Depressed feelings...hopp on boys

I feel what you mean. At the age of 30 I took up a religion. I really tryed to believe..and it helped me for a while. But unfortunatelly, my mind is allways thinking, analizing things..so I saw that in order to be happy in a religion you need to be a bit of fool - no offense. If you try to hink and reason everything you just end up loosing your faith.

Good point. I guess.. Well, I was in a relationship before..got cheated badly behind my back. Caught them. anyways., after a couple of years I met this girl, and started dating etc.. I guess I was also scared of beeing alone for the rest of my life.

Martial arts helped me. I joined muay thai class 6 months ago and even though I still have shit weeks I look forward to class. The camaraderie, the sparring, the beating personal bests, the watching myself become fitter and stronger, and knowing that I can handle myself on the streets have been real boosters. I've also started my own business that allows me to do the things I want to do and to focus my creative spirit.
I've also started to give blood and take part in helping others. Theres something about helping those who really need it that gives me purpose. I don't care about their gratitude nor who they are. Just that if I'm not going to live for myself, I can at least help other people benefit from my existence.

You write like you have a 70 iq. If you're always chasing after something new ofc you're going to be unhappy, enjoying the here and now takes work too

yes. you are right, but what i dont have is the will and drive to enjoy the now. Sounds weird I know

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id rather be a happy fool than a miserable genius

What kind of business if I may ask?

I don't know what will make you content in life. Enjoy the journey for what it is I guess. But please don't listen to all the traumatized former incels in here telling you to knock up your wife and have kids solely to have purpose in life. If you have children to fill some kind of void, you're not giving birth to a life worth living, you're just passing on existential dread to your kid.

‘Blessed are the poor in spirit"

Capri length pants look so incredibly faggy on men.

Whenever I've felt like this I've just split. The cost matters not to me, I leave. You don't have kids, so divorce your wife, change jobs and try finding something else. I look for new experiences, that makes life interesting. Also, if life is too easy it gets boring, so fuck yourself over and you'll find things more interesting. Goodspeed to you user, this is my actual advice.

>in order to be happy in a religion you need to be a bit of fool

You're not as smart as you think you are, no offense. You're unhappy because you're surrounded by people exactly like you. Religion provides community, structure, and connections, as well as a group of people who come together to help each other for a greater cause. Belief is just an illusion to cause this to happen.
Really sounds like you work to make money to work, and your subconscious is doing its best to communicate how stupid you are by denying you peace of mind.
You're 36 and you're still working full time? Do you ever take time off to do things you like? If I were in your shoes I would be enjoying the hell out of life buddy, lay off the grind a little, move to a job with less pay outside the city. Buy your wife something pretty and tell her you want kids. Go to fucking church and surround yourselves with positive people instead of stifling in an office filled with people who wake up every day and wish they didn't. Or not even church, join a masters sports team and have some fun. Life is what you make it, constantly thinking about 'what ifs' isn't living.

Sounds like you just went and did every thing society expects you to do without giving a thought to what you actually want to do.

Sounds like you are shit out of luck.

By trade I design curriculum for english language learning. I have now managed to turn that into a remote working position for online education. I design curriculum, develop courses and audit there materials.
My new business is training people from 25-40 years old in 21st century skills because theres a huge gap in the market. People within that demographic weren't taught them in school yet young learners today are. It means that my generation (target dem) really need help with creating and sustaining businesses given the ever changing challenges of the 21st century.

Their materials* I'm phone posting and playing vidya right now.

Have kids or kys

I'm gonna do a bit of eng teaching on the side cause of boredom in asia, got any good links to hit me up with bro for curriculum? I promise to give you free medical advice anytime bro.

yes indeed. Truth is you have to take on jobs that you dont like in order to make a living. Unfortunately, it is hard to do what you like in todays society

you should be happy about this fact, look at Jow Forums, u really want people to live out their dreams?

involve yourself in some competition. You will never be depressed but instead you will get the feeling of never being the best and unable to achieve that status

Lel

Honestly you have a retarded bitchy attitude. Instead of making yourself happy you want to sit here whining at us waiting for someone to rescue you from your shitty thoughts. Seems like you're spending a lot of time focusing on the negatives in life because you want to be "honest" with yourself. The fact is right now you're probably fine and you just want to feel smart. You're not being honest with yourself, you're kidding yourself. Get your shit together

what I did is I invested in real estate. Baught an appartament, restored it a bit then rented it out. But I want to do something else. Your idea was amazing. Props to that!

Today was an emotional rollercoaster. I learned that I might be bipolar or something.
>like girl, she lives abroad
>chat infrequently, maybe once a week tops
>today she mentions that she wants to come over
>get hyped, thinking this might be my chance to take her out on a few more dates
>she off-handedly mentions that she hasn't sorted out her plans with her bf for the next six months
>realize that she's taken, get depressed
>ask if they'll be coming over together
>she gets flustered, turns out it was a typo and she's somehow still single and meant she wanted to come over to see me
I can't really translate the actual conversation into English and retain the way one fucking letter almost sent me into a pit of despair. Thank fuck I asked, I considered just pretending to ignore any mention of a 'bf'.

>beautiful house
>beautiful wife
>large automobile

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Funny. I'd rather be a miserable genius than a happy fool.

It takes all kinds I guess.

I don't hear anything about kids. Why don't you put some babies in her, and give up material things for the life of the philosopher-patriarch?

me on the top left

I dont feel stable in my current status. Financially

>getting sent into a pit of despair over a girl
Come on man, you didn’t even stick your dick in her.

I taught in china for 6 years. I would recommend taking the opportunity to study a tefl and teach abroad for a year if you can. Theres something special about learning to stand on your own two feet in a foreign lands. The good experiences will pick you up but the tough experiences will ground you for life.
If you want to try it online first and are from the US then go with vipkid and see how you feel about the attitudes of chinese employers and parents (require lots of patience).
If you google Best Learning China or Beiwai English China you can email them directly and have a job offer by monday morning. Those companies are reputable, provide legal visas, brief training, assistance with housing and all of the headaches that come with moving abroad. Good luck.

I would like to do that over the coming years. I'm currently converting my apartment so that I can air bnb it and make some extra side cash. Any tips for real estate?

>I have this...., I have that
>house
>SUV
Maybe it's just one of those days, OP. Chill. Forget material shit, it won't make you happy. Just live it with the love you're telling us you have and build more love.

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thanks bro, your advice is sound but i've already lived in 6 countries, am an old fart and I'm doing this on downtime between jobs in other countries, took a tefl for fun cause people were nagging me here and I need to get out, korea though so I think maybe easier to deal with parents than in china? I have patients but I'm not a punching bag, so might end up getting fired quickly when teaching kids, gonna start with adult engineers though cause I've never interacted with kids. But I second going abroad working as a learning experience. A wee bit scared though, I'm used to saving lives and ordering people around, not licking ass to make them happy, I make people healthy.

iono have a mid-life crisis, that should eat up at least 5 years. Then its only like 40 more til the ride is over.

Yeah, but she was my first kiss in three years. What, you've never been head over heels?

Hey OP love the blog! My advice is to kill your fucking self.

based

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underrated as fuck.

you should learn to serve others

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>have a gf
>the urge to fuck my co worker is getting stronger each day
lifts for this feel?

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don't get off for your gf or your co-worked, get off your high test
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thanks friend

There is absolutely no reason to put yourself at the risk of divorce unless you want kids. (Even then you're living with the sword of damocles hanging over your head).
Why are you doing this? You are not only needlessly bogging your wife down with a husband who will eventually wear her down into the same misery, you are depriving yourself of finding something that does make you happy. And if it gets bad enough, you will end up divorce raped and even more unhappy.

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What kind of job do you have? How do you spend your free time?

Maybe you're mostly "consuming" stuff in your free time. Netflix, movies, meals out, etc. I end up feeling empty if that's all I do. Read this tjcx.me/posts/consumption-distraction/ and try to find some way to "produce" stuff that you can enjoy. Writing, photography, music... I feel much more accomplished when I'm immersed in something like that, even if the result is of shitty quality.

based, that's why I keep coming here

Happiness is based on genetics. The best you can do is accept that you won't be happy and you may reach a level of contentment with that.

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Jump on tren

are you 18 or something
get your fuck on

why the fuck would u want kids, oh wow now i gotta raise a fucking idiot for 10 years wow that sounds so fun to stop doing whatever i want and be a slave to this little bitch

Why do you make these threads every day? Is it because you're that Estonian creep that does it on /tv/ too or do you just wanna piss off blackcels? I hope blackcels all die.

Buy Chainlink and start frequenting /biz

Honestly, this is just life. Everyone is a little sad and unsarisfied. Try volunteering for a cause you believe in. I find helping others also helps yourself.

Obviously he is fucking retarded

The only reason to get into a relationship is to spread your seed, and even then, the relationship isn't very necessary

Happiness can not be a goal. It is an emotion, and you feel a new emotion every hour. There are two choices:

1. Find contentment in every day life. Simplify your life and have everything you need, and never want anything more. Have great relationships, comfy part time job, cabin in the woods, growing your own food, keep physically fit without media distractions, work on hobbies, meditate, etc.

2. Constantly strive for more until you die.

Personally I like the first one because no one is ever completely satisfied with the second. Ultimately this modern way of living isn't sustainable, especially for the soul. Don't fall for the memes of "follow your dreams" and all that shit. Once you accomplish what you want, you'll just be right back to where you started, depressed and lost. Why do you think so many rich people struggle with depression? Man's desire for greatness is what drives him to madness.

Because he wanted to, retard

based and redpilled. i'd put my signature under this post.

but, i'd take the number two. i'd instantly kill myself if i wouldn't desire for greatness.

I used to feel the same, but now I strive for my own greatness. I want to be highly athletic in my everyday life, a great partner, leave little environmental impact, help my local community, see the parts of the world I find beautiful, have few possessions, and find peace. I think it's foolish to live your life to try to be remembered by people who will forget you by the time the next Marvel movie comes out.

This, if you don't want to have kids then literally never get married, it's fundamentally pointless

And you may find yourself
Living in a shotgun shack
And you may find yourself
In another part of the world
And you may find yourself
Behind the wheel of a large automobile
And you may find yourself in a beautiful house
With a beautiful wife
And you may ask yourself, well
How did I get here?

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you have probably let your thot wife convince you that kids won't solve anything. she's probably sterile from all the STDs and abortions she's had.

get a divorce and have kids withs somebody else. kids will make you happy as you enter another stage of life, of being a man. you are unsatisfied because you are not fulfilling your natural function. without children you will have no purpose.

yeah, that way.

This. You're a fucking idiot if you're getting married just to play house and take care of an adult sized child known as a woman. Start a family ffs.

Thought I had it made for a while too op. Things can always fall apart.

Ex texted me late last night asking if I really find her repulsive. It was really her behavior in the end. I don't feel revulsion anymore so much as disappointment. I still love her in a way, and hope takes a good path in life. The show is over though. She made it clear how little she values my thoughts and opinions. We used to be 'happy' together. It's just frustrating and sad to hear from her this way now. Happiness is fleeting and comes in unconventional forms sometimes. Fighting is the only thing that makes me happy now. Everything else is just to make ends meet. Find the things that you feel you can't spend enough time on.

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Like some others here I believe many of us can can only be enlightened by striving for greatness. What area or areas you strive in is your choice. It just has to be something that is meaningful for you. If you are in bed at the end of the day feeling unsatisfied it means you are not challenging yourself.

For me every day is a struggle, mostly because I am mentally ill, but also because I accept the weight of the principles I hold and I try my best to bare them out in my living every second of every day. To strive for heroic purpose or metaphysical ideals is to constantly be doing violence to yourself. It is to cut away the wretched parts of yourself until there is almost nothing left save principle.

Reach heaven through violence.

you define yourself with shallow stuff so ofc your life is shallow. what about good friends? about helping other people?
a man has to to see more than himself, adopt responsibility for others, you might find your meaning this way.

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getting children from a woman you dont like enough to find naturally out by yourself, but because some kid on 4chin said it.

>a good SUV
You such a cuck

>36, married with a beautyfull wife. Have own home, a good SUV

mother fucker I am 36, live with my mom, am unemployed, have no woman in my life, can't get fit because I only have one testicle that produces very little testosterone, am impotent, drive a 2006 toyota matrix filled with rust.

Fuck you, you god dam asshole!

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Horrible idea

This. You probably lack meaning in your life, and kids are a good way of adding that.

can´t you get on hrt?

>be degenerate
I see you, Shlomo. I see you!

thats not bipolar, thats what every man on this planet has to deal with if he is not gay

The situation was fine, I was just surprised by my overly emotional reaction.
Anyway, she's coming over, soon and that alone is amazing. I'm gonna get that girl.

>marrying a woman even though you didn't get her pregnant by accident
You did this to yourself OP.

You sound very docile, like you just go along with what other people want. Maybe practise saying no? Decide on something you want to do and do it. Be decisive, even if it's the wrong choice

cringe

Jow Forums i love you

This is a materialistic perspective. The only appropriate question is whether Catholicism is true.

Imagine thinking you’re too smart for anything with spelling errors like that.

Okay that's nice, so what's your R E A L job not your hobby

help others and find the Lord

you never mentioned a personal relationship with Jesus.
Thats your problem man. you have no purpose

thats why u have all those things because its in your personality to always want more (which is a good and a bad thing). i dont have shit and feel good most of the time but it makes me lazy

There's no escape. When faced with no problems the mind creates its own