My whole life is just a string of failures that come from me trying to socialize and get close to people or get a girlfriend. Every single attempt of mine gets shut down and destroyed.
It's a comedy show where everything unfortunate happens to the main character. My life is "Everybody hates user"
I have so many green text stories to tell about my failures, so many embarrassing, awkward, autistic stories. And the worst part is I'm only 18.
It stopped being a tragedy and now it's comedy.
At least you tried user
>t. Fellow 18yo who never tried
We still do cool stuff kid self. Plenty of cool stuff. You see the future has all kinds of cool stuff like a Nintendo Switch. Steam. Tons of inexpensive games. A lot of really good anime designs. You don't watch anime anymore but they look really good.
It is actually absurd what kinds of unfortunate events occur to me while just trying to be normal and average.
All it takes is just 1 bad day user
Honk Honk
hey user, don't give up yet. my life was "everybody hates user" for a long time too but i finally figured things out to an extent and i even made out with a girl not that long ago. i'm 18 too. just keep chugging along user, good things will come your way eventually.
What did the clown meme by this?
>Try to be extroverted and build a social circle
>Wasn't awkward but failed
When I'm on one of those days where at night I just sit or lie down and cry about my life I have some days where I just break into manic laughter while crying.
I don't think there's much left to figure out I'm missing, I'm trying my damn hardest and it's just random unfortunate events and autism behavior that fuck me up
>autism behavior that fuck me up
i had that problem too. still do to an extent. you just gotta repeat the cycle of trying something, failing, realizing where you went wrong, and trying again with the new found knowledge. self-evaluation is the key to improving yourself.
There's nothing I did wrong user when, for example, me hanging out with a few girls gets stopped by fucking RAPE
And that one was recent
well i'm sure this is just a streak of bad events. i doubt this pattern will continue. just try to move on from all the bullshit that's happened to you and keep your head up to the best of your ability. it's better than reminiscing on your unfortunate past.
But it has been going on for 4+ years user. Every single time there's something that just goes bad or I fuck it up via autism or the other parties are jerks
I may not have been almost raped in that instance but I was the one that got socially raped
>I fuck it up via autism or the other parties are jerks
again, this goes back to the self-improvement cycle. it's clear that you have some problems socializing and the fact that you called other people "jerks" shows me that you don't know how to stand your ground. that's a problem in it of itself that you need to fix if you want respect from anyone.
I've been doing the self improvement meme for quite a while now but you can't improve your luck.
the luck is one thing, but you keep mentioning that you fuck things up "via autism". you can't change your luck, but you can at least try and fix the autistic behavior, which may lead to you ending up getting what you want.
I've gotten better with talking to girls, or at least I like to think so.. not sure because I don't get any ffeedback. I don't know if I'm improving because the only things I my self can draw conclusions from are the results, and there are none yet.
>When I'm on one of those days where at night I just sit or lie down and cry about my life I have some days where I just break into manic laughter while crying.
Somedays I have trouble looking people in the eye. It's like a bucket of shame gets poored over my head and all I want to do is distract myself with vidya and porn. All I want is for someday a psychologist to say that I don't have a disability and for it to be true. I would be able to finally think clearly.
I have days like this too user, days where everything feels off. Like an anime scene without the OST, like everyone is moving with lag, like no one knows where they're going, like everyone is empty and no one has thoughts but me
At least you have nice digits
a good way to tell is if girls smile around you, exhibit good body language and physically touch you. if they do two out of three of those things, you're doing something right.