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I've been crying over the Smash reveal

Also I've failed my diet 5 times already

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That's based, not a failure

>I put my ex on a pedestal
>became whipped
>she didnt like me going to the gym
>gained like 40lbs
>she breaks up with me
>feel pretty good but lonely now
I'm going back to the gym tonight. I'm 5"8 at 220lbs and I plan on dropping 40lbs. I'm also going back to school. I also want to get into another relationship. Talk me out of it bros

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>originally was 218 lbs at 5'11", fattest I've ever been. Technically obese.
>dieted the fuck down because I was sick of being fat
>lose 25 lbs in 5 months
>jump back and forth between 190 and 200 for 3 years because college stress and fucking around
>fast forward to today
>stronger, but not willing to bulk until I cut bf%
>haven't bulked in over a year because I'm so fucking bad at willpower I can't stick to a diet

SHAME ON MY FUCKING RETARD FACE

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I get intimidated right down to my primordial core whenever I see an aggressive man.

I do OMAD but eat don't measure my calories. I don't eat a lot and I eat clean but counting feels so fucking hard for some reason. Also 3 scoops everyday.

>decide to start bulk
>actually losing weight

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I dunno wtf I'm doing with my food. I try and count calories and shit but I have no idea about shit like cholesterol or whether daily values matter. I eat like 300% the daily cholesterol

>go out of the country for a week and a half
>shit diet
>no lifting
>jet lag
>come back
>all lifts down ~5%
I hate my life and am close to giving up
Only solace is I didn’t gain any fat

Fat fuck, you’re a worthless weak bloattard

Relationships aren’t worth it unless you stay completely centered in yourself which you obviously aren’t, you’ll make concessions and sacrifices

After a week you’ll be back to where you were

Dietary cholesterol is fine for you, you need to for testosterone production

EAT MORE

I'm not a fat fuck anymore, I just have an okay body at like 18% BF. the thing that's killing me is i KNOW i can do this. I've gotten down to 167 before. But I keep giving in to these stupid cravings

5x5 fork putdowns lardass

The one thing I'm trying to do in life is stop watching porn and I struggle constantly with it

Why are his shoulders so narrow?

C**mbr*in fuck
But actually, start by reducing the amount, if you watch daily go to every other day for a week, then two days between next week, and so on

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when will i stop thinking about eating junk food, its been almost 3 months now and whenever i see pizza or ice cream i want to eat it so bad

I relapsed hard on porn, but have now been without it 5 days. I feel great shame over my relapse and won't consider myself "pure" again until 1 week of noporn again.
Doing well now though. Back on my track of righteousness and purity.

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If you sext with a real girl is that porn?
Asking for a friend

Clavicle length

Depends on if it's based on just lust, or love. Are you texting with some random female, or your partner? If the latter, you're good, if the former, it's porn alright.

Def lust and definitely random internet whores
Fuck

>Two qts mirin hard today
>Did nothing about it
I've done this at least 30 times now.

I used to eat butter. Had two favourite flavours. Either I would mix it in equal parts with sugar, or alternately just add a couple punches of garlic salt and breadcrumbs. It was a good life.

I actually got to know my ex that way, we were sitting next to each other at an event and I dared her to eat the block of butter (about 1C) in exchange for a Nanaimo bar. She did it. Too bad she’s gone, she was super hot and really funny.

>worked out two hours ago
>finish and try to relax
>jerk off to porn
great now I feel like shit

>lifting for 5 years off and on
>just hit 3 pl8 deadlift last month
>got mono, couldn't lift for a whole month, barely ate because my throat hurt so bad
>come back to lifts
>225 is challenging again

I'm a forever lanklet. I think I've just never really had a good routine or something, I tried SL 5x5 for ages but just hit plateaus I could never get over on a lot of my lifts.

>drank entire gallon of orange juice in one day
C-cheat day, right bros?

ill admit that ur all a bunch of fucken nerds

im doing good in every sector of life

get slamdunked on faggots

PEACE

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Fitness is working.
Life isnt however. I got home tired as fuck and I wanted to nap but i couldnt cause I keep thinking about a girl (which I obviously wont do anything about) whenever I closed my eyes and my heartbeat got so strong it woke me up completely. So now I'm tired as fuck trying to do homework that's due tomorrow but I'm just exhausted and incredibly distracted. So I drink some coffee, play the piano and shitpost a little but when I go to the work my mind is just not there. It's easy work but I'm tired and infatuated and I just wish I wasnt so mother fucking weak.

Once a month I go to the local donut shop right when it opens at 430am and wait for the fresh hot apple fritters to come out. They're so fucking good. I get 2 ans theyre huge and i eat both in under 10 mins

I also get a couple chocolate donuts and a sausage roll and take them togo, but i down them within an hour.

Then i sleep all day and hate myself for weeks until im ready to go again

Damn did you at least shoot em a look?

I might have very slightly strained or impinged my right shoulder 2 weeks ago when failing to rerack heavy weight(for me) on one side when benching, but i've kept working out through the slight pain (because im doing so great on OHP am im afraid of losing gains) and i think its getting worse.

I still have full range of motion and can use it normally in day-to-day stuff, but any heavy push movements make it flare up and feel inflamed, and it hurts to sleep on.

Should i take a break from bench/OHP for a few weeks?

About 10-15 lbs difference here but it doesn't look like ive lost anything fuckkkk. Why do i lose fat from my legs ass and arms first, i just want abs man.

6'1 191lbs

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>two favorite flavors
A-user I...
Yeah lay off it and ice, if it doesn’t get better in a week see a doc

Started really eating clean about a month ago, dropped 10 lbs and fell great so I decided Id have a little cheat day today. Started off with a whole fuckin medium pizza from dominos and now Im eating Whataburger. I feel like a real pile of shit and I just know im going to wake up 5 lbs heavier tomorrow. Not even close to worth it.

I can tell, user. You look leaner

I can't stop COOOOMING, I'm too weak to ass
Also have virtually no appetite, mostly due to stress but can't bulk for shit

SeeKnow that Billy disapproves

>sleep schedule is absolutely blasted to bits (8AM-4PM)
>no job
>only a CCNA and a HS diploma
>ldr gf is mental and unstable but I still love her and she's always so appreciative when I try to help her
>failed last bulk (woohoo 27% bf)
>failing current cut (hovering around 145lbs regardless of what I eat or not)
>no gains for 11 months
>the ssri's aren't working anymore
>did 7 pages of writefagging, nobody bothered to reply
>having dreams where I look in the mirror and like what I see
>can't get myself to sit down and read even if the books interest me
>sleep schedule so fucked I usually can't get to the gym before it closes
>not strong enough to handle my demons on my own
>can't even keep myself from bitching about them to an online Samoan sand sculpting conference
i'm sorry, guys
none of these are your problems

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My father is one of the most reprehensible, god awful human beings I have ever known in my life and I hope every day that he dies and I'll never have to see or talk to him again. I guess I feel some shame in that, but not too much because I am 100% sure that being raised by this piece of shit had a major role in me ending up a complete loser.

I wish i wasn't an only child so I could have a sibling and see if they turned out well or as fucked up as I am.

Felt a similar way towards my dad for a while. I still don't forgive him for everything he did. But as I've gotten older and matured I realized he didn't get the way he is on his own, and while it ultimately is his own fault and I suffered as a result I can't blame him entirely.

Nowadays I just feel bad for him. He's alone since me and my brother (who turned out exactly like I did) moved out and my mom divorced him.

Weak shit user, without a job if there’s anything you should have lined 100% its sleep and lifting

Thing is it isn't even like my father is some drug addict who stole from us, or gambling addict, or alcoholic, or something like that. It's 100% his personality, his horrific, god awful personality that makes him so reprehensible.

You're lucky that your mother divorced him. He has spent basically our entire lives insulting us (me and my mom) and for a few years in my childhood constantly "threatened" us with divorce and even lived in the guest bedroom. All it did was make my mom very upset. I don't know why she has stayed, she literally celebrates when he goes on work trips so she doesn't have to be around him. If she had divorced him and I rarely had to see him and be poisoned by him and turned into a copy of him maybe I would have turned out a little more normal

My mom didn't divorce him until I moved out. Either way your dad sounds worse than mine, mine was just a ragehead who at a moments notice would fly off the handle and either hurl insults at you, beat you, or both. It was how he was raised, it doesn't make it right though.

I'd recommend therapy if you can afford it. My older brother actually did some and I think he's a bigger man for it. I can afford it, I'm just not mentally prepared to begin exploring the minefield of my childhood.

i know exactly how to eat to lose weight. i literally eat only junk food every day and hardly sleep or stick to a lifting weights routine. My parents pay for my gym membership and groceries. i even live close to the gym and enjoy going. I have been lifting weights on and off for almost 6 years and havent ever been able to cut bodyfat. currently 170 ibs at 5'10". I still look as fat as i did in highschool. I piterally have no excuse. I cant think of what to tell myself to actually try and get my shit together. I havent stuck to a deficit for more than a week at a time. or lost more than like 10 pounds.

T-thanks

>No cardio
>low volume routine
>sometimes good diet, but full of carbs
>Low protein ingest
>alcohol and junk on weekends.
>Hard stucked at 80kgs/180 started at 90/200
>lifted 5 months for this.

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You have no motivation. A lot of retards here say motivation doesn't matter, but they're full of shit. Yes sometimes you can't motivate yourself for shit and that is where discipline and planning come in, but motivation is at least 80% of it.

What do you want? It doesn't sound like getting lean is it. I was in a similar spot to you about a year ago, and I realized it just doesn't excite me. What does excite me is moving heavy weight and being "the strong guy". Just today a friend of mine was joking with me about how even as a lanklet he's in better shape than me, but it didn't dampen my mood at all because I give no fucks about that and proceeded to bench his bodyweight for reps like a joke. Because I love stuff like that, it puts a smile on my face.

If you actually do love to lift, find what it is about lifting that you love and specialize in that.

>Back and arms acne
>Chubby
>5'7

Never used roids in my life just whey

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>if there’s anything you should have lined 100% its sleep
I've tried, but nothing makes a difference anymore. I could be in bed, melatonin, warm tea, white noise machine and all at 8:00 PM and I'd still be back up by 3AM.
>and lifting
I still try to go if I can get there in time, but after almost a year of diligent lifting and 0 quantifiable results, is it hard to imagine one could lose faith in it

I'm ashamed of literally every aspect of my life, and they all negatively affect and snowball the other aspects so that I stay ashamed of everything

>shame of having no friends so i avoid people so they don't see this
>shame of being a kv so i dont even bother with girls, as well as being ashamed of above point so i avoid them
>shame of having no friends nor gf so i stay a shut in loser which proliferates my friendlessness and virginity which then makes the top 2 points worse

All together, makes a package of shame and humiliation that ruined my entire life.

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More carbs, more sauce. Oh yeah, so much more sauce.

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Well, reading that you really shouldn't be surprised. Stop drinking and have some discipline with your diet. It doesnt matter how much you lift if you eat and drink garbage with no protein.

I assume you are looking to get shamed. In which case, you should feel repulsive and disgusting. You can't even stand correctly due to the massive size of your thighs, and you look like you're a 40DD bra size! Reduce your calorie intake and do some cardio. Every day, try and make the healthy choice.
Before you eat, ask yourself
>am I really hungry? Or just thirsty, tired, emotional, etc?
>will eating this help me achieve my goals?
>is there a healthier alternative I could eat?
Then eat, reflect on your goals, and log the calories

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I bet you feel disgusting and weak right now- and you should. You know what you must do to accomplish your goals, so why don't you commit and do it? Are you a mindless pig with no self control, a pathetic excuse for a man with no discipline? You don't have to prove your worth to anyone but yourself. But you should feel repulsive. Make the changes and commit, or you'll die in the same abominable conditions you lived

Good god, don't you ever get tired of feeling like a worthless failure? Stop giving up on yourself! You are better than that. Look in the mirror for 5 minutes, pick out every flaw you see. You can fix each and every one of them if you stop mindlessly abandoning yourself for 15 seconds of flavor. Before you eat, do this
>drink 8 fluid oz of ice cold water
>spend 30 seconds remembering your dream body and fitness goals
>try and find a healthier alternative
>carefully potion out your meal
>log the calories
Your body hasn't given up on you, so stop failing it when it needs your determination the most

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40 pounds? That's disgusting! Good thing you are working towards losing it. Do not lose yourself in human companionship- sex is not the foundation for a strong future or a healthy body. Relationships are what you earn after taking care of yourself and accomplishing your goals. You can't even put in enough effort to maintain your own body, so how will you function when you're in a relationship (where you'll also be looking out for another person)? Get your shit together. Lose the weight. Keep it off. Prove to yourself you have what it takes to improve yourself before you seek out another human.

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Yo-yo dieting only happens when the dieter has no self control or willpower. It's not a diet, it's a daily battle. Every day, every hour you must choose to be better and to make the healthier choice. Are you a cow, thinking only to eat and sleep and procreate? Or are you a man, capable of incredible feats of stamina and intelligence? You should feel ashamed at falling so far, you should feel lower than dirt. But brush yourself off, try again. The only thing more shameful than failing is giving up completely

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>count calories autistically
>lose way more than the targeted weights
>even though I cheat
Nuthin personell

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Log the calories and make better choices tomorrow

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Been eating more and losing weight somehow. Just did leg day for the first time in a month and a half, going to stick with it. I want to reach 160 soon

I broke down and drank for 2 days straight last week (recovering alcoholic). Fucked up my routine and my lifts, had to deload the past couple days because it messes up my body so badly i get weak. And i was out of breath and had to keep stopping when running where i normally excel on my run route because of the effects.

Also I've been fapping to porn every day. Went for some GILF shit this morning. Didn't feel good at all. Haven't had sex in 6 months.

Shame me /fit.

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There’s a definite difference. Your abs are starting to show

did you shave your stomach?

Seek help user, you sound like a weak, c**mbrain, addicted piece of shit

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Yes, i then also shaved my chest, was trying something new and hated it

I was out of the country for 3 weeks and was totally fine just dropping 10lbs per lift when I got back.

i've stalled my weight loss ever since college started back up amd this is thanks to my excessive drinking and i fucking hate myself

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Haha, I was actually trying to post pic related! But I guess the filename is still correct. And yeah, that's me.

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Where’d she go

>Deadlifting today
>Pulled 275 last week
>Work up to it and try without a belt this time
>Fail just before lockout
It hurted

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Some girl ghosted me today after I sent a face pic. Am I that unattractive? For context I had sometimes go on tinder larping as a short Hispanic guy but the girl in question was pretty cool and said she wanted to see who I actually was.

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>stopped deadlifting just because it's hard and tiring
>masturbation habit getting bad again mainly because I think my chances for sex are far out or nonexistent so don't feel need to save sexual energy
> this however makes me feel less motivated and more complacent
>eating way too much sugar and just a dogshit diet in general
>mental state and complacency getting bad as job search is demoralizing me completely
help me out bro's

you don't really look that ugly you just look kinda autistic and depressed in this photo.

>I wish i wasn't an only child so I could have a sibling and see if they turned out well or as fucked up as I am.

They do.

wouldn't say your ugly, you look utterly average. 6/10 material

I literally just dropped 115 pounds on my face during my benchpress (yes in a newbie dyel) Reracked the left side of the bar and I guess assumed the right was also racked and just let go. I had to squirm out from under it and ended up grinding my face down the side until I fell off the bench. My eye and nose are pretty fucked up and theres a bar shaped bruise accross my forehead. For some reason nobody came to help me, and when I got up a bunch of people were looking at me but just went back to there workouts.

The real bitch of it is that it was my first set so I was pretty rattled about finishing. Fortunately my fren came over to shoot the shit not 2 minutes later (I'd just stuffed my nostril to stop the bleeding) and after I told him wanted happened, I went to do my second set and couldnt even get the bar off the rack. My arms were like noodles and the fucking thing wouldn't budge. It was like a curse, I couldnt even move it.

>well shit user, you calling it for the night or you want to do this?
> I WANT to, but I'm telling you the damn thing wont move, this isnt happening.
>nahh dude its happening, if you want this than you got this.

I've never been spotted before. He helped me get it off the rack the first time, but I finished the other 4 sets without help and the. (After fixing my nose a bit) finished another hour of my workout.

Through my shame I finished my night brahs. Dont forget to look both ways before you cross the street.

sorry to hear that bro, good on you for not getting embarrassed and leaving. Now you probably see why the spotter thing ain't a meme, it's happened to all of us and hopefully you just ask someone to spot you next time (even if its a boomer soccer mom and your pushing low weight)

That's an unflattering picture, You aren't unattractive.

I love chocolate, it's like a drug to me. so tasty it makes me salivate like a dummie but it's so yummy yummy yummy. take it away from me and ill cummy cummy inside your tubby tummy.

Stop getting sick retard

My biggest issue is with sweets. I keep going cold turkey and relapse afterwards.

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I literally cant imagine having a mindset that cant refuse sweets. At least hungry fatties feel hungry. Goddamn alcoholics have more of an excuse than you. It's literally just shitty food that tastes like fake bullshit. Just dont eat it you absolute subpar retard

I know its just processed sugar but I love it. I don't binge eat it. But I alwways find myself eating a small chocolate bar everyday.

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You just find yourself doing it? Like you're in a magical haze and oh no! Hark! I'm gobbling down a chocolate bar! From whence did this confection come from? Fuck you. You and I both know theres a moment where you're looking at the fucking thing in the gas station or the shopping mart while you're in line. We both know you do an incredibly gay mental dance of "oooh I know i shouldn't but oh ho ho i think i just might!" Get fucked, quit eating candy. Its fucking absurd that you feel it's anything but the most laziest of addictions. Disgusting

Wes Watson? Is that you?