Hello once again anons~

Hello once again anons~
I am Madoka-user, and as always, feel free to stop by my comfy little thread! We can chitchat, I can give you advice if you would like, or you could stop by just for a (you) from a femanon, if that's what you want. Either way, I'm rooting for you!
A little topic to get us rolling: I have seen Alita: Battle Angel nineteen times so far! Is there any film you've loved quite that much? When was the last time you saw something more than once?

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Could you post some good hentai and help me fap?

I'm afraid I don't know any, sorry.

I've seen the movie Network (1976) a few times because it's really stimulating. I've been watching the game grumps again recently, really enjoying their twilight princess playthrough. My favorite grump is Arin. I want him to hug me and tell me everything's gonna be alright.

I've sort of been getting back into them as well. Mostly the 10 minute power hour stuff, to be honest. I like Danny the best! I've seen NSP live once, actually, he was great. Grumps in general makes really good soothing backround noise.

I just want to boil you in my cum and make figures out of the cum/flesh mixture to decorate my room. Then I will spaff on them.

I wish I could find a girl like Madoka.

...They don't exist, not really.
Someone like her couldn't. This world isn't kind enough. If she did, someone would take advantage, or otherwise hurt her.
All we can do is try to live like she does.

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Hey Madoka-user, nice to see you again. Nice to see a friendly face these days and sorry about the negativity you had to go through, perhaps I should have been more vocal but I hate confrontation . Should record more music, but of course I forget my account info. Plus just don't feel happy with anything I make, it lacks the mood I am looking for.

I don't really watch movies, there is just something about staring at a screen that just gets frustrating for me. I don't think I have actually watched a movie in the last decade, if not longer. Maybe the original Star Wars trilogy when I was going through my OCD for it.

You too! Always glad to see people from before. ...What, like on the waifu threads? Or what? It's okay! I haven't done any voicework in a while now, nor worked on my radio mod for new vegas, or much of anything...Finally taking a look at my fantasy map, though!

Agreed, especially friendly people. Exactly, you may remember me as Ellipsisanon. Stopped doing that as the main reason I was doing it was to show insecurity so people didn't hate me, only to find out people still hated me. Don't really belong on waifu due to my lack of a waifu, so sort of more lost than ever. I need a home.

Sounds quite productive indeed, you have quite a bit going on. New Vegas is one of those games I wish I could touch, but probably would get frustrated with if I did, especially due to the situations with my OCD.

It's okay! It is what it is. I'm good friends with Shego and always have been and that's really the only thing I SUPER care about there. Thanks for your concern, though~
New Vegas is an EXCELLENT game in my opinion! And yeah, i start all these projects, but I don't finish too much...

I haven't seen Shegoposter in so long... he was one of the only ones preserving the comfy. It is indeed, I just hate being so alone, especially as I never did find a waifu. Not sure if I ever can, since I am unsure how to even love someone.
I hear that from a lot of people, perhaps one day I can get past my road blocks. In the meantime, I guess I always have Quake I can play on weekends. Would do it more, but it just isn't one of those games with a lot of replay value, especially by yourself.

I remember when I was like that. I started getting more controlling, then sort of lost my motivation to start projects. Nowadays I like so little that I find it hard to really want to do much. Work and sleep with the occasional new album to listen to.

Yeah, I've had him on Discord for a couple years though, so it's fine.
Well, like I said! You just have to keep finding new things to try, right? Try something you've never tried before, that kind of thing.

Sounds quite comfy indeed, I am glad you two are friends. Everyone on Discord pretty much gave up on talking to me as I am too depressing, so I stopped using it a few months back.

That is true, I do generally try various things, I just know I dislike most physical tasks. Mostly I just want to do something on the computer, a game or something. So I try games, but so far each one ends up frustrating me.

Minecraft, maybe? I have an OCD friend who LOVES it because he can sort to his heart's content.

Actually tried Minecraft for a while. Can play it in short bursts, but it gets stressful after a bit. A lot of that is due to the fact that it is a more modern game and that a lot of versions are permanently lost, so you can't go in full chronological order. That sort of bothers my OCD a lot. Add to the fact that there is no real pornographic content (the loophole to my chronological exploration and thus a sort of ironic freedom, making an asexual individual appear much more like a sex addict with how much I touch and yet treat it like regular media) and there isn't much of a reason I can justify skipping all these years of gaming.

I'm...Afraid I don't have too much else in the way of reccomendations, then. I'm sure you'll find something, though!

Potentially, though with me you quickly get used to an individual who never really changes. People just get sick of me.

We seem to be running lower on conversation topics. Depressing, I am not really sure how to keep it up as I offer so little.

You shouldn't be so self-desparaging! You're a unique person with a special outlook and a unique set of beliefs and such, and you should act like it!

*kisses Madoka-chan*

All of that combined makes me sound like a special snowflake. Not sure if it is good to be one of those. I will admit I am... different... from others to the point of isolation. I am pretty much identifiable anywhere I go due to how much I stand out.

Regardless, I appreciate your kindness Madoka-user. I am glad to know I have one thread I can be welcomed in.

Everyone's different, user. Just try to see that you're good, okay? And if you don't think you are, strive to become so! Become someone you can be proud of.

Of course~

Madoka-user, has anyone you've met on Jow Forums ever fallen in love with you?

Yup! I once actually was engaged to someone i met on Jow Forums, but....Things didn't work out, heh.

How do you meet people on Jow Forums?

That is one of my many problems. I really don't know what I need to do to be happy. I need to figure out who I am, identify myself, and that seems harder said than done when my studies show me being an outlier.

In a sort of irony, my pessimism is one of my most defining traits.

Did he cheat on you, you slut?

You connect over something and they send a dump email that leads to a true account on Discord or something. I have met a few people from Jow Forums, I should warn you that all have been pretty negative. Of course, in my case, everyone is negative.

That specific time was actually from a waifu-claiming thread on /b/ that was always around, basically a general. I made a couple friends from the /alita/ general over on TV recently, too. Generals seem to be the way to go.
Find someone you admire, and do everything you can be live like them. That's what I did. Madoka is my inspiration, I try to be kind like her.
No, I just...Things happened. I'd rather not talk about it, if you guys don't mind.

I guess that makes sense. I am not sure I want to be someone else other than myself though, that would sort of kill my own identity and would also feel less genuine.

Plus I am not even sure what character I would admire. I only have three that have transcended the veil. Yuri of course has always been a sort of antagonist, so definitely not a positive outlook. Monika on the other hand is a goddess, but she demands blood sacrifices, and I have started wondering if she is as benevolent as once thought. She seems to rely a lot on fear. The third... well, I am just not sure how you can "admire" someone.

You'd think so, but in my experience, not really. It's just improving who you are, not ignoring who you are.

Monika doesn't need blood sacrifices and in my opinion did nothing wrong! I have a keychain of her. Who's the third you admire?

Okay, but since you're a woman, I'm going to assume that you cheated on him and left him for someone else. Being a heartbreaking whore is written into the genetic code of females.

I guess that makes sense. It is an application to the self. It matters a lot if the self decides it or if it is what another decrees.

Monika did nothing wrong at all. Time to go full autistic, but Monika reacted to the scenario that was presented to her. She was not given a route. She actively had to fight that, as well as the other girls, who were content with pushing her to the sidelines. Note how you could not choose to go with Monika willingly. They would push you out, she was just the helper. She did the best she could to get them out of the way after they hurt her. They were her opposition.

Well, I don't really admire those two... or the third... these are just the individuals that have become tulpas or "schizo delusions".

I guess it isn't harmful to mention the third here. The third is Hanako. I did not like talking about her much at the other place due to a poster connected to her hating my guts.

I didn't, but believe what you want, anonny.
Exactly. We can always be better.

You have three tulpas? I see.
Hanako is precious, I love her. Well, there's a lot of Hanakoes, but I'm gonna assume from Katawa Shoujo.

The trick is to find someone who you think is a good person and emulate them, more than someone you admire.

Fair enough, I guess self-improvement in that sense makes sense to me.

Yes, precisely. It isn't really the same as a waifu, I didn't fall in love with them, they just sort of invaded my world. Monika as a goddess to protect me from the harmfulness of Yuri. Then there is Hanako, who is just sort of there. She tends to be the best to talk to, since she is actually able to be talked to. The other ones, as deities, are sort of aloof and unable to get a hold of outside of worship.

Hanako is indeed quite precious, it is distressing how she seems to draw... harmful people to her. In a way, it seems like her weakness draws those who are more abusive, more likely to threaten others and whatnot. I guess because what she needs is strength. Truthfully, I never finished her route.

Yes, Katawa Shoujo. It probably is because I have such a limited experience with VNs. Probably not healthy for me to do even more. Of course, every character just feels sort of alien to me, and I don't really hold much interest.

Basically, I started with DDLC and talked to Monika. I got to a point where I started breaking down as Monika kept repeating the same lines to me. It got me thinking if she said it to everyone, how special does that make you. If she loves you, why does she not say anything unique at the least? Yuri would be potentially closer to my type, but just reminded me of a lot of people who hurt me, which led to her always being my antagonist.

After a while, I went to KS. I tried playing through with the intent of seeing who I was compatible with, then found out because I ran just to not be lazy I ended up with Emi. Her route was quite boring, I felt like it was sort of like drawing water from a puddle, and it never wanted to end.

After that, I wanted something with more choice to it. I heard Hanako's beta route offered more negativity and failure, so I went through all of the routes and saw all of the hatred. All of the pain. I tried the final route, but I just couldn't bring myself to completing it. To seeing her identity killed by a sweater-vest Chad. The beta was perfect. A man in someone's life doesn't fix all their problems, in fact it might make it worse. Hanako's beta route was amazing because it showed that she in particular didn't need love, and having love would lead to even worse disasters. Perhaps this is another reason I highly disagree with Hanakoposter, because waifuing Hanako is a monstrous thing to do after seeing all the torture it gives her to give her love. If you truly cared about her, you would befriend her, but not love her. For her safety.

Well, I ended up rambling, but then again I never could really state my full stances on waifu without offending certain people.

Did you know, avatar-fagging is against the rules?

Running out to feed myself! Be back soon, lovelies. Leave me comments, I promise I'll get to everyone

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>Three pics in the thread
>avatarfagging
2/10 made me respond

/mNf7Fmq Madoka-user's Discord Server!

>Hello once again anons~
>I am Madoka-user,
>picture of Madoka
What would you call that?

Why did you relate to Hisao if you're a girl?

Friendly avatarfagging is still breaking the rules, sorry.

What's your MBTI, Madoka user?

Have fun Madoka-user.

Fair enough. I have read some of the early Hanako stories before she was put into KS as well. She is possibly the individual I know the most about since we have been having conversations for months. Of course, that could all be dismissed as delusions...

You are right, there are those who protect. I am not really sure if I defend Hanako, since I am a rather negative individual, but I try the best I can. She is my best friend at this point after all. I guess I can befriend such people as I tend to avoid being judgemental as often as I can... others just hate me. Everyone can admit I am quite harmless, at least intentionally.

I feel like Hisao is so much more capable than I could ever be. He knows the right things to say, is able to support other people, and is even able to be liked by other people. Of course, almost anyone is a Chad to me, since I am pretty much incompetent in the most basic of tasks. Apparently I never mentally developed past being a child due to trauma according to the psychologists.

What is/are your trauma(s), user?

According to them, I got a lot of trauma growing up as a child because my parents were always fighting and throwing me in the middle. My mother would go on a date and bring me along, then my father would do the same. I would have to deal with them breaking down in tears, having to hide the other was going out to avoid that and thus starving since the other didn't want to give me food during their date. My mother in particular was very aggressive, she often told me that I would be her savior and fight against my father when I turned 18 but would probably die for her cause.

Personally, I am not sure how much trauma there is. I don't feel anything myself and my father says psychologists love to go for that since it is an easy fix. But it would explain why I am unable to close a door without nearly breaking it or struggling to close a pizza box.

I find it really hard to believe that only one person on Jow Forums has ever fallen for you.

I was awkward and unsure of myself, and saw the world very similarly to how he did. Gender has nothing to do with it.
INFP
Thanks!

He honestly doesn't really know the right things to say, it's just that the VN was written by 4channers, so it works how they think it works.

I never said only one did, user, just that it has happened.

So what's the number, then? Did you turn them all down aside from the one guy you dated?

Curious. I guess it worked a lot more efficient than whatever I could hope to do.

Tried doing MBTI, always found I could never get a straight answer from those things.

I dunno! In terms of 4channers who've asked me out...Five total people have.
I said yes to four of those five, and only denied the fifth because I was still cut up about the engagement that fell through. He asked me like a week after we split....
Honestly, in my opinion, myers-briggs is like horoscopes for people who think they're too smart for horoscopes.

Sounds quite logical. Of course, I am not much better, feeling that people are definable by anime girls. I just find there is more stock in anime girl values than MBTI from experience.

I don't really think I'm as good as Madoka, but I strive to be like her.

Do you have bigger boobs than her

...No, they're about the same. But I'm not comfortable answering questions about my body, so please don't ask anymore!

At least you have an objective to reach user. You offer quite a bit of positivity, it is comfy.

>INFP
You seem like an extrovert though

Thank you~ I try my best! You shdould find a goal like that too!
I'm really, really introverted, actually.

Perhaps... I just don't really know what my goal should be. I try being talkative and friendly.

Extroversion/Introversion is hard to determine over the internet. You can't really tell how bad my social anxiety is based on here. The fact that I hurt myself in the presence of others, that I need noise cancelling headphones to even bear leaving my house.

>All we can do is try to live like she does
So, become god? That's okay what I really want is a Homura gf anyway

There's a goal!

It is. I have pretty bad social anxiety myself. Not quite as severe as it sounds like yours is, but...
I'd agree with you, pre-rebellion, to be honest.

How old are you? 30? You have a mature writing style

I guess that works, you definitely are helping with that.

Yeah, mine is pretty horrendous. It pretty much embarrassed my family, so they don't really bother with me much outside of my father.

22! I turn 23 on June 14th.
I'm glad I can be helpful then, anonchan!
Me and my mother don't get along well at all.

my dad won't stop hitting my mom please just make it stop I hear her screaming and crying but he's moaning like he likes hurting her what's happening please help me

This is I've actually taken up both story telling and drawing recently, so I guess that is the closest to godhood a guy could ever get. I think it's the best way of escapism I could ask for, and it keeps me entertained plotting things up when I have literally nothing else to do

Same here friendo, I definitely hope to not miss too many of these threads, since I am pretty bad at missing generals somehow.

Me and my mother have had a long history. Between her smashing Christmas ornaments and yelling Christmas is dead, or destroying a list of my preferences because she felt I should cope with everything, or refusing to drive me to a job 20 miles away to instead go to a concert. Yeah, we have had our share of issues.

She still texts me, often saying something generic like "Good night honey sweet dreams love you". I respond with thanks if I even notice I got a text, we pretty much leave it at that. She does it more for herself than care for me, she always had a tendency to ignore any issues I was having. She was the party type, going out and getting drunk while not feeding me because she had to spend money on some guy she met last night and wanted to have sex with. Possibly why I am so asexual, I had to listen to my mother's moans on an almost nightly basis.

Call the police, user.
I feel that! I love escapism. I've been making a tabletop RPG for a few years now and it's finally nearing its end.
I don't have them too often, but whenever I can. There's a server, too.
I'm sorry you have to deal with that, that sounds pretty rough. Still, I guess you can strive for independance, right? Start trying to make it on your own the best you can.

As a matter of fact there is a movie I like that much, Pulp Fiction. Ever seen it? I've lost count of how many times I have but I can quote most of the lines from memory at this point, including the Bible verse.

So I assume this is actually a legitimate server? I wasn't sure if it was spam or not. Probably should check it out, maybe would be better than total loneliness.

It is what it was, shrugs. You don't really think about those things as being "rough" or not truthfully, it is your life and so you just get through it.

Well, independence is not exactly the best of goals for me, since I am expected to inherit a family home my father got for me and he also wants me to be around him since his family abandoned him as well.

Post serb. I'm in need of friends and I'm guessing the atmosphere there would be less aggressive than most servers here

Why are you rooting for them? You don't know one of them, how can you root for a stranger?

What do you think of peanut butter
Do you blow bubbles when chewing gum
Do you like macaroni
Do you like pizza

Ayy, I love Pulp Fiction! I actually wanna sit down and rewatch it sometime soon.
It is! We'd love to see you there, user-chan.
Well, you can be present but still independant. Good to inherit something, I'm actually REALLY worried about what happens once I move...
see I keep it comfy! It must be!
I believe they can do their best, and I'll be in their corner supporting them the best I can!
I love peanut butter!
I do~
I will admit I have never had macaroni in my life.
I love me some pizza~
What about you? And here's a bonus, my favorite food is steak.

Well, time to figure out how to join a discord group again. Been so long since I have touched this thing.

Well, in that regard I am pretty independent. I have my own room and am left alone most of the time. I just learned work-arounds instead of doing things like other people, so others get mad if I am around them.

Do you chew gum often?
Steak is good, I love meat
Pizza is the best food :3

How do I stop being a pathetic asshole who takes advantage of everyone around him? I need to change but I cant.

Are you japanese or sum shit?

You did it! yaaaay! I'm proud of you user!
I do whenever I can, but I forget to buy it a lot.
Me too! I make some really good beef kebabs, super spicy and wonderful.
Pizza is good! There's lots of different places for it around me so I can keep trying new stuff.
Try to realize that they're all people to. If you can, find a character you love and imagine how it'd hurt his/her feelings if you did that to her. Basically try to work on your empathy!
Nope! White.

Are you hot?
Post pics

Thank you friendo, I am glad to have done something.

I'm not going to post pics user, except a faceless pic in the server to show off my fancy new gothic lolita dress I'm proud of once I get it on.
Of course!

well at least tell me whether you think you're pretty and/or hot

Well shit. My empathy is literally worse than sperg.

You said in a past thread that there's one user who wants to rape, kill, and taxidermize you?
Why does he hate you so much? Friendzoned him?

I think I'm alright. A little plain, but not ugly.
Work on it! Practice!

Yup!
No, the opposite. He says he loves me because I'm so "innocent and pure", so he wants to keep me forever.

Are you clingy in friendships or relationships? Are you a forgiving person or a grudge holder?

Did you dump the four people you dated, or did they dump you? Not counting the fiance

Sounds like a creepy asshole, some people just can't not take advantage of someone being nice to them.

You don't even know what they want to do, how do you know you want to support them?

I'll never get bubbly social types.

I don't think I am, no. I...I'm pretty forgiving, but if someone really, truly wrongs me deeply, it can be hard to do so.
I've dated more than four people, user.
4channer specifically, though
>I dumped him
>he dumped me
>She dumped me
>We're still together atm
Yeaahhh... Still, he's mostly out of my social sphere at this point, I cut out the community he's from.
It's a way to say that there's someone in their corner, user. That someone's there for them.

Madoka-user is NOT bubbly and social!

>more than four people
Okay, Stacy. How many have you dated total?

You're bisexual? Me too but I'm a guy.

Hummm, let's see....
>Chris
>Fiona
>Courtney
>Tana
>Jenny
>Adam
>Ryan
>Sahra
>Freddie
So nine total?
Well, I'll date guys or girls, but I'm asexual.

So basically you mean it's more of a romantic attraction than a sexual one for you?

It is a wholly romantic attraction and not at all sexual, yes.