Do you honestly believe in your life you will kill another person? And if yes, why?

Alot of people here are gonna kill themselves one day if that counts?

I fantasise about it from time to time but id be too much of a pussy to physically kill someone
If i had mental abilities or a death note id be a mass murderer
Id just write down names of all major politicians over the world for shits and giggles
I wouldnt even feel bad about it

I've taken a life before.

I spent seven years in the army and never fired my weapon outside of the shooting range. Got out, went to college and became a registered nurse.

One night I came into work and at the beginning of my shift I'm told that the patient for room 2 is on hospice care. His family just finalized the decision to cut life support.

He looked rough. Emaciated. His eyes were sunken and his skin already a pale sickly color. His ventilator drowned out most other sound in the room but adult siblings were crying and telling him how much they loved him.

I gave the man morphine and pulled off his ventilator mask.

He woke up.
I thought he was brain dead. He sits up weakly reaching out. His blind eyes open and he sticks out his tongue, dry from wearing the ventilator at high pressure for days on end.

And I just stand there calmly, aware of the situation but emotionally I am somewhere else. I fix my eyes on his EKG monitor so I don't have to look at the family. They're still crying and offering words of love and support.

I don't believe in God so I don't think I did anything sinful. But I can't stop thinking about how, what I did, was a part of a job. I did that for money. I ended a life... for money.

>Periods of extreme insanity
>Have a gun and proper gun training
>Smoke weed to mellow my nerves
>Always on edge
I'd be suprissed if didn't

You killed for money
Soldiers kill for money
Judges sentence people to death for money
You did nothing wrong man

Yes. I've always wanted to and feel like I might as well if I'm gonna become homeless and kill myself anyway. I don't hate anybody that much, and I don't want to seem edgy, but I've always felt some urge to do so. It's not a "look at me I'm so dark and evil thing", it's just something I want to do.

I suppose you've already turned this scenario around in your head more than I ever can, but I'd say you ended suffering. Regardless of why you did it, you eased his pain, and I think that's the best thing you can ever do for someone.

I don't think so, if I ever snap I'd just kill myself

Yeah. My boyfriends first girlfriend. She took his virginity and I cant have his children until I know shes dead. Just Larping!!

What for? If I have sufficient reason, yeah I could see it happen. But since I do not stand to gain anything no way.

Yes, because there's certain experiences I expect to inevitably go through life.
>armed service
>murder
>imprisonment
>PhD achievement
>exposure to exotic disease
>witnessing a nuclear warhead explosue and radiation evac.

you forgot to add
>Helping settlements

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I would join the British Army but they literally don't exist anymore...

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If the circumstances are correct and I'm pushed around enough I will not hold myself responsible for blanking out and murdering someone