I was at planet fitness and was brutalllly mogged by a Chad and his Stacey. To sum things up I feel like the devil has won in my life. I felt a very dark despair again and i idk what to do. I wish I was never born. I was just thinking wow good you win, you broke me. My life is completely fucked. I get neetbux now though for psychosis. Thinking about suicide again, cried in car. Hopeless. I felt resentment overwhelm me. I'm just going to die one day a loser forever. I wish I was never born. People die alone all the time, trying to cope. I was asking God why I was even born. But there's no answer, my father was evil and selfish and we were mistakes. God why? God why? God why? God why? Just to become this. My entire life is a joke, I hate myself, my thoughts, I tried to fight but the devil won it seems like. I was thinking murderous resentful thoughts. God why? I just wanted the pain to end.
Pain
As I type on my phone because I'm banned I realize I'll never really capture how fucked my life is. I can't win and everyone is worships sexual selection more than anything now. I was fired for a sadistic normie taunting me. My resentment, my pain is like sand I can't hold it and it owns me. Like the devil has just been playing with me for decades. Why
Everything is worse than we think, my family is destroyed, my brother's are evil. Everything on every level is fucked. Yet I'm a spoiled 1st worlder incel. I wish I was never born.
Then the most common ideology on Jow Forums is literally nazism or extreme conservatism or wishing people like me were steralized or dead. Why was I ripped from my mother's womb? And my parents were already getting divorced by then. All I feel is evil anymore. I'm just fucking drowning now. I can't even say it's over because the ride never ends.
Idk what to think. I guess I'll distract myself
Shame, insecurity, more profound pain. Demon spirits. Failure. Weakness. And for what? So can be called an inferior being for being born or a sinner. Temptation, all of it. I am angry and afraid.
Dude... Take some advice from a guy who spent a lot of time thinking about what others think of him:
Relax. No one cares about you. Your job is to improve yourself, not being constantly worried about others' opinions or trying to compare yourself to them. Keep going to the gym, keep your head high and don't give a shit. Hope you get better.
>planet fitness
>Chad and his Stacey.
more like brad and becky
in their 60s
this, people don't think about you that often. the most based thing to do is focus on self improvement and ignore haters.
way to get blown the fuck out just by the mere presence of someone better than you you child. I bet next you'll be having elliot tier thoughts about how they did it on purpose and weren't just there to stay fit like you were.
This is cope and you know it. Getting mogged to death means death. My birth is a mistake and all I will be is a gymcel in pain. By god, if nobody cares about you your life is fucked.
>I was at planet fitness and was brutalllly mogged by a Chad and his Stacey.
how do you even get to the point in your life where you type out sentences like these and post them seriously? What the hell is "mogged"?
All you worship is sexual selection and you're surprised someone gets mogged? This is the matrix
>being so superficial someone can literally kill you with their looks
looking good is great but it's not everything.
It means to be humiliated by someone superior to you
Have some Power Metal OP.
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How can you like yourself if you play the victim all the time. Stop pretending you're a loser. Live your life for once, stop worrying.
I never said it was everything demon
you didn't just get mogged, your entire ego got obliterated by some random stranger. As if they were gods. I'm just pointing out being this superficial is tranny tier in levels of dysphoria. and overall dangerous to yourself/
>How can you like yourself
Good question
you realize the only reason anyone cares about anyone is because they get something out of it right? you aren't inherently worthless, you just have a shit personality so you're probably insufferable to be around. even if you looked like arnold in his prime, people would avoid you if you were as much of an emotional leach as you seem to be.
everyone of your comments turns things into talking about you or 'woh is me'. no one wants to fucking hang around a debbie-downer. don't be such an emotional leech and maybe people will start to care about you.
typically by just their mere presence which dwarfs an aspect of yours. "mog" isn't particularly just another word for bully.
You're just trying to gaslight me and you can't do more damage then is already there
Ok incel have sex and stop pretending to be normal
the point is you obviously value looks above everything and that is a dangerous way to think.
What are trying to do here demon?
>completely ignores legitimate criticism and personally attacks commentator instead
you obviously had no intention of changing when you made this thread. you were just looking to vent and have people confirm your delusional beliefs. enjoy continuing to live in a contrived world where everyone is against you when in reality people can hardly sustain enough effort to focus on themselves.
Is this your problem with the human race or just me? And ultimately I lament my personality as well, I was homeschooled among other things. Just admit you want me to suffer and move on demon.
why are you calling me a demon?
can i call you a faggot?
At least you got your ass to the gym OP.
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You're right OP, the world is a shit and the only way out is death
Your attacks on my beliefs were weak and you're a dumbass, you don't want to help you're just trying to humiliate me further.
i want you to find beauty in music and value good personality traits like earnesty and become more humble.
your suffering will not end until you turn down the ego.
You are a demon, a malevolent entity simply trying to attack me for suffering. Say I'm wrong for all I care. You've already won you evil bastard
I want you to stop giving me orders simply because you see me as subhuman for not being a normal person or female but that won't happen lmao
>try to help you
>you personally attack me instead
>I retaliate
>you frame yourself as victim and 'oh why do you try to humiliate me'
you are delusional and pathetic and deserve your fate. enjoy thinking everyone is out to get you your whole life and creating a self fulfilling prophecy of failure.
I give up. OP is a gigantic faggot and should eat dicks.
Whatever Satan, I know what you're doing and it's very sick and you've already revealed your true intent in a few posts. Nothing but submitting to you and your ego would be considered accepting "help" get the fuck out
Go back to Jow Forums you fucking evil bitch, all you want to do is humiliate, it's not enough I suffer I have to lie and say it can be changed with fortune cookie advice. You demons are see through
I agree with you, OP, but there's a little too much me me me
you are not the problem, normies are
Honestly I blame my parents more than anyone on an existential level I don't really know but because people are sadistic they play tricks. Ultimately people are defending malevolence for some reason
I understand
I think that even if I somehow ascend, I won't have kids because they could still be failures
how were you mogged, did they stand beside you? did they say something?
>tfw you finally ascend
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They stretched next to me and I thought about killing him and as I thought that I knew I lost and the universe was against me and I wanted so bad to leave because I know about hypergamy and social worth. I hate life. Every day I go to the gym Pink Floyd is on the radio and I think it's just perfect considering everything. My existence was a mistake and it shows. People are aggressive to each other all the time but when you say life isn't fair the Jow Forums anti incels swarm
Now we're in honk honk heil Hitler world and I just think it's all perfect, god is good, I will be destroyed, life is fair, us males sure are resentful and evil because of our small mysoginistic dicks. I have NOTHING. Nothing. Because I'm a non Chad male. My life is fucked and I don't like it.
Grow up, you stupid wimpy pussy. You'll never be able to interact with a sexy girl in anything other than a "little boy" role. No sexy girl will ever see you as a man or an eligible sex candidate. No man sees you as a threat. You will be the bitch of other ineligible men. Other ineligible men will experience frustration when looking at girls that are out of their league, but then they'll look at you and think "Haha, he's definitely not getting any other either!" Then they'll put their self around you and act dominant towards you and take their internal dialog and spew it at you. You'll put up with their treatment because you're a bitch.
Most art, movies and everything are just anti beta male propaganda, it is the new religion of sexual selection. But at some point we got human rights and said tyranny was bad because man is evil. I control myself in this nightmare
Why would you go to the gym?
Not saying you shouldn't get fit but this is exactly why I workout at home however I can, to not give chad an easy bully target and crush whatever motivation I have built up.
Workout at home user, it's not as perfect as the gym equipment of course but you don't have to deal with meatheads looking for a target to boost their social points on
I was thinking as I was working out on this victory day about how the Nazis considered Slavs subhumans and were liquidating them and I was thinking about the mental aspect of their hell under the Nazis that German women voted into power and how the Soviets got some revenge for the nightmare and Jow Forumsfags cry about it
Weights are expensive and planet fitness is cheap compared to everything else there are just normies there
Put a layer of ca fentanyl and dmso on the barbells
All purpose chad remover
You can put it on car door handles to
Why would I hurt innocent chads?
To send a signal to the others
why not just put it straight into your veins
Suicide will not kill chads
you're just having a bad day. hit the bench hard tomorrow brah
Every day I feel this perverse shifting feeling like the devil is playing with my soul and it's like torture, humiliation is torture. Chads all have supreme confidence. Life isn't fair. Your fleeting life is spent being miserable for nothing but to realize you were a mistake
God I just want the pain to stop. I don't have dignity left.
You're not Chad though. We want you to kill yourself
An autistic signal
Spiritually, mentally where I've been and am now is like sheer despair and shame and distance from life. Like God, like shock, like I'm in shock at the horror of how pathetic I am. I don't belong. I am already getting old, it was a disaster, jesus
What kind of attitude is that
E r would be ashamed
Chads deserve only death
None of them are innocent
Any real robot knows this
I don't want to be associated with er but I have suffering as well
what happened exactly? orais
>weights are expensive
You literally can go into the forest and grab some rocks or lift literally anything with some weight to it over and over
Sit-ups only requires a ground so does push-ups and squats
It's what I usually do except I have 1 (singular) dumbbell instead of a rock or otherwise.
My current goal is only to lose weight and not to build muscles so I don't need anything else and it's working.
Your funeral user, you can do what you can at home or keep giving chad free social points and make your own personal hell
I wanted to touch a woman so fucking bad now it's like what now? I'm not even a person god. God!
Harness your suffering
No, then ending up in prison I would be in a deeper hell getting mogged by psychopaths talking about their gfs
And really, I'm getting a small stipend of neetbux now I'm grateful for, I just have this despair I can't shake, Jesus, I'm never going to be married or happy or live a life is like, I'm a manchild mentally ill
You only end up with other prisoners if you get a low score otherwise you get protective custody
Or you can suicide is the end
You have a deep mental illness.
The Chad just stood next to you, nothing more.
isn't it a little silly to just point at me and call me a demon? It's actually pretty advantageous for you since you don't have to discuss anything you don't like.
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In pilgrims progress there was the man locked in the cage that's what I feel like, I fell out of life, I have no real worth. People say I chose this and tell me to kill myself. My God. My God.
That's sucks, user. I hate people too much to care about what they think of me. Here's hoping your eventual suicide is quick and painless.
literally don't listen to a godamn thing normies say. It's like they exist in a whole nother universe because they have the foundations to make everything work. If a normie comes and gives you unsolicited advice or bashes you for how you are,, take it with a grain of salt, they don't really know shit about you.
Or rather I was never in life, people are having so much sex now and it's a sin to look at a woman with lust. How do you cope knowing we're primates?
The devil weakens me then attacks, I can't defend being a Manlet, or being a loser, all women do is shit test, jesus
i think god said somewhere in the bible to rip your eyes out to avoid lust.
many of the normalfaggots social conventions operate according to savage and dull hierarchical structures. When i look a normalfaggot in the eye i see a baboon ready to pounce on me for not being a part of their game.
I don't have a mind to cope anymore. It's all just edge, humiliation and pain. I am getting mogged to death and I'm self aware. I have nothing. My youth is gone, spent in madness and inceldom. Jesus, and I have to suppress myself so much and feel like a freak.
I can't think anymore. I'm devolving it feels like. I feel like my soul is lost. Crying like a baby. Sexual selection. Being a freak male loser. All the sex normies are having, gods contempt. My lies. God...I can't tell anyone, my mom asked if I wanted to go back to the hospital and told a bunch of people when I opened up to her. Alone. Why?
Are you an AI? This sounds like it's programmed based on stereotypes of incels so that incels will relate to it and be radicalized into committing terrorism
At this point I don't feel human. I might as well be an air but a stupid one or something
That pink Floyd song comes on every time I go to gym. When I was a child I caught a fleeting glimpse. Opiod crisis makes sense where I'm at. I started getting intrusive thoughts. Why? Just to ruin me?
Serious question: would you consider bottoming for men? If you go on an app like grindr, you will have guys lusting after you to fuck you. You could set up a gangbang pretty quickly
>Be me
>Go to the gym with gf
>Stretch next to some guy, feel better because we're all having fun at the gym
>I hope the fries are fresh when we go to mcdonalds
What hospital were you in? For what? What did you tell her?
He looked at me and knew what he was doing imo. People are not good in that way. He looked at me. He was an asshole with a hot gf. I felt hate and pain like an animal
No I'm not gay you demon
How do you know he was an asshole?
His tattoos, standing in front of me when it was unnecessary, looking at me and then to the mirror, you need EQ to understand the dynamics of people user or you'll be clueless when you're being mogged. God I hate him
>I was at planet fitness and was brutalllly mogged by a Chad and his Stacey. To sum things up I feel like the devil has won in my life.
Oh my dream came true. I had a dream I was explaining what mogging was because I got mogged and it was all in my dream. Fuck
ummm are you gonna elaborate on how you got mogged? I'm really curious. what exactly happened
Something is fundimetally wrong with my life. I feel cursed. But life is short and every moment spent being miserable while Chad is in a gorgeous woman is all it will ever be, every wasted minute in your prison
Then I get to watch other people have sex in porn ads on r9k. Fuck this life. I need a miracle
Black guy shot a cumshot all the way across the room into my face and then it dripped into my mom's pussy
Yeah I've felt something like this before too. Reading the beatitudes has helped me before. Matthew 5:3-12.
>act dominant towards you and take their internal dialog and spew it at you
So basically what you are doing right now?
No fully conscious man can have dignity