What's the one thing keeping you alive on this ride?

I have a guaranteed way out, carotid artery compression
but it scares me so much, I'll be unconscious before I know it and that's bretty scary desu

Failed suicide attempt and acceptance that life will soon be over either way

Hope. As pathetic as it sounds. I'm still giving my life a chance to get better. Gotta wait until at least 30 before I say fuck it all

I'm almost getting my way out of being an incel. I just need to keep pushing and sometime in the future i will be getting laid like a Rockstar.

new anime seasons and i need to finish my manga

gym, pre-workouts, caffeine pills.
other than that no real reason to be alive.

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My plan isnt fully finished, I need the location of a specific cliff from some normalfag friends, also theres one person who kind of cares and I wouldn't like to see her down. Would be cool to see the world burn one last time like with the 10 year old stripper drag queen as well.

Hopefully finding a cute Asian in the future to live with me that's it live don't exist I have no family I'm only 21 and live alone so its the only goal I have otherwise I would be dead

Remembering that i chose not to aim for the head at the last moment.
It reminds me my will to live has not faded yet.

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The chance that I might get to survive past the Singularity and live forever

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Funnily enough, the same thing that has lead me to despair: scepticism.
I don't really believe in anything because I'm very self-aware of the limitations of our knowledge. This has completely torn my notion of self and made it very difficult to reach out to others.
Thankfully, I can also be sceptical that my current mind state and social retardation are permanent, which gives me a small amount of hope.

get the fuck out of this board brat.

I started going to gym 6 days a week just to get out of the house and made friends with some other autist there pretty gud

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I can sometimes better the lives of other people I interact with so I stick around to try help them not have a shitty life. Also I think the world is going to face some close to apocalyptic event soon and I wanna see it

Books. And my dog.

The fact that I'm dying anyway really soon

good job, i've been lifting for 5 years and never made any.

the fact that somehow just like how bad shit happened to me randomly, good shit might happen too
starting to lose hope though and I've made a pact with myself that if by 30 I'm still a lonely jobless virgin I'll kms