I have this strong premonition that I'll die early, either of a stroke or a heart attack. There are times...

just make sure your heart gets checked out. personally heart problems are the easyiest placebo for me to fall victim too. Multiple times i've thought i was having heart problems after watching a video only to either find out that it's nothing by a doctor or by just waiting it out.

This, you're probably having panic attacks which can feel like a heart attack (trust me), when you feel heart trouble like this come on next time assess your situation, are you stressed, anxious, under tremendous pressure, etc. all those are signs of a panic attack. They are not life threatening, but that doesn't mean you don't feel like they are, talk to your doc they can give you stuff for that

>if you're young and not absolutely destroying your body it's unlikely that your heart is going to just stop
I have medically-confirmed tachycardia and high blood pressure, dummy. Even take medication for it.

> Get a grip, I'm coming down on 90mg of speed
Hey, that's not healthy. At all.

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>knock on wood

Well at least you don't have signs of a congenital defect like I do. I also obsess over my health when I'm not worrying about other things but I feel like the one fool in a sea of hypochondriacs who's actually going to die because he didn't worry enough.

I had a few tests done years ago but no doctor ever completely ruled it out. Not saying I know more than them but I've shocked myself many times in the past by my instincts being correct when everyone was saying to ignore them.

Also I've lived on Jow Forums too long and the world is one big meat grinder to me. Everyone seemingly dies suddenly because they weren't careful enough.

>Well at least you don't have signs of a congenital defect like I do.
What is it that you have, user? Have you done an ECG, EKG and blood tests? What is your blood pressure like? Do you ever have tachycardia?

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>Hey, that's not healthy. At all.
I already know that, don't fucking give me a panic attack. My psyche is quite fragile right now as I'm coming down senpai.

Nani?!

Hey pappa/cutie or what ever gender you are, i have the exact same feelings. You have a strong case of anxiety. Go get the help you need. I get premonitions that i will die by a certain age, that my heart will suddenly stop and I'll die. It really is just anxiety fucking with our heads.

I literally never go on R9K. This is like the first time ever, and I happen to come across this thread which is similar to issues I have. I have anxiety and a very sensitive overall system. I get palpitations from stress, low sleep, low potassium, or if I have an empty stomach. All of those things affect the vagus nerve which controls the heart. They started when I was around 16 or 17. I thought I was going to die, turns out they're almost always benign. Again, they're there sometimes, and sometimes I don't have them for days and days. Depends on how I manage my body because I'm so sensitive. If you're really worried go see a doctor ASAP. But if I was meant to come across this thread tonight, take away this: get potassium (from fruit, not supplements) AND magnesium (supplements) every single day. They are both essential to heart function. If your problem is just anxiety, try CBD or astragalus or both. Take care.

>What is it that you have, user?
>many skeletal signs of a connective tissue disorder whose name I'm literally to much of a pussy to type out
>angina when doing anything moderately strenuous
this was the thing that got me thinking... chest pain during exercise isn't normal
>Have you done an ECG, EKG and blood tests?
EKG and blood tests many, many years ago when I first had a panic attack about it
>What is your blood pressure like?
consistenly high, but they said that was definitely anxiety
>Do you ever have tachycardia?
No, my resting pulse is 60. Have occasional palpitations that mildly concern the fuck out me.

>But if I was meant to come across this thread tonight, take away this: get potassium (from fruit, not supplements) AND magnesium (supplements) every single day.
I was actually thinking of doing just that tomorrow, I'll be setting off to the med and will be buying Magnesium. Thanks, user.

I think you should stay here in r9k jk.

>No, my resting pulse is 60.
Dude wtf. You're healthy as shit. Mine is like, 80. Holy shit.

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I think I had a minor stroke already and I'm only 27. I fainted randomly one day and had to be rushed to the hospital. My speech became slurred and I momentarily lost the ability to speak.

>My speech became slurred and I momentarily lost the ability to speak.
For how long? What did you feel like after, did you have any clear stroke signs? What did the doctor say? Were you rushed to the hospital or what?

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I have heart palpitations that occasionally result in me feeling light-headed, and I don't tell anyone because whenever it happens, I realize I'd be OK with it if I just died right there.

Haha just kidding.

A real madlad.

I was still in the hospital when I couldn't speak. There was just a period of 30 seconds to a minute where I couldn't talk. It was really scary. I was just starting to develop schizophrenia at the time too. I wonder if damage to the brain could cause psychosis?

The world is so full of hazards that I fail to understand how anyone makes it to old age. Every vision of the future I have is traumatic and violent. But maybe that's from partaking of one too many rekt threads.

>I was still in the hospital when I couldn't speak. There was just a period of 30 seconds to a minute where I couldn't talk.
Was your speech all slurred before and after that period? What did the doc say? Did he tell you it was a TIA (Transient Ischemic Attack)? What do you feel like now? Did you have high blood pressure, rapid heartbeat etc? Did you have palpitations right before the incident? Did you do blood tests?

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That's the first thing that come to my mind whenever I see an old person. How the fuck did they manage to survive 70+ years on this fucking planet, It absolutely baffle me.

>The world is so full of hazards that I fail to understand how anyone makes it to old age.
I also don't get how many people get to die from old age, but then again how many people have died early! We just don't see them and quickly forget about them.

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I didn't really do anything about it. I was already psychotic and deeply confused. I thought I had been administered a powerful sedative at the time but they hadn't given me any drugs at all. I felt really fucked up. I had had blood tests done around that time and everything was normal. Blood pressure was normal. No palpitations or abnormal heartbeat. Didn't ask the doctor about the speech problems or sedated feeling at all. I mentioned it later and nobody treated it like a serious issue.

Oh ok. Then I think it's actually best for you not to overthink this too much. Just take a lot of good care of your health (blood pressure, weight, good diet etc.) and live life as normal. Now your psychosis, is it really bad? When did it start? Have you been medicated for it?

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>Now your psychosis, is it really bad? When did it start?
It's pretty manageable most of the time. Have had it for probably the past ten years. It manifests as brief episodes of paranoia or ideas of reference. It might go away if my medication were increased but I would rather not be sedated any more than I am currently. I wouldn't bother with medication at all if not for a serious break with reality that lasted half a year. I think I have other schizophrenia symptoms. I struggle to keep myself motivated enough to get much work done. I really feel like a lethargic, useless sack of shit.

>There are times, specially at night, that it feels like my heart is just trying to tell me it wants to abruptly stop
This is anxiety. Period. If you don't have a family history of early stroke or heart attacks then it's unlikely to happen to you. If you dont have a severely high blood pressure such as systolic 200 and diastolic 120 then this is highly unlikely to happen to you.

>It might go away if my medication were increased but I would rather not be sedated any more than I am currently.
What is it that you take? Do the meds make you really tired? How bad is it? Do you also get brainfog from it?

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Once you're dead you won't care anymore, so why give a fuck in the first place.

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Do you take Seroquel desu?

>Once you're dead you won't care anymore, so why give a fuck in the first place.
I care. Fuck off, Epicurus.

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>What is it that you take? Do the meds make you really tired? How bad is it? Do you also get brainfog from it?
It's invega that I take. I am at the lowest effective dose. My psychiatrist doesn't seem to think I should be experiencing sedation at my current dose so I can only assume the fatigue is due to the negative symptoms of the illness or something else entirely. I don't think I have a sleep disorder. I think I may have had these problems for a very long time, but they weren't as apparent when I was in college and had a schedule that I had to follow. It's only now that I'm a NEET with 100% unstructured free time that I have begun to struggle. Or so I would like to believe. I may just be brain-damaged from the schzophrenia.

Well, enjoy your life in misery and sorrow. See you on the other side.

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Accepting one's death is the most sure thing you could accomplish. You shouldn't want to live forever, even if it were possible, it's not human.

Mortality is the means to our end, our suffering, our purpose.

>Invega
Isn't that drug injectable? Do you actually inject it instead of oral dosage? Have you tried other drugs? I know I'm asking a lot of questions but I'm actually curious. The funny thing is this exact same thing happened to me one day. A few days before the incident I had a Ritalin overdose mixed with propanolol and my heart went out of whack. Then a few days later I was just dining normally and I sensed heart palpitations and I just fucking fainted out of the blue and couldn't speak right (mental confusion). It was not like I was completely mute, but I couldn't talk in a normal fashion, it was all slurred. It was really weird.

>new home
Is that your house? How big is it? Looks pretty cool.

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Have you been having deja vu episodes at all? This is exactly how I started off before I remembered we were in a loop and started being able to recall events before they happened.

What are you talking about lmao?

Lmao

A while back I started having these panic attacks where I was sure I was going to have a stroke or heart attack soon. Then I started getting these deja vu episodes where it felt like everything I did I did before. Now I realize it's because we're in a time loop. When you die, you just start off being born as yourself again and relive this exact same life. Now I wouldn't even call what I have deja vu, since deja vu is in the moment and when I remember things, it's before it happens.

Don't worry op. Just one small slip and your carcass will be sliding down the tunnel of existence and you'll experience the most brutal breakdown of reality in the freshest excruciating experience available in the universe. The negation of your total being and a total fucking discarding of the frail organics that comprise everything you know and who you are. We all will be facing that soon. Just gotta buckle in and sit tight before the rock hard dock of death rips our assholes our.

>Now I realize it's because we're in a time loop. When you die, you just start off being born as yourself again and relive this exact same life.
So you mean like the Eternal Return thing? That'd be pretty rad. I'd love to live this same life infinite times.

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Yes, exactly like that. Nietzsche is a fag though.

So what is this "premonition" you have of dying early? Anything like I described or just a vague feeling that you're attributing to your heart feeling funny?

It's the heart thing.

Also, I remember clearly last year I had this same thought, but no heart problems. It was like, "something tells me I'm going to die in my 20s.", but I took it jokingly. Now it's starting to worry me.

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Well then you could just have a weak heart and should stop taking stimulants.

Plus if you actually do die in your 20s, the eternal return thing ain't so great, eh? If you die like this, this is how you'll always die. The eternal return sucks ass for most of us.

>Well then you could just have a weak heart and should stop taking stimulants.
Maybe you're right but I really really really want to do stimulants.

>Plus if you actually do die in your 20s, the eternal return thing ain't so great, eh? If you die like this, this is how you'll always die.
What are you talking about? It means I'll live forever and I'll repeat my childhood and the best moments of my life over and over again. What the hell do I have to expect in my thirties? I'd rather live my 20s over and over again. It would be even better than having to go through that old age bullshit, if I were to relive the same life over and over again anyway.

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