>was a shut in for years, wasted my teens
>depression and anxiety
>depersonalized
>homeschooled
>probably have autism or am a schizoid
I see no reason to live, should I kill myself?
Was a shut in for years, wasted my teens
Aaron Barnes
Jace Lopez
Right there with you mang. I would have done it ages ago, I just can't justify it to myself yet.
Isaac Butler
Most people like you live a normal life after a while. I don't know what you should do, just bee yourself.
Juan Phillips
I'm kinda the same and I wanna know the answer to this question.
Sebastian Campbell
It's all about being yourself bro.
Grayson Anderson
I don't think those things wil stop you to be a great person so just live bro. I hope the best for you man.
Joseph Thomas
you definitely should kys. there is no hope for you.
ofc it will stop him
Andrew Martinez
What the fuck happens to a person's brain when he is a total hermit shut-in for too long? How does he fare intellectually?
Anthony Watson
It doesn't even feel like I was a shut in for that long because of the depersonalization which fucks up your sense of everything including time
Also the internet exists these days so it's not like you're 100% disconnected, and I have my family too. I feel fine, apart from the problems I already had.
Kevin Hernandez
I haven't left my house in 6 days. Gets boring and depressing sometimes but overall I don't mind. Vidya, movies, TV, music, it's ok. But if I went out now I'd be an awkward piece of shit. The existential questioning of my ways is always in the back of my mind though. I'll never be someone or accomplish anything but I can fantasize. I'll always be lonely.
Austin Adams
>6 days
dude... try around 7 years.
Parker Morris
>7 years
You know you're basically giving yourself house arrest, right?
Asher Richardson
Meh, I have no motivation for life
I don't know how normies do it, how they can care about anything. I have never really cared
that much about anything.
Josiah Powell
I mean, it is a pretty regular thing for me to be alone at home for several days straight. Occasionally though I go out to get some takeout or just go on a nightwalk by myself. I like being alone, to energize. It's not so bad being alone all the time. Until it is.
Samuel Torres
>I haven't left my house in 6 days.
I've left my house 3 times this year.
I dont know been shut-in for about 5-6 years now. All that I know is that I am probably schizoid as I dont feel the need to be close to anyone or have friends. And the one I do I can just go weeks with out talking to them and be like oh yea they exist dont they.
Also this depersonalization is a bitch. I cant tell you how long its been since I've actually viewed my life as mine and not just as an observer waiting to wake up.
Brayden Gray
Dude, you're WASTING YOUR LIFE. Get out of the house more? How agoraphobic are you? Just at least go take a walk everyday, leave the house to go walk on the block. It's good for mind and body.
Sebastian Fisher
When you say you haven't left the house, you mean like literally not leaving your property? You have gone out 5-6 times out of the house including for times taking walks on the block, you mean?
Austin Carter
Who invited this normie? Jesus Christ. Your bluepilled, passively judgemental advice is a disgusting negative energy this place can't seem to shake.
Cameron Brooks
your the real bluepilled one though.
Zachary Gomez
I know I'm wasting my life but it feels like a lost cause at this point, I have no internal compass like normies seem to have and everything feels meaningless. I'm too apathetic and unmotivated, there is no fire inside, there is nothing driving me. I have no real preferences for anything it all seems bland and completely meaningless.
Even if I had a "life" I would still be apathetic, it wouldn't change a thing.
Gavin Scott
>When you say you haven't left the house, you mean like literally not leaving your property?
Yes, I've not left my property but 3 times this year.
>You have gone out 5-6 times out of the house including for times taking walks on the block, you mean?
Dont assume that everyone lives in a city.
Ethan Anderson
>dude just get out of the house more
And do fucking what exactly?
I've been completely numb and detached for what feels like forever now. I can't cry, my laughs feel fake and give me a headache. I haven't had a real good cry since I was heavily depressed a couple years ago. I haven't cracked a real smile since I made that one girl laugh a year ago. Join the club.
Isaiah Hernandez
>And do fucking what exactly?
Walk, see nature. It will do wonders to your mind and body.
Jaxon Thompson
At least experience the world as much as you can before you decide you don't like it
Jaxon Taylor
I know when I didn't interact with people for months it had a negative impact on my intelligence, but It wasn't unrecoverable at least.
Ian Butler
I do. I go for walks all the time. But I still feel empty at the end of the day. I really wish I could cry like I used to, staring at the sunset. In such deep, cutting heartfelt way. Now my heart is like a stone. And I feel like my mind is too far fucked to go back to how it once was. It feels permanently numb in someway.
Eli Reyes
So you do get out of the house you dumbass.
Dylan Martin
Is this picture supposed to be of Tommy after he gets addicted to heroin and gets aids? Always reminds me of that.