot. You sound like a suburban retard that's trying to justify spending THOUSANDS OF DOLLARS on shit you could have learned yourself ON THE FUCKING INTERNET. But, that would mean you admit you're a retard. Oy vey ... GOYIM. Imagine thinking you can't make a lliving unless you fall for the reptilian Jew propaganda. Good goy . You fucking retard. I want to skin you and eat you. Disgusting. I want you to cry about how you think being in debt is good. Good goy.
Sebastian Miller
>You LITERALLY, don't need schooling to get into a trade skill
So why havent you done it?
Zachary Cook
I dropped out of school when I was 14, but went and got out when I was 19, I'm doing volunteer work at 23 and getting my resume together and learning to drive, just do it bro.