Bartender's on a break, sorry tonight no drink, just feels

Graduating college and drinking wine and feeling a little conflicted for the first time. I don't really like anyone here and I haven't bothered with trying to get to know many but now I wonder if I should have. Future feels very uncertain and being a loner could be both a positive and a negative

only one of those that matters is your friends homes, bitches ain't shit, especially one that's just a crush, so I'll focus on that. What's been going on with your friends to cause this?

fucking hell sounds awful. Sorry to hear that. I know watching the one you care for with someone else is a gut-wrenching experience. And social events are always a shitshow without a SO.

New friends are always nice. But if this is just some going away thing I wouldnt be too bothered. Your studies are done and that's what matters.

meh the usual, im usually sad but not entertaining enough to keep people around, they get bored of me and ignore me.
yeah, im too much of a bitch to even tell her, shell refuse me anyways

The beast is on the loose tonight.. had to let him out

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She might refuse you but I promise it's better to take the plunge than to never have tried at all. Worse comes to worse your heart is broken (again)

unleash him, brother.

i know ill feel destroyed if that happens, im considering telling her then removing all my social media and isolating myself

I wouldn't self isolate, but for folks like us sometimes scorched earth response is the only response. But I highly encourage you to tell her instead of the slow death of the soul you will endure once shes beyond your reach.

im kind of already dead and isolated so thats not really that different..

if isolating is what you need to get through it, do it. Everyone copes in there own ways. Shame the bars so empty tonight.

Let's keep this dubs streak going. I think I'm mostly just anxious about my future. Not sure how to socialize with people after the schooling is finished

Good feels today

My oneitis went and made a surprise appearance in our mmo. He was afk the entire time though but he randomly responded while I was entering a mission

Still it made me weirdly happy considering we haven't talked since I downloaded the game

Socializing is both complicated and stupidly simple. I learned mine mostly while i was hospitalized and my traveling. Sometimes it's as simple as waving them over and having them eat lunch with you or making stupid small talk but its all pivotal around you making the initiative.

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yeah, quite empty, tried opening it earlier and the thread died in like 20 minutes.

Congrats user good shit maybe that's a sign of good things to come

eh, ill do what I can to keep it alive I always enjoy these threads and have become a regular. Better then most of the content on this board.

I sure hope so but I doubt it

what game are you playing and you mind talking a little bit about your oneitis? Sure he's a great guy

any music suggestions for the bar?

ill be honest anons, im closer to the abyss than ever, i dont know how long ill last

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how long has this situation been going on for with the friends and crush. months ? weeks ?

a couple months.
i've been depressed for a long time almost 8 years

Fuck it I'm putting on tunes, in a world of Trap threads the one goddamn thread for anons to share their feels shall survive
youtube.com/watch?v=cco-pCb0klU

>Fuck it I'm putting on tunes, in a world of Tra
im adding that to the the bar's standard radio rotation

fuck, long time to survive under the pressure. Do not cave brother. You can survive this.

thanks my fren i do appreciate it

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Sorry to hear you're not having a good day, bartender. Have a virgin Shirley temple from the user you gave one to yesterday. :)

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More tunes coming in. A Personal Favorite of mine. youtube.com/watch?v=XFlRxMJPM_0

i dont drink sorry, dont worry, these threads make me feel a bit better

*parks around back, pops the trunk and reveals several mass handles of generic vodka*
got u bois

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Thanks brother, got any moonshine in that bitch?

one of my favourite tunes for you guys
youtube.com/watch?v=JcYaAu01Q2Y

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fuck yeah, my man, I like it !

I don't usually listen to rap i have to be in a shitposting mood (DMX) or kind of a sad nigga hours type situation. Tonight is a bit of the latter so heres a good one for anyone who wants to listen. youtube.com/watch?v=BLISrFGPPXs

To my brothers and sisters who struggle with life, know your struggle is not in vain and that you are brave souls. They cannot break you.

Then out spoke brave Horatius, the Captain of the Gate:
"To every man upon this earth, death cometh soon or late;
And how can man die better than facing fearful odds,
For the ashes of his fathers, and the temples of his Gods,
"And for the tender mother who dandled him to rest,
And for the wife who nurses his baby at her breast,
And for the holy maidens who feed the eternal flame,
To save them from false Sextus, that wrought the deed of shame?
"Hew down the bridge, Sir Consul, with all the speed ye may!
I, with two more to help me, will hold the foe in play.
In yon strait path, a thousand may well be stopped by three:
Now, who will stand on either hand and keep the bridge with me?'

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What is the point of keep living if you think you are done and your life is finished?

My suggestion for the bar is youtu.be/rtDDd7rI240 but pretty much all the songs from youtube.com/playlist?list=PLoBi9S4En2T7DrISxxN5Xp_n-krZPdV7f are really good

You think thats bad?
>work at china joint
>bitch works at coffee place next door
>shes always all smiles when ever she sees me
>makes deep sighing noises all the time im around
>been going back and forth for a week or two
>finally ask for her number
>"no way user my man gets out of jail soon"
>fine go fuck yourself
>dont bother her for like a week
>not peep i say
>dont get coffee anymore
>bitch starts leaving her station to come outside and bug me and always flirting
>today is her day off
>shows up and pulls right next to my car
>go up to her window
>in a thin ass sun dress
>we start flirting again as she leaves
>"we aint going out user, i dont have to tell where im going

I know this bitch likes me what the fuck is her problem. Only thing i cant have a serious convo with her cuz shes always fucking with that dumb fucking smile and its starting to piss me off. Im gonna start ignoring her soon due to all her cock teasing. Im fooking fed up mate

wait until he gets out of jail and assert your dominance over her boyfriend, duh

stop falling for niggers/ coal burners

i have a shotgun in the closet, death is always 2 meters away.
im too afraid to die.
im afraid to live too.
one day ill be more afraid to live more than to die and that day it'll get out of the closet

Listen to this at 6:04, drinking my 4th drink of vodka, waiting for the sun to come up. Being alone and not going out since Thursday. Can anyone tell me what point has to live like this?

youtube.com/watch?v=3rPs79nmGYE

Well, I don't go out since before Thursday because I didn't go out on Thursday. So maybe I don't go out since past Sunday or so.

I just would like to know why I was born like this. Why I have to live with this fucked up brain. Why I couldn't be just a regular person doing stupid things and just living. Why I had to become this pathetic psychologically deranged person that I am.

You know what? I have thought a lot about what I did wrong and what things have made me like this but I'm starting to believe in destiny. Maybe this was my role here on this world. Maybe it didn't matter what I did, I was always like this, since born. Maybe God chose this destiny for me and I couldn't do anything about it.

god get you, i am a person who always tries his best with everyone.
im just always sad due to my mental illness and people dont like that
>trying to help a friend get past a shitty breakup
>try to keep him happy
>he ignores me
"user you are just always so fucking miserable"

I made a thread about it already, but I figure I'll share my woes here:
>dad doesn't think I'm responsible
>I've already proven that I am, had an apartment with a roommate and paid my bills with my shitty theater job
>he has no right to make me work for him
>yet here I am
>forced to work in San Antonio for admittedly really good pay doing a job I don't care about and I don't want to be a part of

I can't do anything about it now, but that's just the thing: I'd paid my debts. I have proven that I'm capable of living alone. Why, then, did I end up doing the one thing I promised I'd never do?

>i am a person who always tries his best with everyone.
Yeah, I'm also like that. The calm and peaceful guy that don't want problems. But you know what? I think this part of my personality comes from being a fucking coward, a very fearful person. That's why I always try to be at peace with everyone, to not have any problem.

>im just always sad due to my mental illness and people don't like that
Yeah, what people hate the most are pathetic persons, cowards and negative people. That's why I can't have any friend anymore because I tried having new friends after losing my friends from college but deep down I always knew that I will end up losing them too because I can't fix my brain and I'm a lost cause so I can create a false person that seems to be ok for a time, but eventually I can't do it anymore and then I disappear because I don' want them to be with a person so negative and psychologically destroyed like me. Because I wouldn't like to be with a person like that.

I bought a 12 pack of naturday and a 12 pack of bud light lemon tea because i havent had them before and wanted to try. naturday is pretty fucking good, would reccomend. bud light lemon tea SOUNDS good but its fuckin shitty, dont buy. anyway i hate my life, alcohol helps. 7 beers deep so far,

So your parent give you a job in his business?

barkeep's going to sleep see you tomorow

This porn addiction is getting out of hand. My 18-year-old cousin's prom was today. He's fat and ugly but he took this qt. I know he's gonna fuck that girl because he fucks a ton of girls. Yet I'm 24 and a virgin. And the thing is, I can't be mad because it's all my fault. The reason I've never had sex probably has less to do with my looks and personality and more to do with the fact that I've never in my life made a move on a girl. Porn is more comforting. Within seconds, the girl has her clothes off and I had to do nothing. I have no social life or close friends, not because I'm a bad person to be around, people seem to like me a lot, but because I'd rather watch porn than interact with other people. In the real world, when you go out and interact, it takes effort. And things may not go well. With porn, things always go well. Why go outside with friends and risk not having a good time when porn guarantees me a good time?

I'm at the point where I'm not even attracted to real life women anymore. I can look at them and recognize they're good looking but I don't have that same lustful urge I used to. I only have that for porn now. I haven't felt horny in years. I've had no urge to fuck, only urge to fap. I've turned myself into a pornosexual.

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Gents! You all seem so down today! How about a drink on the Saturday of the ol May 2-4. We need to pour liquor

Hey man you can always quit. I'm in the same boat as you, I've started having serious mental problems since I started watching porn. I've been trying to quit for over 2 years now and its so fucking hard but I really think it will be worth it. Lets start now and in a year we'll have left this shithole and be on our way to normal lives. Good luck user.

time to nofap dude, I can relate tho, I've never made a move on a girl in my life. I'm gonna be a NEET

>started counting calories
>added what i drank into myfitnesspal
I'm aiming for under 1800 per day, blasted past that in rumplemintze alone

O-okay. Just hand me a beer.