Sadness

what makes you sad on this day fellow robots

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Nothing to do, nothing to look forward to. It's all pointless.

I'm not passionate about anything. I just do things hoping they'll bring me joy but it's all a waste of time.

not having the confidence in myself to get better
even if i lost 80 lbs, got a job and moved out of my parents house, then id still be lonely with no gf and no friends. i cant get started on this either because im mega addicted to the internet and video games to distract myself of the fact i am a colossal fuck-up that nobody likes and nobody would ever seriously consider dating

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I just turned 20 yesterday and am doing nothing with my life while all my peers are working towards their future. My parents love and support and would do anything to make me happy,but I feel like I'm letting them down

idk I've just been like that since I was a kid, I just remember playing piano alone in my room when I was like 7 and feeling really sad for no reason I think that was the first time I noticed but I strangely also felt comforted because I knew it was going to be like this for the rest of my life

Any time I try to be optimistic I fall victim my own naivety. No matter what I do, I just find everyone, including the people I think I can trust, backstabbing and betraying me. I just keep receding from everything and everyone in my life, because I constantly find it difficult to trust people.

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You just can't trust people dude, go ahead and make friends but keep them at arm's length. Don't let any kind of intimacy be kindled, and never share your secrets with them.

waking up this morning after my repeated attempts to not wake up. How many drinks mixed with pills do I have to take ffs. All I ever get is a tummy ache. I'll be 29 next month with nothing to show for it. If anything was gonna happen for me it would have happend a long ago

poverty mostly. all my life I was poor, when I was a teenager I actually had friends but I never had the courage to bring one of them to my house out of fear and shame. family was poor and because of that I never really asked for anything, never tried to go on concerts or travel, that's why I get so confused when I read r9k feels, most of you only want a girlfriend and that didn't even went through my head for all my years of living. my positive atitude towards that always made me live though it but everytime I returned from school I got this feeling of emptiness and sorrow that's impossible to describe. now-a-days I'm not that poor but I feel clueless of what the fuck I'm gonna do with my life. being positive all the time I'm not at home makes me feel like shit when I come back to this shit, if sucks mate

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That I have the best life I could dream for and I still get anxious, angry and depressed over stupid shit

must be nice having an irrational depression and being a valuable person, instead of a legitimately terrible human being that everybody would be better off without

The girl I texted probably will never text me back. And I really love her and want to meet her so badly that I cry every night for her. It would be enough if we were just friends or only talk to each other. I can't forget her even if I am trying.

I get that side of the coin and chant stuff like that when stupid shit happens or my mind haunts me over said stupid shit but ultimately my mind and emotions demand I get embarrass or stress over nothing.

24 and pretty much set to remain alone forever. I am a complete loser and an abject failure of a man in every way except solely for the fact that I lift and take steroids and am pretty big. That's the only thing I have going for me in my life.

I'm 26, no friends, never had a gf, just live in a tiny studio flat on my own, and I have absolutely nothing to look forward to in life

you ever get that reoccuring thought that reminds you that youre dying alone and theres nothing you can do about it? It really scares me, more than anything. When I go I dont want to be alone I want atleast a single person there. life cant end the same way it draged on as

>no friends
>no gf
>far away from family which isn't complete anyways
>lost all my money
>about to fail college
>absolutely nothing to look forward to

Hypochondria is in full swing.

Been having nightmares about cancer and throwing up at night. I know the odds of me having cancer right now is near 0% but I'm still going to doctors.

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>be hypochondriac
>don't go to the doctor because I'm afraid of doctors
It's a vicious cycle

Liked a girl, she liked me back. Missed the signs then she disappeared. Told myself to stop being a oneitis cuck and I did. It felt good being able to just drop it.

She comes sliding back into my life. Im a bit pissed off at first truth bd told but I think what could go wrong and I decide to ask her out. First date ever of my laifu, find out she might be an ok waifu but act like a complete pussy at the end of it. Now I can't tell if her responses are lukewarm telling me to fuck off while being nice or not. I asked her out for a second time but honestly wouldn't mind to just call it a lost cause now and drink at home.

I did this to myself, my lack of experience and courage but it still hurts. It hurt for a while when she first disappeared, I hope it lasts shorter this time.

>afraid of doctors
why? I kind of like them

Where I live doctors always act pissy like you're stealing their free time, I hate bothering them
maybe it's a cultural thing

Got up early to get some overtime done at work, when i get a call that got want to give me overtime today.

The first doctor I saw acted that way, I had just 5 minutes with him before he dismissed me.

What are you worrying about user? I'm going to try get a biopsy tomorrow.

I had some swollen lymph nodes a while ago and was terrified of lymphoma. They shrunk back down after I stopped poking them for a few days though.

Must have been fighting off something you didn't know about, I swear lymph nodes tie with headaches for the most complaints from hypochondriacs.

I've been able to feel lymph nodes in my neck for 2 years and am afraid of some kind of slow-growing lymphoma. I have a persistent scab/scar in my nose and when I pick it the nodes kind of "burn", so I hope it's related to that and not cancer. The odds of me getting the kind of lymphoma I'm worried about is around 1% to start with, even lower considering my age, but I'm still losing sleep over the worry. Sorry for the blogpost I'm just really close to losing it right now.

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My life, and my whole being